Beidiao Workplace Illustrated Book

Chapter 328 Autumn 2022 (2)

At BJ, have you ever asked yourself what you are making money for?

In September, I was either on a business trip in the south, visiting unreliable distributors with sales, listening to distributors and sales complaining about the company's problems, and telling about the benefits of Xunfei.Or, staying in the company every day, sitting at the desk all day with nothing to do, being dragged by the leader to participate in various so-called co-creation meetings at the end of work, and continuing to waste a lot of time, the whole business is New, the whole department is new, and there are endless meetings every day, and these meetings have nothing to do with my actual work.

I hate this kind of form very much, and I think that when I was in TAL, there were various meetings, various so-called co-creation, and the fact is that the TAL Smart Education Division was ruthlessly abolished, and all of us People, all their efforts go in vain.I can't help thinking that when we were in Cheetah Mobile, we also did a lot of co-creation on the JDZ project and contributed a lot of content, but later, the whole team eventually fell apart.

And the vigorous education of Byte in the past was not just recruiting and buying horses, and it was vigorous, but later the entire department was ruthlessly abolished. All those who joined Byte from major education information companies faced unemployment again, and they had worked hard. The achievements of co-creation are still in vain in the end.

So now I am particularly disgusted with this so-called conference that costs my time and energy, but co-creates something.I wish you had enough guns and ammunition for me to go to the front and not have me produce them with you.Because in the end, it is very likely that after I have worked hard to produce those guns and ammunition with you, the war has ended, and those guns and ammunition that took my time and energy can only be regarded as a pile of scrap copper and rotten iron in the end.

So now I am surrounded by all kinds of meetings every day, and I always sneer in my heart. If a person walks a lot, he will know which roads should be taken, which roads should not be taken, which roads are detours, and which roads are wrong.I watched their angry faces at the meeting, and felt that this move was very familiar, but it was more desolate.

On Thursday night, when I got off work at 06 o'clock, the leader suddenly took me to a meeting at 30:[-], entered the meeting room, and continued until [-] o'clock, without a break or meal in the middle. Go and participate.I saw that the leader didn't intend to end the meeting, and guessed that the meeting would last until after ten o'clock in the evening, so I decisively left with an excuse, regardless of what the leader thought or saw.

A person will only be willing to devote his blood to something that he loves enough.I have long lacked the love and interest in wisdom education a few years ago.

From July to now, in the past three months, due to various changes at work, I wasted a lot of time and distracted a lot of my mind.What really makes people feel spiritually happy, full of heart, and full of fighting spirit in life should be to leave the right time for the right people and the right things.And during these three months, I feel that I have been giving my time, a lot of my personal time, to the wrong people and wrong things, so that until today, time is in a vicious circle, so I I was troubled for a while, confused for a while, and at a loss for a while.

I fell into anxiety. Behind this anxiety, I want to leave the current company more and more, and even leave BJ.

Why do you want to leave your current company?It is because there is no sense of accomplishment, no sense of security, and no interest in the attributes of the job and the content of the business.What's more, why can my former colleagues earn 30K a month, but I earn 26K?It is still an industry attribute. The salary of the smart education industry itself is relatively low, and my colleagues are in the Internet data governance industry, so if I want to change jobs again, I will definitely return to the smart city, data governance and other industries. Returning to the river of wisdom education, only after wading through the water did I realize that I could no longer love it again. If I went ashore, I would never return.

Why leave BJ?Because I have been in BJ for eight years. During the full eight years, I have earned the money I should earn and learned the things I should learn. I have a house in my hometown, a car with a license plate in my hometown, and a six-figure deposit.I drift like this in BJ every day, what am I pursuing?Pursuing a salary of 30K a month?Or more income?Pursuing to buy a better car or a bigger house?Seeking to settle down in BJ?
No, not at all. I have always been a person who does not have high requirements for material life. I never care about food, clothing, housing and transportation, because I pursue spiritual and inner wealth more.I never thought about staying in BJ. Instead, I feel more and more meaningless in BJ. I envy those who have a family, a job, and relatives and friends in second- and third-tier cities. Two months ago, I got off work at seven o’clock in the evening. Walking out of the subway and walking towards my rental house, I suddenly felt very lonely and boring in the city of BJ, and I really didn't want to go back to my rental house.Then the mobile phone text message reminded the salary to arrive in the account. I looked at the salary of 17000 yuan and asked myself, did I earn a lot?Want more?Where can more go? Is 20000 enough? Is 25000 enough?You go to work every day to make money, what is it for?
Then, I kept asking myself all the way, in BJ, you are busy every day, go to work, work hard, work hard, make money, what is it for?To make more money?How much money do you earn every month?How long will it take?

Last month, my high school classmates had a reunion in my hometown, but I didn't attend because I was in BJ.Through the videos and photos in the group, as well as the address books of the students, I saw that most of the students returned to their hometowns after graduating from college, and now they are married and have children in their hometowns, and have passed the career editor. I am very envious.Compared with many people like me who are wandering in BJ, we have come to BJ with dreams and many long-cherished wishes since we were in our early 20s. Now, we are already 30 years old, and our careers are still nothing. The cruelty of the workplace still makes us feel helpless A sense of security, but marriage and family are still blank. I want to go back to my hometown, but I can’t go back, because I’m afraid that I won’t have a job after I go back, and it’s hard to accept the gap between reality and my heart.And staying in BJ is even more difficult to take root. It seems that the hometown is the hometown that can’t go back. BJ is the BJ that can’t stay. So what is the purpose of making money?
Every day in the family group, I watch my sister send various videos and photos of my niece. I like it very much. My sister has no schooling. She is married and has a child at the age of 23, but I always feel that she is happier than me and happiness.

I have been in BJ for so many years. In the past few years, I seem to have been thinking that I want to make money in BJ and realize my dream.But this year, I changed a lot of stubborn thoughts. This change of thinking may come from the envy of other people's lives, from the reality that hits me again and again, from various resistances in the road of life, and from too many uncertainties. The reasons for this come from being tired of wandering in the city, from the gradual maturity of my mind, from the initial satisfaction of material life, and from more spiritual pursuits.

What I'm thinking about now is, I think, I'm leaving BJ. I'm leaving BJ not because I can't get along here anymore, but because I don't want to get along here any longer.After seeing the reality and the status quo clearly, I became more rational.

I think, when I save another 20 next year, by the end of the year, I won't be in BJ anymore.Go to a new city, have your own house, no longer go to work step by step from [-] to [-], temporarily avoid the fireworks in the world, and live alone and yearn for a life.Read, write, run, exercise, change yourself in one year, pursue your ideals, and enjoy all the gifts that life and years have given you.

Liu Haifeng

Sunday, March 2022, 9
(End of this chapter)