leave this sad place

Chapter 169 Plan
"Farewell, the place where I don't want to stay anymore." He really wanted to say this loudly into the classroom.Looking at the time, it was time to go back, but his heart became slightly uneasy.

It takes a lot of courage to do such a thing, and even if he thinks it over, he will inevitably hesitate for a while.

Familiar figure, familiar busyness, watching her silently prepare dinner for herself, waiting for her to have a good meal when she returns home.My heart unknowingly softened a bit, but now is not the time to be soft-hearted, I have to harden my heart, even if that is slightly cruel.

With an inexplicable sigh, he felt an indescribable feeling in his heart, a little pity.

"I, can I ask you something?" He organized his words, trying to be as careful as possible.

"If you want to ask, just ask." She smiled slightly and didn't care much.

"You've been back until now, the back and forth must have cost a lot, right?" He tried his best to be more careful, but he didn't know why he was doing this.

"En." Nodding her head, she felt a slight surprise in her heart.

"Then how much money do you have left now?" As if mustering up a lot of courage again, Ouyang directly asked the question he wanted to know.

"Why do you want to ask this?" The question you want to know the answer to is not necessarily what others want to answer.

"It's nothing, I just want to know, I want to know more." Ouyang quickly explained to himself.

"Don't worry about money, you can read your book with peace of mind." As if sensing something in her heart, she smiled slightly and gave him a reassuring look, but her heart felt a little heavy.

"Oh." He moaned softly, clenched his fists unconsciously, and felt even more urgent.Because he knew that the purpose of her saying this was just for his own peace of mind, but how could his heart be at ease?Under such circumstances, he didn't want to be just a useless waste, a heavy burden to suppress.He wanted to get out of it faster.

"Then can I ask you another question?" He began to organize his words again, making his tone more normal.

"If you want to know anything, just ask." Her face was still a little warm.Maybe she was just being overwhelmed just now, she was thinking about some of her guesses just now in her heart.

"Did we borrow money from others?" Seeing that she agreed, but he didn't know how to ask her.It took Ouyang a long time to ask her this question.

"Nothing." She was slightly taken aback, and quickly denied it.There are times when telling white lies is essential, like now.

"Really?" Ouyang's eyes darkened slightly, thinking that she would tell the truth to him, but he didn't expect this to happen.But such an answer is understandable to her, after all, what she does is for her own good, even though she doesn't like it.

"Really." She gritted her teeth, nodded bravely, and could only hope that he didn't know this.

"You know that I don't like others to deceive me. No matter what the reason is, even a trivial sentence will hurt me deeply! I really don't like that kind of feeling." Qing Sighing softly, Ouyang calmly seemed to be talking about another irrelevant matter.

"What about you? Will you lie to me?" His tone changed slightly, and he asked her again.Without waiting for her to answer, she continued: "At noon today, when I was about to leave, that call—"

Hearing these words, she knew that she could no longer deny it, so she also sighed softly.

Looking at her expression, Ouyang knew that she understood what he was talking about, and there was no need to point out some words, after all, sometimes it is not good to say something.

"Then how much did you borrow?" Ouyang's heart clenched again, and he clenched his fist unconsciously.

"Just five thousand." She thought for a while, and then continued: "Don't worry, after your college entrance examination is over, I will be able to pay it back soon after I go out to work."

Ouyang closed his eyes tiredly. What he cared about was not whether he could pay back the money, but simply didn't want to borrow money.There is no need to owe such a favor, because he no longer has the desire to continue reading.

"Then how much money do you have now?" Ouyang asked such a question again, so as to make himself more confident.

"Probably [-] more." There was no need to hide such a question, so I simply told him.

"Ten thousand, ten thousand." Ouyang thought silently in his heart. Such a number seems to be a lot, but it is actually very little.As Ouyang guessed, it was not enough to support him to the end.Doesn't that mean that you have to continue to borrow money from others?
Even if he barely made it to the end, what if he really failed the exam?The heart is even heavier, such pressure is still relatively large for Ouyang, he dare not face such a result at all!If that's the case, wouldn't it be that he has let down too much.And even if I performed well in the college entrance examination, what about the university?At that time, wouldn't I have to collect tuition fees and living expenses for myself?Do I have to let myself continue to spend another four years like this, and even finding a job after I come out is still a problem.Such a result is what Ouyang did not want!
That being the case, then there is only——, Ouyang gritted his teeth and hardened his heart.

"It's really fine, you don't have to worry about this at all, as long as you can read your book well." She was still comforting him, but she didn't know that he had made up his mind. Let yourself be so willful again!
"Can you return the five thousand you borrowed first? I don't like this." Ouyang tried his best to make his voice calm.

She looked at him suspiciously, not understanding what he meant by that.

"I don't want to owe others money, let alone owe others favors! Even if it is difficult sometimes, I will grit my teeth and get through it." Ouyang explained slightly. Such words were an excuse he made up casually, but inside Some things are some of his principles, because it is easier for her to believe.As for his real purpose, it is enough for him to know.

Whether it's great or selfish, he doesn't want to be a parasite anymore.

"It's okay. How can anyone not encounter difficulties? When encountering difficulties, you help me and I help you. This is a very common thing."

"Return the money first." Ouyang's tone was flat with an indescribable firmness, just like his determination, and he never wanted to waver.

"It's okay, it's really okay." She was still trying to convince him, but she didn't know what kind of decision Ouyang made.

"Pay it back!" This time Ouyang's voice was not only firm, but also extraordinarily tough.Although I have never liked that tough feeling, I have to admit that sometimes it is necessary and unavoidable.

"If you pay it back, what about your next semester's tuition and living expenses?" She finally couldn't help her inner emotions. Such worries have been pressing down in her heart, but she can't show it, and she has to keep working hard for him Cheer up and comfort him!Wasn't her heart heavy with sorrow?Doesn't she need comfort in her heart?

"Don't worry, the boat will be straight when it reaches the bridge, and there will be a way." Ouyang smiled bitterly.

Wouldn't it be solved if I stopped reading?And there will no longer be that heavy burden in my heart. Isn't such a decision a good way?
(End of this chapter)