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Chapter 134 Go Back
"Shouldn't get out of class be over?" He looked at the time, and there was a slight ripple in his heavy heart, which was a ripple of excitement.

"Go? Or not?" He closed his eyes slowly, the bell rang with a hint of madness, but it gradually dissipated the moment Ouyang closed his eyes.

He stood up and sat down again, with a hint of bitterness hanging from the corner of his mouth.

"I didn't expect that I would still be so hesitant." Once again, he felt contempt for his weak character.He had already made up his mind, but now he was slightly shaken, which made him not know what to say for himself.

He sighed suddenly, a little lonely, and his somewhat lax eyes became firm again.His rationality was about to scream crazily, and he clearly felt that if he didn't vent those emotions, he would definitely be driven crazy by himself!The increasingly clear feeling made him more and more determined.

"It's just a confession." He tried to comfort himself with a relaxed tone, but his voice trembled slightly, and an inexplicable fear grew in his heart.

He, is actually afraid?Even his face became a bit unnatural, his eyes filled with a kind of deep grief like darkness, and the muscles on his face trembled uncontrollably.

"What a heavy decision!" He closed his eyes, and the heavy grief flowed out from his heart, making the surrounding air seem to be faintly dignified.

There are some things, some emotions, which he has hidden in his heart for several years, and he is also used to keeping those things in his heart.Although the occasional touch would make him so painful that he couldn't breathe, but he still refused to pour those things out.And this time?He might lift that bloody scar with his own hands.

"But, is there any other way?" There was not only pain flashing in his eyes, but also a trace of contradiction, a trace of madness.

He took a deep breath and knew he should go now.

"Well, what's the matter?" The head teacher looked up at Ouyang who was standing in front of him with a heavy face. His eyes were on his feet, his hands were empty, obviously it wasn't a problem.And Ouyang didn't seem to ask any questions.

"I—" Ouyang raised his eyes to look at the head teacher, feeling more conflicted and more painful in his heart, but the arrow was on the string and he had to shoot. "I feel my heart - very heavy, very depressed." The deep voice seemed to have a trace of lifelessness, which could freeze a glass of water in June instantly.

"Find a seat and sit down." The class teacher put down the pen in his hand, stroked his eyes, looked up at Ouyang, and his tone was a little dignified.He already understood that Ouyang came to him to talk with him.

Ouyang shook his head, his heavy heart made him unwilling to speak, even if there was only one word.

"Sit down." The teacher in charge pulled a chair over, glanced at Ouyang again and said, "It will be easier to talk while sitting."

Ouyang still shook his head stubbornly, but now his heart was as heavy as a piece of iron, and the feeling that oppressed him and made him feel hard to breathe surged up again.What is the difference between sitting and standing?Not all are the same heavy, uncomfortable!
"Then what's the matter with you?" The head teacher's voice was calm, even more indifferent.To him, Ouyang is just one of the hundreds or even thousands of students he has taught, and he is still a very ordinary and not outstanding student.

"I just feel particularly depressed in my heart." Ouyang's voice was still low, but the word "special" was almost hoarse, which Ouyang himself didn't notice at all.

"Depression? Pressure." The head teacher looked at Ouyang, and his tone became calmer.He naturally interpreted Ouyang's words as Ouyang felt a lot of pressure, and then came to himself when he couldn't stand it.This kind of situation seems to be happening more and more, and the head teacher Weiwei's heavy heart has also become flat. He has encountered many such situations.

Ouyang was silent, but felt slightly disappointed in his heart.How could he, who is sensitive in the sky, not feel the slight change of the head teacher?

"Why do you feel this way?" This kind of procedural question made the head teacher's tone seem even colder, just like the sound made by a machine.

"I don't know." Ouyang's voice became even deeper, but there was a glimmer of light in his eyes - that was disappointment.His heart became even more at a loss, not only because he didn't know why he became like this; but also because he didn't know whether he should come to him to talk, maybe this was a mistake at all. choose.

"Then let this mistake end quickly." Ouyang said silently in his heart, maybe it was impossible for him to give himself a little help as he imagined.

The head teacher frowned slightly, feeling that Ouyang didn't cooperate very much at all.I don't even know why my mood became depressed. This is obviously a kind of perfunctory, and it's the kind of clumsy means.Secretly upset in my heart, I still endured my temper and asked: "Is that because of study? It's because of recent study——"

"No." Ouyang interrupted him, with a hint of bitterness hanging from the corner of his mouth.Learn?Maybe I became like this for the study that I never liked?Moreover, Ouyang has always been confident in his learning ability, so how could learning bring a little heaviness to his heart?
The teacher in charge felt even more upset. He didn't expect that Ouyang would interrupt him, and what made Ouyang feel pressure was not the study.The head teacher was a little annoyed at the student who didn't follow his own words and didn't take his studies seriously.

"Is it because of something? Feelings? Love between men and women?" There was already a trace of impatience in the cold voice of the head teacher.For this student who is about to enter the third year of high school and has not yet focused on his studies, how can he make himself feel good?Maybe the heaviness he said, or the deep pain, might really be because of playing with friends or something. Thinking about it, this made the class teacher's heart even more annoyed unknowingly.

Ouyang's heart sank slightly, and he was a little dazed again when he wanted to end this wrong conversation early. "Could it be because of love?" He murmured in his heart, his eyes became a little blurred, or more precisely, it should be infatuation.

Seeing the change in Ouyang's face, the head teacher was even more furious, and his face became a little gloomy. "Maybe I really hit the mark." He thought to himself, but he couldn't compete with a student. Now he also wanted to end this conversation and let Ouyang go back to the classroom directly, so as not to be upset.

"Could it be because of her?" His heart was whispering, but he couldn't help but think of Yu Shu cuddling with other boys, talking intimate words.The heart is stabbing again and again, and there is even a trace of depression. "But is this still not enough?" He murmured silently. Although this feeling hurt him, it didn't reach the point where the pain made his heart freeze.

"Is it because of her?" He was confused, thinking of Jie'er, the girl who missed him, who didn't know how long it would take to meet again.Although that kind of lonely longing in the middle of the night made his heart dignified again and again, it still didn't reach that point.

"No." Ouyang's eyes returned to normal, but there was a trace of indescribable grief hidden in them, even if that kind of pain was revealed occasionally, it would be heartbreaking.He shook his head lightly, but somehow his voice became extremely hoarse.

The corners of his eyes turned reddish, but he clearly knew the reason for his change at this time.Because his heart was stinging again, and he knew it would be like this from the time he thought of them.

"What is this? It's a cover-up!" The head teacher snorted coldly in his heart, and he would not give Ouyang a good face.

"You'd better go back and think about it for yourself." The teacher in charge waved his hand, his face showing obvious impatience.For such a student, he felt that he was "kind" enough.

However, he didn't know Ouyang's heart at all, and his idea was wrong from the beginning!

(End of this chapter)