Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

Having said that, it is not appropriate to stay in front of the computer desk all the time. Therefore, during the break, Qiu Hui planned to chat with Miao Meng for a while.

So she was instigated by Miao Meng to start the massage.

Qiu Hui thought this was a good idea.

After all, Miao Meng has been giving me massages frequently to relieve the fatigue from my desk work. It feels more appropriate to have a give-and-take relationship.

Although Miao Meng has her own massager, she seems very interested in my hands and keeps asking me to try it. So I decide to agree to her request.

“Right here! Use your fingertips to push… Uoooh! A little harder!”

Miao Meng was shouting and yelling in a relaxed and cheerful tone, while Qiu Hui was meticulously pressing her shoulder and neck muscles, which were unexpectedly strong and elastic, with her fingertips.

"Hehe, you're worthy of being a keyboard player. Your fingers are so flexible..." Miao Meng exclaimed in a soft tone.

"As long as you think it's okay." Qiu Hui didn't have any special reaction, but just continued to press Miao Meng's body with concentration.

She seems to be in a good mood now, which probably means my massage is quite effective.

During this period, Qiu Hui would occasionally see Miao Meng with a serious expression or as if he was worried about something.

Although she didn't know what was troubling her, Qiu Hui didn't intend to ask rashly, but if her current efforts could make her feel a little more relaxed, Qiu Hui felt that this might not be a bad thing.

"I say, do you plan to continue writing after this?" Miao Meng asked.

"Yes." Qiu Hui nodded, and at the same time increased the strength of her hands, "We are still a little short of the workload scheduled for today."

"Teacher Qiu Rangzi is really hardworking." Miao Meng said with a smile.

"It's the same for you, Ms. Meow Meng," Qiu Hui responded, "I often see you hanging out in the studio."

“I can’t help it. I haven’t been very motivated lately… Oh! It feels so good! So… huh, uh, it’s taking longer…”

The two of them were discussing work matters.

As for Qiu Hui's cell phone, it is still in silent mode.

……

Decided.

Chihaya Aine finally made up her mind.

She still called Togawa Akee.

Although it's a bit selfish to do this, I still want to see my senior. Even if it's just to hear his voice.

Aine couldn’t explain what happened to her.

There is absolutely no reasonable reason.

In short, I want to meet my senior.

Then, the reminder tone for waiting to be connected sounded in Aiyin's ears.

beep.

Not connected.

beep.

Still not connected.

beep.

"..."

Don’t have your phone with you?

Are you busy working?

beep.

No one answered.

Only after the notification tone of "the other party is busy" stopped did Aiyin slowly remove the receiver from her ear.

Didn't answer.

I had been worrying whether it would be selfish for me to go to my senior now and whether it would cause trouble for her.

Because, I seem to...

Aine stared at the ceiling and suddenly realized something.

…I assumed that Senior would definitely respond to my request.

no matter what.

However, the senior did not answer the phone.

Whatever the reason was, she...didn't answer.

"……ah."

Chihaya Aine smiled.

A little bit self-righteous.

I'm actually not that important, right?

Chapter 143: Togawa's Blade

call.

The long wait for the prompt tone.

Busy tone, no one answered.

Come again.

Still a long wait for the prompt tone.

Busy tone, still no one answered, of course.

At least wait a little longer before calling, Aiyin thought.

If the senior is not free right now, there is no point in calling her, right?

But he called for the third time.

What am I doing?

Aine didn't quite understand. She just mechanically repeated the process.

Calling again and again without any response made Aine's desire to talk grow, change, and twist, and finally turned into something that had nothing to do with the original intention.

It won't work, don't continue.

Aine's chest rose and fell violently. She clenched her teeth, and felt a blocked feeling in her chest as if something was strangling her.

Send a message.

"Are you busy, senior?"

Aine tapped the screen quickly.

"Please call me back when you are free."

"Please, this is important!"

"It's really important!!!"

Stare at the message interface for a while.

It seems like something is missing.

It's not enough to just say this. I need to let my senior know what I'm thinking right now.

Aine trembled as she tapped the screen.

"I'm a little confused now."

"I don't know what to do."

"If it wasn't for CRYCHIC, Sushi wouldn't have come back, right? But I'm not a member of that band, so does she not need me at all?"

"Xiao Deng was also hesitant. I know it's difficult for her to make such a choice, but..."

It got stuck halfway through typing.

But, but what?

If Xiao Deng thinks it's better to go back to that band, I...

So I deleted the message I had entered.

Although I really want to make a request to my seniors, I don’t know what to ask for.

My senior isn't even a supporting musician anymore, and I've rejected her before. It would be too selfish to cause her trouble again.

and……

...Just as I rejected my seniors, they can also reject me.

Although she knew that this was her right, it was still hard for Aine to imagine what she would do if her senior really rejected her.

It will be painful. Even if there is a legitimate reason, you will still be hurt.

Aine fell silent. I have done this to my seniors before.

I don't think I like my senior that much, but now I want to rely on her so urgently.

What on earth was I thinking at that time?

Do you think seniors are too troublesome?

Do you think her feelings are too heavy for me?

It's all your own fault.

The senior is now surrounded by all kinds of girls, and there is even Goto-san who has clearly expressed his love for her.

Will she think I'm troublesome?

Lying on the sofa and looking at the screen of her phone, Aiyin suddenly realized that she had sent several messages without knowing when. When did it happen?

"Can you reply as soon as possible?"

"please."

"You may think I'm troublesome, but please don't hate me."

"What are you doing, senpai? Band work? Light novels? I want to know."

"I can't help you at all. I'm sorry. I'm sorry."

"I've been causing you a lot of trouble lately."

"I'm really sorry, can you please not hate me?"

...What?

Aiyin smiled bitterly and shook her head, withdrawing these inexplicable things one by one.

Fortunately, it was discovered in time, otherwise...

We can’t let our seniors see these weird things.

She will be worried about me...

...No. Now, don't I just want you to worry about me?

Aiyin tapped the screen of her phone somewhat dazedly.

Otherwise, just post something.

"I feel terrible right now."

Sent out.

But it feels so weird, so I'd better withdraw it.

"sorry."

It was sent out again.