Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

If something happened between two people, it would take twenty minutes to explain it clearly...

Then, perhaps it will become a deadlock that you will never be able to figure out in your lifetime.

"Although I had prepared a script in advance and rehearsed it repeatedly in my mind, I should have been confident...but when it came time to speak, I couldn't say anything." Qiu Hui smiled helplessly, "Because, I'm actually very nervous now..."

"...So, considering that we still have a lot of time, I would like to talk about something else first."

Qiu Hui turned her head and looked through the viewing window. The car was already at a certain height, and from here, she could have a bird's eye view of the entire side of the amusement park.

"Pochi, have you ever ridden a Ferris wheel before?"

"...No." Ichiri lowered his head in shame, "Because, I don't have any friends close enough to sit with me."

"Really?" Qiu Hui smiled. "As for me, I've sat here twice, including this time."

She stopped looking out the window and turned her gaze back to Yili.

"The last time I rode a Ferris wheel was in junior high school. At that time, I was visiting the amusement park with a classmate who I knew. She suggested that we try it out. I had no interest at first, but I agreed anyway."

"It turns out that it's really boring... I have to stay in a small room with nothing in it for 20 to 30 minutes, and all I can see are countless houses that have been shrunk like models."

Although she said it was boring, Qiu Hui's tone sounded as if she missed that time very much.

"Even the student who proposed it thought it was boring." She couldn't help laughing, "So we really talked about a lot of random things at the time. I don't remember most of them, but I still remember that she asked me, 'Is the famous grilled wing from New Orleans or Orleans'..."

As she laughed, the corners of Qiu Hui's mouth gradually drooped.

"…It was only that one time." She said softly, "I also have very few friends. So, I also don't know how to handle interpersonal relationships gracefully."

"Maybe I'll say a lot of strange things today, and maybe make you feel uneasy, troubled, or even a little offended. If that really happens, I'm sorry."

During Qiu Hui's silence, the elevator continued to rise, and the tourists on the ground began to shrink little by little until they became unrecognizable dots.

"…The opening remarks are over, let's get started."

Qiu Hui withdrew her hands from the small table and placed them flat on her thighs neatly, then sat up straight, looking like she was both being interviewed and the examiner in charge of the interview.

"Pochi, what do you think of me?"

Silence followed.

This was expected by both parties.

If this was an easy question to answer, things wouldn't have turned out this way.

"I……"

Goto Ichiri tried to speak.

"I feel that..."

She racked her brains to form her words.

Ichiri Goto is afraid of socializing because she is always afraid of messing up.

The same is true now. She has never faced a situation like this before.

In just half a semester, she went from having no friends at all to this situation in an instant.

Therefore, everything she faced at this moment was something she had never heard of before, and it even seemed so difficult to describe it in words.

"Akiei is willing to be my friend... I am... very grateful. Akiei has always been helping me, tolerating my shortcomings, trying to help me, and affirming the value of my existence..."

It was clear to Yili that these were all opening remarks, all foreshadowing, and all preparations made so that the most important part could be spoken naturally.

"So, I also want to try to help Akie. Because Akie has work pressure, school, and she has to take time out to care about everyone... and me."

This is still a foreshadowing, and we haven't gotten to the point yet...

Yili was anxious about his own timidity, but no matter how anxious he was, he couldn't say what he really wanted to say.

Qiu Hui didn't show any impatience at all. She just looked at Yili quietly, encouraging her silently.

"I, so...I..."

Yili clenched his fists, closed his eyes, and his body trembled slightly due to nervousness.

Qiu Hui noticed the other person's nervousness, so she decided to do something.

"...If Pochi doesn't know how to answer, then I'll ask in a different way."

Qiu Hui said with a smile, then glanced at the clock: "Don't worry, there's still plenty of time."

Ichiri, who was temporarily relieved from his current anxiety, nodded vigorously: "Ask me, I will try my best to answer."

She recalled what someone she had met on the roadside had said.

"Some things are definitely better off being said explicitly."

As Ichiri was gathering up her courage little by little, Akie spoke up and asked her second question.

"Let me put it this way. Ichiri, in your heart, I..."

Asking such a question made Akie feel a little embarrassed, and for some reason her mouth felt dry.

But she finally made up her mind to ask.

"Am I...special?"

Now is not the time to worry about trivial matters like "embarrassment".

Akie thought so as she asked this question, waiting for Ichiri's response.

"……yes!"

This time, Goto Ichiri didn't take much time to answer.

She carefully observed Akie's reaction, and the latter noticed this, so she kept her expression as calm as possible.

"Okay, then, next question."

Deliberately suppressing her reaction in order not to sway the other party, Akie asked the next question.

This time, even she herself was hesitant and indecisive.

Because this issue is very critical...it can be said to directly determine the nature of the relationship between the two.

That's why Qiu Hui felt hesitant.

Therefore, this question is something that must be asked.

Take a deep breath. Clear your throat. Prepare yourself mentally before asking your question.

"Ichiri. Is your opinion of me... exclusive?"

"...Exclusive?"

Perhaps because of the proper nouns, Ichiri looked a little confused.

"Let me explain a little bit."

Qiu Hui suppressed the nervousness in her heart and continued speaking in a cold and calm tone.

"The so-called exclusivity, in this context, means... excluding others."

"I will not allow others to occupy the same position as me in your heart, and I will not allow others to occupy the same position as you in my heart..."

"...That's pretty much what I meant by exclusivity."

Having said this, Qiu Hui closed her eyes. After thinking for a moment, she opened them again.

The height of the car has risen to nearly half of its highest point, and the city outside the window has become as unreal as a bonsai.

"Think about it carefully. Using this terminology explanation may make people even more confused. I'd better... explain it more clearly."

Qiu Hui suddenly felt that in this atmosphere isolated from the world, no matter what shocking things were said, it seemed that no one cared.

"Goto Ichiri."

Then, Qiu Hui spoke calmly.

"Do you want to...possess me?"

Chapter 133 Just Think About Yourself

Yes, "possession".

According to Akie's own understanding, the difference between so-called "friends" and "lovers" may lie in this "exclusivity" of rejecting others.

Therefore, even if she had to say it in such a way that would lead to misunderstanding, Qiu Hui felt that she had to...

...No. Rather, perhaps this is the way to be so straightforward that it would make people feel ashamed.

The answer given under such conditions may have real reference value.

Suppressing the distracting thoughts in her heart, the nervous Qiu Hui tried to calm down as much as possible and waited for the other party's response.

And Goto Ichiri's heart seemed to skip a beat at this moment.

Her projection on this material plane seemed to become vague and uncertain because of this problem.

“This, this, this, I… wow, wow… I, Akiie, take, take… something…”

She trembled and made an indecipherable grunt. If it were a cartoon, it would give people the feeling that it would explode in the next second, right?

Oops, isn't this totally unresponsive?

Although Akie had prepared plans for various situations in advance, she was still surprised that Pochi suddenly became speechless.

Sure enough, there must be something wrong with what I said just now...

She pinched her thigh gently out of shame and a little guilt.

I've always been like this, I'll do strange things when I get excited.

This might make her very troubled, so I should think of a solution.

Then, Akie blushed slightly and said awkwardly, "Sorry, I may have been too direct. I will be more..."

“…It’s okay!”

Goto Ichiri shouted these words before his brain could react.

"I...I will give it a try."

She looked at Qiu Hui, who had a surprised expression, and nodded slightly.

Although he had no confidence, Yili still expressed his attitude like this.

“I… I was really shocked just now. Because, Akie suddenly said that…”

Yili clenched his fists with a red face.

"But, but, I think I can understand. If you don't explain it to this extent... I will definitely try to fool you."

"I was shocked when I was asked this question. Then, Akiie, who asked the question, must be very nervous now, right?"

"Akie has always been trying to accommodate me and care about my feelings..."

"This time, I want to give in to Akiie a little bit!"

"So... don't bother thinking of other ways to ask. I will... I will try to answer this question!"

Goto Ichiri shouted in an awkward manner. Fortunately, this was the cabin of the Ferris wheel, so the shout could only be heard by those who were supposed to hear it.

The only listener was stunned for a moment, then smiled as if relieved and pleased.

“I see. I understand.”

Qiu Hui nodded gently.

"Then, thank you for your help."

She looked at the silent Yili with encouragement, expecting what kind of response she would give.

Although Ichiri had been thinking hard and had no intention of coming to a conclusion, Qiu Hui was not impatient.

On the one hand, she was tolerant of the other party; on the other hand, she was also happy to use this time to think about how she should deal with Yili's response.

And, after that, how should I deal with "another thing".

"Possession"...

After all, it was said in a fit of anger. Even if Ichiri didn't mind, Akie's cheeks would still get hot when she seriously thought about the meaning of this sentence.

So, if the answer is "yes", what should I do?