Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

She seemed to vaguely realize that her thoughts might be "wrong".

Or should I say, as usual, this time, my thoughts were…wrong again.

Deng knew that he might be different from ordinary people.

She likes to collect all kinds of things and likes to learn trivial knowledge that others find boring.

She was always silent when others could laugh out loud, and she was always unable to do so when others shed tears.

Forming a band for a lifetime, this kind of thing... Even Aine couldn't really accept it.

Because in the eyes of "normal people", breaking up and getting back together is perhaps the common sense of the world, right?

So when faced with Li Xi's questioning, Deng knew very well that he could not refute it.

"... Deng was there at the time, right?" Li Xi's face turned pale, "You should have known what Su Shi was thinking, right?"

"She simply said that she thinks that reuniting CRYCHIC is better than this band. If that band can't be revived, then this band is meaningless..."

“…Is that right?”

Yes.

Everything Su Shi did was to revive the band that Toyokawa Shoko had founded.

When he thought of this, Li Xi's anger became even stronger.

Perhaps that strong impulse came from the name Toyokawa Shoko.

That person destroyed everything she created with her own hands, but her shadow still haunts those who once shared her fate.

It can't go on like this!

"Su Shi herself has explained it so clearly, everyone should understand what she wants, right?"

Li Xi slammed the drumsticks back onto the storage table and spoke almost with gritted teeth.

“What she wants is CRYCHIC…Aine and Ryuna were never part of her plan!”

"Toyokawa Shoko has completely rejected her. Her goal has been completely unattainable so far, so she has to..."

Li Xi hesitated as she was about to speak. She began to reflect on whether she should have said such a heartless thing.

As a result, the field fell into awkward silence again.

“…CRYCHIC?”

Le Nai looked at Hai Ling beside him curiously.

"It's the band that Li Xi and her friends once formed."

Hai Ling took out a pack of drinks from her pocket at some point and answered while drinking.

"However, she herself doesn't want to talk about what happened at that time, so I don't know much about it."

After saying that, she glanced at Lenai beside her.

"Want some? I think I still have a pack."

"Is it matcha flavored?"

"I'm sorry, but it doesn't seem to be the case."

"Oh." Le Nai nodded, then turned his attention back to the three people in front of him.

I don't know how long the inexplicable silence lasted.

The three people, each with their own concerns, seemed to lack the motivation to speak.

"……well."

Li Xi let out a long sigh.

"If Akiie were still here..."

She is better than me at analyzing the ins and outs of this kind of work.

She also doesn't get overly excited like I do.

Even her efficiency in communicating with the lights was…

Qiu Hui left. Li Xi was a little confused whether he should be happy or sad.

Suddenly, she noticed something unusual about Chihaya Aine.

When Qiu Hui was mentioned, her face suddenly turned pale, as if she had suddenly experienced a strong stimulation.

Wait a minute, Aine and Akie, are they...

Recalling what he heard during the training camp, Lixi suddenly felt his ears burning.

No, the point is, their relationship... seems to be really unusual.

And now Akie is gone. As for Aine...

Before Lixi could think further, Deng spoke again timidly.

“I…I hope that Aine, Ryuna…and Suyo can continue to form a band together…”

"Even if Sushi really misses CRYCHIC, I think she must also..."

The sound of the lights faded. She flinched.

She knew that everything she said was just subjective conjecture.

"…Is the situation now clear?"

Li Xi shouted out in desperation.

"Aine and Rina want to form a new band together, and Soyo wants to revive CRYCHIC. Which side will you choose, Tomo?"

The lamp was stunned.

She opened her mouth slightly, but no words came out.

She would hesitate. Of course.

Because no matter which side she is on, they are equally inseparable...

But that's it.

Aine suddenly stood up.

She held her guitar, her face ashen.

"Little Light..."

She spoke in an inorganic tone.

"...Can't make a decision?"

Facing Deng’s horrified face, Aine showed a tired look.

"As expected, I... am actually not that important, right?"

"Even if you don't need me... it's okay, right?"

Chapter 134: Understanding, Dispersing

Akie's activities as a support musician came to an end, which was a blow to Aine.

If it were just this, she could still hold on.

Su Shi revealed her original intention to revive CRYCHIC and actually abandoned everyone in the new band.

This was also a heavy blow, but Aine managed to hold on.

However, if both things happen at the same time, that is another matter.

"..."

What am I doing, exactly?

Aiyin asked herself in her heart.

He followed because he was worried about Akie's situation, and ended up witnessing the scene where Suyo revealed all his thoughts to Shoko.

Akie had said that the rest of the band might not be suitable to be there. Was that because she had anticipated what might happen next?

She was right. After seeing that kind of scene, it was really hard to calm down.

After witnessing that scene, Aine kept telling herself not to think too much.

Because, once you think about it, you will feel like you are stuck in a quagmire and have no way out.

Su Shi’s departure doesn’t just mean the band is missing one person.

Because Su Shi was the first person who agreed to form a band with me.

Xiao Deng and Rikki both decided to join in later. To be honest, Su Shi is like... the origin of this band, right?

But the purpose of Su Shi doing this was entirely for CRYCHIC and for the band that Xiao Deng and the others had previously been in.

Does that mean... you don't need me?

Aine looked around at the people around her with eyes filled with a mixture of sadness and fear.

We have worked hard together, experienced so many things together, made up our minds together, and even done something as traditional as a training camp!

But why did it turn out like this?

Aine felt scared.

Because she was horrified to find that she had become more and more accustomed to, or even dependent on, the existence of this band.

Although at the beginning I just wanted to blend in with the atmosphere and never thought about playing in a band seriously.

But when did it all start? I gradually got used to spending a lot of time practicing guitar, gradually got used to bickering with Rikki, and gradually got used to the feeling of being with everyone…

This is a very orthodox development, right? The protagonist who was just playing around was moved by everyone's enthusiasm, or something like that!

In such a warm and harmonious atmosphere, everyone achieved great success in their first performance, which should have been a perfect ending!

However, Su Shi's departure made the emotions and ties that everyone had accumulated during this period of time become castles in the air overnight.

...I don't want to stay here any longer.

If I continue to stay here and see you all, I won't be able to control my urge to doubt you all.

Xiao Deng... If Xiao Deng also thinks that it is better to resurrect CRYCHIC, then... what should I do?

Aine looked towards the lamp beside her, her face ashen.

"No, I...I didn't..."

Gao Songdeng shook his head vigorously, his face flushed with anxiety.

“I…I hope the band can continue! With Aine and everyone else!”

"If that's the case, then we should be prepared for Su Shi not to come back, right?" Li Xi said seriously.

"But……"

The lamp didn't know what to do.

"I, I think that Su Shi's matter is also..."

Ah. Xiao Deng, that's what I thought.

Seeing how Touma was at a loss in the face of this dilemma, Aine nodded mechanically.

She couldn't muster up the courage and determination to give up either side.

There's nothing we can do about it.

However, even if she couldn't say it, she might have a conclusion in her heart.

Xiao Deng said that he wanted to form a band for life...

...Although she said so, the source of this idea, after all, is still the CRYCHIC that no longer exists, right?

What does Xiao Deng think of me?