Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

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"...I would rather a stranger come. No, I would rather lie here alone." She sighed.

After all, no matter how serious it is, it is just a cold, and it is not necessary to have someone to take care of you.

Compared to the pain caused by the virus, Ruo Mai felt that... the embarrassment caused by having Chihaya Aine around her made her more anxious.

As for the reason, although Ruomai knew it very well, he really didn't know how to say it out loud.

Therefore, he could only put on such a gloomy expression and try his best to evade the question of his own thoughts.

However, Aine didn't seem to mind at all and just did what she was supposed to do step by step.

"Don't be so resistant! Come, take the medicine first..."

Ruomai opened his eyes somewhat reluctantly, straightened his back and sat up straight, then took the cup of water from Aine's hand.

The other person's harmless smile, on the contrary, further increased her psychological pressure.

The reason was simple. Although Aiyin kept silent, Ruomai knew it very well.

Because of Togawa Aki, the two of them can now be considered...

“Actually.” Aine sat down on the bed, her smile slightly faded, “I also have something I want to talk to Meow-chan about.”

It's strange, although she didn't say anything, but just by seeing her serious attitude, Ruo Mai felt that he could probably guess the next topic of conversation.

To put it bluntly, there is no real need to stay by your bedside just for a cold.

Although concern cannot be ruled out, Ruomai feels that perhaps the more important purpose is to take this opportunity to discuss things related to that "topic" with me.

"…Is it about Xiaoqiu?" Ruomai's face looked slightly gloomy.

“You mean senior? So that’s how you address him.” Aine nodded, looking normal.

Although it was just a normal reaction, in Ruomai's opinion...if the expression changed drastically, it would naturally be a strong reaction, but if the expression remained unchanged, it might also be that there was an ulterior motive.

"Is there any problem?" Ruomai responded with a slight hostility in his tone.

Although... in a sense, the guy in front of her was the one Xiao Qiu fell in love with first.

But it was because of that confusing incident in junior high school that gave her the opportunity... It seems strange to say this.

All in all, Ruo Mai realized that between this guy in front of him and me, who should be considered the latecomer... This is a messy account that is hard to explain.

“Of course it’s no problem! Rather, I think it’s pretty good!” Aine shook her head hastily, “As for me… I’ve been calling you senior since we first met, so I got used to it without realizing it… right? Ahahaha.”

She responded for the sake of conversation.

An awkward atmosphere permeated between the two of them.

Although they tried to avoid the main issue, both of them were actually very clear about the most fundamental conflict between them.

After saying that, Aine seemed to realize that there was no need to continue this meaningless conversation.

No matter how much you try to whitewash the situation and maintain harmony, some things have to be brought to the table and made clear.

Therefore, she paused for a moment, then went straight to the point: "In short, I'm here to discuss the matter of my senior with Meow Mengqin."

"The most I know about what you experienced is just what you relayed to me. So, I may never be able to understand it as deeply as you do."

As soon as Aine opened her mouth, she said these words that seemed to show weakness.

Ruomai didn't rush to respond. She knew that Aine would definitely have something else to say.

"but."

Aiyin changed the subject and looked serious.

"After that, Meow Mengqin, you and Senpai lost contact due to a misunderstanding, and we haven't seen each other for a long time. So I think that now Senpai, I still understand him better."

"...So, what do you want to say?" Ruomai asked back in a somewhat unpleasant tone.

Although she knew that what Aine said might be true... but emotionally it was still difficult for her to accept it for a while.

If it weren't for those unresolved mess, things wouldn't have turned out like this, and I wouldn't have fallen to the point where I am today... having to "discuss" with others!

But even though she was holding back some anger, she also knew that at this point, it was really hard to discuss issues like who came first and who came later, and who Akie liked more. So she could only suppress her dissatisfaction for the time being and quietly wait for Aine to continue.

“From what I know about Senpai, she is… a really troublesome person.” Aine smiled helplessly, “After being with her, I would unconsciously start to think about this and that. But I am not good at thinking about these troublesome issues. So in the end, I would feel…”

She patted the mattress gently with a serious look.

"…It's better to just leave it alone!" she concluded.

"You mean..." Ruomai seemed to have realized something and wanted to speak.

But he was interrupted by Aine.

“It’s just what you think!” Aine said sternly, “Anyway, don’t argue, don’t make it clear, don’t compare, and don’t make troublesome choices!”

Looking at the serious look on Aiyin's face, Ruomai nodded in understanding.

Although, she also has the same possessiveness as any human being, and if possible, she doesn't want to be forced to coexist with other people in this relationship.

but……

"Although I really don't want to admit it..." Ruomai lowered his head helplessly, "but maybe what you said makes some sense."

We've been through so much chaos and hardship... and now that things are finally moving in a good direction, should we not create any more complications?

"If Xiaoqiu also thinks this is a better approach..."

Ruomai only said half of her words, but it undoubtedly showed her compromise.

“Senior will definitely hope that we can get along well.” Aine smiled.

Of course, she herself was also the one who compromised.

Chapter 69: Where is your band?

After reaching the most basic consensus, the two began to chat with each other.

At first, most of the topics were related to Meow Meng's job. Although it was mostly Aine who started the conversation, the direction of the topic seemed to be deliberately taken care of Wakami.

It started with topics like foundation and fall clothes, then slowly moved on to fashion trends, and then somehow it naturally came to "pop music", and then to topics related to bands.

Since they were talking about the band, the focus of the conversation naturally ended up being Aine herself.

"...So, that's what's going on." Ruomai exclaimed.

From the time when Akie met Aine by chance while looking for a guitarist for her band, until now, Aine simply narrated the cause and effect of the matter in the tone of chatting with a friend.

“So, Senpai is really a troublesome person… To be honest, I’m really curious about what my senior was like in junior high school.” Aine said with a smile.

"Oh, that's right."

Ruomai suddenly realized something.

"By the way, the band that you were the guitarist for, Xiaoqiu..."

Aine’s smile suddenly looked a little stiff.

"Ahaha, to be honest, I feel... I feel like everyone doesn't really need me. And I don't have much enthusiasm right now..."

Aine smiled awkwardly, a bit like she was trying to make amends for herself.

Gradually, she seemed to realize that there was no point in doing this, so she stopped suppressing her thoughts and a look of obvious disappointment appeared on her face.

"I wonder if Xiao Deng is doing well now, with the reconstruction of CRYCHIC."

It just so happens that she is here now...Should I find a chance to ask her?

……

Outside.

Su Shi and Aine went to take care of the two bedridden people separately, so Deng and Li Xi, who volunteered to help, were temporarily arranged by Aine to stay outside the room.

Their main tasks were to help clean and cook. However, Ruomai had said that there were a lot of frozen foods in the refrigerator, so she also told them that there was no need to spend too much time on them and that they could just heat them up a bit.

Therefore, their main job now is cleaning...

…Having said that, the two of them were both preoccupied and couldn’t seem to concentrate on the task at hand.

Shiina Riki held a broom in his hand with an expressionless face.

Behind her was Gao Songdeng who was cleaning the window.

Since his height was slightly shorter than the top of the window, Deng could only hold a rag and jump around trying to reach the top.

Li Xi kept his back to her, deliberately suppressing the urge to say something.

The broom in his hand went back and forth over the same area, causing the dust to gather on the ground into a clearly visible trail.

"..."

Unable to speak.

Li Xi tightly gripped the broom handle in his hand and swept the floor vigorously, almost ferociously, as if this could help him forget the confusion and uneasiness in his heart at the moment.

I originally thought that I would be able to tell it to you if we could meet again.

It was because of this thought that I came to Qiu Hui's place to visit her.

But in the end I couldn't do it.

I don't know what to say or how to start.

These are relatively minor issues, merely means to an end.

More importantly, Li Xi didn't even know what goal he should achieve.

Should I persuade Deng to accept reality?

Or should I persuade her not to give up?

Or...after all, should I really, really be qualified to help Deng?

The broom stopped moving back and forth.

Li Xi silently stared at the clearly visible mark on the ground, sighed silently, and then carefully put the broom aside to avoid the dust so as not to accidentally scatter it.

Sure enough, I can only find a chance to ask Qiu Hui. Should I ask her for help?

Li Xiben came for this purpose.

But after really coming here with everyone, she felt a little reluctant.

After all, no matter what, Qiu Hui is just a support staff member who no longer intends to continue participating in the band's activities.

But, I have clearly decided to be an official member of the band with Deng for the rest of my life...

I didn't know what to do, so I ended up asking for help from non-staff members like Akihie.

Even though we were in a band together twice, I couldn't even... try to understand Deng's thoughts like she did.

I should have done it.

But the result is still not possible.

Here it is again...

…It’s always like this.

I should have done better.