Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

Su Shi stared at the screen with an indifferent expression, and then asked with a straight face: "What does this have to do with the other people in the band? I know what I am doing, and it is entirely my own business. Compared with others...ah."

After hearing what she blurted out, she fell into a moment of daze.

I seem to have said the same thing as Xiaoxiang did at that time without realizing it...

Looking at Su Shi who was obviously shaken, Qiu Hui put down her phone and decided not to say anything more.

Ultimately, you have to find ways to solve your own problems.

This is true for Su Shi, and it is the same for me.

Qiu Hui gently closed her eyes.

Although I can't do anything now because of my cold, once I recover, I should start making plans for the future.

In a sense, what she said to Su Shi was actually said to herself.

What I really want...

Qiu Hui opened her eyes again and looked towards Su Shi.

She remained silent and stood there motionless.

She didn't answer Qiu Hui, but Qiu Hui didn't care.

After all, Su Shi had no obligation to explain anything to me.

Chapter 67: The Real Demand

In fact, Su Shi himself knew it very well.

If we just need to take care of patients with colds, we don't actually need so many people.

Since her basic ability to take care of herself is not affected, there is actually no need for me to stay by her bedside all the time like I am doing now.

If I had to say, Aine alone might be enough.

I just... simply want to be with Akie.

However, the words written by Qiu Hui on the screen made her start thinking involuntarily again.

What do I really want?

What do I hope to get from Qiu Hui?

And, me and everyone in the band...

"…Are you going to persuade me to go back?"

Sushi asked.

And Akie responded with a slow but firm shake of her head.

"I never said that." Qiu Hui slowly raised her phone, "I just hope you can have a good talk with everyone and express your thoughts clearly."

"Even though you say that, this statement is actually... just a euphemism to persuade me to make peace with everyone, isn't it?"

Su Shi's body leaned forward slightly due to his eagerness.

"Why do you think so?" Akihime replied.

"because!"

In a hurry, Su Shi's voice tone slightly rose.

“I actually… know everything! Akiie and I… never…”

The seemingly indifferent expression that he managed to maintain was actually just an attempt to stay calm and it was shattered.

"...You...I have done so many...ridiculous things, yet you have always...tolerated me."

“Although… at this point, the only one who is still willing to listen to what I have to say is you, Akiie… but…”

As if realizing that continuing like this would attract the attention of everyone outside the door, Su Shi deliberately lowered his voice.

However, for some reason, the emotions that burst out in an instant could not be suppressed so easily.

I know.

I obviously… lied to you and hurt you, just like I hurt everyone else in the band…

…But you have always tolerated me and tried to help me.

The reason why you would do this is obvious...

"…Because, you just need to get me back in the band, don't you?"

After saying this, Su Shi seemed to have been drained of all his strength, and his eyebrows drooped.

What on earth am I...doing?

I betrayed everyone.

At this point, the only one who is willing to listen to me is Akihabara-senpai...

But the only bargaining chip I had was still that band.

Maybe Qiu Hui is right.

I never really knew what I wanted.

That's why I keep making half-hearted efforts, but end up getting further and further away from my true expectations...

Su Shi lowered his head in disappointment.

She has realized her own stupidity and ridiculousness. But...

"Of course... not."

Akie spoke, her words interrupting Sushi's thoughts.

Even though she couldn't speak for a long time due to the pain in her throat, Qiu Hui still thought that she should speak directly at this time.

After saying that, she quickly typed the text in front of Su Shi's astonished gaze, then raised her phone.

"I don't need to do that."

"As my employer, Su Shi must know that I am just a supporting musician who is paid to do the job."

"I have no obligation to do anything for the band, certainly not a 'need'."

In fact, even Aine herself doesn't seem to have much desire to continue playing in the band... Who am I to interfere in things that have nothing to do with me?

As Akie typed, she couldn't help but think so.

of course.

Even if Aine still hopes to return to the band, this is not enough reason for me to persuade Su Shi to change her position.

"I hope Sushi can communicate well with everyone. There is only one reason."

"That's what I want to do."

After saying this, Qiu Hui revealed a meaningful smile.

"I have emphasized this point repeatedly."

"But Su Shi has been making wishful and subjective guesses about my thoughts."

"Misunderstandings like these may not only exist between you and me."

"Are there more or less misunderstandings like this in the band's views on you, your views on yourself, and your views on everyone else?"

Important things are always hard to say.

Because no one can predict what the other person is thinking.

We are all just blind men touching an elephant, and can only draw rough and unreliable conclusions based on the bits and pieces of information we have gained through our own exploration.

“No matter how much you communicate, no matter how hard you try to convey your ideas, you may not get the desired results.”

"But because of this, if we do nothing, won't it be even more destined to sink into misunderstandings, and end up with a regretful ending for both parties?"

Togawa Akie typed quickly. Although she could have said these words before, she felt that she had never been so confident as she was now.

Because she herself is a living example.

I have suffered from misunderstandings caused by self-righteousness and lack of communication.

Therefore, I don’t want Su Shi in front of me to suffer such torture again.

She looked at Su Shi.

Su Shi fell into a long silence.

"Let me...think about it."

After a long time, she whispered.

She stood up and bowed slightly to Qiu Hui.

"If you need me to do anything, just text me."

After saying that, she stood up and wanted to leave Qiu Hui's bedroom.

But when her hand touched the door handle, she stopped again.

If I walk out of this door, I will have to face everyone outside...

So after hesitating for a long time, she let go of her hand again and returned to Qiu Hui's bed.

"..."

She sat down, her face grim.

"I... need to think about it some more."

She whispered as if she was reporting progress to Akie.

There's no need to ask for my opinion...

Qiu Hui smiled helplessly.

However, since Su Shi thinks this is better for her, then I have no objection.

"So... um, is there anything I can do?"

Su Shi, who didn't dare to face everyone for the time being and could only continue to stay alone in a room with Qiu Hui, asked shyly.

I'm here to take care of the patients. So I should find something to do...

That’s what Su Shi thought.

"..."

Qiu Hui looked embarrassed.

I just have a cold, it’s not a serious illness that would render me unable to take care of myself... I really can’t seem to find any area where I need care?

Thus, the two of them spent time in a somewhat subtle atmosphere.

Chapter 68: Aine and Wakame

at the same time.

“…Why is it you?”

Looking at Chihaya Aine who was busy in front of him, Wakamugi's expression was a little subtle.

Although she lay in bed and didn't want to move because of the pain all over her body, her throat was not as painful as Qiu Hui next door, so she was still able to speak relatively fluently.

"What's the matter, doesn't Meow Mengqin like me?"

Aiyin placed the water cup and the cold medicine she had brought earlier on the bedside, then smiled carelessly and sat down next to Ruomai.

Although the two of them were not particularly familiar with each other, and at best were in the relationship of blogger and audience, Aiyin acted almost without any scruples and had no intention of controlling the sense of distance.

"After all, those who came here are all friends of the seniors. To be honest, I am the only one who can be considered as a close acquaintance of Meow Meng."

Aine explained calmly while continuing with the work at hand.

"No, I mean..."

Ruomai rolled his eyes, sighed, and simply closed his eyes.