leave this sad place

Chapter 38 End
"It's over." Ouyang looked at the speechless starry sky and said hoarsely.

But what about the facts?
Who will know?Maybe it's really over, maybe it's just the beginning - the beginning of pain!
He turned around and turned his back to the stars and the moon, looking extraordinarily bleak and lonely.He buried his head low, but he didn't see the road under his feet, and his eyes were blank without a trace of expression.How could he not feel pain in his heart?
"Is it over?" He couldn't help asking himself again, and slowly closed his sad eyes.He still doesn't know why she behaves like this. "Is it because she is going to study hard? Or is it because she has no feelings for herself?" He kept guessing in his heart.

Gradually, he has already guessed something, but he is still unwilling to admit and believe.He comforted himself: it was because she had to study hard.

He continued to walk, feeling that his whole body had become a lot more decadent, and his mood was extremely low.He couldn't stop comforting himself: "Isn't she still friends with me? It's not true that we can't—see each other again!" But even he hesitated a little when he said this.

"Are we really still friends?" He raised his head and looked at the starry sky, but felt that the whole starry sky was a little dim.

When he returned to the dormitory, he felt that he had lost the slightest bit of strength in his whole body.He sighed deeply, these few days seemed like a lifetime away, and he felt that he had aged several decades.

He hesitated and took out his mobile phone, and sent her a text message: Remember what you said - we are still friends.

After a while, she only had one word for him—hmm.

He held the phone tightly with both hands, with a bit of joy on his face and a trace of comfort in his heart.

He thought and thought, and decided to call her again.

However, it is still a "calling" prompt.

His heart was full of sadness again.Are we really friends?He looked down and wanted to cry again.

Maybe she hasn't had time yet, or she hasn't thought about it yet, he comforted himself again.As if not being so was not enough to survive, he really cared about her too much!

"Okay, let her study hard. I should study hard too, maybe, I—— I just forgot her unknowingly." He said to himself, and continued to comfort him : "Everything is over, and everything should start again." He comforted himself in a low voice: "For a new start, forget—her." He hesitated and sighed: "If, really can't— — Forget her, then hide her in your heart."

However, he couldn't help but miss her.

He loves her so deeply!

Holding his mobile phone, he flipped through the text messages she had sent him one by one.The corner of his mouth unconsciously raised a smile, but his face slowly fell into sadness.The feeling of longing in my heart became stronger.

He frantically searched for everything about her, entered her QQ space, read what she said, read her diary, and firmly remembered every word in his heart.As if he could see the growth of her life and the changes in her emotions, he was deeply obsessed.He ran back to his own space and read her comments one after another.

He rummaged through the box to find the note she had written to him. The delicate and thin handwriting seemed to exude her familiar atmosphere, and each stroke was engraved in his heart, and his eyes filled with tears again.

So, he picked up a pen and wrote her name stroke by stroke.He whispered word after word, over and over again, full of affection and calling.

Suddenly, he thought of a poem again, frantically flipping through the thick books, looking for it.

He held the book in his arms excitedly, and slowly opened it with trembling hands.

With that trembling voice, he read gently word by word:

With the lightest and lightest voice in the world,

Softly call your name every night every night.

write your name.

Draw your name.

And it was your shining name that was dreamed.

Like the sun, like the stars, your name.

Like lights, like diamonds, your name.

Like colorful sparks, like lightning, your name.

Like the burning of primeval forests, your name.

engrave your name!
Carve your name on the tree.

Carve your name on the everlasting tree of life.

When the plant grew into a towering old tree,
Ah, how good, how good,

Your name is also bigger.

Big up, your name.

Light up, your name.

So, softly, softly, gently calling your name.

After he finished reading the song "Your Name" by Ji Xian, the book in his hand was soaked for several pages.He sobbed in a low voice, and wrote her name and his own name stroke by stroke.He wants to connect them tightly together and never separate them again.

The longing for her in his heart was as thick as ink that could not be dissolved, which made the pain in his heart more concentrated.

The emotion that has no place to express makes him want to write on paper.

So, he wrote with pain on his face:

i call you

one by one
miss you

whispering to you

i miss you

stroke by stroke
write you in my palm

into my heart

then
i met you in my dream
Met the you in my dream

i wake up in tears

what's in your head

all you

That's when I discovered
My world is already full of your shadow
Tell me I can't leave you for a moment

Inseparable
I have always loved you!

When he finished writing the last you, he added an exclamation mark heavily at the end, expressing endless emotions.He gave this poem a favorite name - "Loving You Deeply".

The endless lovesickness in his heart can only be resorted to blank paper, let him read it again and again with tears in his eyes.Over and over again, that emotion was brewing in my heart again.Finally, he couldn't read anymore, because he couldn't speak at this time, he could only choke and cry.Too much pain, just because love is too deep!Let him never come out again.

Before he knew it, he fell asleep with tears in his eyes.

I've been in pain, I've cried, I'm tired, and I need a good night's sleep, maybe everything will be fine.

In the mist, he saw the colorful lights in the sky, but there was a vast expanse of whiteness under his feet.He stared into the distance obsessively, but didn't move a step.

When he woke up the next day, he looked at the poem in the book, and then at the poem he wrote on the paper, and his thoughts flooded in like a tide, drowning him in an instant.

Letting him leave her is like letting a fish out of water, making him unable to breathe!

He rubbed his swollen eyes, his numb arms and legs.After looking at his roommate who was still sleeping soundly, he tidied himself up a bit and left the dormitory.

He walked slowly where he walked with her last night, and couldn't help recalling every bit of being with her in his mind, and those memories hurt him deeply.It made his eyes a little red again!

He once again walked on the road with her before, but the trees on the side of the road had become bare at some point, which made him feel even more sad.Her smile involuntarily appeared in front of his eyes, and that silver bell-like laughter clearly entered his ears.He turned his head hastily, nothing!There was a burst of sadness, eyes full of loss, and a tear trickled down the corner of the eye slowly and fell.He grabbed it forward with both hands, but there was nothing!

He closed his eyes with a sad face, and said softly:

wind with sadness
take away the last desolation
Bai Yun'er's happiness
telling

will be my endless sorrow
tell me where to find
those scattered moments

how to teach me

hold tightly

tears rolling in hands

He had no intention of choosing a proper name for it.

Staring blankly at the mountains and water in the distance, the sky and the earth, he was in a daze.

The cheerful stream sang brisk songs tirelessly between the mountains, and the leisurely white clouds were still happy and happy in the blue sky.

He sighed deeply, turned around, and walked towards the way back.

(End of this chapter)