Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

I looked out through the small window in front of the desk at the gloomy sky outside.

Something that should be right in front of you, but you can't see it.

Something that should be within reach, but is out of reach.

I...I should have conveyed my thoughts to everyone properly.

Whether you are willing to accept it or not, you should have a good talk first before drawing a conclusion.

but……

"..."

I wandered in silence for a long time, almost an uncountable amount of time.

Gao Songdeng said nothing as he looked out the window at the sky passing by in front of his eyes.

suddenly.

Perhaps it was an accidental gust of wind that blew away a tangled thread in her thoughts.

This thread twitched a certain part of the lamp's heart, and the impulse was transmitted, leading her to a certain conclusion.

"...Akie-senpai."

The lamp thought of her.

Or rather, it should have been thought of a long time ago.

Last time... before the band was formed, it was also her help that enabled me to make up my mind to start over.

Maybe she can help me this time too.

If it was Akiie-senpai... maybe she would understand me.

If she could help me, maybe, the important words could be said.

but……

Deng put his hands nervously in front of him.

Is this really okay?

Obviously, Senior Qiu Hui has already left.

Obviously she has her own things to do.

and……

Forming a band for a lifetime or something like that, in the end, it's just my own idea.

If I let Akiie-senpai handle it every time...is that...really okay?

I am still hesitant inside.

However, before I knew it, my hand seemed to have pressed on the screen.

"..."

Deng stared at the phone screen quietly.

Ever since the day Aine ran out of the practice room, she hasn't been in touch with Akiie-senpai.

Therefore, the news records in recent times are also empty.

Should we try to contact Akihie-senpai?

"..."

"Akie-senpai. I don't know what to do."

When I reacted, this line of words had already been entered into the input box.

Sure enough, it’s better to try to seek help.

Deng sat back in his chair and nodded slightly.

Akiie-senpai...can understand me.

Although her ideas are very different from mine, perhaps that is why I need her help.

Gao Songdeng sometimes always feels that he is out of tune with this world.

Everyone's expectations and what the world should be always seem to be different from her inner world in some way, sometimes subtle, sometimes diametrically opposed.

She was aware of her alienation from the world.

So, want to be human.

However, I don’t know where to start.

With such confusion, I am constantly looking for the direction to move forward.

So I met CRYCHIC.

Hence this new beginning.

I never became human.

However, what Akiie-senpai said might be different from what I said.

She was able to write things that I could relate to, even though she always claimed that she didn't really feel that way.

She can build friendships with everyone, work hard, and get along with the world like a real "human being".

But at the same time, she could understand my thoughts and empathize with me.

So, I want to seek help from Senior Akiie.

How should I put it...it's like a "bridge".

She can understand me and understand "human beings"...

Therefore, Takamatsu Deng finally made up her mind and pressed the send button.

"Can we talk? We can meet in person, or if Akiie-senpai thinks it's better to send a message, that's fine with me too."

Want to be human.

I want to be closer to the common sense of this world.

If... the idea of ​​"forming a band for life" is destined to be naive and will be rejected by the world.

Well, even if I have to accept this conclusion...I would like it to be announced by Akiie-senpai.

So, Takamatsu Deng pressed the send button.

Chapter 62: Li Xi's Distress

Meanwhile, inside the RiNG store.

"...So, there's still no progress over there?"

Hachiman Kailing asked the question with a normal expression, and at the same time flicked the jelly drink in front of her to the other side like playing billiards.

"..."

Across the table from her was Shiina Riki. She reached out her hand with a gloomy look and stopped the sliding drink, but she had no intention of picking it up and drinking it.

Lixi didn't wear his work uniform today, but his usual casual clothes.

Her slightly melancholy look at this moment did not reflect her usual impatience at all. Instead, it complemented her appearance, inexplicably revealing a dignified beauty.

"No progress."

She sighed.

School is about to start...

“Aine said something like ‘I’m not in the mood to think about the band right now’, and I can’t even get in touch with Stray Cat, so I don’t know what she’s doing right now. As for the lights…”

When she mentioned the lamp, her melancholy expression became more obvious, but she couldn't utter a word.

When it came to things related to the lights, she didn't know where to start.

"It seems that the situation is really bad." Hai Ling crossed her arms and nodded slightly, "I always feel that Li Xi should be more active than he is now."

“Ah, maybe…”

Li Xi didn't even have the mood to defend himself. He just held his chin and let out a long sigh.

What should we do?

Could it be that we need to find new members...

No, that kind of thing doesn't make sense at all.

Li Xi shook his head gently.

Although she didn't know why Deng thought so, at least one thing was clear.

The lamp will not accept new members.

For her, the band is...

"...Hai Ling."

"What's wrong?" Hailing responded quickly.

"I have something to ask you."

Li Xi reached out and took the can of drink that Hai Ling handed to him.

"What do you think a band should be..."

Before she finished speaking, she shook her head again.

Maybe I shouldn’t ask Hai Ling.

Although she has worked as a support staff in many places, she has never officially joined a band so far.

Hai Ling looked at Li Xi who wanted to ask something but hesitated, and said nothing.

Then, Lixi stood up suddenly.

"I...will leave first."

Before Hai Ling had time to react, she trotted out of the store quickly.

...Maybe, it's over.

After running out of the store, Lixi raised his head and looked up at the gloomy sky while breathing slightly.

I can't help with the light.

Shiina Riki realized this with great sadness.

She was extremely resistant to this conclusion. No matter what, she didn't want to admit it so easily...

But now, she realized that she seemed to have no other choice.

I don't know how to help the light.

Even if you try to do something, it will only have the opposite effect.

Li Xi clenched his fists slightly, wishing he could squeeze out water.

think carefully……

Things have developed to this point, maybe...it's actually my fault.

When we were arguing in the practice room that day, could it be that the series of events that followed were caused by what I said?

Deng hopes that Su Shi can come back.

And I…have no idea why Deng would think this way.

That’s why I called Hailing, that’s why I said those words, that’s why I pissed off Aine and she ran away, that’s why…

All I did were stupid things just to be smart.

Shiina Riki trembled slightly because of the grief coming from his heart.

There is no one else here, so there is no need to hide some feelings.

"I……"