leave this sad place

Chapter 41

"Why him?" Ouyang asked himself in a low voice.

"Facing the sea, the spring is warm and the flowers are blooming." He read softly, thinking of this poem that he was familiar with a long time ago. "Maybe it's because of it." He sighed lowly, because he thought of Hai Zi lying on the train and committing suicide after finishing writing this poem.

He felt some pain in his heart, and felt that there must be some sad stories in it.He was so fascinated by that talented young poet!

The next day, as soon as he woke up, he was eager to buy a collection of Haizi's poems.

When school was over at noon, he hurried to the bookstore without even thinking about eating, where he carefully selected for more than an hour and bought a collection of Haizi's poems.As if he had found a treasure, he held it tightly in his arms and walked on the way back, feeling an inexplicable sweetness in his heart.

When he returned to the dormitory, he carefully flipped through the book, and couldn't put it down.A feeling of hunger hit him, and he remembered that he hadn't eaten yet.So, he carefully put the book on his bookshelf again, thinking about studying it carefully when he came back at night.

In the afternoon, he sat in the classroom with nothing to do.The final exam will be in a few days, so there is no homework, and the rest is basically self-study, so that students have enough time to prepare for the exam.But Ouyang has never been very keen on reviewing.In his opinion, the only things worth reviewing are the things that are biased towards the liberal arts and need to be memorized, and those things that need to be practiced frequently are of a science nature, no matter how much they are reviewed now, the effect is not great.

After reading the textbook over and over again, it was difficult for him to read it again, and he found it boring and boring.He raised his head from time to time to see what the students around him were doing.When he saw that they were reviewing seriously, he felt a little pressure again, but he really couldn't arouse any interest in reading those textbooks again.He sat blankly in his seat, really not knowing what to do.

He unconsciously thought of Yu Shu in his mind.

"She must be studying hard and seriously now." He sighed softly.There was another faint pain in my heart.He didn't understand why she left him for such a boring thing.

"Could this be the real reason?" He subconsciously asked himself again.

The pain in his heart became more and more intense.

"If that's the case, I—I'll let her do it, even if it will hurt me!" He paused lightly, and continued: "What if it's not like that? Then——" He didn't dare to think about it anymore .He also scolded himself how could he imagine her like that?

He closed those dim eyes weakly, propped his left cheek with his left hand, as if he was about to fall asleep, but his heart was full of melancholy.

"Why do I still think about her like this? Didn't I decide to give up on her?" He asked himself in his heart.I remembered the sentence "we will still be best friends in the future", and felt that I was very naive at that time!Can we still be best friends after breaking up?If that's the case, why break up?
But another kind of longing rose in his heart, maybe he and she could really become best friends?In the future, maybe she might change her mind?Thinking of this, he felt an inexplicable joy in his heart again!
Thinking about it, he found that he missed her so much again, wanted to see her, wanted to hear her talk.He wanted to call her again, but when he thought that he might still be in the blacklist of her mobile phone, he hesitated.In that case, wouldn't it be a blow to his confidence.

So, he thought of texting her again.But now the final exam is coming soon, if this is the case, will it bother her and affect her?A trace of helplessness rose in his heart, and once again he hoped that the exam would come sooner, but this time it was just to know her situation earlier.

His thoughts of her were like a flood, destroying wantonly in his heart.

(End of this chapter)