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[My heart was filled with a kind of discomfort that was almost tangible. Although I was not that far away from the boy, it seemed like we were a world apart.]

[——It must be an illusion.]

[As the goal of a birthday party that is more about communication, Jiang Cheng can find new friends, which is also very important, or even the most important part, so that Jiang Cheng does not have to be limited to traveling alone. 】

[That’s what I thought…]

[It was obviously to help the boy find friends. 】

[I should be happy seeing the scene in front of me. 】

【Why do I feel a little depressed? 】

[That is a kind of oppression that should not belong to you at all, and should not belong to a flawless, flower-like beautiful fairy. ]

[Although you have to communicate with others to change the world and the organization behind the scenes in advance, you have even lost the mood to speak. 】

……

[At the age of nineteen, your journey with Alicia continues, but this time you are no longer just focusing on being together like before.]

[After your birthday, you have left your immature period and grown into a real adult. Although your birthday party is not completely perfect, you have gained a lot. ]

[At the exchange meeting prepared by Alicia, you met a very good friend. ]

【——Virvi. 】

[I originally just thought I had met a nice person, a casual acquaintance, but I didn’t expect that we would become friends just by chatting. ]

[One day you really can't find anything to do, and you've been ignored. The girl is getting worse and worse. Now it's hard to even spare a little time every day. Your sense of existence has basically dropped to zero. ]

[I don’t know why, but I opened my phone and sent a few messages to Wei Erwei, intending to chat and kill some time.]

[Surprisingly, the girl actually replied to you immediately, and indeed chatted with you until late at night that day without showing any disgust. ]

[Maybe it has something to do with your continuous praise. ]

[This is not to curry favor with someone or to flatter someone deliberately. ]

[You didn't do anything flattering, it's just that the girl's level is really very high, as if she knows everything, knows everything, and knows everything. ]

[You two chatted about all sorts of things, from trivial matters to astronomy, and from astronomy to various so-called science and technology and humanities.]

[This kind of life lasted for several days. After leaving the life of childhood, you felt for the first time that a day could be so fulfilling, instead of just wasting time watching others communicate meaninglessly.]

[On the fifth day, you were still preparing to send a good night message and continue chatting tomorrow, but the girl gave a different answer.]

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Chapter of Stars and Moon: 15. Wei Erwei: Jiang Cheng... needs me?

Looking at the good night message the boy sent on the bright white screen and the cute and warm emoticon next to it, the girl's slender fingers froze in the air, and it seemed as if she had to use up all her strength to move just a little bit.

I really don’t want to…

I don't want to separate like this.

This was the first time in my life that I met a companion with whom I could communicate.

This was clearly the first time in my life that I had experienced someone praising and comforting me like this.

Why do you have to push it away actively?

Why do you curl up like a stupid hedgehog and hurt others with your sharp thorns even when faced with warmth and kindness from others?

The girl couldn't understand or accept it, but in the end she still typed the letters slowly and heavily, forming a message of rejection.

Wei Erwei: Jiang Cheng...can you please stop chatting with me?

……

——This is using coldness to hurt other people’s kindness and feelings.

It's very stupid. If you look at it from a God's perspective, I'm afraid everyone will scold the girl for her stupidity, calling her a bad person without emotions, blood or tears, who even refuses help from others and is not worthy of having friends.

what……

what……

what……

Jiang Cheng would definitely not be able to understand.

It must be very shocking.

It must be...it must be very sad.

But when you take the initiative to help and comfort others, you are rejected and hurt by others. People who think they are friends actually don’t regard themselves as friends at all.

The girl felt as if her heart was closing up just thinking about the expression the boy might have, and she felt a physical suffocation.

Actively pushing away the feeling of kindness brings a sense of self-blame as if you are an animal or trash, and the young and delicate heart seems to be bleeding with pain.

This must be done.

This is the only way to do it.

It's not that Weiwei can't feel the boy's kindness. She is not a heartless, heartless, ruthless, or a venomous snake who perhaps claims that she doesn't need emotions.

But this is the only thing we can do now. It is the best choice, the only choice.

——Because the boy’s help was too wonderful.

The girl is just a person who is completely trapped in self-consumption. Even with her top-notch intelligence, she can only hurt herself infinitely. She hates herself so much that if it weren't for her talent, she would probably jump off a building and commit suicide like countless depressed patients. Even so, she denies herself to the point of creating another self.

Such beauty, such comfort, such praise, such gentleness... are things the girl has never felt or experienced in her entire life.

It was like a girl who had been struggling with all her might in a chaotic and rough sea suddenly boarded a warm and comfortable ship.

Maybe the big ship is nothing to others, they may already be standing on the land piled with emotions.

Perhaps they would regard this big ship as the key to the land.

But Weiwei had no land, no boat, not even a piece of wood.

There is not even any subjective motivation.

Not even going for a swim.

It was only relying on its instinctive buoyancy to survive the turbulent waves, and was lucky enough to spit out the water stuck in its lungs after countless times of suffocation.

If trash like this gets on board?

What if trash like this is sheltered?

What if a piece of trash like this could experience warmth?!

She would never be able to leave. If the ship disappeared, the girl would definitely drown in the ocean.

She could have accepted the darkness, could have continued to sink until she fell, if the girl had never seen the light, if she had never felt warmth.

——If I continue like this, if one day, Jiang Cheng’s gentleness disappears without a trace like what is written in the novel… I will die…

——Unless there is something to prove that no matter how happy I am, how much love I receive...these happiness and love will not disappear like shampoo bubbles.

How is that possible?

The boy was clearly accompanied by such a perfect girl, and he was not even worthy of standing in front of that girl.

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No matter who you are, no matter how many people there are, no matter what their personality is, you can easily make friends and become close friends who are worth chatting with.

How can a person who is trapped in self-destruction and dares not even accept the help and kindness of others compare with him?

It's okay to escape.

Cowardice is fine.

It's okay to be timid.

Isn't it always like this?

It is nothing more than continuing the past life, continuing the hopeless life of being tossed by the waves and beaten by the wind and rain.

——I've gotten used to this kind of life.

No?

Although the bubbles in the sun are dazzling and beautiful, if you really indulge in them, your heart will break at the moment they break.

The only thing I'm sorry for is...

Jiangcheng.

what……

Sorry.

I'm going to hurt your kindness...

The girl looked at the boy's answer that was about to come, filled with sadness, guilt, unprecedented fear and unprecedented determination.

"Sorry, it seems that I talked too much to myself. I have been ignored too much recently, so I accidentally wasted your time."

……

……

……

Eh……

Eh.

Eh?

The silver-gray eyes were desperate and sad, and the dark pupils suddenly brightened a little, as if they were once again looking directly into the warm light like the sun. The bright red lower lip that was gently bitten loosened and opened to an unbelievable degree.

This speech...

This apology...

The boy's real thoughts were obvious.

It is not a charity-like pity, it is not idle chat when you are bored, it is not help that may disappear like bubbles in the sun at any time and anywhere.

Because you are also ignored, you want to find others to chat with, precisely because you have needs, because you have defects, and because you have desires.

and so……

Jiangcheng...

——Need me?

……

The underlying tone of life is relative selfishness. Things that are too perfect will be so smooth on the outside that you can't even find a point of contact. It's like a perfect ball that you can't even grasp or hold tightly.

Ordinary people may not mind gently pinching the ball to admire it and experience this absolutely perfect, absolutely flawless and absolutely flawless beauty.

But for people in distress, if they really place their last straw and only hope on a perfect, flawless ball.

There is no doubt that he will fall into the abyss with a plop because he cannot find any foothold.

What if the ball is incomplete?

What if the ball has a force point?

What if that circle has something to hold?

So compared to the so-called life-saving straw, of course, something that is perfect enough and has enough power is something that one desires even more and cannot let go.

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Chapter of Stars and Moon: 16. Velvet doubts Alicia's feelings

Alone again?

The boy's voice was deep and dark, carrying an inexplicable emotion, and his dark eyes lit up with an indescribable color.