sadomasochism double

Chapter 112

I covered my face, squatted on the ground and cried loudly.Until today, I didn't realize how cruel and heartless I was.

I pushed one person out of the fire pit, turned around in the name of love and pushed another person who loved me down.

As Li Si said, why wasn't I the one who died that year? !

"I won't die." After a long time, a warm palm fell on my head, and Zhuo Yang looked down at me with gentle eyes, "Don't worry, I won't die. Because... I still want to be with you forever .”

"We can find other people. You are definitely not the only one who is suitable in this world." Yi⊥ watched Zhuo Yang put me on the bed and took his backing hand. I said again: "I don't want to gamble. Gambling is too risky...I don't want you to risk it."

I owe Song Yu my life. Although I really want him to survive, if he lives, I will replace it with Zhuo Yang's death.

I can't accept it even more.

"Don't worry. My mother must have exaggerated things for you... I am very healthy. If not, why would my doctor let me have an operation..." Zhuo Yang smiled calmly, but I was still full of doubts , "You are always like this, you are responsible for everything... You can rely on me at any time... Some time ago, many things happened, I am sorry for me at that time, making trouble for no reason, being self-willed, I said I Hate you, in fact, I hate myself even more... I have never done a thing neatly."

"You really see yourself clearly..." Zhuo Yang laughed twice, but his attitude did not relax because of my objection.

"Don't worry, I really won't die. You know... I'm a businessman, and I'm doing everything out of selfishness." Zhuo Yang came over to hold my hand and put it on his lips With a light kiss, "My own wife, how can I remember the love of another man for the rest of my life... I am a selfish man, so I hope she can only remember me for the rest of her life... So don't persuade me anymore, I have already A decision has been made and it will not change.”

No matter what I say, Zhuo Yang smiles lightly, but I understand that I can't shake his decision.

Moreover, I don't know what he said to Zhuo's mother, Zhuo's mother was very angry when she came out, shouting "You go to hell", "I will never care about you again!" Yunyun...

Then he declared that he would go back to the United States again this time, and would never come back again, lest he would feel bored seeing his unfilial son.

But, no matter what, the operation was done.

I have consulted Zhuo Yang's doctor, he said the same thing as Zhuo Yang, but there is always a but.

"But...Mr. Zhuo's knife wound some time ago still has an impact, so we can only see the future development. We can't say for sure now."

I squeezed my sweaty palms and my voice was dry.

"What is the chance that he will... be healthy?"

The doctor pushed his glasses and gave me a pitiful look.

"Half chance."

Probably seeing my ugly face, the doctor reluctantly spoke a few words of comfort, "Actually, no one can say for sure about the future of medicine, so don't worry, Madam. Mr. Zhuo is sure of himself, and it should be fine."

What should be?I want to ask.

However, when the words came to his lips, only an ugly smile was squeezed out in the end.

Liz was right.

Why wasn't I the one who died at that time?
I always think viciously, it would be fine if there is no Zhuo Yang.

But, thinking about it the other way around, what if it wasn't for me...

Without me, everything would be different.An Ran and Zhuo Yang may not be together, but life is so long, and there are so many fates in this world, they will definitely live and find a suitable other half.

And Song Yu will live quietly in this world, maybe one day he will meet a girl he likes, and live happily ever after.

I am always blaming others, but I never know to see myself.

Liz was right.

I really am the most undeserving person in the world.

I have come to such a situation now, and it can only be said to be retribution.

Wen Li met in the corridor.

If it was before, I would definitely turn around and leave without leaving him with a single thought.

But in the end, I just smiled at him and said, "Can we talk?"

Wen Li's face was a little ugly, I can understand the pain of a person who has been guilty for more than ten years in his heart.In fact, in a sense, he and I are sympathetic to each other.

I hide An Ran in my heart, and he hides my mother in his heart.

We live uneasy in the guilt of the old people, thinking that we have been redeemed, but in fact, time has not passed since the moment the mistake started.

"When did you know about me?"

"The first time I saw you at school, I knew it." Wen Li touched the glass, his hand holding the quilt was a little white because of nervousness, "You were skinny back then, but I recognized you immediately I miss you...you are very similar to your mother..."

In other words, he has been watching me for more than ten years.

"I know you like Zhuo Yang... I thought that if you were happy, I would feel less guilty." After Wen Li finished speaking, he looked up at me.

I understand what he thinks, I tried my best to marry the man I like, but the result is not happy.I live in my own world, complaining about myself, always talking about starting over, but never getting out of the circle of self-pity.

"You had a car accident that time, I was very scared...you were covered in blood, I almost wanted to leave you and go...you may not know, that time, the past and reality alternated, and I forgot...What is it? What is reality, what is the past..."

Wen Li withdrew his hand, was silent for a while, and said, "I'm sorry, An Yue. For everything."

I still have a bit of a grudge.

But I believe in time.

I think, the time in the future is so long, one day I will forget everything, only remember that this man saved me when I was most dangerous, only remember that he helped me when I was most helpless...

Life is so long, if I always remember his bad things, I think my life will be very hard.

I took a sip of water, and said: "I'm not a mother, I can't forgive you for her, but..." I closed my eyes, and opened them slowly after sorting out the emotions in my heart, "Thank you, you saved me. I, thank you, you gave me the life."

"An Yue..." Wen Li seemed a little excited.

"I know I can't wait for her forgiveness, but... I am also grateful for your forgiveness. Thank you... Thank you..." After finishing speaking, Wen Li seemed to be relieved. The haze in my heart finally dissipated a little.

I drank the water in the glass and felt better.

I finally took this step.

Mother, this time, did I do the right thing?
"By the way, I heard that Zhuo Yang is going to replace Song Yu's kidney?"

I nodded.

When I mentioned this world, I felt even more anxious, "Zhuo Yang is not in good health, I'm afraid..."

Wen Li reassured me, "Don't worry, Zhuo Yang has always done things properly. If he says nothing will happen, then nothing will happen."

Wen Li said the same thing, I should be able to relax, but I'm sorry, the uneasy feeling in my heart has never stopped.

When Wen Li sent me back, his expression was very relaxed.

"Goodbye, An Yue. In the future, I hope we can still be friends."

I smiled and waved to him, but didn't give him any positive answer.

I just added a word silently in my heart——

Goodbye, Wen Li.

After Wen Li left, I suddenly felt more relaxed than ever before, and suddenly felt like the moon was shining through the clouds.

I called Zhuoyang, Zhuoyang was eating an apple, the operation was postponed for a few days, and he has gone home now.

Zhuo Yang doesn't like to eat fruits and vegetables. He is a very picky eater and only likes to eat meat.This time he ate the fruit obediently, I was a little surprised.

"The moon is so full tonight."

"It's foggy, I can't see anything." Zhuo Yang seemed to go out, making a cold voice over there.

I laughed out loud, "Maybe the rooftop on my side is closer to the sky..."

"Really? Is there such a saying?" Kachakacha bit the apple, and after a while, she suddenly said, "Why don't I come over and look at the round moon."

After thinking about it, I took off the shiny diamond ring from the ring finger of my right hand, carefully put it in my pocket, then nodded and said, "Okay... I'll wait for you."

Zhuo Yang brought me my favorite pastries when he came over.He also bought himself a lot of fried chicken.

"Aren't you eating fruit? It's said to make you eat less meat...I'll make you a vegetable salad."

Zhuo Yang's face was as green as green vegetables.

"I just finished eating apples, do I still want to eat vegetables?"

"What do you say?"

(End of this chapter)