The Spirit World

Chapter 798 Someone Finally Exists
I am extremely sad...

Because I often thought that my heart had suffered immeasurable trauma, but as my experience grew, I felt that my trauma was nothing more than a superficial pain to him.

Then, I reflected from the bottom of my heart on why I was like this.

Where should I find the balance between my ego and my true self?
Am I really mediocre... Do I really have nothing? In the world I know, is my existence still needed?
I doubt myself deeply, and I can’t think of...how I should straighten out my life.

Although I can say it, I can't actually do it...

I am a person who looks cowardly, honest, law-abiding, and content with the status quo - there are too many things I don’t understand - and there are too few things I can understand.

My life experience is not enough to support me, whether it is independent thinking or completing this unfinished life. I simply cannot free myself from this shackle-like time... I have become... so insignificant...

I started thinking about my life very early.

Since I was abandoned, everything about me has been looking back in the past... so much so that I have been standing still for a long time... a long time... This is a shadow of my life. Whenever I look at those eyes that I will never forget - the eyes that I will never have again - I look at their mothers, their... fathers...

I know I may never hug them again in my life.

Even though they are still alive.

Now, they are dead...

What is there for a person like me to think about?

I am almost...nothing...Can you understand my feelings? I have never thought about my gratitude to my parents...

Because I don't need to think... I just need to live my life well...

But I also deeply understand that everything I have is nothing... insignificant... non-existent... just my fantasy...

Because I have almost nothing...

I always think about this... What do I... own? The answer I get is that I don't own anything...

I deeply regret...

No...I shouldn't regret...because I have nothing, and it has nothing to do with myself...

My parents abandoned me...

When they were alive, they abandoned me... When they died... I also... never saw them again...

I have no way to imagine them, because I really can't do such a thing...

I am just a person who has lost all the luck in the world...

I have nothing since I was born, I know this clearly, I can't be like other children - except me, except me and my poor little bastards - who lost their lives...

From the beginning, everything was lost completely.

If I didn’t have a friend in the orphanage… I think… I would have completely lost… something I didn’t want to lose…

Have I ever owned anything?

I did have those things... things I could see...

For example... my body, my tiny soul, my... complaining heart...

I was so angry... because I had to do this to make me understand, to look back at my past in pain! I had to! Change him!

I am not a useless person!

I am not a waste that can be abandoned by others!

I am not a soul that can be manipulated at will!

I want! I want revenge! I want revenge on everything that gave me life and raised me!
I want revenge on my parents!
They brought me into this world! But they completely abandoned me! They brought me into this disgusting world... What kind of fairness are you talking about? What kind of fairness are you pursuing? What kind of fair world are you creating?

Without your parents, you are nothing!

Without your parents, you are nothing but a speck of sand among all things, a lowly soul, an abandoned thing to be laughed at at will!
Without the connections, education, and assets that your parents gave you, how could you have ever possessed the resources in this world that could be traded with money from a tiny child?

You are nothing but... ants among ants... How do you have everything? How do you get everything? How do you! Stand firm in this world?
Such a tiny place, yet you are still thinking about everything and all these tragic and foolish actions?

How ridiculous!

It’s ridiculous!

It's really a big joke in the world!

In your life, don’t you ever think about where everything you have comes from?
There is no compassion for myself, no pity for myself, and no...huge resentment towards myself!

you!
you!
you!
you!

One by one of you!
You lost your parents! What's left?! How much is left that you can see...conspiracy?
You have nothing left...

Because you are the kind of people...

It's your parents who made you like this!

It's you! And him! It's them! Who made you like this!
Give me! Take everything you have! Lose it all! Throw it all away! Destroy it all!
What is left of you? You miserable people!

You! Pathetic humans!

Poor human beings!

damn!
Humanity!

I'm going to take you!
all!

Everything! Destruction!
No one can! Stop me!
No one can stop me!
No one can!
Disobey me!

[What I hate the most is nothing more than... my own birth... and... everything about humans... everything that disgusts me...]

[How I wish... that I was... a thing... that had never existed in this world.]

[Instead of being abandoned at will from birth... everything... disgusting...]

[It is not an easy thing to destroy the entire human race! ! But! As long as I exist! As long as I exist, if there is a day when I want to destroy humanity! I can! Do it! ]

[Want to destroy humanity! It's too easy! I don't even need to put in any effort! I can just let them kill each other! ]

[Follow my call! Follow my power! Follow me! What I have!! Great power! I will use you! To catch all humans in one fell swoop!]

[I need it! I need it! I need more! Filthy souls! Souls that rival those of worthless humans!

I will shape you into weapons that can destroy the world! 】

[No! Hahahaha! You yourselves! Have the heart to destroy the world! Follow me! Follow me! Let this world be destroyed together!]

[I really can’t figure it out…]

Why do some people love this world...

Maybe it’s because they haven’t suffered much…

This can't be blamed on them... If I have to blame someone, I should blame myself... I can't! Use my greatest malice! To defeat them!
Let them cry! Go find their mothers!
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