Love is like sugar and marriage is like water

Chapter 14 Random thoughts

Worry, fear, uneasiness, irritability...

These feelings were vaguely felt by Zhao Ji after meeting Li Shi yesterday.

However, after Zhao Ji slept for a night, these negative emotions faded away, or were suppressed by the desire to see Li Shi.

Early the next morning, Zhao Ji drove to Li Heng's place again.He was really not sure whether he really fell in love with Li Shi.

"Don't think so much, just take it one step at a time!"

Zhao Ji thought to himself.

"No matter what, the relationship between me and her is, at least to say, sincere. It is neither hypocritical nor artificial. If we are in love, what's wrong with it?"

He missed her, cared about her, and yearned for her.

The unfortunate experiences that have happened to her in the past are arousing his attention, and her unpredictable fate in the future is arousing his attention——

He was genuinely happy at their unexpected closeness.

Ok……

Zhao Ji felt that he only started to understand her in a real and substantial way only from yesterday. Everything he saw about her from his eyes before was just superficial.

Because in the past few days of contact, until yesterday, she had always avoided him, and she had never had such a cordial conversation or contact with him like yesterday.

Only by talking can we understand.

Only through contact can we feel...

Is not it?
Although there was no talk about the emotional level yesterday, Zhao Ji felt that it was enough. After all, they had just started contacting each other, so take your time and don't be in a hurry.

If you do it too hastily, it will be unsightly, or even haste for the sake of speed. Going against the rules and pursuing speed will not only fail to achieve your goal, but will also be counterproductive.

From Zhao Ji's perspective now, Li Shi has slowly entered an emotional state.

She could finally open her heart in front of Zhao Ji without being secretive. This was always something that Zhao Ji was happy about.

In front of Zhao Ji's eyes, her appearance was so beautiful that she showed such a charming and intoxicating brilliance - her skin was as clean as snow, her hair was as dense as weaving; her eyes and veins were charming, and her lips were as red as red pills.

This appearance shyly reveals such a mysterious charm...

For Zhao Ji, the feeling is that there is another world, a novelty of abandoning the same and being different.

Zhao Ji parked the car at the foot of the mountain, climbed up the familiar stone staircase with energy and dignity, and kept looking up at the B&B with a light red door on the top of the mountain.

He cherishes the present and does not think about the future—not even about tomorrow.

Why think about it?

Don’t expect, don’t assume, don’t force, just let nature take its course.If it's destined, it will happen.

Therefore, Zhao Ji was satisfied.Like a little bird flying in the sky, free and happy; like a cloud wandering in the sky, swimming leisurely.

When he walked into the small courtyard, Li Shi saw Zhao Ji coming in, and his face suddenly turned red.

He was surprised to find that she had dressed herself up beautifully again, but the expression on her face was extremely inconsistent with her outfit.

Wearing extremely bright clothes, mainly red. ——A light pink long gauze skirt, a rose red brocade jacket, and a short pink belt around the waist.

But his face was extremely melancholy. ——A pair of sad and unhappy eyes, a pair of sad and sentimental frowns, and a pair of lips that are dry and anxious.

"What is she worried about?"

Zhao Ji thought to himself.

He even thought that according to Li Shi's own habits, she would run away or slip away after seeing him.But this time she seemed to be an exception. Instead of doing so, she came out to greet him warmly.

Li Heng was immersed in the self-righteous emotions of a novelist - the joyful enthusiasm and ecstatic excitement...

For budding novelists, this sentiment often occurs when they think they have succeeded in writing something, "capturing the brain's inspiration," as they say.

It can't be controlled no matter how hard it is.

Li Heng sat at the table with a laptop on it.His hair was unkempt and his beard appeared to be unshaven.He was waving his fingers on the computer keyboard, up and down like playing a piano.

Seeing Zhao Ji come in, he nodded to Zhao Ji with an almost menacing look, which shocked Zhao Ji.

Then Li Heng squinted his eyes, ignoring Zhao Ji's frightened expression, and focused on typing his novel on the keyboard with his fingers.

Zhao Ji didn't want to disturb Li Heng, so he sat down next to Li Shi.

Li Shi's dark eyes, as if they had been dyed with oil and ink, slowly turned around and looked at Zhao Ji longingly.

"Haha, Ashi, I feel that you look completely different today than yesterday." Zhao Ji said.

Because Zhao Ji tried several times to make a smile on Li Shi's lips, but it was all in vain. This is what Zhao Ji said to her. "How am I different?"

"You look so sad today, even though you're dressed up so beautifully!"

"No, it's not what you think. I'm not depressed."

She argued in a calm, hoarse voice.

"It's nothing, though. I didn't sleep well, and my thoughts were all over the night."

"What are you thinking about?" Zhao Ji asked softly and gently.

"Hehehe, I think a lot. I have had this habit since I was a child. I am extremely sensitive to everything and like to think wildly. This started when I lived with my mother..."

She racked her brains and thought hard to say this sentence, and then repeated it again.

"When I lived with my mother... I thought about it, why did my parents give birth to me? Don't they know what will happen in the future? Why does my mother always lie to me? Why did they all die and stay? I bear all this pain alone..."

Zhao Ji was speechless...and listened to her continue.

"Then I thought, my parents are no longer alive, there is no one to guide me, I don't understand anything, what should I learn well? Zhao Ji, tell me."

Before Zhao Ji could speak, Li Shi said again.

"I can't do anything, for example, I can't play the piano, I can't draw, I can't recite... I can't even knit well."

……

"Zhao Ji, I have no ability at all. If you are with me, you will definitely be depressed and depressed. You pretend to be happy to trick me into being happy, right?"

Li Shi became more and more excited as she talked, and finally burst into tears uncontrollably.

"Don't cry, okay? When you cry, I don't know what I should do? You have an incorrect view of yourself." Zhao Ji persuaded, "Actually, you know a lot of things. You are smart, beautiful, and confident... "

"Am I smart? Am I confident? I am very stupid and have low self-esteem. Are you mocking me by saying this?"

she asked in that innocent, intellectually curious manner.

This made Zhao Ji couldn't help laughing.

"What are you laughing at?" Li Shi saw Zhao Ji smiling and burst into tears himself.

Then he turned to Li Heng and asked: "Brother, am I smart? Am I confident?"

"That goes without saying! Of course you are smart and confident." Li Heng answered her briefly and continued to write his novel. He was immersed in the characters and plots of the novel, nodding his head like a pigeon.

"Sometimes, I don't even know what random things are going on in my mind." Li Shi continued with her original contemplative demeanor.

"To be honest, sometimes I'm afraid of myself - I have low self-esteem, I'm clumsy... I can't do anything. Alas, I really hope that I can become smarter and more confident. As a girl, shouldn't I have to learn a lot of things?"

"It doesn't take much, but..."

"Please tell me, what should I know? Please tell me, what should I do? As long as it comes from your mouth, I will do it according to your request and do it. Good for everything.”

Li Shi prayed again.

She also had a childlike look and a tone of full trust.

Zhao Ji kept searching in his mind, but for a moment he couldn't find the right words to answer her or comfort her. He didn't know what to say just right.

"Zhao Ji, wouldn't you feel depressed if you were with me?"

"No, of course not, where did you go? It's too late for me to be happy, so why do I feel depressed?" Zhao Ji said.

"Okay, thank you! Just don't lie to me. I don't like it when you lie to me." Li Shi said, "But I think you will definitely feel depressed when you are with me."

After that, as if to curry favor or comfort Zhao Ji, she took Zhao Ji's big hand with her warm little hand and held it tightly.

Zhao Ji suddenly felt an electric current flowing through his body...

"Well!" At this moment, Li Heng suddenly shouted, "The plot of my novel should be good, right? Zhao Ji, come and take a look."

Zhao Ji broke away from Li Shi's little hand and walked to Li Heng's computer.

Seeing this, Li Shi stood up and walked away.

An hour later, she came back, standing by the door and waving to Zhao Ji to come over.

"Hey, Zhao Ji." She said, "If I really die, will you pity me?"

　I hope you enjoy my new book.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)