Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

Akie said quietly.

"I guess I'm really tired."

The tone softened slightly, taking on a hint of emotion, almost making Ruomai ecstatic.

"If you're tired, take a good rest. Forget about everything, just lie down on the bed and have a good sleep. You can think about it later!"

Ruomai said hurriedly.

"Yeah...get some sleep. Go ahead. It's good."

Qiu Hui raised her head and looked at the gray sky.

"Come to think of it, I haven't read a book, played a game, watched a movie, or gone anywhere by myself for a long time."

"Either I'm working or I'm with someone."

“I thought what I lacked was money, but even if I earned money, I didn’t know where to spend it.”

I don’t know what to spend the surplus left over every month, so I can only deposit it into the account in the name of “being prepared” and it becomes a meaningless number.

"I thought what I lacked was love. But..."

Qiu Hui felt terrified.

Whether it's friendship or even love, I have no lack of these things now.

But there is a void in my heart, which still remains bloody until now.

It's really terrible.

Could it be that even something as powerful, so correct, and so in line with the mainstream theme as "love" cannot save me?

"I don't know what I'm pursuing anymore. The only thing I can understand is this: I've been running around in pursuit of something..."

"... and even hurt a lot of people because of it."

"For example, Ruomai, you."

"I don't know...I really don't know."

Qiu Hui stopped struggling.

Aine's story. Ichiri's story, ending the band, light novels, this, that, everything in the past, everything in the present, and the future, family, this, that...

"I'm tired."

"Besides... I don't know how or what I should use to repay the harm I caused you."

"I don't want to think about it anymore."

Togawa Aie turned her head away, her eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of hazy mist.

"So, please use me as you wish."

"You can do whatever you want..."

Haha.

I can actually say such a thing.

It's just like the lines in the fan book...

…But so what?

Whatever.

Rather, I can even understand that kind of pleasure a little bit.

No need to think...

...It's really the happiest thing.

Chapter 33 I will always be with you

"Don't say something that could lead to misunderstandings!"

Ruomai's face turned red, and she didn't know where to put her hands that were hugging Qiu Hui.

Feel free to use whatever you want, do whatever you want, etc.!

Could it be that this or that thing is also possible...

A lot of things that couldn't be expressed naturally popped up in his mind, so Ruomai didn't dare to think about it anymore.

Before, this kind of proposal would probably make her very happy.

But in this disturbing situation, she felt no surprise, only fear.

Xiaoqiu is definitely not someone who would say something like this, not even as a joke!

At this moment, Qiu Hui's mental state was extremely abnormal, and one could tell something was wrong even with her eyes closed.

So, even though I don't know what to do... I have to do something.

So, Yutenji Wakumai made up his mind.

The foreshadowing of years of confusion and grief now naturally emerged.

In fact, she had already made all the necessary preparations and was just waiting for an opportunity like now.

She loosened her grip on Qiu Hui's hand, grabbed her wrist with one hand, then turned her head and spoke seriously.

"You said you can do whatever you want with me, right? Then I order you to come home with me first!"

Ruomai wanted to appear a little...dignified, but her uncontrollable uneasiness and worry made her pretentious expression seem a little funny.

"Okay." Qiu Hui nodded.

The feeling of disillusionment that she had felt not long ago, as if her soul had been drained away, had disappeared from her face.

Perhaps it was because she had recovered and had enough energy to hide her feelings, but it could also be the other way around, she no longer had the energy to "make an expression".

She simply nodded in a nonchalant manner, like a unit in a real-time strategy game that would obey the player's orders as long as the mouse was pressed.

Ruomai took a step forward and walked forward like a mother holding her child's hand.

Qiu Hui followed her silently, her steps being carried out by her rhythm and looking a little messy.

It's still hard to believe.

Togawa Aie stared quietly at the figure in front of her.

His eyes swept across Ruomai's soft shoulders and slender neck objectively and without any emotion.

It has grown up, she analyzed.

It was hard to imagine that Ruomai at that time would become like this in the future.

People, people change.

Appearance is only a minor aspect, perhaps more importantly...

"Akira, I'm really... sorry. I shouldn't have gone to Haruna-san for help."

"I... I was just too scared, so I didn't know what to do for a moment, so I didn't dare to tell you... that I am..."

Ruomai pulled Qiu Hui forward while apologizing in a slightly trembling voice.

"Yutenji-san is not wrong. I won't blame you."

Akie said expressionlessly.

"As for you using your sister's methods to spy on me... since you've already confessed to me, let's just say that your merits and demerits are offset."

Ruomai suddenly stopped, as if digesting Qiuhui's answer.

"…Since you don't blame me, then why are you distancing yourself from me?"

After saying that, Ruomai began to move forward quickly, pulling Qiu Hui along at a speed that was almost jogging.

Qiu Hui's feet staggered a little due to the sudden increase in speed, but her expression did not change even a little.

Facing Ruomai's questioning, she just had a blank expression on her face and gave a casual answer without thinking.

"I have no idea."

I don't want to think about the reasons.

So, this is the only answer I can give.

Ruomai slowed down his pace a little.

"I'm sorry." She apologized, "Xiao Qiu probably doesn't want to answer this kind of question right now."

The two of them arrived at the train station. There were not many people on the platform, so the train would not be too crowded.

"It's my fault. Xiao Qiu, I order you...don't think about anything."

Ruomai released his grip on Qiuhui's wrist and gave her a bitter smile.

“Go home and have a good rest. You can do whatever you want… just stare blankly or sleep. Even… if… ahaha, if you want to smash something or punch me… er, it’s better not to…”

"I won't do that." Qiu Hui shook her head gently, "Because it's tiring."

In fact, there are other more important reasons besides this.

But now I don't want to say it anymore, Akie thought to herself.

"That's... great. I feel relieved now."

Ruomai shook his head, not knowing whether to laugh or cry.

"Anyway, Xiaoqiu, you just need to have a good rest. Leave the rest to me."

What a shameless statement.

As the shrill whistle of the train pulled into the station, Ruomai thought to himself in a self-deprecating manner.

Do I have the qualifications to say this?

The tram door opened and the two walked into the carriage side by side.

Forget it.

Perhaps no one in this world can claim to be qualified.

But even so, even if everyone fails, I must be the one closest to the passing line.

On this point, Ruomai has a kind of confidence that is quite distressing.

He almost helped Qiu Hui to sit down, and then sat down next to her.

After sitting down, Ruomai naturally stretched out his hand and interlocked his fingers with Qiu Hui.

Qiu Hui didn't react at all. She just leaned back in her chair and closed her eyes like an uncharged robot.

It's broken already.

Ruomai gently stroked the other person's palm, feeling the slight body temperature from the other person, and felt a pulse-like pain in his heart.

Who is responsible for this situation?

Thinking of this, Ruomai couldn't help but speak.

"Xiao Qiu."

Qiu Hui slowly turned her head.

"I'm sorry to bother you at this time, but there are some things I really want to tell Xiaoqiu."

Ruomai didn't wait for Qiu Hui to reply and continued speaking.

"Xiao Qiu... you really did a great job."

She reached out her free hand and gently stroked Qiu Hui's shoulder.

"You don't actually need to prove anything to anyone."

"Even if you were born into a family like that, it doesn't mean you have to do anything..."

Oh, yes, if I were to use Xiao Qiu's usual expression...

"... That kind of thing doesn't make sense in genetics." Ruo Mai said half-jokingly, "Even if the so-called 'excellence' is related to genetic genes, it is... uh, the result of a large number of traits combining and affecting each other, and it can't be stably inherited!"

"It's like picking a hand from two winning decks of mahjong. It's normal to get a bad hand!"