As a result, it is possible to achieve success.

With a lot of doubts in her mind, Hongli turned to the next page, which should be the first diary recorded by Heiyang.

[It has been three months, and a dead person can be resurrected. It is amazing. ]

[However, to be honest, this is my reincarnation, not resurrection. Will the past become a memory forever...?]

[I feel like crying. I don’t know how sad my parents must be. I want to go back. I want to go home. Everything here is so strange. I don’t know anyone. I feel like crying. Oh, have I already started crying…]

Hongli: "Huh?"

Hong Li found that something was wrong, and she was full of questions, with her curiosity index skyrocketing.

[This world actually uses this kind of writing, why don’t I find it strange at all…]

[So, a baby like me who can understand communication just a few days after birth must be considered strange by the people here. Will they think I am a monster?]

[Yes, there are monsters in this world. I heard adults discussing the myths of flying and hiding, but they said that it is not a myth...]

[Sad, homesick, I still can't adapt to this world, I don't belong here, I feel like an outsider, I want to cry...]

[If there are monsters, there must be gods too. Could the old lady who fed me soup be the legendary Meng Po? ]

[Well, it was so unpalatable that I vomited it all up. Will she be mad?]

[Have my parents in this life finally been unable to hold back their curiosity and started exploring my thoughts?

Sure enough, he is just a little baby, but he speaks like a grown-up from time to time, and even asks for a pen and a notebook. Anyone would find it strange, right? 】

[Perhaps I won’t have the chance to continue recording later, after all, my weird behavior may make my parents feel uncomfortable.

What parents say is always right. Even if you think it is wrong, you must listen to it. This is the truth I learned from my previous life.

【I figured it out, if my parents insist on reading my diary, I must burn it before then. 】

[If they knew that I was another couple’s son before I became their son, they would definitely reject me.]

[If that happens, they will definitely kick me out of the house, and then, death will be the only thing waiting for me...]

"This person..."

Hongli frowned tightly, and couldn't help saying: "What a negative feeling! Is this Heiyang?"

How to say it, when Hongli thought of a baby who might have just turned one year old and kept talking about words like "rejection" and "death", she felt her heart tremble and feel uncomfortable.

How should I put it? Just...

It feels like when he first came into the world, he saw nothing in color but only in black and white?

[I hugged my diary tightly and looked at my biological mother and father in this life with a vigilant look.

But the two faces facing me showed no hostility, only sorrow and sadness.

Am I going too far...

A newborn child should be the most attached to his parents at this age, but I...

They will definitely be very sad, and maybe even hate this born bad kid.

I feel so helpless. I'm obviously not a child anymore. I'm already sixteen years old. Why have I suddenly become so fragile?

However, in this unfamiliar environment, I am helpless physically and mentally. I think of my parents in my previous life. Although they were strict, at least they were people I could rely on...

Until... Dad slowly picked me up. I wanted to struggle, but he called my name and patted my back gently, which was an instinctive action for humans to comfort their cubs.

The mother's eyes were a little red and she seemed a little overwhelmed. She kept repeating, "Don't be afraid, mom and dad are here." This was her first time being a mother, so she would have been scared if she encountered such a situation.

Dad held me with one arm and held Mom in his arms with the other. Mom leaned against Dad and looked at me tenderly.

Tell them, tell them everything, I suddenly had the urge to let them know all the truth.

Even if I was kicked out of the house afterwards, I accepted it. My parents are both very good parents and they don't deserve to suffer from me.

They shouldn't feel guilty at all, because it's me who should feel guilty. It's me who can't accept their passionate love, and it's me who can't get out of the memories of the past.

So, I finally made up my mind and spoke...】

Hongli was reading the diary intently. Following the narration, she returned to that day and that warm house.

She saw the family of three hugging each other tightly.

"Dad, mom..."

"Well, kid, mom and dad are here, don't be afraid!"

"But……"

The young Heiyang spoke in a sad voice: "If I were not your child, would you still be so kind to me?"

Hei Muguang said in a gentle tone: "No, you are our child. You are the flesh and blood of your mother, and you have your father's blood in your body. No one can change this!"

Qing Yiyi didn't say anything, but just kept stroking her son's back, her eyes full of love.

Little Heiyang's eyes were red, and his little hands pushed the book in his arms, which was quite large for him: "Mom and Dad, take a look, I want you to see it."

"No, no kids."

Qing Yiyi smiled and put the notebook back into Xiao Heiyang's arms: "Mom and Dad have never thought of reading your little notebook, so you don't have to be afraid of Mom and Dad..."

"for……"

Xiao Heiyang showed a puzzled expression.

"Because my baby will be unhappy."

Qing Yiyi rubbed her face against her son's little face and said with a smile: "If baby is unhappy, we won't do it. Mommy just wants to spoil you!"

[“My parents in this life seem to be a little different from my parents in the previous life?” This was my thought at the time. ]

[I felt as if the ice had melted away. My parents’ warm embrace made me feel safe in this world for the first time.

Understanding and adapting to each other and caring and loving each other, maybe this is what family is. 】

[This is twelve-year-old Heiyang. That’s right, I’m on a cross-time and space police tour. My mom lied to me back then. Every day when she wakes me up, she never cares whether I’m happy or not. Woo woo woo, even though I know it’s for my own good, I really don’t want to get up in the morning, woo woo woo…]

"Pfft!"

Hong Li couldn't help laughing out loud: "What a childish thing, you idiot Heiyang!"

(End of this chapter)

Chapter 130: Conflict with the world, the mutual redemption of boys and girls (?)

[My parents' love, without any reason or purpose, finally made me join this family.

In other words, I have always been a part of this family, but I just never realized it.

I began to try to respond to this love and truly realized the close connection between me and my parents, which is thicker than blood.

Just like my father said, in this life, they are my parents, and this is an indisputable fact.

I feel lucky to be a new member of this family.

Finally, I am no longer alone in this world. My dearest parents are by my side. My restless heart finally has a peaceful home for my soul. 】

"Yes."

Hongli nodded and sighed, "I'm so happy to be my parents' child."

【…】

[Time flies so fast, I am already three years old. ]

【…】

[It’s the New Year again, and many relatives have come to my house. I am like a small moving toy, being sent from the arms of one elder to that elder’s arms, making them laugh in all kinds of ways. Wow, it’s really hard to bear.

Passing the New Year? I think it’s passing the gate of hell! 】

"That's true. When I encountered this kind of thing when I was a kid, I would hide far away in advance."

Hong Li felt the same way: "Dear aunts and uncles, that's a real nightmare."

Unfortunately, when she grew up, for the sake of "politeness", she could no longer run away early, and could only sit "dignified" and "quietly" aside and listen to the elders laughing, revealing an awkward but polite smile from time to time to show that she was listening carefully.

In fact, her soul had already flown away and hid in a small corner with Heiyang!

[However, as I grow older, my parents still have some headaches about my personality issues. ]

"Of course, Heiyang, you are a huge burden and a huge trouble."

Hongli pouted and complained about her boyfriend.

"It's only because I like to collect junk that I can tolerate your bad temper and treat you like a treasure. Otherwise, who would want you without me? Humph!"

As for her own personality issues...

Uh……

Let’s shift our focus back to Black Sun Diary!

[They found that apart from this family, I seemed to have no interest in anything else around me, which made them worried. Terrible words such as "unsociable", "unsociable" and "autistic" flashed in their minds.

They wanted me to have a happy childhood, thinking that this would help me develop a positive outlook on life and prevent me from going astray in the future.

[This is fourteen-year-old Heiyang. Looking back now, my painting style during that period was indeed quite peculiar.

Avoiding everyone's sight, in a small room alone, he drew mysterious unknown words on a suspicious notebook, crying or laughing. The whole person seemed to be shrouded in shadows. It really didn't feel out of place to say that he was a little evil cultivator. 】

[This is Heiyang, who was sixteen years old. At that time, my attitude towards evil cultivators was still too old-fashioned. I met one a while ago. To be honest, he looked much more sunny than I did back then.]

"Don't doubt it, now you also have this virtue, but this has not changed."

Hongli rolled her eyes and said, “Also, what’s wrong with this guy? It’s clearly a diary from the past, but why does my future self always come back to complain about it?

Isn't he ashamed of reading his diary all day long? Tsk tsk."

[Actually, my parents were right. I was deliberately avoiding this world.]

[Five Colors Family, Five Elements Sect, Cultivation World, Demons and Ghosts, Immortals, Buddhas, Taoism and Martial Arts...

Some of these are very close to me, and some I may never see in my life, but without exception, these unfamiliar new words make me feel that there is always a gap between me and this world. 】

[It is said that every time traveler is lonely, because humans are emotional animals. How is it possible to abandon everything in the past, walk out, start over and no longer think about the past?

Telling jokes that no one has ever heard, telling jokes that no one understands, waking up from dreams in the middle of the night, often feeling crazy and with deep pain in the bones.

Granny Meng is right. After drinking a bowl of soup, all worries will be forgotten. If I didn't have those memories of my past life, I would definitely live happily in this world, in this big family with human touch, right? 】

[However, if I lost the memory of my past life, my personality would definitely be very different.

At that time, the person named Hei Yang may still be there, but I will disappear forever. Thinking about it this way, is it really okay? 】

"It's definitely not good!"

Hong Li said without hesitation: "If you were not of this character, how could I love you!

I want the complete Heiyang, not another person covered with Heiyang's skin.

After all, I'm not with you just because I want your body...

Uh, okay, I admit, Xiao Xiao Hei Yang, you are indeed quite pretty, but I am only interested in your body, which is completely different from how I like your personality, slurp slurp... cough cough."

[This is not good! I made a decision. I am Heiyang, the one and only me. I don’t want to become someone else.

It is because of the memories of my past life that I know how to cherish every bit of this life. When the people around me start to sprint with their eyes closed like I used to, I move slowly step by step, appreciating the scenery around me.

The road of life is so long. If you win at the starting line and run much faster than others, won’t you reach the finish line faster?

I don’t want to forget my parents in my previous life, and I don’t want to forget the interesting things in my previous life.

Happy memories will always be treasured in my heart, and pleasant memories make me cherish my current life even more. 】

[I seemed to be getting used to every little thing in this world. Suddenly, I realized with horror, why did I start keeping a diary shortly after I was born?

You know, writing secrets in a diary will obviously make it easier for them to be exposed and known to others!

But, perhaps that was my instinctive defense measure from my previous life. I didn’t want to be assimilated by this world, and I didn’t want to forget the past.

Although thinking about it now, it seems like it was a long time ago, so long ago that I can't help but doubt, did I really experience those things? Or maybe it was just a child's imagination, a setting that he gave himself through some fragmented dream fragments?

No, look at the previous diary, how could a baby be born with knowledge?

I actually began to doubt the authenticity of the previous life, and I was assimilated, which is simply too terrifying!

I don’t want to forget, I don’t want to become a different person, so I will record my diary more carefully in the future! 】

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