Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Ahhh...

Is this the feeling called peace of mind?

It is really……

It's so wonderful!

The flawless skin that had been slightly pale in the wind and melted away all shyness by the chill of dusk, like white jade, was dyed pink in an instant, even the most gorgeous and pure cherry blossoms in spring, the first petal that fell in the wind could not compare to it - that is the beauty that even ordinary humans can be almost equal to flawless fairies at some point, because of the emotion called love that blooms.

Slender and graceful, like a swan's jade neck, soft as Danxia, ​​lips like falling peach blossoms, a breeze seeped in from somewhere, bringing the fragrance of roses blooming outside the window, passing over the jade-like shoulders with distinct texture, the fragrance fighting against the wind, and the pink light swaying on the snow-cast skin.

The darkness and depression in the pupils were swept away, as if everything just now was just an illusion. The clear purple light like thunder lit up gently, conveying all hope and light at the same speed as sound.

……

"If you are thinking about my return gift, please don't be so rude. At least give me room to prepare a surprise."

"I never guessed that you would give me a gift on the Ferris wheel all day. You can't be so hypocritical that only you can do something like this."

It was clearly an ordinary voice, without any magnetism or reliability. It was not generous or elegant at all. It was just an ordinary voice of a mortal. If you threw it into a crowd of people, you couldn't find any characteristics at all, just like its appearance which was merely above average.

Not to mention the flawless male protagonists in light novels, even the young masters you occasionally meet at banquets cannot compare to him.

But that's enough.

So satisfying.

Couldn't ask for more.

Because it's almost completely filled.

……

"Yes...thank you...ah, thank you!"

"Jiang Chengjun, I have received the best gift."

The girl who gave the gift gently pressed on her own plump, fair and soft flesh, revealing her perfect curves even through her purple dress. Instead, she showed much more joy than the boy. The silent thunder that should have been quiet also flashed a brilliant trace in the sky.

When the originally oppressive and occlusive clouds are dispelled, the already bright and shining light should at least show its due attitude.

The roar of thunder in the sky, no matter how gentle it is, should never hide in the shadows. The dancing posture like a dragon or snake is the symbol of thunder and lightning.

At least this lightning should not be constantly suppressed until the self is on the verge of collapse and then released, causing the sin of killing that one is unwilling to commit, and then falling completely into darkness because of trying to pursue the one one loves.

Even if the ending will eventually lead to a beautiful tomorrow, it does not mean that the perfect process like a fairy tale will definitely be the same as that of Magical Girl Madoka Magica.

At least for the parties involved, it is obviously more suitable to be as relaxing and enjoyable as traveling than to go through a cruel, brutal and painful process.

Although we cannot achieve a fairy-tale-like beauty now, at least a ray of light has appeared in the endless darkness and we have found a little hope.

……

"Ms. Mei, don't expect to refuse my gift with words like that."

——Although a person who seemed to be unromantic just shook his finger lightly, he ruthlessly interrupted the act of expressing one's feelings.

If you want to give a gift, give it well. Even if you can't be the ultimate help, at least give it to the best of times. He doesn't accept that emotions are the best gift, so there is no need to give physical gifts.

"I'll need to think about the specific design after I get home, but I can guarantee that my gift will not disappoint you."

"Although I have never received any gifts from others in my life, I am still quite familiar with giving gifts to others."

"It's been more than half a month, from campus to this street. Even for friends, it's definitely a lot of time to spend together. Apart from anything else, I have actually guessed a little about your hobbies~?"

……

what……

Am I not number one?

that's true……

Mei Raiden lifted her slightly depressed emotions, gently patted her rosy face, and forced herself to fantasize about her sleeping mind.

But it doesn’t matter.

If you want to grab even this first place, you are really too greedy.

I have already obtained the most precious thing - the first gift I gave to Jiang Cheng. Now I can't continue to be greedy and seek more.

At least not for now. I can’t be seen as a jealous girl. Even in light novels, that would be totally unlovable.

I have never received any gifts, but I am used to giving gifts to others. Jiang Cheng’s past is really completely different from mine.

The ups and downs of emotions are somewhat inexplicable. Compared with such insignificant things, the second half of Jiang Cheng’s sentence is what we really need to pay attention to.

Hmm... I guessed his hobbies or something...

Are there really guys like me?

Is there really something that you love and are obsessed with?

Her crimson-purple eyes rarely showed circles of confusion because of things other than the boy. She bit her lip lightly as she thought, but this only made her thoughts more confused, as if she was looking for words in a blank space.

……

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Reality: When the thunder breaks the sky: 193. Mei: Gifts or something, I just want you

"Although this should be classified as meaningless chat, I do mean it with great sincerity." Jiang Cheng rested his elbow on the edge of the window, supporting his relaxed face with his clenched fists. "I will spend a long time preparing. Although I don't have anything to do right now, you still need to like it."

"There is no need to dissuade others or think that you are unworthy, because I am the one who chooses to give gifts, and I have the initiative in my hands, unless you think that I am unworthy of giving gifts to others and I am not qualified to give gifts to others with my heart."

"No one has urged me to give you a gift. You have never asked me for any gift until now, and you have never hinted that I should give you a gift in return."

"There was no one else involved in this matter. It's impossible for someone like me to prepare gifts just to follow the crowd... because I wouldn't be an outlier."

"If we really talk about being aloof, I'm much better than you. At least you have a lot of acquaintances, but you're the only one on this campus whose name I can even name. I don't even remember the last name of my neighbor."

……

For those who like to daydream but don't say a word, like a taciturn person, putting all their emotions in a container called heart, letting it boil and change, and finally ferment into bad things.

Rather than secretly preparing surprises, it is more important to show that I am serious and attentive to you.

The value of a gift and the sincerity of emotion are uncertain and change as the relationship grows. The better the relationship, the less people care about the value.

Although for some people who lack love, the two can be confused, the sincerity of feelings itself is the most precious value in the world.

At least Mei Raiden was almost sunk by this blow. Her whole body felt soft and dizzy. Even though she was teased many times invisibly, she did not develop any patience for the fact that she was taken seriously.

"Well……"

Looking at the setting sun that was fading its own brilliance, his voice was like a faint reminder, "If my gift really makes you unhappy, please try to endure it when you see it."

——After all, I’m going to monitor you like Vivi.

……

"Don't worry, I won't. As long as it's from Jiang Cheng, I'll like it no matter what it is."

The dizzy girl even made a promise subconsciously, pressing her fingers on her plump breasts, turning up her red face, and saying words that would definitely make her faint on the spot with shame under normal circumstances.

Although she calmed down a little after three seconds, Mei Raiden already felt that she was about to die and could not help but want to push open the window and jump off the Ferris wheel. If she had not exceeded her original bottom line today and done too many shameless things, which caused the threshold of her shame to be directly raised a lot, she would probably have screamed like the heroine of a third-rate light novel.

It's just that in the heart, the last bit of pure land under countless boiling emotions provides a little living space for that insignificant doubt.

Jiang Cheng he...

What will be given?

As for hobbies...what are they?

Even in the most chaotic library or trash can, there may be truth and knowledge, but nothing can be found on empty papers.

Whether it is personal preferences, hobbies, or something unique enough to be called a preference, it is something the girl herself cannot think of.

It's not that she has no strengths or areas of expertise. In fact, on the contrary, the girl named Raiden Mei is an undoubted genius. No flaws can be found in her studies, combat, or work. She can be classified as a fantasy level among humans.

The only problem is that those things that can only be called specialties but not hobbies are, after all, just strengths compared to ordinary people.

Because in essence, whether it is studying, fighting, or working, it is all for the purpose of gaining the satisfaction and praise of others, obeying the orders and requirements of others, or having to do so.

She studies so that her father can pay more attention to her and get praise, instead of putting all her energy into work.

In terms of combat, it was because he wanted to meet the requirements of the Sword Master Houm, and he didn't want his only confidant to be disappointed in her for a long time.

Today's work is even simpler. It is just to make a living. If you want to survive in this cruel world, you have to work and earn money, and get corresponding rewards for your time and efforts.

Maybe the girl herself doesn't hate studying, maybe the girl herself likes kendo very much.

But when the effort itself is not for oneself but for others, no matter what one wants to gain is approval or reward, or more attention, the final outcome will be the same - because one's own interests will be buried, and naturally it can no longer be called a hobby.

In essence, it is the same as whether studying is to gain more knowledge or to cope with exams. The former can be called learning, for one's own pleasure, while the latter can only be called memorizing, for the affirmation of others.

It may even have nothing to do with efficiency, practicality, or memory, because fundamentally it means that the two cannot be discussed in the same breath.

If it is not something that comes from the heart from the beginning, at least the vast majority of what is revealed is out of one's own hobbies, and it can be changed at any time because of other people's ideas or hobbies, or even one's own ideas can be erased, then it is not worthy of being called a hobby at all and cannot be given this word.

Hobbies...If you want to achieve love, you must have - this is my thing, and no one else can interfere with it. As long as it is my inspiration and the behavior I want to do, no one can rewrite it, and no one can change my will.

Just as no one would want the person they love to become someone else's bootlicker, be bossed around by others, or have the things they like played with by others at will.

The minimum requirement for love is possessiveness. If even the possessiveness cannot be satisfied, and if something that cannot arouse any possessiveness, it cannot be called love at all.

Unfortunately, the girl's entire life was almost entirely controlled by others, and all of her actions and behaviors were almost entirely done under the wishes of others. Nothing and no choice was made by herself.

Even in the possibility without the boy, it was not until Sinner's Elegy that the girl took the initiative to make her own choice for the first time in her life.

The Great Collapse was triggered, he became a Herrscher because of someone else's plan, he was saved because of Kiana's persistence, he did not choose death because of Himeko's dissuasion, and he became a Valkyrie just because it was a natural thing.

He learned cooking because of Kiana, and he became as good as his wife because of Kiana, and even fighting was mostly due to the Queen's explosiveness.

He is obviously an excellent person no matter what, and is undoubtedly the top genius, possessing talents that are extremely rare in this world.

Raiden Mei always behaves like a support, a vase, and a foil that can make others better.

Contented and relaxed, the girl has been so calmly accepting this arrangement which is neither normal nor fair in any way.

How could this girl, who hadn't even left Changkong City and was still at the lowest point in her life, find a hobby?

If you have to find something that you are possessive of and absolutely don't want to let go of, at least something that you are possessive of in a relative sense.

After racking my brains to find something that left a mark in my almost blank memory, what I finally got was an extremely sad answer.

what……

Ahhh...

In the end, the crimson-purple pupils remained in place, staring at the boy in front of him, and also staring at the most important "hobby".

The delicate lips gently uttered this body, this past, the only thing in all the life so far that can be labeled with the word love.

"Jiangcheng..."

……

——Jiangcheng.

There is only Jiangcheng.

Over the past decade or so, it is actually a normal love with possessiveness that can be described as between two people who have only been together for more than half a month.

But there is absolutely no way he would think of himself as a gift. Even fantasizing about such a thing would be too extravagant and too naive.

Daydreaming also has certain requirements. The purest and most mindless fantasies will be despised even by those who love to dream.

People who display their desires unscrupulously will always be seen as outliers in the eyes of the public. They stir up a tornado of dust with every breath they take. They may seem majestic, but in fact they expose their stupidity and weaknesses to everyone.

Because impossible is impossible, and can't be done is can't be done. Even a whole day of dating will never make the boy's favor reach the highest point in an unscientific way, or even make him treat himself as a gift - it's better to hit yourself with a brick and go to sleep than to have such an idea. At least if you have a good rest, you may not be so stupid the next day.

"I feel like gifts... don't have to be anything special." The girl tried to cool down her enthusiasm.

Like precious or something...

just forget it.

If you hide too many surprises and the final result is not satisfactory, I'm afraid even the person who gave the gift will feel embarrassed.

Even the slightest ripple, the slightest ripple, the slightest wind that could barely blow the weeds, the girl who had experienced too many twists and turns was unwilling to be touched at all.