Love is like melting

Chapter 196 I beg you, don't hurt yourself 1
Lu Nanfeng heard his voice-over, and there was a faint smile on his thin lips: "Please rest assured, from the first day I chose this industry, I understand that we are more likely to speak out than ordinary people, let alone Nanfeng If Feng didn't even have this bit of professional ethics, how could he have achieved what he is today!"

Even Mo Hantan shot at him, whether this Lu Nanfeng could help A Yu, he was not sure, but as long as there was [-]% hope, he should give it a try!
Yun Er.

The space was as quiet as death, and Ji Yerong fell silent after saying that.

Yun Yingluo also didn't speak for a long time, and looked at her for a long time with eyes full of vicissitudes and vicissitudes, and burst into tears unexpectedly.

"I knew... that he would rather die than turn back! But... I still hope he can turn back. Which mother in the world would give up her child..."

The choked voice trembled, filled with the infinite sadness and heartache of a mother who lost her child.

Her words "Which mother in the world would give up her child" fell into Ji Yerong's ears, and her heart tightened, sour.

Not only did he abandon the child, but he also killed the child with his own hands.

She doesn't deserve to be a mother at all!
Yun Yingluo choked silently for a long time, letting tears flood her wrinkled skin.

I don't know how long it took, but with tears in his eyes, he looked at the numb Ji Yerong, and said hoarsely, "Let's go."

Liancheng was already dead, so what if Ji Yerong was killed?Liancheng wouldn't be able to come back just because Ji Yerong died.

Hearing this, Ji Yerong knew that she would never want to see him again, so he got up and walked slowly towards the door.

While holding onto the cold metal, a weak voice came from behind: "Lian Jing is dead, and Lian Cheng is also dead...Now that your life experience has been exposed, do you still want to stay by his side?"

It's not that she wants to interfere with Lian Mo and Ji Yerong, it's just that under the current situation, Ji Yerong is really not suitable to stay by Lian Mo's side.

The thin back was obviously stiff, and the hand holding the metal tightened silently. She took a deep breath secretly, and said in a difficult voice: "If even I leave her, then he really has nothing."

She knew that for the sake of the fourth brother's presidency and bright future, she should stay away from him and should not bring him any negative influence.

She also knew that for the safety of her fourth brother, she should leave even more, because she could no longer distinguish between reality and dreams, and could not guarantee that she would not hurt him.

But ah——

She couldn't bear it, couldn't bear it.

He has never owned anything in his life, except for himself, what he can hold tightly in his palm is too little, too little.

The elder brother Jing admired wanted him to die, and always remembered Lian Jing's kindness, and wanted to give Lian Jing a bright future, but in the end his hard work was let down, and he was hurt even more.

It was hard to look directly at my heart and face my love, but I experienced hurt and pain time and time again.

How could she leave him now.

Just like what he said, even death should be by his side.

Not going anywhere, never parting again.

Lianmo arranged for Lu Nanfeng and Ji Yerong to meet in the lounge of the office. When he mentioned it to Ji Yerong, he just said that he would introduce a friend to her.

That's what he said, but Ji Yerong knew very well in his heart that this friend was either a psychiatrist or a psychologist.

She is sick, and no one can save her, whether it is a psychiatrist or a psychologist, it is actually useless.

But in order to reassure Lian Mo, she nodded and agreed to meet.

It was afternoon when I saw Lu Nanfeng, and Lian Mo went to a meeting, and let them meet in the lounge.

The curtains were drawn tightly, and only a soft reading light was lit in the lounge. Ji Yerong was lying on the recliner, and Lu Nanfeng played music. It was a very old vinyl record, and the music whirled gently. In the ear, it will make people relax involuntarily.

Wearing casual light-colored clothes, he brought Ji Yerong a cup of warm water, sat in front of her, and introduced himself: "My name is Lu Nanfeng, you can call me Doctor Lu, or you can call me Nanfeng as a friend." .”

Ji Yerong looked at him with eyes as dark as two black holes, his face dead silent, without any reaction.

Lu Nanfeng completely relaxed himself, leaned back on the sofa, looked at her with a smile, and said, "I've heard about your deeds before, and I've always wanted to meet you. It's a pleasure to meet you today , you are different from what I imagined."

Ji Yerong knew that he was trying to open up the topic, let himself speak, and then guided himself to persuade her thoughts with words.

After a moment of silence, she suddenly said, "Lu Nanfeng, don't waste your efforts, you can't help me!"

No one can help her!

Lu Nanfeng raised his eyebrows slightly, looked at her, and asked softly: "I guess you are willing to meet me because you don't want to disappoint Your Excellency, but since you've already seen me, why don't you try? If you don't try, how will you know?" I can't help you!"

"You are not the first psychiatrist I have seen. There are too many psychiatrists who have given me psychological counseling and testing. I have read no fewer psychological books than you. If it is not for a strict psychological evaluation How do you think I have appeared on the battlefield so many times?"

Lu Nanfeng realized something, "Back then you studied psychology by yourself in order to pass the psychological test."

Ji Yerong lowered his eyes and did not deny it.

When Lian Mo sent her to Ye Jia's base for training, although her physical fitness passed the test, her psychological evaluation was a mess.

The psychiatrist who gave her a psychological test said that her psychological defense was very weak. Even if she successfully graduated from the base and returned to Yancheng, she would not be able to engage in any dangerous tasks.

Ye Jia persuaded her to give up, maybe she was born not suitable to be a soldier, not suitable for any high-risk work!

Ji Yerong was stubborn and refused to give up. She begged Ye Jia not to reveal this matter, especially not to let Lian Mo know.

For the subsequent psychological evaluation, Ji Yerong trained during the day, and at night, he read those psychological books and studied some previous psychological test cases, contacted psychologists in different fields, understood their usual patterns, and knew how to avoid them in the test Discovery, to hide the most vulnerable line of defense in my heart.

The so-called "prolonged illness makes a good doctor", although she is not a psychiatrist, but she definitely understands the profession of psychiatrists very well, so Lu Nanfeng's set of psychotherapy is useless to her!
Lu Nanfeng had checked her information before, and expected that she would be very defensive and vigilant, but he was far from expecting that she had been in contact with the field of psychology, which made him treat ordinary patients in front of her. Useless.

At this moment, Ji Yerong is like a person living in a huge circular tower, surrounded by copper walls and iron walls. No matter how sharp and violent the people outside are, they can't break through this fortress, and she inside is not willing to break it. ,walk out!
"You passed the psychological test by cheating, you have always had mental problems, and your Excellency...has no knowledge."

"He doesn't need to know!"

She is willing to do so many things for him, and she doesn't need anything in return, let alone let him know.

"It seems that you really love Your Excellency deeply." Lu Nanfeng stared at her with a hint of appreciation mixed with pity.

Finally understand why she suffers from PTSD.

Because for so many years, she has been suppressing herself. Every time she kills someone, she is actually full of fear and anxiety in her heart. It's just that she has studied psychology by herself and knows how to disguise this fear and anxiety, and how to make others not see her. flaws.

The stronger a person is, the more fragile she is, seemingly invulnerable, but sometimes a small loose screw can completely disintegrate and collapse her.

Ji Yerong remained silent and closed his eyes, as if refusing to communicate with Lu Nanfeng any further.

Lu Nanfeng no longer forced her to speak. For someone as special as Ji Yerong, to really get in touch with her heart, what was needed was an opportunity, not forced communication.

When the meeting was over and Lu Nanfeng left the lounge, a cool voice sounded slowly: "Don't tell him."

Lu Nanfeng stopped and looked back at Ji Yerong, who was still squinting his eyes, thought for a moment, and said, "Although I am a psychiatrist, I should have professional ethics, but what I am facing is not someone else. Your request will make me very uncomfortable." Difficult. And—”

He paused for a moment, and when he got up again, he was extremely serious: "Now, what is there between you and Your Excellency that cannot be honest?"

Ji Yerong fell silent.

Lu Nanfeng did not hide Ji Yerong's situation from Lian Mo.

Undoubtedly, Lian Mo was astonished. She had read psychology books, and even dealt with various psychiatrists, just to successfully pass the psychological assessment!
At present, Lu Nanfeng has no better way to deal with Ji Yerong's condition, because she is too familiar with the psychiatrist, the ordinary way is useless, he needs to think carefully and work out a better treatment plan .

He did not give up on the patient Ji Yerong.

Lian Mo let Lu Nanfeng leave first, pushed open the door of the lounge, walked to the recliner, gently leaned beside her, stroking her thin cheeks with warm fingertips.

"How many things have you done without telling me?"

Ji Yerong slowly opened his eyes, his dark pupils had no ripples, no luster, like two bottomless black holes.

She turned slightly sideways to give him most of the space, and she leaned in his arms, holding the clothes on his chest tightly with both hands, and said in a low voice, "I have always been very grateful for the heavy snow. .”

(End of this chapter)