Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Traveling every day and communicating with different people, the boy’s only friend, the only relative, and the only person he can rely on is himself.

For many people in the world, perhaps these external difficulties don’t matter. All they need is a companion who can take care of each other.

The only problem is...

——Have I really cared about teenagers?

Did she really care about the man who saved her like a hero, a prince, and the protagonist in a fairy tale?

No matter what your mentality is, no matter what your beating heart is thinking, no matter how heavy the weight in your heart is.

I really do care, and it shows in my actions.

Is it really extremely precious?

Can you really experience the passion that matches your emotions?

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Chapter of Stars and Moon: 44. Alicia: Am I... still qualified?

The girl really wanted to give another answer.

——It’s meaningless.

No matter how much you cheat, you can't change the reality. You may even repeat the same mistakes over and over again because you refuse to face your own mistakes.

--No.

She is always busy.

Because I want to pursue the paradise, the perfect paradise in fairy tales, and because I feel it is approaching, I communicate with one person after another every day, changing other people's tragedies and rewriting other people's endings.

It was as if I only needed to exchange a few words with the boy.

It seemed as if all he needed to do was maintain normal interactions with the boy.

A perfect and gentle attitude is enough.

what……

Yes.

Just smile.

As a perfect girl, it was enough for her to just sit there and greet the boy with a vocabulary that might be the same as that of a stranger on the street.

——How could Jiang Cheng not feel disappointed and lonely?

This is blatant disregard.

A punishment that is more cruel, more shameless, more obscure than physical harm, and even makes it difficult for the victim to speak.

Especially when the girl saw the record, the boy witnessed his own birthday party, which did not even take shape in its original form and became a sad festival.

It's classy, ​​it's relaxed, it's a nice holiday - if it wasn't his birthday.

If no one cares about his birthday.

At most, I feel sad.

There are so many people in the world, and not everyone is worthy of being remembered. Even if a person celebrates his or her own birthday, he or she will at most be lonely.

But the boy’s birthday was not without participation.

There were huge crowds of people, all of whom were celebrities and nobles. Only a few who stood at the top of the pyramid could receive such treatment. But no one cared about the boy, and no one cared about the host of the birthday party.

Maybe for them, this is not a birthday at all, but a party where they can meet a certain girl in a legitimate way.

That's it.

That’s all…

That's all.

It's like this, it's obviously very noisy and grand, but you can't get involved at all, no one cares, even though you are the one in charge, which makes the originally lonely and sad emotions reach the peak, which is a kind of tragedy.

Only when you feel lonely on a busy and crowded street can you feel truly lonely.

It turns out that accidentally...

——Have I become the perpetrator holding the butcher knife?

In the name of blessing, we deprive young people of their beauty.

Even birthdays, which are extremely private blessings between only relatives and friends, are no exception.

The girl stretched out her fingers and wanted to touch the boy in the picture whose eyes were dull and without even a trace of highlights, but her slender fingers always lacked the strength, as if something was stopping her from moving forward.

Perhaps it's because I clearly realize that I'm no longer qualified.

I am no longer worthy of touching the boy.

Even if it's just a photo.

Even if it's just a snapshot of the past.

It was not until I saw the recorded video with my own eyes that I saw the boy approaching the teenager and saw a hand suddenly come into my sight and pull up the downtrodden boy.

It was the maker of this video recorder, Wei Erwei, who personally delivered the gift to Jiang Cheng.

The only birthday present personally presented to me.

The only gift given on this boy’s birthday.

The video recorder did not record the following words. It just watched as the originally silent boy's lifeless eyes suddenly regained some expression, a look that was far more real than anything the girl had ever seen.

Excitement, happiness, or just the feeling of being warmed.

This is not weakness, it is just the normal functioning of emotions. However, no matter how normal the function is, if it goes too far, it will inevitably cause disaster.

The reason why I have always felt normal is that someone has already suppressed the disaster.

Alicia never cared about these things.

The emerald starry eyes never lowered, they were eager and persistent about the things around them, as if they were being urged by someone or chased by a wild beast, with no room to breathe.

……

……

……

in this world……

Is there any other reason to explain your behavior?

Explain the mistakes he made, the butcher knife he picked up, and the harm he inflicted on the teenager.

——Save the world?

This may be a good excuse to save the world. In order to rewrite more tragedies and to save more people who should not suffer, we must give up some small things in front of us.

Can it really be used as a reason?

Can I really use this to cover up my disregard for Jiang Cheng?

I really won't open my mouth again to make myself appear more shameless and despicable, or to cover up my behavior which can undoubtedly be called disgusting.

How can it be?

How can it be!

How could this be! !

No matter how noble the reason is, you have no right to deny the wrong things you have done.

Something like, if you want to save the world you must abandon the people around you, it's just a mere saying, how can you regard it as the truth?

If you can't even save what's in front of you, if you can't even grasp what's in front of you, no matter how broad or far your perspective is, you're essentially just a cold machine, a guy that's not a human at all.

At least for Alicia, for this goddess of the stars and the moon, for this girl who is looking forward to beauty, for this fairy of paradise...

——Absolutely not!

——Absolutely not acceptable!!

Hurting others without apologizing, making amends, or atonement, and whitewashing it with so-called justice is undoubtedly the most despicable behavior. Perhaps some people are forced to do something against their will because of something they cannot resist.

But if there is no apology at all, there is no need and meaning to talk about it.

The only problem is...

Am I really qualified now?

……

Silent.

The girl couldn't argue.

I can't fight against my own heart.

I just walked around aimlessly, not even knowing where I was going.

It seems that what is lost is not a concrete person, concrete pain, and the cause and source of loss, but rather something that has become a concept, a feeling that has become abstract after a long period of companionship.

The boy's existence seemed to be like the moon hanging in the night sky and the sun emitting light during the day. It had become a common thing.

It is indispensable, and even losing it for a day or a moment is hard to accept...

Just like Jiangcheng.

The boy never left my memory, not even for a day.

The season when the spring snow begins to melt is also the day when flowers bloom. The boy will always go with me to pick the most beautiful flower to keep... The season of warm sunshine, the season of falling leaves, the season of silver snow.

Until now.

It's an indescribable feeling, even hard to describe with complex words.

Sadness, depression, discomfort... combined into a feeling of loss.

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Chapter of Stars and Moon: 45. Da Ai Li, feel this regret.

Alicia walked into the hall unintentionally, the pink light shone on her pale face. The perfect girl had become discouraged and as destitute as a beggar.

The gorgeous clothes on her body could not hide the depression as if she had lost something.

The luxurious place like the kingdom of fairy music no longer had the bustle of a few hours ago due to the departure of all the guests. The blue eyes of the girl no longer had a trace of spirit, and she looked at the top stage unconsciously.

——The place where he had always stayed, used to host banquets and maintain order.

If I had been able to pull Jiang Cheng onto the stage at my first birthday party and swear to everyone that this was his birthday party.

Maybe the ending wouldn't be so tragic.

If I could capture the sadness in Jiang Cheng's mood, I would help the boy in trouble return to the sunshine.

Maybe he wouldn't have left.

in case……

in case……

in case……

[No one in the world thinks they will lose the sun. Only when they actually lose it do they realize how important the sun is.]

[——What qualifications do you have to interfere? ]

[Perhaps she has already left with Wei Wei.]

[Perhaps Jiang Cheng has already lived the ordinary and happy life that he should have. ]

[Perhaps the boy...]