leave this sad place

Chapter 166
Turning on the light in the corridor casually, Ouyang leaned his back against the cold wall, his eyes turned reddish.

He was silent, he just didn't want to talk anymore, it didn't mean he didn't know, let alone that he didn't understand.In fact, he knew more about everything than she imagined.

Carefully made the rice into a porridge that was not too thin or too thick, then took out a few dishes of kimchi and put them down in front of her, and said flatly to her, "Eat something, why don't you eat something for such a long time?" Can it work?"

She stared blankly without saying anything, her eyes were slightly red, and she tried not to shed tears, her heart was full of joy and emotion.

He pretended not to see it, and went to find the cold medicine that was always kept at home.

"Here, take these cold medicines, and go to the hospital tomorrow." After watching her finish eating, he poured a cup of hot water and handed her the prepared cold and anti-inflammatory medicine.

"Okay, I won't bother you anymore, let's have a good sleep." Seeing her take the medicine again, Ouyang packed up the dishes, turned off the lights in her room, and closed the door gently , I finally felt a little more relaxed.

After finishing his dinner indiscriminately, Ouyang threw his tired body on the bed, staring at the ceiling motionlessly.

His heart was not only tired and oppressed, but also heavy.

I am in the third year of high school, and I am in the third year of high school without knowing it.Everything has changed, and I have become more and more lonely and silent.

Has he forgotten those past loves?Are those pains that linger in my heart for a long time really gone?He closed his eyes, silently savoring the bitterness in his heart.Some things can't be erased at all, and some things will always exist in my heart, but I don't mention it like before, but I don't want to say it anymore.

Growing up is a process of painful struggle, and he chose to remain silent during the painful struggle.Silently watching all this become strange, silently watching myself become more and more withdrawn, even if the world does not understand, or even misunderstands, I am willing to bear all this silently.Now that you have chosen, you have to pay the due price for your choice.

His eyes were stained with tiredness, and the oppressive atmosphere of the school almost made him feel suffocated.Although I have carefully followed those arrangements, I have always refused to accept things that violate my values, but I am afraid that I will be caught accidentally.I absolutely don't want to bear the consequences of inviting parents to the school.In addition to the hesitation in my heart, there was also a very strong psychological resistance.

But the results are still very unsatisfactory, I really don't know why I have to drop the chain at this time.Taking exams one after another, watching others' confidence is getting more and more inflated, while my own is shrinking day by day.Sometimes I really don't want to take the exam, I am afraid that I will do very poorly in the exam again, and I will be full of heartache again.Ouyang's eyelids twitched slightly, and his heart became extremely painful again.

But the teachers at the school couldn't take his feelings into account at all. A dozen test papers were issued every day, and the weekly test was carried out as usual.And it is comforting again and again: the normalization of the college entrance examination, the normalization of the college entrance examination.This is for your own good, and it will not be urgent when you actually arrive at the college entrance examination.But such a model is undoubtedly painful for Ouyang who has fallen into a vicious circle.This kind of training is basically torturing him, to see if his perseverance is tenacious and whether he can last until the end.

His self-confidence was hit again and again, but seeing others became more and more comfortable, Ouyang's self-esteem could not escape the bad luck of being hit.Is it true that I can't do this?Are you really going to fall like this?He yelled in his heart, but there was no response at all.The only thing that answered him was the cruel reality outside, which made his heart tremble again and again.He was really afraid that before the college entrance examination came, he would be tortured to the point of losing his confidence. When that time really came, what would he ask himself to take for the exam?

And all of this he can't say, he can only bear it by himself.

"I'm a little tired." With a soft sigh, but so heavy, Ouyang felt that he really should have a good rest tonight.

Before the sky opened his eyes, Ouyang had to get up and go to school again.Glancing at her who was still asleep, she hurried to school.

The bustling streets are full of students going to class.There are a few shops scattered here and there, and hawkers are loudly selling all kinds of breakfast.A beast-like school stands at the end of the street, and a depressive atmosphere blows towards us.Ouyang raised his head and looked ahead, took a deep breath, and hurried away with big strides.

Looking at the time, there were still 5 minutes before class, so Ouyang had to speed up his pace and ran towards the classroom.

A bell rang, and Ouyang quickly jumped into the classroom, finally not late.Looking around, the dark crowd was either reading books or doing problems, and no one cared about the person who came in by stepping on the bell.Feeling a little heavy in my heart, I walked towards that lonely place in the corner, as if I didn't exist at all, or should have been forgotten.

How long will it take to get free?How long will it take to leave this place?All kinds of depressive feelings rushed to his face, and Ouyang's resistance to the school became even deeper.He didn't want to stay in such a place for a long time, it was just a last resort.

Now that you are here, study hard.Opening the physics textbook, Ouyang couldn't help but think of such a sentence that the physics teacher said in class yesterday. "Maybe he's right. Since you're here, just persevere." He muttered to himself, and comforted himself, "Even if the final result is not what I imagined beautiful."

One morning is fleeting.

Seeing her busy figure, Ouyang felt a warm feeling in his heart.All of this has actually been accepted by him a long time ago, but it is not recognized by him, and he strongly resists it.Then why is it like that?Is it because of the hatred in my heart?Or is it because he has understood something unconsciously?

"I'm back." She greeted him happily, and the gloom that had been there for many days seemed to disappear.

"Yeah." He nodded, his voice was still so flat, and he continued to ask flatly: "Your cold—"

"It's okay, it's much better." She took his words before he could speak, but after she finished speaking, she coughed violently.

His heart tightened slightly, but his face was still stiff and unchanged.In fact, I don't know when it started, but he likes not to let himself show his inner emotions.The flat voice and the blank facial expression made it no longer so easy to see what he was thinking in his heart.

"The smoke was heavy just now, and I was choking on it." She quickly explained, and waved the spatula in her hand.

He looked at it, nodded again, and agreed with her statement, but he didn't feel at ease in the slightest.

"Don't stand here, the smoke is choking, you go into the house." She was busy with her hands, but she didn't forget to drive him away, so as not to "suffer" here.

Looking at her busy back and thinking about herself again, Ouyang's heart became heavier.

"Are you really worthy of her like that? Why don't you give yourself a chance to refuse?" He walked into his room a little confused.

He knew that she was kind to him, but at such a time, her kindness made him feel extra heavy, which he was unwilling to bear.

"There is no possibility, and there is no start over." He closed his eyes and pondered, but his heart became even heavier.

(End of this chapter)