Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

CRYCHIC no longer exists, and Xiao Deng has finally gotten over the emotional knot she had at that time and formed a new band with me.

Maybe... she just "let it go"? She just became able to accept using members other than CRYCHIC as substitutes, patching up a new band, and relying on such "inferior products" to replace the original band?

The thought gave Aine a chill.

Xiao Deng...Xiao Deng would not really do anything so excessive.

But I can't really question her like this, asking her whether she really thinks this way.

If it were a senior, he would have organized his words well and answered truthfully.

But Xiao Deng, Xiao Deng might feel painful because she can’t express her thoughts well, right?

"..."

Deng's face turned red, and she seemed to want to say something, but she couldn't.

Aiyin hugged the guitar tightly in her arms, as if she could draw some kind of warm feeling from it, and her body trembled slightly with anxiety.

...It would be nice if the seniors were here.

Aine suddenly felt this way.

If the seniors were here, they would definitely help everyone understand each other and come up with a solution that everyone can accept.

Speaking of which, Senior once said that he would help me ask about Su Shi’s attitude... What is she doing now?

If it were her, what would she think now?

Aine looked at Deng and smiled apologetically.

Xiao Deng couldn't accept the idea of ​​changing the bassist. However, if there was no bassist, there would only be four people practicing... This was definitely not what she wanted.

Su Shi doesn't want to contact us. We don't know when she will come back, or maybe she won't come back at all...

"I'm sorry, I... I still..."

Aine leaned down and began to put the instrument back into its case.

"Wait, what do you mean?"

Riki's eyes widened in disbelief when he saw Aine's actions.

"…It seems like we can't start practicing now."

Lenai stared at the light and shook his head slightly.

"How boring."

After saying that, she also began to pack up her musical instrument.

“Wait, you guys…”

Li Xi's eyes widened. She was so shocked that she didn't even have the energy to get angry.

"Suyo said that she only formed this new band to rebuild CRYCHIC."

Aine put on her gigolo bag and felt an unprecedented weight on her shoulders.

"If CRYCHIC can't be rebuilt...she will definitely not come back."

She came to the door of the practice room, opened it, and before leaving, turned around and looked at Lixi and Deng who were standing there like two stone statues.

"If Xiao Deng thinks it's better to rebuild CRYCHIC, then... I wish you good luck."

Aine gave the two of them a tired and forced smile and left the practice room.

Lenai followed her without saying a word, and did not even close the door, leaving it open.

"..."

Hai Ling quickened her pace, finished the remaining drink in her hand, flattened the empty packaging, packed it up and stuffed it into her pocket.

"Richie, it looks like you're in trouble."

She looked at Li Xi, whose face was ashen, with a calm expression.

Chapter 135 If you have any trouble, find Qiu Hui

"So, what are you going to do?"

Hai Ling looked at Li Xi who was bending down to comfort Deng who had fallen to the ground, and asked this.

"I……"

Although the lights finally calmed down a little, Lixi's mood didn't seem to get any better.

"You may be a little impatient." Hailing reached out and gently patted Lixi's shoulder, "Is it because something made you unable to stay calm?"

"Perhaps."

Li Xi nodded reluctantly.

Staying calm, delaying as much as possible, and explaining to everyone that Hai Ling's participation is only a temporary stopgap measure, this may be the most appropriate approach.

However, Shiina Riki himself knows that he may not always be a person who can make rational decisions.

"I don't know anything about that band, because you didn't talk to me about it in detail."

After saying that, Hai Ling stood up and started packing her things while speaking to Li Xi.

"Although I can't comment on specific issues, I think that Li Xi has a serious and emotional side. That past band must have meant a lot to you, so you can't make a calm judgment. Am I right?"

Hai Ling's tone was calm and gentle, but the way she asked questions was straight to the point.

"...Who knows? Maybe."

Li Xi blushed and said stubbornly.

Maybe it is really as Hailing said.

I… was too impulsive, so I wanted Aine and Deng to make a decision in advance while there was still room for negotiation.

As for the source of this impulse, although she couldn't say it, she actually knew it in her heart.

She hates Su Shi, but she doesn't really hate Su Shi as a person.

She just hated Su Shi's inappropriate behavior of chasing the phantom of Toyokawa Shoko.

Whenever I think of that person, emotions mixed with respect, admiration, inferiority, disgust, resentment and helplessness will emerge in my heart.

Was it because I saw myself in Su Shi, still troubled by that person's talent, charm, arrogance and selfishness, that I felt such anger?

Li Xi looked towards the light apologetically.

By doing this, what's the difference between me and Xiangzi who hurt everyone?

At this time, Deng had also stood up and silently hugged the notebook in his arms.

She wanted to say something, but she didn't know how to start. She hoped she could do something for the lamp, but she could never understand the lamp's thoughts.

Just like just now...what I did seemed to hurt her again.

"I'm sorry." Li Xi tried to apologize clumsily, "I may have said too much..."

However, to her surprise, the lamp shook its head slightly.

"Lixi is not wrong."

Deng said this, with the tears on his cheeks not yet dry.

"Maybe it's my fault."

"No!" Li Xi shouted excitedly, "Deng's idea is not wrong..."

She wanted to continue, but she felt a touch on her shoulder.

Hailing reached out and pressed her shoulder: "At least listen to what Takamatsu-san has to say first."

"...Yeah." Li Xi nodded reluctantly.

As if getting approval, Deng continued to speak his thoughts in a low voice.

"A lifetime... or something like that. Perhaps, that's really a bit... unreasonable."

“Even Aine only said that she was willing to form a band with me… until after the first performance.”

As he spoke, I didn't know if the words came from his heart, but Deng's eyes seemed a little empty.

"Should I make a choice?"

“At least this way, Aine won’t be so sad…”

"I hope that we can all be together happily all the time."

"But, if that kind of thing is impossible..."

Suddenly, the lamp shook its head as if waking up from a dream.

"……yes."

She looked at Li Xi with an unnatural, empty expression.

"As for the choice, I've already done it a long time ago, right?"

"It is precisely because I gave up Xiao Xiang that I was able to form a new band with everyone again."

"This choice... is nothing more than, just one more time..."

The light closes its eyes so that you can't see anything.

"Maybe this is how a band is supposed to be. Akiie-senpai also said that. Personnel changes are common."

"I can't accept this..."

"…Is it better not to form a band in the first place?"

"lamp!"

Li Xi impatiently stopped the light in front of him.

Then, he almost rushed forward regardless of anything and hugged the lamp, which seemed like its soul would escape from its body in the next second.

The two hugged each other in silence.

Deng did not react nor resist, but just closed his eyes and was held in Lixi's arms like a wooden stake.

Hai Ling, on the other hand, watched all this happen quietly from the side.

I didn't expect things to turn out like this, she thought.

I originally thought it was just a request for support from a friend, but I didn't expect it to be such a serious situation.

Although resolving internal conflicts within the band is generally not within the scope of the support musicians' responsibilities.

But as a friend of Riki, Hachiman Kailing felt that she had an obligation to at least do something.

However, Lixi didn't tell me much about her former band. In other words, she probably didn't think it was appropriate for me to get directly involved.

So, as an outsider in this regard, from what perspective should I approach the current situation?

Hai Ling naturally thought of a scene she had seen in the cafe before, and a name that Li Xi and other members often mentioned.

The supporting keyboardist, Togawa-san. Although she is also a supporting musician, she seems to have a very important position in the hearts of all the members for some reason.

However, according to what I learned earlier, after the first performance, Togawa-san withdrew from the matters here as agreed and focused on his own affairs.

Besides, I am not familiar with her. If I negotiate with her directly, it may not be able to achieve any results.

A more feasible solution might be to start with Liang.

Although she often behaves in an out-of-line manner, she still has relatively firm principles when it comes to serious interpersonal relationships.

Try contacting her later. As long as you emphasize the seriousness of the problem, she may be able to give you some relatively reliable suggestions.

……

Meanwhile, outside the recording studio.

"...So it takes so long to record a radio program? It feels much longer than the actual broadcast time, right?" Hong Xia sighed.

"Perhaps in order to achieve the desired effect, they need to record for an extra time and then make the selection?" Kita guessed, "And if something goes wrong, they may need to re-record or something!"