Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

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He thought he had prepared thousands of words, but not a single word was used, and only made a strange noise like a machine jam.

"Xiao Qiu, I...I..."

"...You, are still using that name?"

Qiu Hui said in a low voice and simply closed her eyes, completely blocking the other person's face from her field of vision.

do not do that.

Don't want to hear that name.

There is actually no... special relationship between me and "Yutenji Wakamugi".

Want to escape.

I'm not ready yet.

Maybe it will never be ready.

So, I want to escape.

Just don't face it.

My life is very happy... I don't need to face those things, those past events that no longer need to be mentioned, and I can... continue to live happily.

Ruomai's voice, almost crying, came to my ears.

What on earth did she want to explain...

I don't want to hear anything.

Ruomai's matter. Running away from home. Family matters.

Those are the past that have been completely sealed and blocked. They should not be touched upon again.

"...You can't disturb Xiangzi-san."

Qiu Hui forced herself to open her eyes and forced herself to look Ruomai in the eye.

"Yutenji-san is here today to discuss forming a band... Please focus on that for now."

After saying that, she looked at Xiangzi behind her and apologized to her: "Sorry. I think it may not be appropriate for me to stay here any longer..."

After saying that, she shook her wrist violently and broke free from Ruomai's restraints.

"etc!"

Ruomai watched Qiu Hui trot out the door like a statue.

Behind her, the other four people who were scheduled to form a band looked at each other.

"What...is going on?" Xiangzi was stunned.

It happened so fast that she didn't even have time to react.

Chapter 29: Counting My Sins

For a moment, Yutenji Wakumai felt that Akie was right.

Xiaoqiu's appearance was completely unexpected, and I originally came here today to discuss the formation of a band, so I accepted Xiangzi's invitation and came here.

So, I should deal with Xiangzi's situation first, and put Xiaoqiu's matter aside for the time being...

...because this is the "correct" and "appropriate" way to do it.

Thoughts like these did dominate her mind for a while.

That's why she just stood there and watched Qiu Hui trot out the door...

"…So what am I doing?"

Ruomai clenched his fists with such force that he almost squeezed water out of thin air.

Correct? Appropriate?

Things have turned out like this, haven't I learned my lesson yet?

The mess of my life in the past few years...has made me understand one thing a long time ago.

If you find something you really care about, then don't have even the slightest scruples!

"So, Akiie is now..."

Xiangzi's voice coming from beside woke Ruomai up from his dream.

So she didn't even have time to say the most casual goodbye before she followed Qiu Hui's back and rushed out the door.

"..."

The remaining four people were left standing there looking at each other in bewilderment.

"Xiaoxiang, what happened today?" Chuhua asked in confusion.

"...I don't know either." Xiangzi shook his head, "But, maybe the meeting needs to be postponed?"

……

Perhaps, the sprint race is an experience that every Yuqiu student must go through in their life.

However, Togawa Akeie did not expect that she would become the one being chased.

Although she had a head start for a while, she was not good at physical strength. Miao Meng not only exercised regularly to keep in shape, but also had a direct stride length advantage, so Qiu Hui didn't actually run very far before being caught up by the latter.

"...Yutenji-san, what are you going to do?"

Feeling the resistance from her shoulder, Qiu Hui suddenly turned her head and glared at Ruomai behind her...

"You had an appointment with Xiangzi and the others to discuss forming a band today, right? Why did you leave them behind to chase me?"

The tone that came out of her mouth even made Qiu Hui herself feel a little unfamiliar.

Because there was a hint of "anger" in his tone... How long has it been since I was angry?

Looking back, the people I faced during this period were either people I could not offend at work, or people I should not blame as friends.

The function of anger has been suppressed by Togawa Aie's rationality for too long.

So much so that, at this moment, she was no longer able to maintain a decent and calm demeanor, and from the moment this emotion was uncontrollably revealed, she could not even successfully attribute this feeling to a part of her personality.

And then again...why should I be angry?

Qiu Hui might know the reason, but she actually doesn't dare to admit it.

She fled from the previous gathering place in order to avoid the presence of Yutenji Wakamu and put an end to the stimulation this presence caused her.

Ruomai roughly tore open the old wound that had already scabbed over, causing the rotten pus and blood to flow freely, causing excruciating pain.

"I don't want to care about anything else right now... Xiao Qiu! Please, can you listen to my explanation first?"

Yutenji Wakamugi held Aki'e's shoulders and almost hugged her in his arms.

Qiu Hui struggled in vain.

If she is not prepared to fight to the death and break free even if it means hurting the other person, then her strength is actually far inferior to Ruomai, so there is no way she can break free from the restraints.

"There's nothing that needs to be explained between us."

Akie retorted coldly.

That matter has been concluded. My... self-righteous behavior has brought unnecessary trouble to Yutenji-san.

She chose to work with her sister and persuade me to give up those immature and crazy ideas, which was both emotionally and logically correct.

"My self-willed actions at that time caused you a lot of trouble." Qiu Hui's expression softened a little. "You were just acting according to common sense and following the judgment that a normal person would come to. You did something that was completely correct by general standards."

"You did nothing wrong, and you don't owe me anything... So, you don't have anything to explain to me."

Togawa Aie had already completed the trial for herself in advance.

I need to take full responsibility for this matter... and Yutenji Wakamugi did nothing wrong.

She just didn't want to accept the meaningless expectations I imposed on her...

“That’s not the case!”

Ruomai shook his head vigorously and almost pinched Qiuhui's shoulders with his hands.

“Please, listen to me. What happened back then…really, it’s not what you think…”

Facing Ruomai's slightly red eyes, Qiu Hui lowered her head slightly with an evasive look.

"I'm not blaming you." She whispered, "Why are you talking to me in this tone, as if you're asking for forgiveness?"

"Because... because it's all my fault... I..."

Ruomai burst into tears.

In fact, she couldn't explain why she cried out like that.

Maybe tears are just like this. When they think they need to appear, they will appear on their own initiative.

She looked at her old friend who didn't dare to make eye contact with her, and the apology in her heart seemed like it would burst out in the next second.

But...why?

Why should I apologize?

Shouldn't it be Xiaoqiu who should apologize?

Why do you want to leave me?

Why are you ignoring me?

I didn't do anything wrong, so why punish me like this?

The words were on the tip of my tongue, but... I couldn't say them no matter what.

Yutenji Wakamugi, even so, you are not qualified to say such things, right?

Your biggest mistake... is weakness, indecision, and lack of awareness to shoulder everything, Ruomai thought.

This weakness prevented me from persevering to the end.

This weakness has made me afraid to face Xiao Qiu directly, and I have made another mistake.

Yes. I did make a mistake. I do need to ask Xiao Qiu for forgiveness.