Re:Zero: Starting from the Great Transformation

Hear my decision.

Rudeus nodded thoughtfully.

"That's unexpected. I thought you would stay here longer."

"After all, I'm alone, so it doesn't matter how I act, right?"

"That's true. But then again, what about Sarah if you leave? Will she leave with you?"

"Sarah? This has nothing to do with her, does it?"

I said this casually.

But Rudeus frowned.

"I say, you're not that slow-witted, are you? Anyone can see that Sarah likes you."

"……probably."

I responded vaguely.

To be honest, I don't really want to talk about this topic with Rudeus.

However, Rudeus did not give up asking further questions.

"Ron, although I didn't ask, but you and Sarah... have there been any problems between you two recently?"

"I……"

I looked at Rudeus's furrowed brow.

I couldn't help but smile bitterly.

"Rudeus, you know I'm not from this world, right?"

"Yes."

"Without magic, I'm incompatible with this world. I might not even be able to reproduce. And one day I might even leave this world, so... I don't want to delay Sarah because of this."

"Ron..."

Rudeus looked at me with a complicated expression.

Prefer not to say.

Don't want to continue talking.

Because I can't tell whether that's right or wrong.

However, I think Sarah deserves someone better and a life that should have been happy.

Not a half-baked person like me.

So I thought I should leave, the farther away the better.

So far away that Sarah completely forgot I existed.

That’s what I’m thinking right now.

"Ron, although I don't know what happened between you, I think you may have made a mistake?"

Rudeus' voice interrupted my thoughts.

He stretched out his finger and pointed at the earring next to my earlobe.

"Sarah likes you, and you like Sarah too, right?"

"..."

It can't be denied.

If it was before, I could still say righteously that it was not love between a man and a woman, but just friends.

But now I can't say such self-deceiving words.

"Even if I like her, what can I do? I'm not someone who can bring Sarah lasting happiness, nor can I shoulder this responsibility. The person who can truly make her happy is definitely not me, so..."

"You're just kidding, you're just trying to escape."

Rudeus suddenly raised his voice.

I froze for a moment.

escape?

I?

I'm not running away, I'm just...

"Do you think your idea is great? Do you think you are sacrificing yourself for others? Stop joking, Ron, you are just running away! Running away from Sarah's feelings for you, running away from your own heart! So what if you have to leave one day? So what if we are only together temporarily? Just for this reason, you turn a blind eye to the feelings in front of you, Ron, you shouldn't be such a person!"

"..."

I was speechless.

I looked at my hands and recalled what I had done so far.

Is this an escape?

What I have done so far.

Was it really just a constant avoidance of Sarah's feelings for me and my feelings for Sarah?

"Are you still doubting it?"

Rudeus patted my shoulder.

He said seriously:

"Ron, you know Sarah has feelings for you, but so far, whether you've said no or agreed, have you ever really responded once? If not... that's just escaping."

"..."

It turned out to be the case.

That's it.

To this day, I have indeed never reciprocated any of Sarah's feelings.

Maybe this is what I'm missing.

"Stop talking about leaving, Ron."

Rudeus patted my shoulder.

"Even if I really have to leave, I should at least respond to Sarah's feelings before I go. I won't leave any regrets."

"...Yes, I understand."

I didn't say anything about leaving.

After leaving Rudeus.

I went straight to the hotel where Sarah was staying.

I've made up my mind.

I want to respond positively to Sarah's feelings for me and my feelings for Sarah... No matter what the outcome is, the most important thing is to have a result, rather than ending in vain.

Think so.

So I knocked on Sarah's door.

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How do I feel about Sarah?

I kept asking this question before I confronted Sarah.

At first I just thought she was a nice girl.

Later, as we continued to spend time together, I wanted to silently bless her and wish her happiness.

after that……

He sensed Sarah's feelings, but was tormented because he couldn't respond.

Until now.

I made my feelings for Sarah clear.

I think Rudeus is right.

When facing emotional problems, escape is never the right answer.

If I can't make a decision myself, I might as well give Sarah the power of choice. If she is still willing to be with me after knowing that I am destined to leave, then I will...

"crunch-"

The door to the hotel room opened from the inside.

The dim candlelight illuminated the scene inside the room.

The girl with short golden hair was wearing her usual ranger outfit and looked at me standing at the door with confusion.

"Well, good evening."

I spoke my opening remarks dryly.

Sarah tilted her head.

She leaned against the door frame with her arms folded across her chest, looking at me with a puzzled expression.

"Hey, you're here so late at night. You're not just wandering around because you can't sleep, are you?"

"No... well, how should I put it..."

My mind went blank.

I had already decided to confess before coming here.

As a result, when I wanted to speak, I didn’t know where to start.

Just when I was thinking about it.

Sarah suddenly sighed and pointed sideways into the room.

"Anyway, how about coming in and talking?"

"Oh……"

I laughed dryly and followed Sarah into the room.

Although it is a girl's room, it does not have any girlish decorations. Instead, like my room, apart from the gifts, there are only the original furniture of the hotel.

His usual bow and quiver were placed at the head of the bed.

It looked like she had just returned and hadn't even had time to change her clothes.

anyway……

There is no chair in the room at all. Where can I sit?

"What are you doing standing still?"

Sarah gently sat down on the edge of the bed and patted the spot next to her.

"Don't you feel awkward standing there?"

"Ahaha...that's true."

I laughed dryly twice.

Sarah often appeared outgoing and outgoing, but that was just a deliberate imitation of Susanna. Sarah was actually quite thoughtful and sensitive, so she didn't notice her face flushing when she said this.

I sat down and began to collect my thoughts.

Where to start?

Ok……

Sarah didn't push.