Abandoned woman's glory

Chapter 213 The Empress!

"Queen, please take medicine."

I sat by the window, looking at the dazzling sunshine outside, the weather was getting hotter and hotter, even if ice trays were placed in the empty hall, it couldn't resist the heat outside, and I was sweating lightly.

Looking back, I saw Yu Sui'er standing behind me holding a bowl of medicine. The black mud soup-like medicine juice made me frown slightly. Very uncomfortable.

However, I picked it up and drank it quickly, the bitterness in my mouth made me a little unbearable, Yu Sui'er immediately waved her hand, and the little maid behind her came forward and brought a plate of candied fruit.

I randomly picked up one and ate it, and said, "How long will I have to take this medicine?"

"The imperial doctor said that the Empress Dowager's health is no longer serious. After eating this pair, there is no need to take any more decoction."

"Ah."

I nodded. For the past two months, I have always taken medicine as a meal. Although there are not many external injuries on my body, I feel that I have suffered internal injuries. However, the people around me, from Shaoyu to Yu He, from Yu Sui'er to The imperial physicians all treated me like a porcelain doll, as if they would be knocked and shattered if I didn't pay attention, each of them was careful, and didn't dare to say a word to me, and wouldn't let me take an extra step.

Perhaps, it was because of that month that they were too worried.

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Qinglong Ji, the seventh year of Zhaoyi, June.

That catastrophe was the biggest turmoil in the century since the founding of the Qinglong Kingdom. The six armies gathered and the slaughter was deep. What was left was the corpses of the imperial city, blood flowing like rivers, and deep scars on every palace wall. , Sometimes when I walk out the door and look at the scars, it seems that the wound is not on the palace wall, but on the heart of the person.

The month after the battle in the imperial city was the most difficult month for Qinglong Kingdom. If it hadn’t been for the destruction of the White Tiger Kingdom, Helian City was taboo by Yu He and could not go south. Mu Liusha kept his promise and had no intention of sending troops. There is a danger of annihilation of the country.

Because in that catastrophe, the Empress Dowager Yongjia, who was enthroned by the late emperor, fell into a coma for a whole month.

Falling from the high place of the hall, at the last moment, I clearly remembered Yu Hefei coming to catch me, but I was still plunged into darkness immediately.

They called all the famous doctors in the Central Plains. There was no trauma on my body, and there was no impact on my head, but I was in a coma and couldn’t wake up. The high fever persisted and nightmares haunted me. Everyone looked at my gray face and pale lips, It seems that half of my life has already been held in the hands of Hades, and I don't know what else can make me walk back.

But in the end, I'm still back.

When I opened my eyes, I met the worried eyes of Shao Yu and the others, and the way the imperial doctors in the room were kneeling tremblingly on the ground. I looked at them bitterly for a long time, and smiled faintly.

If you survived, you should live well.

Although I woke up, my body was still very weak, and I couldn't get out of bed for a month. During the next recovery period, I was given acupuncture by the imperial doctor and poured down big bowls of bitter medicine like this. There are no more complaints, and finally, slowly getting better.

A few days ago, I was finally able to walk slowly without any obstacles.

Just after eating the candied fruit and diluting the bitter taste in his mouth, he heard the little eunuch outside shouting: "Your Highness is here."

As soon as he turned around, he saw Shaoyu walking in from the outside.

After experiencing that catastrophe, he became more mature and handsome, wearing a clean and capable gown, with black hair in a high bundle, exposing a broad forehead, and looked extraordinarily energetic. He looked at me sitting in front of the window, revealing a little Surprised expression: "Your spirit is much better."

I smiled lightly: "It's okay."

"Do you have a fever?"

"Nothing."

"Have you taken the imperial doctor's medicine?"

"Just ate."

……

These words are the routine between me and him every day. This child has now assumed the responsibility of taking care of me, and his every move is more stable. He looked at my face carefully, as if he was confirming something. After a while , and walked to my side: "Since your body is fine, then something-"

I looked up at him.

"Think about it, a country cannot live without a king for a day."

Saying this sentence was a bit heavy, and my original mood of looking at the scenery disappeared all of a sudden.

A country cannot live without a ruler for a day.

The edict of his abdication has been issued, and the issue of his identity has long since left him no place in the imperial court. He is destined to lead the Royal Dragon Hall and fight bloody battles on the battlefield, but the remaining problem is the throne.

Chu Feng's last edict has been written very clearly, and after the great battle, the victory and defeat have been divided, and the superiority and inferiority are clear. In addition, the purge in the next period of time, although it will not be bloody, but everyone is in danger and opposes women. Lin Chao's voice finally subsided slowly, but I still——

"Shaoyu, wait a little longer."

"When are you going to wait?"

"..."

"If he doesn't wake up, will you never ascend the throne for the rest of your life?"

"..."

My heart moved slightly, and my eyes finally moved back from the window slowly, and moved to a place not far behind me. On the spacious couch, a thin figure was lying, quietly, without a single sound. If it wasn't for his chest rising and falling slightly with his breathing, no one would even think that there was a person lying there.

He was like this before I woke up, and he was like this after I woke up.

Maybe he is the only one in the whole world who will be hurt four times in the same place, heartbroken, but this time, it is undoubtedly heavier and deeper than any previous one.

Yu He continued his pulse for him, he didn't die, but he didn't wake up again either.

Looking at him lying there, it seems to be exactly the same as when Chu Feng was lying there back then. He was so quiet and indifferent. Without that weak breathing, I couldn't believe that he was still alive, and I still had to be by the side. Wait slowly, wait for him to wake up, wait for him to open his eyes.

I once said to Yu Sui'er with a wry smile: "Their surname is Ling, they really know how to torture people."

But I also know that it is because they have suffered too much in the past.

"Xingsi, I can't wait any longer." Shaoyu's heavy words brought me back to my thoughts, and when I looked up at him, his brows were also wrinkled into Sichuan characters. Everything was left to him to take care of, because of his status, he was also under a lot of pressure, "Military ministers jointly signed a letter, the booklet has already arrived at the imperial study, and there are still people who want to kneel in front of the hall to petition, if this continues—— "

"..."

"Xingsi, Qinglong Kingdom can't stand it anymore, it can't be messed up anymore."

Each word he said was heavier than each word, and it hurt a little when it fell on my heart. I slowly raised my head to look at him, only to see him looking at me with serious eyes: "This world is left to you by Huang Kao." Yes, even if you want to return it to him—you can’t return him a troubled world!”

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This is my third time to the imperial tomb.

The purple mist is still dense, and the twilight is heavy. The vast Dongling Mountain shows a rare tranquility and solemnity in the clouds and mist after the slanting sun shines red. It seems to be the only one in the land full of war and smoke. A place of peace of mind.

Perhaps, what really reassures me is not the scenery here, but the man under the scenery who refuses to look back and look at me.

My fingertips lightly touched the cold Broken Dragon Stone, recalling that decisive back, no matter what I experienced and changed, the deepest trembling in my heart remained unchanged.

It seemed that his gentle, cold voice sounded in his ears:

In my life, I have too many regrets...

The biggest regret is that I can't witness the recovery of my Murong family, unify the Central Plains, quell the flames of war, and rebuild the hegemony for thousands of years.

Xingsi, keeping you and letting you choose Nangong Mizhen is a helpless move.

Xingsi, if you choose Nangong Mizhen, he will definitely go back to hiding with you, and once he leaves, there will be no successors in the Nangong family, so Shaoyu can be left with a stable Azure Dragon Dynasty; if you don’t choose him, you will definitely rebel against Nangong Mizhen, while Nangong Yu was deeply scheming, and Shaoyu was unable to make an enemy of him, because the belonging to the East and the stability of the Central Plains depended on you fighting Nangong Yu.

My last decree may not be able to help you fix the country, but the person who helps you fix the country is the person I hope you can meet.

Xingsi, going up to the poor and down to the underworld, I am not someone who can accompany you, I hope you will cherish yourself, I hope you will feel sorry for yourself.

……

That day, when Shaoyu handed me the letter that was included in the third will, for some reason, when I saw the words on it, I didn't feel sad, but felt relieved.

After all, he still values ​​Jiangshan more than me.

In fact, I have never known whether Chu Feng really loved me or not. His appearance and youth remained at the moment when he killed Xiao Wanting when he was young, but what about his heart?Did it stay in the icy years after Xiao Wanting's death?
To him, am I a tool to calm the country, or a substitute who has no choice but to choose in a lonely half life?
I don't know and don't want to know.

In this relationship, from the very beginning, I fell first, so I was destined to lose, but what does it matter if I win or lose? I love him, so what does it have to do with him?
Turning around, I picked up a wine glass from the tray held by Yu Sui'er, which was filled with amber light, I smiled, and lightly toasted to the Broken Dragon Stone:

"Chu Feng, I pour myself a cup, you can do whatever you want."

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Qinglong Ji, the first year of Guangding, the fourth day of September.

I sat on the edge of the bed, and the sun shone into the empty hall, bringing a burst of warmth in the coolness. I looked down at the person on the bed, and my pale face seemed to be infected by today's sunshine, dyed A little blush made him look a little more angry.

The imperial doctor said that his condition has been very stable, but I don't know whether this stability is good or bad. I don't even know when he will open his eyes, and I don't know when he will stop breathing. wait.

Waiting is to withstand loneliness, torture, and pain.

At this time, there was a sound of orderly footsteps outside the door, and when she turned her head, she saw Shaoyu in court clothes standing at the door: "Xingsi... No, Your Majesty."

"..."

"The civil and military officials have all arrived in the hall."

"..."

"It's time for court."

I nodded, and looked down at the unconscious man again. After a moment of silence, I stretched out my hand and patted his scarred hand. His hand was cold and thin. In the eyes, it also makes people feel a little sad.

I will not return you a troubled world.

Saying this from the bottom of my heart, I grabbed his fingertips and squeezed it hard. I wanted to borrow some of his persistence and strength, so I turned around and left, but in that grip, there was a strange feeling. The feeling came from the palm of your hand.

My mind froze for a moment, and I hurriedly opened my eyes wide to look at his hand. I was so nervous that my whole body trembled—is he moving?
At that moment just now, there was a slight tremor in the palm of his hand, was he moving?

But when I looked carefully, he was still deeply asleep, and at this moment Shaoyu who was standing outside the door said softly: "Xingsi, everyone is waiting for you."

I frowned slightly, and looked at the man again, but he still didn't respond at all.

This is not the first time, I often see him open his eyes, smile, and move his fingers, but when he calls other people anxiously, he is often disappointed, and sometimes even himself is not very confident, maybe just now Yes, it's really just an illusion in my heart.

I sighed, stood up slowly and walked to the door, Shaoyu and the guards behind him were already standing in awe, I told Yu Sui'er who was standing beside her: "Take care of her."

"Your Majesty, please rest assured."

Looking back again, the person on the couch was still silent and calm, as if he had already integrated into this quiet environment, I smiled lightly, turned and left.

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My enthronement ceremony was held in the Azure Dragon Hall, which was more majestic and solemn after being washed away by the flames of war and blood.

Same as last time, the civil and military officials were wearing python robes with purple belts, holding wat boards, and lined up on both sides of the hall with dignified expressions. They watched me slowly walk in from the door, and the sun shone on the floor-length robes behind me. But this time the robe was different from the previous ones, it was not a phoenix, but a dragon soaring nine heavens, embroidered with gold, gold and silver threads, shining dazzlingly in the sun, making people dare not look at it closely.

When I walked up to the main hall step by step, the guards on both sides knelt down one by one, shouting long live, the lingering sound rumbled, like thunder rolling across the sky, trying to cut through the old sky, tear everything apart, and start a new era.

Chu Feng, did you see it?

I walked up to the main hall, and I saw all the civil and military officials kneeling at my feet. I saw the unwillingness and contradiction in their eyes. After all, women are not tolerated by the world when they come to the court. Their prostration today may be just a temporary compromise. , but I know that the really difficult road starts from the moment they bow down.

"I, by the destiny of heaven, ascended the throne as the emperor, changed the name of the country to Tian, ​​and the surname of the country to Chu. I am determined to quell the flames of war, unify the Central Plains, enjoy the prosperity of the ages, and the glory of the ages. , then our celestial dynasty will last for thousands of years and last forever.”

As soon as these words came out, there was another low sigh of astonishment in the hall.

All the ministers looked at me with wide eyes in surprise. They couldn't believe that I would change not only the name of the country, but even the surname of the country when I came to the court as an empress. This might never have been imagined by them.

Because I know that my surname is changed to Xuanyuan, and it is already unacceptable for a female emperor to come to court. If the country’s surname is changed to Xuanyuan, it will make the civil and military officials of Qinglong Kingdom worry that their power will be swallowed up by Xuanyuan Kingdom. , The government must be in chaos. Besides, I don't want this world to have nothing to do with Chu Feng from now on. All of this belongs to him and is left behind by him.

Therefore, changing the country's surname to Chu is a middle way I chose, and it is also the last trace I left in this world for Chu Feng.

After the momentary uproar in the main hall, everyone fell silent. Everyone had complex expressions on their faces. It was hard to tell whether they were obedient or resisting. For a while, it seemed that they had reached a deadlock.

I stood quietly on the main hall, watching them, waiting quietly, waiting for the first person to bow to me.

But while I was waiting, I could also feel the cold sweat dripping from my palms.

If there is one person who objects, then today's enthronement ceremony may repeat the mistakes of that day, and Shaoyu told me that Qinglong Kingdom can no longer be chaotic.

Time passed bit by bit, the hall was still strangely quiet, but my fingertips hidden in the sleeves had already started to tremble slightly.

Is it—

At this moment, there was a sudden sound of footsteps outside the hall, which seemed very light, buoyant, and even a little messy, but the footsteps broke the tranquility of the hall. I don't know who would break into Qinglong at this time. hall?

Everyone turned their heads and looked at a thin figure slowly appearing in front of our eyes under the bright sunshine. Yu Sui'er supported him, crossed the high threshold outside the hall, and walked step by step. Come in.

At this moment, my breathing almost stopped.

It's him?It's him!
I opened my eyes wide to see that familiar figure, wearing a cold mask, walking towards me step by step, and almost subconsciously, I walked down step by step, until I slowly walked in front of him.

He really woke up, he really stood in front of my eyes, if I didn't hear the shocked whispers around me, if I didn't feel his heavy breathing because I was too close, I almost thought I was in a dream again In the middle, everything in front of me was real. He stood in front of me, his pale lips trembling slightly, as if he wanted to tell me a thousand words at this moment, but he didn't say a single word.

I also want to speak, there are many things I want to say, but at this moment, I can't say a word, I can only look at the other person like this, as if my heart is almost gone.

I don't know how long it took, but I seemed to have finally found my own voice, I slightly opened my lips, and said shyly, "Ling—"

But before I finished speaking, I felt the figure in front of me suddenly flash, and the dazzling sunlight that was originally blocked by him shone again. I closed my eyes subconsciously, and heard a hoarse voice next to my ear. sounded—

"Long live my emperor, long live, long live!"

(End of this chapter)