leave this sad place

Chapter 165 Lost
Faced with some complaints circulating on campus, the school leaders asked loudly on the podium: "Why can't you do it when others can?" Such shocking words can be suppressed for a while, but can only be suppressed. for a while.Not long after, dissatisfaction filled the campus again.

"Since you have come to the school, you must obey the school's arrangements; otherwise, you can only ask your parents to take you back." This is the school's consistent tough style, and such words are undoubtedly the most deterrent.But there are also students who don't believe in evil and want to test the authenticity of this sentence.

The suddenly vacant office became crowded, and parents with their children pleaded hard in front of the class teacher.Thinking about the future of my own children, how can there be no result after more than ten years of hard work?Put aside your old face for the time being, and beg for your hand with snot and tears.Some soft-hearted teachers unintentionally showed a sympathetic expression, and the clever parent turned around and slapped the child on the face, holding back the pain and cursing: "Hurry up and apologize to the teacher, saying that you will never do it again! "The child looked reluctant, and slapped him again, and scolded: "You bastard, what are you waiting for? Hurry up!" The teacher refused to let go when he thought of school. The words released: deal with it strictly and never show mercy.For the sake of his own work, he had no choice but to cast a helpless look.Of course, some teachers with vicious words said sinisterly: "If I had known that today would be possible, then what were you doing back then? Today's results are entirely due to you! Now you don't have to rely on anyone, because No one can help you!"

The turmoil gradually subsided, and the students clearly realized that the school is not just talking.I also gradually understood that the school is very happy about such things, and I was worried that I couldn't find a reason to expel some mischievous students who seriously affected the school's reputation and hindered the school. .Once you catch such an opportunity, how can you let it go easily?

Gradually, the whole third year of high school lived under an invisible pressure. The feeling of depression was that it became difficult to relax a little.If you want to relax, find a classmate to chat with, maybe no one will care about you.Even if it's because of sympathy, chatting with you for a few words is still absent-minded.Even if you really want to accompany you to relax, can you really chat happily?Don't forget that the darkness around you is full of "robots" who are immersed in the sea of ​​questions. Can you really ignore the class teacher sitting on the podium and the leader who is patrolling outside?Even if you ignore them, will they ignore you the same way you do?Don't dream naively, unless they don't want to do it anymore!Otherwise, you'll just have to wait for it to be cleaned up.

I didn't like that depressive feeling at first, but He Nai had to adapt again. Ouyang's heart became heavier day by day, and he silently endured everything in the third year of high school.

The time to go back is getting less and less, and every time I go back, I just have a meal in a hurry.Hurrying to study, it seems that there is no improvement, it has already reached this time, and the content of what I have learned has already been finished, and now I rely on who is more careful than who, who sees more questions than who, practice Got more questions.Perhaps another point is the neatness of the writing and the neatness of the handwriting.

This kind of model is also what Ouyang dislikes the most. He really can't understand why it takes more than a year to practice and consolidate what he has learned in the previous year, and he can't learn anything new.All this was done just to cope with that once-a-year exam.

In this year, we must put everything aside, review wholeheartedly, and meet the college entrance examination.Is all this really worth it?Ouyang asked himself such questions again and again, feeling more confused again and again.

This is simply a gamble!If there is any accident on the day of the college entrance examination, wouldn't it be over?Ouyang's heart became even more frightened.If I happened to catch a cold that day, then—— I don't want to imagine such a consequence, and I dare not imagine it.

Could it be that the fate of my life is really as the teacher said-does it all depend on this one time?Or is this just the beginning of a life journey?Did the teacher deceive us?Then why do so many people choose to believe, rushing forward one after another, even more than 90.00% of the parents firmly believe in it?

The general trend is the trend, even if you know it is wrong, you have to go on, otherwise you will only die faster.Such a truth, how I hope it is just a lie when I am sad, and it does not exist at all.Choose to believe again and again, choose heartache again and again.Ouyang's heart was full of confusion, helplessness, loneliness and pain.

At home, she also became more silent.

How not to be silent?Seeing that Ouyang stopped talking all day long, what happened to him who was so silent?Could it be that something happened that he didn't know about, which made his heart bear a heavy burden again?How much I want him to speak, but I don't know how to ask, what if the way I speak is wrong?

Thinking about it, she sighed heavily.Thinking of the situation in my hometown again, the two old people still often quarrel at home, quarreling once every three days, if it's just that, it's nothing.But after all, the elderly are old and getting older, and various diseases appear more and more frequently, and the burden of life becomes heavier.

Every time she thinks of this, she can't sleep at night at all, and she can't speak out, and she can't find someone to confide in.She didn't even dare to mention Ouyang, for fear that she would add some extra burden to him.

Such a situation, and that person still came here once in a while, even though Ouyang didn't show any strange emotions anymore.But from his eating speed faster than usual, it can be seen that Ouyang still has a grudge in his heart.

Finally one day she got sick.She has been working hard for many years, and her physique is relatively poor. Under such circumstances, how can she not fall ill?She struggled to get up from the bed and make dinner for Ouyang as usual, but she failed.Waves of dizziness struck, and there was no strength in the limbs at all.

A deep drowsiness hit her, and she couldn't resist it anymore, and fell into a deep sleep on the bed.

When Ouyang came back at night, he looked at the dark door, but there was no light coming from inside.Suddenly a panic welled up in my heart, I hurriedly took out the key, and finally opened it after inserting it several times.

A mass of darkness came towards her, and without turning on the light in the corridor, Ouyang walked quickly into her door, touched and pressed it, and a dazzling light jumped out.Seeing her sleeping quietly on the bed, Ouyang breathed a sigh of relief.

"I'm back, I'll cook for you right now." She woke up at some point, and struggled to get up from the bed again.

"I'll do it myself." Ouyang glanced at it complicatedly, feeling an inexplicable pain in his heart.She has a cold and he knows it.Although she tried her best to hide her dull voice due to a blocked nose when she spoke today, how could she really hide it from him?He pretended not to be aware of it as usual, just to satisfy her and make her feel at ease that she really didn't find out.

"Yeah." She struggled a bit, and finally had to accept the status quo.In order to reassure him, she explained in that weak voice: "I'm fine, I just feel a little sleepy, and I'll be fine when I wake up. Go and cook, don't starve yourself. I don't want tonight After eating, I have no appetite."

Ouyang walked out of her room silently, leaving her speechless, a trace of loss slowly infecting her heart.Let her not know whether to be happy for herself or sad for herself?
(End of this chapter)