leave this sad place

Chapter 135 Outbreak
"Go back?" Ouyang closed his eyes and muttered in his heart, but he didn't know how he should feel.

"Go back?" he repeated in his mind.Although I did have such an idea at the beginning, why do I feel a kind of emotion surging in my heart now?
"Go back?" He muttered silently again. He believed that his voice was hoarse. Although he didn't speak, the feeling was so clear and strong!Give him every reason to believe it.

"Go back?" He felt his eye sockets heat up, as if there was an urge to shed tears.There was a stabbing pain in his heart again, like a needle prick, like a fire, the pain made him want to erupt like a volcano!
"Go back?" This time, he read aloud, but his voice was hoarse than he had imagined, and it was so low that it was almost crying.That kind of heart-like heaviness surged out in an instant, making him feel a little madness, a little urge to be free.But he knew exactly what it was.

"Go back? Go back. Hehe, go back. Hehe, go back, hehe—" he said, over and over again.But his face was slowly stained with a smile, and that smile was even more strangely nervous.

But he still clearly knew what he was saying, what he was doing, and whom he was talking to.However, he didn't want to care about it anymore, he didn't want to suppress those heavy emotions anymore!

"Go back, are you telling me to go back to the classroom? Go back, are you telling me to go back and think slowly by myself?" The weird smile on his face was gone, but in exchange for it was full of smiles. Sadly, the crying tone in his voice became more and more obvious.

"Go back, do you know how heavy my heart is? Go back, do you know that I'm going crazy thinking about it? Go back, do you know that I wish I could die to get rid of it? Go back, you still want me to go back Where are you going? Go back, and you still want me to go back and think about it?" Ouyang roared with a crying voice, like a dying beast crying and howling.He felt that his eye sockets were full of moisture, and there was a hot feeling again.He tried hard to control himself, not to let himself shed a single tear.

"Do you know? I really wish I could die. Do you know? Hehe, would you know?" Ouyang's voice was choked up, more like a whine.Tears rolled down like a flood that broke a bank.

"Then why don't you die?" The homeroom teacher became even more furious, not knowing what kind of nerve Ouyang was going on, just talking childish nonsense and crazy words.

"It's really inexplicable!" The class teacher said again in a puzzled manner, with obvious anger on his face.How should a student, how can he speak to the teacher like this?
But how could he know Ouyang's mood at this time?How could he believe that kind of desire to die immediately?Otherwise, why are you speaking so resolutely, and are simply stupid words that don't care about the consequences?
Ouyang felt that he wanted to laugh, he wanted to laugh loudly; but his eyes couldn't stop crying, like raining tears; but his heart was hurting, and his thoughts were numb due to the pain , as if unconscious, unable to even blink an eye.

He didn't even know why the head teacher said such and such things to him!What is the point of this?It was clearly a sharp weapon, a dagger that wanted to put him to death!

Such words are undoubtedly adding salt to his wounds!In this case, what difference does it make to push him off the cliff who is standing on the edge of the cliff?Wouldn't such words blow out the lamp of his hope, kill the flower of his life?
"Why don't you die?" Ouyang murmured in his heart, his grief-stricken eyes were stained with confusion, and his face gradually became distorted.

"Why don't you die?" He murmured again, an inexplicable color flickered in the corners of his eyes, as if he had really been possessed by a demon, and even that pretty face gradually became ferocious, as if he had been attached to it. A devil's face with a ferocious smile, and how much like the smile of death!

"Yes, why don't you die?" He said in pain, feeling that his liver and intestines were being crushed inch by inch, and even the blood-red heart seemed to be twisted.

His grief now has reached an indescribable level.Maybe death is the only escape, maybe death is the only way out!
Such sorrow, such sorrow that life would be worse than death!What's the point of being alive?

The head teacher looked at Ouyang blankly, he finally realized that something was wrong, and felt a little uneasy.But he was overwhelmed by the anger that surged up in an instant.

"I, a teacher, and a class teacher were shocked by a student! I was frightened by his words of seeking death and life!" His face seemed to be filled with anger. How could such a thing happen?How do you allow it to happen to you?
"Go! Go! Why don't you go?" The head teacher increased his voice a little bit, like a wild beast growling and roaring for its own food and survival, but he was just Just to maintain his poor majesty!There is even more anger burning in my heart.He had never seen such a student before, so he felt a sense of disgust from his heart for no reason.

Such words again, and such persecuting words again!It was as if he wanted to crush Ouyang's broken heart into a pile of blood before he would give up, or he suspected that a dead person lying on the ground was not completely dead, and he would only be willing to step on it to make up for it a few times!
Ouyang stared at him red and swollen, wishing to rush forward and tear him into pieces, then chewed them up bit by bit, and swallowed them into his stomach!I just can't understand why he would say such a thing to himself at this time?Why should such a thing be said to a man who is so grief-stricken that he would like to die immediately?
Are you trying to oppress yourself?But aren't you afraid of crushing yourself to death?Are you trying to annoy yourself with this?But aren't you afraid that you won't be able to make it through?

Is it for your own good?Or are you just murdering yourself?Is this just a casual remark?But how can there be such vicious and unintentional words?

Ouyang's heart became more painful, but it also became more complicated!
"Why don't you die?" He said again, his eyes were confused, and he couldn't help fantasizing in his mind.Will there be no troubles after death?Never be sad again?Will it never be like this again?He clearly knew that this was a kind of confusion and deception, but he foolishly chose to believe it.Just like moths, they already know that the fire in front of them will burn them, but they pounce on it again and again until they are burned to death by the fire and turned into ashes!
"Die?" He looked at the class teacher with complicated eyes, and then looked at him motionless.It was as if a gust of wind could change his thoughts thousands of times, between life and death!

"Hehe." He turned his head and looked out of the window, staring intently, with a dazed and complicated expression.There is no doubt that he will jump down without hesitation in the next moment, it only takes one sentence, the power of one word!
The class teacher's heart also became complicated, seeing Ouyang's weird expression and listening to his weird words.At this moment, he has every reason to believe that Ouyang is serious.

The head teacher's heart immediately became heavy again, and he faintly noticed that the surrounding air had become different at some point.I can't, and I dare not speak casually anymore, not even a single word!

The sky outside the window is still so high, so blue, like a piece of pure blue crystal, people can't help but have a deep fascination; and the clouds in the sky that day are so white, so bright, like The piles of clean snow make people unbearable to be dyed with a different color.What a beautiful world!

"Why do you want to die?" He turned his head and asked the class teacher, and he was also asking himself.Although the voice was still hoarse, there was no trace of trembling, and the ferocious expression on his face also disappeared.

Maybe he's really back to normal; maybe he's just faking it, at this moment.

(End of this chapter)