Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

"--certainly!"

……

In the new day, Mei Raiden behaved so naturally that it was almost impossible to tell that the girl had been bullied before, and was hurt to the point that she was afraid of other people's kindness and tried to escape from everything.

Everything developed just like yesterday, they chatted and complained together, or maybe Jiang Cheng simply acted as a trash can, using his instinctive words for dissuasion, words that were used by people with heavy, melancholy and sadness, to lure the girl to open her mouth and pour out all her complaints and dissatisfaction.

The second day, the third day, the fourth day... In the jungle, on the grass, in the gorgeous campus, time passed by minute by minute. Every day repeated the same life, and every day brought different experiences.

Quietly, Mei Raiden has become accustomed to life with Jiang Cheng, knowing that there will be someone waiting for her on the lawn after class. Even if her scribbled table is seen, books are thrown downstairs, and she is blatantly bullied and insulted by others, it doesn't seem so unbearable anymore.

Just hold on, hold on until the get out of class is over, hold on until you can be with Jiang Cheng. Persistence can make numb endurance become bearable. When there is hope, suffering can become acceptable.

Perhaps it is because there will always be light at the end. No matter how dark the surroundings are, no matter how unwelcome others are, even if you will be scolded for simply being seen, you can always believe that someone will join you in the jungle to look for you.

Perhaps it is because of this that the girl has projected all her expectations, yearnings and hopes onto one person, that she becomes increasingly restrained during conversations and dares not speak of her own experiences.

All the past must be hidden, and the hurt suffered now must not be talked about.

——Because I don’t want Jiang Cheng to see me in such a miserable state.

——Because I don’t want Jiang Cheng to see me being incompetent.

I can endure being rotten in the mud, I can endure being bullied and hurt by others. Even if I face their ridicule, I can wipe the table clean, throw away the shoes in the shoe cabinet, change my clothes by myself after being splashed with water in the toilet, and continue to go to school as if nothing happened.

These are obviously acceptable.

Obviously, I don’t have any strange emotions now.

But only after meeting Jiang Cheng, only after meeting him who cares about her and worries about her, all the grayness was given color, and the things that she could once ignore were now shrouded in shame.

Yes.

I can't stand it anymore

She couldn't stand Jiang Cheng seeing her miserable appearance, couldn't stand seeing her clothes getting wet, couldn't stand Jiang Cheng seeing her desk being scribbled on and the shoes in her shoe cabinet being nailed by others.

Ah... Rather than being unable to tolerate the things that were once acceptable, it would be better to say that I cannot accept that it was actually Jiang Cheng who saw all of this.

It's not just the inexplicable sense of shame, but also that if the boy saw it, he would definitely not be able to help but try to stop it.

That way...

They will have a bad relationship with me because of me.

Even if she got home a little late and would be run into by those classmates who always liked to bully her, even if she could avoid them by simply asking to separate from Jiang Cheng earlier or later, the girl chose to bury it all deep in her heart.

We must not let Jiang Cheng find out about all this.

We must not cause any trouble to Jiangcheng.

……

PS: It has recovered a little during this period, and it seems that such updates will be resumed in a while. With such a slow start, only 4000 updates per day are indeed a bit too little.

Reality: When the thunder breaks the sky: 153. Raiden Mei: Jiang Cheng...who are you looking at? [7k6]

Everything the girl experienced was indeed as the boy had said. It was strange from the very beginning. She didn't even need anyone to say anything. She could figure out the problem as long as she was willing to think in that direction.

The bullying we receive is unreasonable, inappropriate, and incorrect. What we should do is fight back and confront them.

Even if she knew, what would it matter? No matter what, the girl didn't have any courage in her heart, and she couldn't even raise her hand or refuse all this.

The girl who heard the correct practices from Jiang Cheng but was unable to try them out would only feel more and more inferior.

The more you are bullied, the less courage you have. The less courage you have, the less able you are to resist. The less able you are to resist, the more you will be bullied.

Any inner collapse and almost pulverized destruction is not an accidental event. It requires a persistent and unchangeable vicious cycle, which forces the person involved to repeat the cycle indefinitely even when he knows it.

People who have been bullied from the beginning will never learn to fight back, just like a baby elephant tied with chains. Even when it grows up and becomes a big elephant, it will never step out of the circle that has bound it since childhood, because all the spikes have been broken, and only the remaining fragments are left to hurt itself in its heart. Even if it has the ability to break free, it will never have the determination to break free.

If Jiang Cheng saw me like this, he would definitely be very disappointed.

Being told what to do, yet being unable to do anything.

and so……

Mei Raiden chose to conceal the truth, and acted like a coward who only knew how to fight among herself, deceiving the only person who cared about her.

I am a complete and utter rotten person.

Maybe I deserve to be bullied by others because of this.

At least before the lie is exposed, I can still shamelessly enjoy this warmth and stay with Jiang Cheng for a while longer.

……

"We have already introduced the first three campus buildings that Qianyu College uses the most. Now we only have two more complicated buildings left to complete."

"what……"

"so fast……"

The girl bit her lip lightly, and only realized how quickly time passed when she opened her mouth. Her eyes dimmed unconsciously, and her originally overflowing emotions seemed to be extinguished by the cold wind.

Unknowingly...

Has a week passed?

Time flies so fast, I never felt this way before.

Today I just walked through a few floors, and in a crowdless situation, I avoided strange looks and introduced a few places that are usually considered unpopular - places that I was forced to find because I was excluded in the past.

I did these trivial things and didn’t even notice the passage of time. It was as if I had just met the boy in the last second and the bell rang in the next second, announcing that this happy time was about to end.

After countless times of being looked at with accusatory eyes, spoken rudely, and shown ill-disguised malicious behaviour, such as putting nails in shoes, smearing paint on desks, and taking out trash in closets, time always seemed to be exceptionally slow. No matter how much one longed for the bell to end, it seemed as if the rhythm was deliberately dragged out by someone. It was not until one's spirit almost collapsed and emotions were suppressed to the extreme that a merciful decision was finally made, giving the prisoner a glimmer of hope.

But at the moment of happiness and beauty, dusk always comes so quickly that we are even intoxicated by the beauty and cannot extricate ourselves, until a red mark of sunset is left on our arms, and then we belatedly realize the time.

in case……

It would be nice to stay in Jiangcheng for a while longer.

Being able to provide a little companionship is already an experience like a daydream. Any unnecessary thoughts should not and must not appear.

"That's the forest attached to the school. It is said that there are indeed some small animals in it, some of which were only special products of Changkong City in the old days."

Even though the realization in her heart sounded good, the girl had already unconsciously included some things related to the school in the scope of her explanation.

……

Chiba Academy...

Are there so many things hidden?

So many interesting things are overlooked.

Before, I only went between the dormitory, school and the cafeteria, and I had no idea about the good intentions of the aristocratic college in cultivating your temperament. I'm really sorry.

Walking on the soft and moist grass, leaving your own footprints in the soil, the flowers bend in the breeze, and a petal of the flower sways in the air, showing the lively beauty of the butterflies that have not yet woken up.

Jiang Cheng gazed at the magnificent teaching building, and under the guidance of Raiden Mei, he explored the campus where he had never stepped even a single step.

Judging from the configuration of infrastructure alone, this place is indeed worthy of the title of aristocratic academy. It is at least countless times better than the academies in his memory with all square buildings and endless sounds of reading.

The most eye-catching teaching building has a majestic appearance. It is made of smooth marble, pure white, and has almost no flaws in its design. It is enough to make anyone see its solemnity and magnificence at a glance. The reliefs on the facade and the exquisite patterns and decorative patterns carved on the columns have at least reached the level of aesthetics.

The choice of wood, which is unique to Far Eastern-style architecture, is also good. After carrying a large number of people for decades and experiencing ups and downs, it still has no obvious defects. Space has been reserved for defects and mistakes in advance, and people who don’t know much about it may not even find any problems at a glance.

The buildings inside the school are basically as stylish as this one, and most of them can even be described as being kept dilapidated as much as possible, with only a large amount of money spent on daily tidying up.

Now, a week has passed since the end of the simulation, and without realizing it, I have been exploring this academy with Raiden Mei for a long time.

Although the extent of the adventure is a bit too small compared to what I experienced in the simulation, the daily dull life is just right for the daily routine in school.

To be honest, it's nothing.

The teaching staff is totally incomparable to that of Fire Moth.

No matter how noble they are, they are ultimately limited to being just a school. Whether it is buildings or resources, they cannot even provide services for the organization in their memories.

But unlike the fire moth in the simulator, this one is truly real. What he saw, heard, stepped on, touched, and even the girl following him were all real.

After having a big dream, a drunken, real simulation beyond reality, only real things can suppress the influence of the dream on oneself, so as not to be trapped for a lifetime because of those unreal things.

At least don't let yourself become the person who regrets his whole life. As a time traveler, if you can't stand just one simulation and can't help but become overly obsessed with the simulated world and people, it's too embarrassing to say it out loud.

Before the boy was tragically beaten into ketchup, he had also seen works about simulators. The protagonists in those records would not be affected in any way after a large-scale simulation and would go through their entire lives intact. It would still be like playing a game, or even worse than playing a game, because some games would also bring sequelae to people after completing them.

Not only did their moods, personalities, hobbies, etc. remain completely unchanged, they were not even trapped by the lovers they met in the simulation.

No matter what you have experienced in the simulation, it doesn’t matter. It seems that the simulation, which has no realism at all, is just a disguise.

Jiang Cheng actually really wanted to know how those people did it, how they could remain so calm and composed after experiencing such a turbulent life.

If he could do that, he wouldn't be unable to sleep in the middle of the night.

Because of two people who have been dead for 50,000 years.

Because in fact, no one knows him at all.

……

Jiang Cheng took a deep breath, and tried to force himself to suppress once again this emotion that had been suppressed countless times, but would only overturn countless times and would only create a whirlpool and stir up even bigger waves if it sank into the deep sea.

This is bad.

Very bad.

If you can't let go of this emotion, then the simulation itself becomes a thing where the burden outweighs the benefits. The threshold to survive in a collapsed world is very high, but once you pass the threshold, the road ahead will be broad.

Theoretically, as long as you get through the first simulation and get something that can be used for the first development, you can completely let it go according to the development of the plot.

There are actually many ways to become stronger in this world. As long as you don't pursue the strongest and are not completely untalented, ordinary people won't be too desperate.

There are many ways to prolong life, and most of the dangers actually only apply to ordinary people. People with a little strength can survive.

Collapse will inevitably be overcome, and what it points to in the end is hope. The so-called Stigmata Plan is nothing but a lot of noise and little action, and the last global wave will also be shattered. The existence of the Great Sage Qi Tian will make this world extremely safe, and Tianming after Otto's death will not have to worry about being knocked unconscious because of his own uniqueness, and then being used as a cheap experimental subject - at least in the plot that Jiang Cheng has seen, Tianming's appearances are basically all in human experiments.

His current strength is more than enough. Even if he abandons the Key of God, as long as he is willing to run away, his talent, which is not yet a complete genius, is enough to get a good position in Anti-Entropy, and even become the logistics support for the protagonist group.

Even if you don't want to be lonely, you can still join the protagonist group of the second part, and rely on the fighting power you have already survived to fight in the novice village. You may not be able to make it to the end, but in most cases you can save your life.

However, given another chance, Jiang Cheng was not willing to live until the end of the main storyline and watch everything happen again.

I have read these stories before as a player and as a captain. It would seem too incompetent to read them over and over again.

Anyway, I have become friends with Raiden Mei now, and it is impossible to kick away this autistic girl who has begun to transform into Velvet.

Jiang Cheng put his hands behind his back and stretched, allowing his body, which had been strengthened unknowingly, to stretch its muscles and bones and bask in the spring sunshine.

"I have to admit that Qianyu Academy is pretty good except for the fact that most of the students there are not that good. Although the essence of a school is to impart knowledge and teach people how to be a good person, if you can't even grasp the core, don't hire them."

"Jiangcheng..."

Mei Raiden bit her lips lightly, her head lowered almost to the point of being buried in a chest that was older than her age, but she still raised her head reluctantly, taking in everything about the young man who was gently bending over to straighten his muscles in her eyes.

It was getting late, and the sunset was about to fall. The clouds in the west were painted a fiery red, as if they were burning. Looking over, Jiang Cheng was the only one walking forward, facing the flaming light.

The black school uniforms are all designed by senior designers. The clothes fit the body perfectly and occasionally flutter in the oncoming wind.

Just like Sakura in that book, she would appear at the critical moment in an inexplicable way and is now in the sight of the heroine.

……

"if not?"

"Could it be that the school teaches cattle and horses?"

Jiang Cheng waved his hands towards the sunset and turned his head. The twilight light spread along his profile like raindrops on an umbrella. His dark blue eyes did not even remember or retain the shadow of a classmate from the same school.

Like those passers-by who are not even mentioned, even if they are a whole, they are just trash who act as villains and bully others. Even if you waste a minute or a second on them, any emotion in your heart will be a loss-making internal friction.

The only ending for those people is death, because unless he takes Raiden Mei away now, the Third Great Collapse will inevitably come in Changkong City, and those brainless people will inevitably die from their own bullying.

"Anyone in the world has the right to hate the daughter of a prisoner, except as a classmate, only as a former friend. People like this who hide away at the speed of light when something happens or even add insult to injury are not worthy of being called drinking buddies. They are just a bunch of flies."

"Isn't it a good thing that they don't hang around you? Because flies only hang around garbage, and beautiful flowers are something they hate."

"This matter itself is outrageous, so don't take it upon yourself to make yourself a criminal. You have to know that you are absolutely the one who is not at fault."

"Please don't feel sorry for yourself, think that you don't deserve anything, or think that doing something that is necessary will make others unhappy. Emotions are never something that can be consumed at will."

"Everyone can doubt Mei Raiden, except Mei Raiden herself."