Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

'Ah……'

'coward. '

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Reality Chapter: When thunder breaks the sky: 163. Mei: At least... I can be considered a friend.

"Okay, okay, let's end this meaningless chat. We can't spend all our precious time chatting. I finally left the campus and came to this street that seems to be from the last century. If I can't feel the atmosphere here, I will be very disappointed~?"

Jiang Cheng retracted his playful hand, released the sunlight that seemed to be blocked and grabbed, raised his fingertips in front of himself, stared at the girl with his dark blue eyes that symbolized stars, and the slight curve of his mouth could make a genius with low self-esteem put down everything at hand in an instant, and rush over like a loyal dog seeing its master, breathing hard.

It has become part of her instinct, as if she had personally participated in the simulation. She has mastered the skill of provoking the mood of a girl who is depressed, prone to self-pity and easily falls into inferiority.

Accepting the invitation was not just a matter of taking on a new life; it was a journey in which both parties had to change themselves.

A one-sided self-destructive yandere is a very scary thing, but if both parties like each other, then yandereness is a match made in heaven.

To stay with someone who has low self-esteem, you need to pay attention to their emotions at all times and make sure your behavior does not become a weapon of self-harm.

We should cherish it as if it were a treasure, but at the same time not be too distant for fear of hurting it - what we ultimately achieve is just the right distance, just the right presence, and just the right comfort.

Even though she couldn't fully concentrate and achieve the best results due to many reasons such as her mood and goals, it was more than enough for Mei Raiden, who was not as severely autistic.

Regardless of the fact that this ability, which can even be called instinctive in nature, seems to be unknown to its owner, in response to the young man's invitation, there is only one thing that Raiden Mei can do - she nodded without hesitation while deep in thought, and a happy agreement came from her lips.

"Okay."

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We walked down the street in a serious manner, spent a lot of time walking and chatting, crossed the remote and deserted areas, and finally arrived at the core of the street, which had the style of the last century.

Perhaps it was because the changes in the streets were obvious enough, and I had already begun to accept them during the conversation, and suddenly stepping into things from the previous era, the shock I felt was not as great as the neon brilliance that burst into my field of vision.

All kinds of snack stalls began to bustling about their business, as if they were izakayas that had traveled through time from the golden age of the Far East in the last century, emitting a boiling aroma that aroused the appetite and made one's mouth water.

The neon lights, which have been gradually eliminated because of their overly bright colors, excessive interference with the visual field, and high pollution performance, are no longer suitable for high-tech advanced metropolises. They have also retained their last glory here. Even in the daytime, they are colorful enough, leaving no doubt that they will be brighter here at night than in the daytime.

The customers who usually come here for nostalgia and are stuck in the past era are middle-aged or even elderly grandpa and grandma. The frequency of white hair appearing here is almost like that of a comic convention in Tokyo.

The two students who appeared here seemed out of place, lowering the average age of at least 40 by several digits.

"This place looks like something out of a documentary. Even the clothes are glittering with gold and jewels. Is this the Roaring Twenties?"

Jiang Cheng still remembers that before he traveled through time, he was still playing a game also produced by Xiaomi - Honkai Impact 3rd. The latest map in the game was in the golden age of decadence and extravagance. Pinocchio used this dreamland as its background, even though the real source material was the Roaring Twenties in the United States.

However, in actual performance, apart from cultural differences, the basic core is the same, that is, absolute madness and absolute fanaticism.

It’s just like that magical theme song that became popular all over the Internet not long after it was released.

——Sleepless night.

Alcohol, coffee, stimulants... Don't waste your precious time sleeping. Keep singing, keep indulging yourself in luxury, spend the money in your hands like waste paper, and exchange it for a prosperous and decadent life.

In a sense, it can even be called madness, absolute rebellion, absolute rebellion, absolute extravagance, absolute luxury, which makes the hormones in the brain expand and expand again, as if a person who is already extremely sleepy is given a shot of stimulant and then continues to join the party at the dance.

Thinking has become less useful, and wisdom has been consumed by drinking. Only simple enjoyment and enthusiasm remain, and people indulge in this every day until a cool breeze blows and wakes people up on the open-air stage.

After going too crazy, all that was left was sleepiness. The physical fatigue was difficult to suppress, and in the end, all that was left was a mess and debris everywhere.

This kind of dreamlike life is ultimately only short-lived. It may last for an entire era, and may influence people of an entire era.

Even if time has passed, even if the dream has ended, even if the stimulants and alcohol in the body have worn off, I will still miss the passion I once had.

It is difficult for people in later generations to imagine the madness of that time. Only an era with the most perfect social dividends, where one can make money just by lying down, can create pure madness and fanaticism that does not require any extra thinking.

I didn't expect that a typical technological metropolis like Changkong City would have such antiques, similar to the courtyard houses and alleys in Beijing.

"what……"

"As long as you like it."

It was not until she saw this scene that Mei Raiden dared to let her selfish and uneasy voice rise slightly, trying to describe this scene of the last century as carefully and in as much detail as possible.

“Isn’t the style here very different from that on the street?”

"As a place for nostalgia, this is the last piece of it left in Changkong City."

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As a product that retains the glory of the golden age, in the new technological era, the neighborhoods have not been demolished because of the nostalgic concept of some old things. People who stay here can find some familiar places, as if they have returned to their own world, an era of decadence and luxury, when all they needed to think about was pleasure and money was like garbage everywhere.

As an old thing that has been discarded and cannot keep up with the current times, it can only return to its own place and choose to be a coward, immersed in sleepless dreams like before until it dies one day.

Although this is also the only place where a person named Raiden Mei can go after she is suddenly rejected by the whole world one day, the only place where the people she hates can go.

what……

Nostalgia or something...

It was the biggest lie from the beginning.

The reason they come here is simply that these uncles and aunts usually don't pay attention to the latest news and don't want to be belittled as the offspring of criminals.

The so-called bringing Jiang Cheng to see Changkong City and choosing this place to introduce places that are not usually seen are all completely false lies, and they are full of selfish motives from the very beginning.

The flashing neon lights, the crowds of people who would actively avoid women after getting drunk, and the colorful splendor made her seem to forget for a moment that her father was sent to prison for financial fraud, that she was hated and despised by everyone, and that she was bullied and hurt.

In most cases, no one blames her, no one insults her, and no one even recognizes her - no one cares, which is a very miserable thing. It means that even if she is missing, no one will mention her, no one will look for her, and she will not even be able to cause a ripple in other people's lives.

If you can't find people like you, you can only stay alone and hide in a dark corner by yourself. But if you have to compare it with being hated by everyone, not being cared about may be a good thing.

These scenes from the previous era, everything the girl had never experienced since she was born, gave her the feeling of being in another world, as if she could temporarily escape the pursuit of those people as long as she got here.

Whether you are a coward or an ostrich, you can only hide for a while and bury your head in the soil like trying to cover up your mistakes.

No need to think about your identity, no need to think about your past, no need to think about your future, forget everything, discard everything.

Even your father can be ignored temporarily, and you can hide in a dark corner wholeheartedly, or find a place to work, a place where you will not be discriminated against by others.

The only thing that may not be so perfect is that when others are intoxicated with glory, you can only stay in a dark corner, watching others hugging each other enthusiastically and enjoying the enthusiastic chatting with companions and friends, you will feel a sense of unnecessary loneliness.

It is as if when night falls, you lie on the lawn and look at the moon in the sky, intoxicated by the beauty of the bright full moon, its flawlessness so close at hand, its holiness so far in the horizon. You will subconsciously stretch out your palm, mistakenly thinking that you can also touch that beauty, and that there will be a moon that belongs to you.

However, this was at night, and there would always be a gust of cold wind blowing over, which would make me shiver all over and make my mind retract the desire that I shouldn't have.

The world is truly magical and changeable. Even something that once made you shiver in the cold wind just thinking about it may one day be yours.

Loneliness and the like have become a thing of the past since more than half a month ago.

already……

It won't be that cold.

Mei Raiden carefully looked at the boy beside her with the edge of her eyes. The breeze blew through the ends of her hair, raising it in an elegant arc. Even though her face was covered in the magnificent neon light, she seemed to be walking in a bush of flowers without a single leaf touching her. She did not belong here. The cold, lonely yet warm aura and gentle posture were made to look a little inhuman by the luxurious light.

At least there are still people who don't reject this place.

At least there was someone willing to come here with her.

Even though it was not herself that was reflected in those blue eyes that were like the starry night sky, and even the dazzling golden light could not cover it up in the slightest, that unknown figure appeared in the pupils again and again, surrounded by the reflected stars at the highest link, completely enveloping and covering the humble girl like a superior substitute.

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——I am a lower-level substitute.

What we see in the boy's eyes is a result that he is unwilling to admit.

The result of the unreserved display in that blurry figure.

A person named Raiden Mei is most likely a lower-level substitute for someone else. All of her personality, hobbies, and figure are just imitations of that individual. She is a completely incomparable substitute, and even her existence will be covered up.

what……

never mind.

This inexplicable feeling is not necessarily real.

It is even very likely that it is still the result of self-righteousness, because at some point the ego will explode again, which will only trigger negative emotional thinking and create a feeling of wanting to escape, run away, and hide.

Maybe it was an illusion, maybe it was a trance, maybe it was the result of self-pity again, all of these were possible, after all, it was not the first time.

In a sense, after spending more than half a month with the boy, this was the only thing that Raiden Mei was aware of that had changed.

Don't trust yourself.

Can't trust myself.

In most cases, the voice in your heart can be denied, and you can only choose to believe part of the feelings that come purely from your heart.

This is not a new denial of self, but rather the result of choosing to face a part of oneself after having a little understanding of oneself.

It is precisely because we choose to face it that we can see and accept it, so that we can summarize some principles and follow these rules in life.

If I chose to believe in myself every time, then the chaotic voices that suddenly appeared in my heart would have led me to become a murderer. I would just kill anyone with a knife as long as they didn't please me.

Transform yourself into a universal psychopath, a lunatic, a pervert... Even Jiang Cheng will undoubtedly look at me with disgust.

If you have to choose between heaven or hell between the worst and the best, then why not choose a slightly more neutral possibility?

Why do we have to assume the worst?

Jiang Cheng he...

Isn't it already by my side?

The slender fingertips carefully touched the back of the boy's hand. The skin, which was slightly cold due to the wind, seemed to be beyond the touch of humans. Jiang Cheng, who sensed that he was touched, turned his head and faced the neon lights. His somewhat lonely and cold posture also warmed up with a gentle smile.

Yes.

No matter what, the boy stayed by my side, came with me to this place that no one wanted to go, and we even touched hands.

Even if Jiang Cheng really knew someone else, that person wouldn't be able to stay with him in Changkong City.

Regardless of whether I am a lower-level substitute or not, I am the only one here.

At least……

I can be a friend too.

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Reality: When thunder breaks the sky: I'm taking a day off because I have a slight fever.

There was a sudden wave of heavy rain here out of nowhere, and the classic weather forecast showed no indication of it, it was cloudy. As a result, I was soaked as soon as I went out. The wind was blowing so hard that I almost flew up. Now I am lying in bed half dead, and my head is dizzy. I will make up for it tomorrow, so please allow me to play for a day.

This time Mei's plot will not be so clichéd. It can only be said that although the degree of distortion cannot cause direct deaths like in the simulation, it is definitely not a low level. There will be a super development in the future, and the first battle plot of the book will also come.

You should have also felt that the communication between Mei and Jiang Cheng is not a steadily increasing affection, but an aerial loft built on a toothpick. It may collapse with a slight push. The more luxurious the building, the more ruins will collapse.

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Reality Chapter: When thunder breaks through the sky: 164. Mei: Is this too...perverted?

Perhaps it is because they have been together for more than half a month, which is enough to dispel the panic in their hearts and to root the next sufficient concept. No matter how worried a person is, he cannot deny what has happened around him.

If blindly falling will only lead to the worst outcome, there is no need to always think of the worst and demand the worst outcome.

If you don't even have confidence in yourself, it will be annoying to watch. With this mentality, you will definitely not be able to do anything well.

Compared to this, what is more important at the moment is...

"--What's wrong?"

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Jiang Cheng, who was touched, looked at him in confusion. He didn't know why Raiden Mei touched the back of his hand so carefully, and even why she had been touching his hand intermittently since before.