Chapter 41 Going Home (-in-)

"...Beauty? Beauty!"

As the driver's voice got louder and louder and finally turned into a shout, Li Shiying, who was sitting in the passenger seat, finally responded.

She seemed to have left her body for a moment, or as if she had fallen into a deep dream. At this moment she suddenly woke up, her breathing suddenly became rapid, and waves appeared in front of her.

"Beauty, are you okay?" the driver asked worriedly.

From the moment she first got in the car, she noticed that something was wrong with Li Shiying.

In other words, Li Shiying's dejection was visible to the naked eye.

The white dress was covered in dust, as if it had rolled in the mud. Her black hair was disheveled, and her face and hair were covered in cream.

Her appearance was already disheveled enough, not to mention her mental state. She looked like she had lost her soul. After she said a destination, she didn't move at all. She sat there like a puppet, motionless.

If it weren't for her rosy face, the driver would have thought he had seen a ghost.

It's the middle of the night, don't scare her, she has children and parents to take care of...

This is also why the driver was willing to let such a dirty Li Shiying get on the car.

Although she didn't know what happened to Li Shiying, she didn't want to be the last straw that broke the camel's back.

If the passenger seat is dirty, you can just clean it up later. It doesn’t cost much money.

Besides, it’s not easy for everyone.

Hearing this, Li Shiying turned her head stiffly and slowly.

She seemed to have just remembered where she was and what she was going to do...

Li Shiying was fully aware that her current condition was not suitable for driving, so she stopped a car.

The facts have indeed proved this point. If she had been holding the steering wheel, she might have crashed into a big tree on the side of the road.

but……

Isn’t this also good?

Li Shiying stared blankly at the thick tree in front of her, and a scene emerged in her mind of herself sitting in the driver's seat, being squeezed and hit beyond recognition by a powerful force.

She didn't feel any fear in her heart, instead she felt relieved.

Because if it ended like this, she wouldn't have to face a bleak future.

Moreover, Gu Qing must be able to guess why the accident happened to her.

When he shows up at her funeral and sees her pale face, will he feel even a little bit of hatred for her?

What about sympathy?
Thinking of this, Li Shiying suddenly smiled and shook her head.

She is not even afraid of death, so why doesn't she dare to imagine more boldly?
——At this moment, Gu Qing was waiting for her at home.

Li Shiying took out the wallet she had prepared before leaving, took out a dozen red banknotes from it, and handed them to the driver: "Thank you."

Then she opened the door and got out of the car.

The driver was left sitting there, stunned, and after a quick count...

One thousand and three.

She immediately rolled down the car window and yelled at Li Shiying, "Sister, don't be upset! How about we go have a barbecue and chat for a while?"

Li Shiying turned her head and saw the driver looking nervous and uneasy. He seemed to have misunderstood her behavior and thought she might commit suicide.

She smiled and waved her hand: "It's okay, Master, you can go. My boyfriend is waiting for me at home, how could I be so upset?"

Zundu and fake toot?

The driver was startled. Li Shiying didn't look like she had a boyfriend waiting for her at home. Instead, she looked like...

My boyfriend died.

However, just giving a reminder was already her limit. If she really got out of the car to stop others as Li Shiying said, it would be very embarrassing and cause a misunderstanding.

Finally, the taxi drove away, leaving behind a roar that gradually faded away in the silent night.

Li Shiying turned around and was about to walk towards the residential area, but just after taking a step, she could no longer move forward.

In front of her were two neat rows of trees. The dense leaves formed mottled shadows under the moonlight, which intertwined and overlapped with each other, making the ink color even richer. In Li Shiying's eyes, the strange shadows seemed to suddenly come alive and began to show their fangs and claws, as if as long as she stepped into them, it would turn into a ferocious beast that would choose its prey, open its bloody mouth and swallow her into its stomach.

Li Shiying bit her lower lip almost out of habit, and accidentally touched the place where the blood scab was formed. The pain instantly went straight to her head, making her heart tremble, and she took a step back.

Only then did she realize the significance of the thirteen thousand yuan she had just casually thrown to the driver.

She's asking for help.

Her subconscious mind had already decided to die, otherwise she would not have imagined her own tragic death. Her desire for life and her instinct made her subconsciously seek help from the only driver around her.

But how could she be so fragile?

It's just pitch black, what's so scary about that?

Li Shiying took a deep breath and finally stepped into the community. When she stepped on the shadow, she found that she was not afraid in her heart.

Yes, in Li Shiying’s impression, she also doesn’t remember being afraid of the dark.

Suddenly, she seemed to have thought of something, and tears almost burst out again.

She is not afraid of the dark.

But I was afraid that this road home would come to an end, but Gu Qing would not be there...

But in the end, Li Shiying still walked up the stairs step by step. When she raised her thumb to unlock the fingerprint lock, she realized belatedly that she had returned to her doorstep.

Inexplicably, Li Shiying was not afraid anymore. She was like a death row inmate who was about to be executed. She might have been panic-stricken before, but when the gun was really pointed at her forehead, she was left calm.

Her emotions exceeded her limit for the second time tonight and she exploded.

"drop--"

With a crisp sound, the door was successfully unlocked. Li Shiying put her hand on the door handle and hesitated for only a moment before slamming it open.

A dim light appeared in the darkness, causing Li Shiying's breathing to stop, and then indescribable ecstasy surged in her heart!

Any emotion that reaches the threshold or exceeds the limit is fake! She is deceiving herself and pretending to be calm. As long as there is a faint ray of hope, she can have hope again and again and pursue it desperately.

"Qingqing!" Li Shiying said excitedly, her voice breaking in an instant.

But when she rushed into the entrance hall, all she saw was a dim and weak light from the dining table.

Apart from this, all other places were pitch black. The living room, balcony, corridor outside the bedroom... all were quiet, without any signs of human activity. The deadly atmosphere filled her face, making Li Shiying almost unable to breathe.

She bent down and lowered her head, then suddenly raised her hands to grab her chest, gasping for breath. Only in this way could she ensure that she would not suddenly faint.

From great sorrow to great joy and then to great sorrow, this overly drastic change of emotions made Li Shiying pull the corners of her mouth and reveal a weak smile.

Qingqing, are you punishing me on purpose?
Give me hope, but also make me despair...

However, can I be so shameless as to think that you still care about me, even if you hate me?
Otherwise, why would he come back home and turn on a small light after leaving my party?
Li Shiying drew a trace of clean water from the dirty mud, her breathing gradually became steady, then she stood up and raised her head.

She adjusted her mindset again.

But when Li Shiying took a step forward and was about to turn on the incandescent light, a flash of white in her peripheral vision caught her attention.

She turned her head slowly, and her body trembled suddenly.

On the medium-sized dining table, there lay a creamy white cake with candles on it that hadn't even been lit yet.

Li Shiying's eyes were sore and she was about to cry. Her voice seemed to be full of grievances: "What are you doing..."

She knew she was an emotional person, but she had already experienced enough emotional fluctuations tonight, hadn't she?

But why...why every time when faced with things related to Gu Qing, she would be easily defeated, time and time again.

Li Shiying suddenly thought that she felt that she seemed to have become much stronger over time. She could deal with all kinds of difficult enemies in business rationally, even opponents who used underhanded tactics.

However, it was not until this moment that she seemed to understand that it was not the business training that made her rational little by little, but her love for Gu Qing that made her strong.

Every day I like it more than the day before, and every day I become stronger than the day before.

Li Shiying took a step back stiffly, and the cake suddenly disappeared from her sight, then reappeared in front of her.

She seemed to be able to imagine Gu Qing's ingenuity. He knew where she would stand to change her shoes, so he adjusted the angle of the chair to cover the entire small cake tightly. After she finished changing, she could take a step forward, jump over the chair and see this surprise.

"surprise!"

Gu Qing's voice seemed to ring in Li Shiying's mind.

Then she smiled.

Gu Qing, it turns out that just thinking of your voice can fill me with courage.

Even if only temporarily.

Li Shiying took the courage brought by Gu Qing's voice, walked towards the dining table, pulled out a chair and sat down.

Then she couldn't laugh anymore.

Because she was close, she realized that the cream on the side of the cake was uneven in thickness, which was impossible for a cake shop to produce, because if they did that they would not be able to stay in business and would go bankrupt.

Then there is only one answer, this cake was made for her by Gu Qing himself.

Li Shiying no longer felt upset. She just stared at the cake blankly, her brain seemed a little numb.

Gifts are a strange thing.

Although it is often said that gifts are more about the thought behind them, this also varies from person to person.

Only when the other party is not short of money will we value the intention more.

Once the other person is a little poor, a carefully prepared gift may not even be as valuable as a hundred dollars in his eyes.

So which one is Li Shiying?
Of course it was the former. At today's birthday party, the children of her mother's friends gave her so many gifts, but in her eyes, none of them was as happier than when Gu Qing said "Happy Birthday" to her on her previous birthdays.

If she hadn't broken up with Gu Qing, she would never have agreed to her mother's idea of ​​holding a birthday party.

Although in the end, she still received Gu Qing's "Happy Birthday".

But even in the previous second, Li Shiying thought that Gu Qing had known her identity for a long time, and came to her with anger and pain accumulated for several days, threw out half a million, and said the words that made her face pale.

Until this moment, she saw the cake made by Gu Qing herself.

Originally, this kind of thought was enough to make Li Shiying happy for a whole week.

But when she came back to her senses, the pain as if her heart was being clenched made her eyes red again.

Before coming to the banquet, Gu Qing didn’t know, Gu Qing didn’t know…

Because yesterday, he made a cake for her personally, and even last night, he was waiting for her at home.

Li Shiying finally knew where the light came from.

Gu Qing wanted to give her a surprise.

It was Gu Qing who was leaning against this light, waiting for her to come home...

Two lines of tears slid down her cheeks, and Li Shiying's delicate body kept shaking. Obviously, if she went home, she and Gu Qing would be able to reconcile as if nothing had happened, so why didn't she come back to take a look?

Yes, at that time Song Ruoli tried to dissuade her, saying that if she went back now, all her efforts would be wasted.

Li Shiying stopped trembling because her body had turned cold, and her heart and eyes also turned cold.

Song Ruoli, her...

Good sisters.

Does Li Shiying blame Song Ruoli?
Of course it was strange. If it weren’t for her, things between him and Gu Qing would never have come to this point.

But Li Shiying blames herself more.

Because it was she who chose not to believe Gu Qing, right?
Even Gu Qing wanted to break up with her completely because she had concealed her identity from him from the very beginning.

What was I thinking at that time?

Do you really want to give Gu Qing a surprise in the future?

It was just like how Song Ruoli had provoked her before. Deep down in her heart, she wanted to test Gu Qing...

Even if she and Gu Qing reconciled this time, when she came clean and revealed her identity on his birthday, this might be the fate that awaited her.

When she and Gu Qing met for the first time, she made a huge mistake.

Then the final result is not surprising.

That's right, that's it.

She was destined to lose Gu Qing, and she couldn't blame anyone else but herself.

So, there is nothing to be sad about.

Li Shiying stared at the cake with her beautiful eyes without blinking until her vision blurred, then she blinked quickly a few times.

She dropped many little pearls.

What a shame.

Li Shiying smiled again. She thought of how every time she felt wronged and wanted to cry, Gu Qing would smile faintly and say, "Isn't it embarrassing for a grown-up to cry? I know I was wrong, and I will definitely listen to you next time. I'm sorry."

Then he would make the same mistake again next time and continue to make her angry.

It was purely intentional, so bad.

Li Shiying was crying and laughing, but only her eyes were crying; the corners of her mouth, cheeks, eyebrows... were all smiling.

Ok.

Li Shiying felt that she had adjusted herself again.

She looked at the cake in front of her, picked up the lighter beside her, lit the candle on it, and then blew it out.

No closing of eyes, no making of wishes, and no birthday song.

Nothing, just a formality.

It seemed that only in this way was she qualified to eat the cake.

Although this cake was made by Gu Qing herself, it was also made in a cake shop, so the knives and forks were naturally provided and placed next to the cake.

Li Shiying picked it up and couldn't help feeling a little relieved.

This way she wouldn't have to stand up to get the dishes from the kitchen. She was afraid that if she stood up she would become unstable and fall headfirst, and then her food would rot and stink in the kitchen.

So will Gu Qing come to her funeral?
Or will you think of her every time you cook in the kitchen?

But the biggest possibility is perhaps that he is still by Lin Yuwei's side, surrounded by wealth and happiness, and thus completely forgets about her?
Who cares about the life or death of a stray dog ​​on the roadside?
Li Shiying was slightly stunned when she looked at the half cake in front of her that had been cut at some point.

She had died in her own mind for the second time tonight.

Forget it.

Reality doesn't die.

Even if I have to die, I should die in front of Gu Qing, so that Gu Qing will remember me forever...

Well, this is the third and final time!
Li Shiying tried her best to control her brain and stop herself from thinking about it, because once she thought too much, it would become a hint, and maybe one day in the future, she would have to cosplay as Superman for a few seconds, and then finally cosplay as Shiying.

Well, playing myself.

Thinking this way, Li Shiying finally picked up the fork, picked up the cake, and put it into her mouth.

"vomit……"

Almost instantly, Li Shiying turned her head and vomited.

She vomited suddenly and painfully, vomiting out the cream she had just eaten and the things stored in her stomach.

Li Shiying stared blankly at the mess on the ground. The indescribable smell irritated her nasal cavity, and the stomach acid was irritating her esophagus.

In this excitement, she stood up shakily and prepared to go to the bathroom to get a mop.

No, Gu Qing will scold her if he sees her dirtying the floor.

wrong.

Gu Qing won’t see it.

Li Shiying sat down again and put the half-bitten cake into her mouth again.

"vomit……"

Li Shiying raised her head, casually wiped the corner of her mouth with her sleeve, and stared blankly at the cake in front of her.

Strange, how can cream be bitter?
"Qingqing, you seem to have been fooled. The cream in that cake shop is bitter." Li Shiying frowned, looking aggrieved, as if she was talking to herself, and as if she was acting coquettishly to Gu Qing, "But you made it for me yourself, so I will finish it."

Then, Li Shiying continued to put the cake into her mouth, chewed it, and then... vomited.

She was like a robot with instructions input, repeating the process over and over, wishing she could vomit out all the stomach acid.

She seemed to really not want to waste Gu Qing's affection for her.

It seemed like he wanted to spit out what he had said at the banquet...

The heart should be vomited.

Qingqing, I pour out my heart to you, I wonder if this can prove how much I love you?
After repeating this five times, Li Shiying finally couldn't vomit anymore and swallowed the first bite of cake.

Then she looked down.

It can't be seen, blocked by a pair of tumors.

Li Shiying frowned and had to lean forward to look at her stomach. She snorted softly, "Why don't you feel sick? This is the cake Qingqing made for me. Just eat it."

After saying this, Li Shiying couldn't help but laugh.

Yes, my mentality is getting better and better.

After tonight, the sadness and pain should be reduced by half.

Li Shiying picked up the knife again and was about to cut another piece of cake, intending to put the whole cake into her mouth.

"Ok?"

As a result, when he cut this time, he suddenly felt an obstruction and touched something hard.

Li Shiying no longer cared about the cake, so she peeled it open and found it was a piece of chocolate.

Seeing this, she let out a long sigh, as if she was expecting something, but also as if she was afraid of something.

But when Li Shiying stretched out her tender little white hand to pick up the chocolate, her arm remained in this position, stiff in mid-air.

It was a hollow piece, as if Gu Qing had deliberately hollowed out the bottom of the cake, put a piece of chocolate and a piece of paper with words on it.

At this moment, Li Shiying even had the urge to burn the paper directly. She had a premonition that Gu Qing might write something on it, as if she would be doomed if she read it.

Li Shiying even wondered uncontrollably whether all this was part of Gu Qing's plan, and he just wanted her to die.
But how is this possible?
Qingqing didn't have time to do that, and he wouldn't do that.

She was so timid to her core that her body developed a self-protection mechanism and she was afraid to face what kind of happy scene she would face if she went home.

But she had already conquered her body once, and she didn't mind conquering it a second time.

Having said that, Li Shiying's hands kept shaking as she picked up the paper, but in the end, she still had a firm look in her eyes and unfolded it bit by bit.

[Shiying, happy birthday!

When you see this piece of paper, it means that I have used the excuse of going to the bathroom and deliberately left you alone to read this letter.

Although I have probably already said happy birthday to you, what if you are still angry, refuse to talk to me, and just focus on eating the cake, so that I don’t have the chance to say it out loud?
Just say it on paper.

Happy birthday! (PS: This is the second time, but I actually hope this is the third time~)

However, whether you are angry with me now or not, the fact that you can see this paper means you are home.

that's enough.

After all, who made me do it so excessively this time? If it were any other woman, I'm afraid she would have turned into a strong woman, deliberately punched, and re-established her wifely authority, right?

But I know you definitely won’t hit me, because I’m so pretty (crossed out), and I’m so gentle.
But even if you are so gentle, you should be extremely disappointed in me this time, right? When you needed my company the most, I, who should have been there for you, disappeared...

In fact, I am also very sad, not because there is any reason for my disappearance, but after I disappeared, I haven't seen you for so many days, and only then did you finally realize my feelings for you.

It may sound funny to you, but do you believe that people can dream about themselves in parallel worlds? I dreamed about myself in parallel worlds, and I became more mature and recognized myself.

When I have time, I can tell you about my dream!

As for the 500,000 yuan, don't be too anxious. Maybe God will see our good relationship and suddenly a big bag containing 500,000 yuan will appear at your doorstep tomorrow.

Of course this is fake, but my support for you is real.

I will always be by your side, accompanying you to make a comeback! (clenched fist.jpg)

If that's still not enough, let's take grandma back to take care of her. Wouldn't the threshold fee of more than one million yuan be refunded? Grandma will also support you.

Well, having said so much, I still want to ask for your forgiveness.

Although you may have forgiven me now...

what? !

You haven't forgiven me yet!
From now on, don’t sleep on the bed, sleep on the sofa!
Just kidding.

See that chocolate? If you really forgive me, eat it and give me a kiss when I come out of the bathroom.

This time, it's an order!
Because after having that dream, I found that I might like you more than you think.

So, please don't be angry anymore, okay?

During this time when you were not with me, I really missed you...

Hehe, are you touched?
Then look up, I'm already out of the bathroom.

Kiss me! (*^▽^*)】

(End of this chapter)

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