Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

What kind of TV do you watch?

Qiu Hui sat up straight with a wry smile and reached out to straighten her collar and clothes corners that had been messed up in the previous scuffle.

“…Let’s not worry about that for now. After all, Ichiri, you probably just acted hot-headedly, which is why you did that.”

Although in fact she was pushed on the chair and kissed forcefully... Qiu Hui felt that the most important task now was not to hold someone accountable.

"But since you've come this far... can I assume that your answer to the question I just asked is 'yes'?"

Rather than feeling ashamed or angry, Qiu Hui is more concerned about whether the problem can be solved or not.

"……Um."

Facing Akie's calm gaze, Ichiri nodded slightly.

She didn't give the answer directly, perhaps because she felt she couldn't say it.

"……I see."

As Qiu Hui spoke, she took off her glasses and pressed the lenses, which had shown signs of slipping slightly out of the frame in the previous collision, back into the frame.

She seemed to understand the other party's thoughts to some extent, so she didn't say anything more.

Next, let Yili calm down for a while.

Thinking of this, the two spent a short while in silence.

"So...Akie."

Yili said in a low voice. Perhaps it was because he was immersed in panic, self-blame and vague joy that he couldn't speak loudly freely.

"……what do I do?"

Akie could probably guess why Ichiri asked this question.

But she couldn't give an answer.

"I'm sorry, but I can't answer that." Qiu Hui smiled, "What you should do is something you should decide for yourself."

“But, didn’t Akie just say that? You treat me as a friend and family member, and you already have someone you like…”

Having said that, Yili became more deeply aware of what he had just done, and curled up into a ball with self-blame and guilt.

"So what?"

Qiu Hui said with a smile.

"Whatever I'm thinking right now, it has nothing to do with Ichiri's choice, right?"

"I think it's inappropriate to force Ichiri to give up his feelings just to save myself from trouble."

“But on the other hand, if I agreed to your request out of consideration for Ichiri’s feelings… how should I put it? I think it was just charity given out of sympathy.”

She turned her head and looked at Yili beside her.

“I can give you this sympathy.”

"But, Ichiri, do you really want it?"

After curling up into a ball and thinking for a long time, Goto Ichiri managed to squeeze out a few words: "...I don't want that."

"I also think that the current Ichiri will not accept something that is obtained reluctantly." Akie nodded with satisfaction.

"So, what to do next is up to you."

"Now that things have been made clear, what do you plan to do next? Will you continue to persevere or give up? It all depends on you."

"I will not give in to you on this matter, Ichiri."

After the Ferris wheel passed its highest point, its height began to decrease little by little.

"Either give up or find a way to make me change my mind willingly."

"What do you think you should do? The Ferris wheel still has half a turn to go. Please take this opportunity to think carefully."

The curled up Yili finally stretched out, she sat up straight and nodded slightly.

"Yes. Thank you, Akie..."

As she spoke, her face turned red again because of what had just happened.

"Also, I'm really sorry about what happened just now. I... I really don't know what I was thinking at the time..."

"…That thing is in the past." Akie frowned in shame, "Please, don't mention it again."

She sighed softly.

Although I don’t really have a crush on this thing…

But, to be honest, I didn't expect that my first kiss would be given in such a messy situation.

Should I say... a little regretful?

Thinking of this, Qiu Hui turned around and looked at Yili.

Better not tell her about this.

If she knew, she would probably be even more troubled...

...No, logically speaking, I am the "victim", right?

Why do you always think about each other...

Qiu Hui wanted to laugh, but couldn't quite bring herself to do so.

Now, everything has been brought to the table and made clear.

After getting off this Ferris wheel, everything will be different from usual.

She "likes" me, but I don't "like" her. Now that things have come to this, there is no room for further deception.

I have just said all I can say...

Although I always feel that some of the words are not fully expressed, this is perhaps the best I can do in such a hurry.

However, this was actually the first time for both I and Yili to encounter and deal with such a thing.

Therefore, it is inevitable to make mistakes, and even inevitable to make irreparable mistakes.

"…Have you thought it through?"

Qiu Hui asked casually.

Goto Ichiri did not answer.

Qiu Hui can understand this. If I were facing such a mess, I would probably be worried and hesitant.

So the two of them remained silent until the Ferris wheel completed a full circle and returned to the ground.

The two left from the exit and returned to the park.

“…I won’t give up.”

"What?"

"Akie, what I'm saying is... I won't give up."

Although his voice was as soft as a mosquito, what he said was a line that showed his determination.

She took a few steps forward and stood in front of Qiu Hui, then tried hard to force herself to straighten her chest.

"I know that Qiu Hui doesn't have any feelings towards me right now... I also don't want Qiu Hui to agree to my willful request out of sympathy for me."

"But even so, I don't want to give up on Akie just like that."

"Because this is the first time someone has considered my affairs so carefully, and the first time someone is willing to talk to me so much to help me express my thoughts."

"Besides playing guitar, I don't have any other strengths..."

"...Since I'm such a good-for-nothing, it's normal for Akie to dislike me."

"But! I will work hard... until, until one day I can make Akie..."

...ran away.

She couldn't finish her sentence, really.

Looking at Yi Li's hurriedly fleeing back, Qiu Hui smiled helplessly.

However, her feelings have been clearly conveyed.

"Now that things have come to this, I can no longer pretend that I know nothing..."

Qiu Hui was filled with emotion.

"...In every way."

Chapter 135: Ferris Wheel Second Battle

After Goto Ichiri escaped, this matter is...over?

Both sides mustered up as much courage as possible and spoke their minds to each other in a situation where they could not escape.

But that's all. What happens after that, neither I nor Pochi know what to do...

Qiu Hui shook her head helplessly.

It was only about half a semester ago that I didn't have a single friend.

As a result, now we have to worry about profound topics such as "liking" and "being liked"?

It is true that everything is impermanent...

After Yili left, Qiu Hui was filled with thoughts like these as she walked aimlessly in the amusement park.

It was just a walk, and she had no intention of finding more activities to do.

In her opinion, most amusement facilities, after all, are just ways to make people move faster or slower along a designated route.

If she were alone, she really wouldn't be interested in participating.

But since I have already bought the tickets, it would be a bit of a waste to just go out now.

So, let's just hang out for a while and think about my worries.

As she passed by the staff in puppet costumes, Qiu Hui suddenly wanted to take out her cell phone to call Yili and ask her if she had left the amusement park yet.

When she suddenly ran away, would it have been better for me to chase after her?

Just like that time in the store when Aine suddenly ran out.

Just like before in RiNG, when Deng ran out after Aine.

Pochi ran away in front of me, but I had no intention of chasing her.

Is it because I have the confidence that she will come back, or is it because, in my opinion, it doesn’t matter whether she escapes or not?

Qiu Hui felt as if there was an illusory pain in her chest.

I always think that I should take responsibility as much as possible and take care of the needs of others. Pochi also always thinks that I am a gentle person...

In fact, there is no such thing.

At least in this matter, I... undoubtedly realized my cruel side.

Pochi likes me...

...And, you just did that to me.

But I didn't feel anything at all. Neither very happy nor very unhappy, nor did I feel any shame.

If I had to put it bluntly, it felt like a pet cat was lying on top of me... This was not the right reaction to a "love interest" at all.

Pochi said she would never give up.

But even if she doesn't give up, I... can't guarantee that I can give any response.

This is my attitude towards Pochi.

But, if the target is Aine……

Qiu Hui felt dizzy.