Lord, your mask fell off

Chapter 930

This soft call could not help blurting out.

Surprise, surprise, and excitement flashed in Kong Ling's eyes one after another. However, a gust of wind seemed to blow away the soft light in his eyes, and even took away the warmth from his body.

She was about to go up, but when she met the strange coldness in his eyes, she stopped in her steps.

Obviously she had just felt the joy he felt when he saw her, but in the blink of an eye, it became an illusion.

"Xiao Yan, what are you doing here?" Kong Ling smiled lightly, with a non-enthusiastic tone, as if meeting just an ordinary friend.

She wanted to blurt out a lot of words, but at this moment, she seemed to be choked by someone, and she couldn't utter those words.

"I—" She pursed her lips, and then said quickly, "I heard from him and the others that you came out for a free clinic. I was afraid that you would be too busy, so I came out to have a look. Anyway, I am free when I am idle."

Ethereal eyes swept across her empty hands, knowing that she was lying. After getting along for so long, once she lied, the thumb and index finger of her right hand would always involuntarily pinch the index finger of her left hand.

Although he didn't know why she made up this lie, he would not expose her, just like in the past.

"It's almost there. You can go back if you go to another house. If you have something to do, go and do it first." He still smiled politely.

Cheng Yanluo froze for a moment, her pupils shrank slightly, as if something was wrong?
That's right, the way he looked at him just now, there was no affection in the past, but only indifference, as if he was treating a familiar stranger.

Why did it suddenly become like this?
She couldn't figure it out.

But at this time, after Kong Ling finished speaking, she turned around and was about to leave, her head became hot, she didn't care about anything, and immediately rushed in front of him, blocking his way.

"Xiao Yan, is there anything else you need?" A flash of surprise flashed in Kong Ling's eyes, but he quickly calmed down.

"I have something to tell you." She ignored the strange feeling that Ethereal gave her just now, and summoned up the courage to look up at him.

Kong Ling looked elsewhere, "Okay, tell me."

"I, I—" She opened her mouth, but it seemed like she was stuck, not knowing where to start.

"If it's not very important, wait until you think it over next time." Kong Ling had a premonition that what she wanted to say would change the decisions he had made in the past few days.

After saying this, he didn't hesitate to move past her.

"Very important!" she said hastily.

He stopped.

She circled back in front of him again, raised her head, with firm ripples in her eyes.

"Murong, I thought about a lot of things during my time with the army. I thought about the days when we were in Shimen, I remembered you telling me to leave, and I thought about the years I spent alone after you left."

"These memories, I have been thinking about them repeatedly during the years when you were away. At that time, every time I think of them, I resent you once. I feel that you have destroyed our past beauty and future vision with your own hands. But now , I was thinking more about how you lived during the few years when I was not by your side."

When she said this, water flashed in her eyes.

She closed her eyes, and when she spoke the first sentence, she suddenly realized that it wasn't that difficult to express her thoughts. She let go of her tense emotions and continued to speak calmly.

"After going through these few battles, I realized that you have actually had a hard time in the past few years, and it was not easy, and I can understand the mood you made when you made this decision,"

People can only truly empathize when they are on the scene.

"If it were me, maybe I would make the same decision as you, but you are more righteous than me and dare to take responsibility. Although I have blamed you and hated you for so many years, at this stage, I found that , Personal love and hate are in the family, country, and the world, and the difference between life and death is really too small."

Kong Ling looked at her in astonishment, he didn't expect to hear these words from her mouth, he thought that he would never hear them again in this lifetime, it was as if waves were surging in his heart, tumbling, turbulent his whole heart.

She looked at him with self-blame, "Murong, I'm sorry, I'm too selfish, I'm still living in the past, I don't want to break free and live with you, I only think about my grievances."

"Although I can't forgive you for abandoning me back then, at this moment, I don't want to lie to myself again."

When she said this, she paused, her ethereal heart suddenly lifted, and she looked at her fixedly.

"During the years you were away, I never stopped thinking about you."

"During the years of reunion, I never let go of my feelings for you."

These two words were like thunderclaps exploding in his ears, and he felt his feet were floating, as if in a dream.

It turned out that Xiao Yan was just like him, his heart was surrounded by heat, and he was ecstatic. He moved his lips and wanted to say something, but the words seemed to be restrained in his mouth. Drain, then freeze to freeze.

At this time, Cheng Yanluo didn't notice the change in his expression, so she gathered the remaining courage in her heart, and then went all out.

"Murong, I want to give our future a chance to start again, are you willing?"

She summoned up what little courage she had left to speak out with difficulty but crisply.

She knows that most women are ashamed to express their love boldly, but she never feels that it is a mistake to take the initiative.

If you feel that this is the only person in your life, it doesn't matter if you lose face a bit, if you throw him back later, it will be even.

However, the words seemed to just dissipate in the air, without a sound, without any response.

She couldn't help but look up at him, and what caught her eyes was his calm and indifferent appearance, and her heart subconsciously tugged.

At this time, she heard him speak.

"Xiao Yan, I'm very surprised, but also very happy, you will say this to me calmly, thank you for understanding me."

She kept looking at him.

"But, I'm sorry, I may have no choice but to go on with you."

Kong Ling lowered his eyes and didn't look at her. He said every word without haste. He felt his heart fluttering, but on the surface he still looked calm and breezy.

"Why, why?" Her eyes widened in disbelief.

"When a person no longer wants to spend the rest of his life with a person, what do you think is the reason?" Kong Ling didn't answer her question directly.

why?
Because I don't love anymore.

Cheng Yanluo bit her lip and looked at him with red eyes, "You mean, there is no place for me in your heart?"

"Yes." He pursed his lips.

In an instant, the sky fell apart, and she could no longer see anything in her eyes, only his words echoed clearly and decisively in her ears.

"Time has worn away my feelings for you, I have no way to go on with you, I'm sorry, Xiaoyan."

Sorry, Xiaoyan.

He said sadly in his heart.

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