Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

Although my impulse towards her is not as strong now, and the proportion she occupies in my life is no longer as large as before, but no matter what, Aine is still Aine.

Qiu Hui reached into her pocket, ready to take out her cell phone.

“…Wait a minute, Akiie!”

Goto Ichiri suddenly rushed over and grabbed Akie's arm.

"We're going to practice later, right? So... um..."

Yili spoke timidly, as if he didn't want to reveal his true thoughts directly.

However, Qiu Hui seemed to vaguely understand what she meant.

"I understand." She nodded. "Let's prioritize practice for now."

After saying that, she took out her cell phone and set it to silent mode as she always did.

"That's great..." Ichiri nodded as if he was relieved, with obvious joy in his eyes.

Am I being a little selfish?

When the band finished and headed towards the practice room together, she had this thought in her mind.

If something went wrong with Aine, it was only natural that Akiie would be concerned.

After all, Qiu Hui has always liked her, unlike me.

However, I used the excuse of "practice" to influence Akie and made her transfer the time and energy that she was going to spend on Aine to me...

This feeling seems... quite good.

Although I feel a little bit unfair to Aine, but...

Ichiri unconsciously moved closer to Qiu Hui, then reached out and held Qiu Hui's hand.

Qiu Hui was no longer surprised by such things now, so she just turned her head and smiled at Yili to show her approval.

“…Hey, let me tell you.”

After seeing the situation of the two, Hongxia lowered her voice and spoke to Liang.

"Akie and Pochi-chan, what is the relationship between these two now..."

"Who knows." Liang shrugged, "Maybe they used some rock and roll methods to resolve the previous situation with each other."

"Oh... so, everything is fine now?" Hong Xia was stunned.

"Probably." Ryo nodded seriously. "Ah, now that I think about it, things have really changed. If I want to see Akie in the future, do I have to make an appointment in advance?"

"It won't get to that point, right? And where is the 'different' part? Akiie is still Akiie, isn't she?" Nijixia retorted in a low voice.

"But compared to when we first met, she has definitely changed a lot, right?"

Liang shook his head slightly, revealing a rare hint of loneliness.

She couldn't quite explain what it felt like.

……

Open your contact list.

Think for a moment, then turn it off.

Open it again.

Think for a moment more, then turn it off again.

Chihaya Aine was lying on the desk in her room with a small cell phone screen in front of her.

Open your contact list.

"…Senior, what are you doing now?"

Aine said it out loud unconsciously.

It seemed like she had been sitting here ever since she came back from RiNG.

Mom came upstairs several times to ask questions, asking how the band was, why I stayed in my room, whether I wanted to go out for a walk, and so on.

Basically, I just got through it.

Aiyin was the type who couldn't sit still, but now she sat in front of the desk for a long time.

Occasionally checking the band’s group chat, there was, of course, no news.

After all, I am the one who sends messages most frequently...

Aine put her phone down, leaned over the table, and put her head in her arms.

Why is this happening?

It was just to blend into the atmosphere.

Even if Xiao Deng doesn’t need me, it doesn’t really matter.

It’s not like I don’t have other friends.

However, looking at the row after row of names in the address book, Aiyin didn't have the slightest desire to confide in anyone.

Apart from Senior...it seems like there is nothing much to say.

By the way, come to think of it, Senior once said that he would ask Su Shi about the situation for me.

Did she succeed? Would Su-shi be willing to tell her? Was it going well?

I haven't received any messages or phone calls from my seniors. Could it be that they are having difficulties?

Or maybe... she was busy finishing up her band work, so she didn't have the energy to care about my affairs...

A subtle, inexplicable feeling of fear rose in Aine’s heart.

Senior, you don’t have time to take care of my affairs.

This conclusion made Aine feel as if the whole world was spinning endlessly like a top. It was crazy.

Senior...likes me.

Aine’s body curled up slightly as she lay on the table.

I...when I was depressed because of Lenai's matter before, was she also like me now, lying on the table alone, worrying about my affairs?

But in the end it turned out like this.

Because I rejected my senior.

There is nothing wrong with rejecting this matter, and my seniors must think so too.

But... I have already... rejected her like that.

And we have already agreed to get along with each other in a way that makes each other feel comfortable.

So, it is only natural that my senior paid less attention to me according to her own ideas.

Being sad about something like this should actually be considered my fault...right?

Chihaya Aine remained silent.

Chapter 142: Senior, don’t you need me anymore?

As a result, it was dark before we knew it.

Aine was a little surprised when she looked out the window. Is it already so late?

Then I thought about it again, and it seemed that my mother had indeed called me downstairs to eat. I guess that was dinner.

"……well."

Aiyin was lying on the sofa, playing with her phone out of boredom.

Still no news in the band’s group chat.

Rikki did send me a lot of messages, but since she was not good at explaining things or comforting people, she didn't know how to respond.

Xiao Deng didn't send anything. She must be as confused as I am now.

Sushi is Xiaodeng's partner in forming CRYCHIC. Is it too cruel for Xiaodeng to choose between the new band and CRYCHIC?

Logically speaking, at this time, perhaps I should be the one to comfort Xiao Deng.

Unfortunately, I'm not in the mood for that right now, sorry.

Aine smiled bitterly and continued to check the message list.

Le Nai... Le Nai is a little confusing. She doesn't usually use her phone, so she certainly won't send messages now.

As for Su Shi, she still had no reaction.

What is Su Shi thinking about now? Is it about CRYCHIC?

I don't really know much about the band's past, and even if I wanted to say something, I wouldn't know where to start.

Aine continued to scroll the screen.

The other friends I met at school basically all knew that I was in a band. I had declined their invitations before because I was busy with band affairs.

After going around in circles, Aine’s sight finally returned to the starting point.

senior……

Aine felt like she was hit by the boomerang she had thrown.

At this point, it seems I can only rely on her.

Because she is reliable. She may be clumsy sometimes and get hurt easily, but she always does what she is supposed to do.

Besides, she likes me.

Obviously I don't like her that much.

Aine, who was lying on the sofa, turned around, faced the back of the sofa and closed her eyes. The cramped and narrow space made her feel strangely at ease.

I want to meet my senior.

I want to complain to my seniors and act like a spoiled child in front of them.

I hope you can help me solve my troubles...

...No, no, no, maybe none of them need to be solved?

Aine suddenly had an idea.

Just seeing my senior running around for me seems pretty good...

This thought gave Aine an electric feeling of shame.

...What am I thinking about!

Aine sat up suddenly, shook her head vigorously, squeezed her legs together, and her whole body tensed up, as if she was being interrogated by someone.

But when I thought about it carefully, there seemed to be no one else in the room, so my overreaction seemed ridiculous.

"……well."

Aiyin sighed with her brows lowered.

I am unwilling to satisfy my seniors, but I hope that my seniors can satisfy me.

Isn't this kind of thinking... too selfish?

Looking at the phone number on the contact page, Aiyin couldn't make up her mind to dial it.

……

Meanwhile, at Qiu Hui's residence.

“Oh, yes, yes! Ugh, a little higher up… Okay! Right here! Ugh…”

Miao Meng lay on the bed, revealing her smooth back; while Togawa Akeie sat astride her back, moving her hands with a serious expression, and massaging her according to her instructions.

There was no band arrangement tonight. After finishing practice, she returned to her residence.

Normally, it should be time to rest, but Qiu Hui has not forgotten her main job as a light novel writer, so she plans to put her phone on silent mode and then type all night long.