Newlyweds are not lonely

Chapter 183 I Love You, But I Can't Forgive You
Ren Zeshi said slowly: "Let me give you an example! Once, when Ling Yuyao was in elementary school, he was going to participate in a big violin competition. You know, when he was young, his mother forced him to play the violin. Then Once, he prepared a piece of music, which was difficult, let alone a 12-year-old child, even a 20-year-old adult, may not be able to pull it to perfection! But, he likes that piece, and has been Pull, keep pulling...the competition started the next day, but he couldn't pull well in one place, and he couldn't pull his ideal level in a slide, so he was very angry! That time, his mother didn't get angry with him , but he himself was angry, and he threw the piano on the ground heavily, very annoyed.

That day, I happened to come to his house, and I was very puzzled, so I stroked his hair and asked him: "Yaoyao, even if you can't pull out the perfect note, you have done your best, and you will definitely be able to do it in tomorrow's competition." Acquiring No.1! ' Did you know what he said then? "

Han Yuxin shook his head.

Ren Zeshi said indifferently: "At that time, Ling Yuyao looked at me and looked up and said: 'Uncle Ren, because I like this piece of music, I decided to play this piece of music, but I couldn't play it well, I couldn't do it well. Perfect, so, I'd rather give up!'

I was surprised at the time, 'There is a game tomorrow, how can you give up! '

Ling Yuyao raised his head proudly, his gaze was lingering, that kind of gaze did not look like that of a ten-year-old child at all, he said: "I will not participate in tomorrow's competition!" '

I was surprised and said to him: "Your mother will blame you if you don't participate!" '

'If she wants to blame, let her blame!Anyway, she didn't blame me once or twice, even if I got No.1, she still wouldn't like me much! '

At that time, Ling Yuyao's eyes left a deep impression on my heart, so helpless, so mature, as stubborn as a dazzling poppy.

The innocence, innocence and recklessness that belonged to children have completely disappeared from him! "

Ren Zeshi squinted his eyes, and the indistinctly beautiful boy in the white shirt appeared in his mind again.

That look, he will never forget for the rest of his life.

At that time, he knew that this child would become a great talent in the future.

Because he was too cold-blooded, he covered up his fragility, and touched the world with his cold and realistic tentacles.

However, once his fragility is exposed, it will be forever... a scar.

Han Yuxin said: "Then what? Did he go to the competition?"

Ren Zeshi shook his head and said: "No! He didn't go to the competition. That day I saw him standing in the backstage wearing competition clothes and holding a violin, but he refused to play. When it was his turn, He left the violin there and sneaked away alone. No one could understand his behavior. Even if he couldn't play the piece perfectly, even adults, few of them could play it perfectly! In that game, he should have won the championship without a doubt, won the appreciation of everyone, and won the platinum trophy, but he gave up."

"Later, I heard that his mother locked him in the room for 3 days. He was only given water and bread, he was not allowed to go to school, he was not allowed to speak, and he drew a lot of blood on the back of his hand..."

Han Yuxin's heart ached sharply...

She seemed to be able to hear the cry of young Ling Yuyao: "Mom, don't, Mom!"

"You unfilial bastard, I'll strangle you to death! You're impatient, aren't you? How dare people not participate in the competition, how can people laugh at me?!"

"Mom, don't, mom, it hurts!!!"

How much she wanted to travel through time and space, go back to Ling Yuyao's youth, comfort him, and accompany him...

Why, why is he so stubborn, so stubborn?

Why, to develop such a personality, fierce and soft, hurting others and hurting oneself!
Ren Zeshi continued: "Since then, I have understood Ling Yuyao's character. He is the kind of person who is willing to give up if one thing can't be perfect. Today, I saw in his eyes again, The emotions I felt ten years ago..."

Han Yuxin raised his head, looked at Ren Zeshi, and murmured: "You mean..."

"Yes! He thinks that he loves you, but he can't give you perfect love, so he decided to give up! In his heart, you are that beautiful, intoxicating and heartbreaking violin piece that is difficult to complete , he can't do his best, he would rather give up, even if his heart hurts enough to bleed!"

Han Yuxin's lips trembled, but he couldn't say a word.

There was a trace of tenderness in Ren Zeshi's eyes, and he smiled apologetically: "I'm sorry, Yu Xin, I didn't tell you beforehand that Ling Yuyao would play the leading role in this play, but I hoped to give you another chance. Maybe you also You should know, in order to act in this movie, he bought Crown Pictures, which I work for, which caused objections from many members of the board of directors!"

"They said that Ling already had his own film and television company, and there was no need to acquire another established film company and cause a lot of trouble. However, he insisted on going his own way, and was even willing to make a promise in black and white in front of those directors. , unable to achieve a certain expected annual profit, he is willing to take the blame and resign!"

In Han Yuxin's throat, there was a soft 'ah' sound!
Ren Zeshi smiled: "Of course, I can believe that Crown will definitely make money for him and will not let him resign! However, the purpose of my saying this is to tell you that in order to keep you for the last time, I have exhausted everything about him and bet on his career. I am not blaming you, I know that the grievances between you and him cannot be clearly explained by an outsider, but he has used so much effort, Now he has decided to give up..."

Ren Zeshi tilted his head, as if lost in memory, "It's like the song he played really well... I've heard him play that song, it's beautiful, it's like a fairyland on earth, bringing people Arriving at the other end of a cloud and mountain, bathed in the rays of the sun, watching the petals flying, it seems that all the worries and worries in the world are gone, but, it is just such a sound, and he can't make it perfect for such a sound, so, He would rather give up! After that, I never saw him play that piece again!"

When Ren Zeshi said this, he suddenly seemed to realize that he had said too much.

Hey, when you get older, it's easy to talk too much.

Maybe, it's because I feel a little regretful...

He stopped talking and said, "Yu Xin, I'm sorry, I talked too much! If you have nothing else to do, I want to leave first."

Han Yuxin stared blankly at Ren Zeshi's leaving back, and returned home alone without knowing how.

Nan Lichuan didn't know what to do, but he wasn't here.

She wanted to call him, but finally gave up. Now, no one can help her. She is like sailing on a dark sea, unable to find a lighthouse...

In the years abroad, she had nightmares every night, and in her nightmares, she thought of the cruel scene with Ling Yuyao. She couldn't forgive that person, even if she loved her again, she couldn't convince herself to forgive him...

However, these days, after acting together with Ling Yuyao for these few days, the strange thing is that the nightmare has not haunted her anymore. Humans may not be perfect. Why are distrust and mistakes unacceptable?

However, he has decided to give up.

He has his reasons, and maybe he shouldn't force it.

Thinking of this, her mood was extremely chaotic, as if surrounded by an invisible layer of fog, she couldn't see the direction, where to go, and how to choose...

At this moment, her mobile phone rang suddenly, and the number displayed on the screen was a completely unfamiliar number.

Han Yuxin picked up the phone: "Hello!"

"Hello, is this Miss Han Yuxin?" A deep male voice came from the other party.

"It's me, are you?" Han Yuxin asked suspiciously.

"I'm Leng Chengkun, I'm going to take Jiang Xiaorou away tonight, and I'll never come back..." Leng Chengkun said to her.

The next day, the sun was shining brightly, it hadn't rained for a long time, and there was a dry smell in the air.

Today's scene was filmed on a cruise ship in the middle of the river. The content of this scene was filmed after Long Tianyao and Zhao Yuyan had already made up their minds.

Zhao Yuyan never forgot to take revenge. She took a chance and placed a red crane crest in Long Tianyao's cup, but was discovered by Long Tianyao.

Long Tianyao found out that the woman he loves has been using his feelings all the time. He was shocked and angry. He gave her thousands of favors, which caused people all over the world to discuss, but he didn't expect that it was just a trick...

He forced Zhao Yuyan to drink the poisoned wine, but Zhao Yuyan refused. Under Long Tianyao's persecution, she revealed her purpose of revenge. Unexpectedly, Long Tianyao's eyes showed pain, and he said to Zhao Yuyan: "If you If you want to kill me, then you can come... To die by your hands is a better way to die."

Zhao Yuyan was in a dilemma, she wanted revenge, she wanted revenge, but the pain and fragility of the man in front of her made her in a dilemma...

All in all, this is a rivalry scene that puts a high test on acting skills.

Originally, according to the confrontation between Han Yuxin and Ling Yuyao, there was no need to shoot this scene today, but according to the original plan, the stage has been set up, the boat is ready, and the arrow is on the string, so it has to be launched...

Ren Zeshi felt a little uncomfortable today, so he didn't come, and the assistant director took over his position.

This assistant director is not very old, and he is not very proficient in doing things, but everyone has no intention of talking about him.

Because the male and female protagonists were not in high spirits, the entire crew was silent.

Coupled with the hot and dry weather, it is a bit depressing.

After listening to what Ren Zeshi said yesterday, when Han Yuxin saw Ling Yuyao, he had a brand new feeling.

She was thinking, where did he go last night?
Are those words he said really true?

What Leng Chengkun said on the phone last night disturbed all of her thoughts and made her feel in turmoil. She wanted to find someone to confide in...

However, Ling Yuyao was very silent today.

Obviously, it may be because they know that two people have given up on each other, but they can look at it more objectively. This world has always been a fan of the authorities...

After the assistant director finished talking about the play, he emphasized the feeling that needs to be achieved today, and the two finally got into the mood.

After putting on their makeup, the two entered the cruise ship together. At this moment, out of the corner of Han Yuxin's eyes, he suddenly felt a strange shadow flashing by the side of the boat!

She was a little suspicious, but her mood was in a mess. She thought, maybe it was just a temporary staff member, so she didn't pay attention.

The assistant director shouted "Start!"

Han Yuxin picked up a glass of wine and gently placed it on the carved wooden table in the middle of the boat.

Her mood is very complicated, very complicated.

Just now, when she was putting on makeup, Ling Yuyao didn't talk to her or even look at her.

Is it over...

Really, it's time to end.

He has chosen to give up.

After playing this scene, they will go their separate ways from now on.

Slowly, the bead curtain was lifted, and Long Tianyao, or Ling Yuyao appeared in front of her.

There are thousands of words in his gaze, but Han Yuxin doesn't know whether it is the gaze of 'Long Tianyao' to 'Zhao Yuyan', or the gaze of Ling Yuyao to Han Yuxin...

Her fingers stopped, Ling Yuyao looked at her, a cold light flashed in his eyes, and said coldly: "Why are you still here?"

Why are you still here...

This sentence seems to be Long Tianyao's question after discovering Zhao Yuyan's poisoning, but it seems to be Ling Yuyao's words to Han Yuxin...

Han Yuxin's heart suddenly felt bitter, what is she doing here?What else is she doing?

He had already said that he was going to give up on her, so why did he still have a tiny bit of hope?
Human nature is really weird!When he had already said that he wanted to leave her, she actually felt a little bit reluctant...

Ling Yuyao walked forward slowly, reaching out to grab the glass of wine in her hand.

Han Yuxin instinctively stopped him.

Ling Yuyao said softly: "What's wrong? Don't you want me to drink it? Zhao Yuyan? Don't you want to poison me and take revenge on me?"

"Do not……"

"Oh?" Ling Yuyao looked at her lightly, "Don't you want me to drink? Then, you drink!"

Looking at the glass of wine, Han Yuxin suddenly had a desire to drink it up...

She did too!

The scalding liquid ran across her throat, and her heart suddenly felt relieved, and she mustered up the courage to say a word: "I wronged you, I'm sorry..."

"Why?" His eyes glanced at her seemingly absently.

Clearing his throat, Han Yuxin said softly: "Leng Chengkun called me last night. I know that you didn't betray me. In fact, nothing happened between you and Jiang Xiaorou..."

"So what?" Ling Yuyao's eyes were still cold and alienated, he looked at the green lake outside the window, and said softly: "Everything is over, we will go our separate ways after filming this movie."

"Regardless of the past grievances, whether it was your fault or mine, who betrayed whom, who hurt whom, it doesn't matter anymore. People live in this world to be happy, don't torture yourself, Yuxin, you Say yes?"

"You're right!" Han Yuxin lowered his head, looked at the wine glass in his hand and said slowly, "After filming this movie, I want to take Yiyi out of City S. I think I'm not suitable for the entertainment industry."

Ling Yuyao raised his eyebrows, and asked casually: "Why? Aren't you going back to Country Z with Nan Lichuan?"

Han Yuxin shook his head, and said lightly, "No, I want to go alone!"

"Then you and him..."

With a smile, Han Yuxin gently brushed her lips: "I thought I could forget you when I was with him, but now I find that I don't need to do this anymore, so I don't need to force myself, I will I have already told him that I am leaving S City and starting a new life! Ling Yuyao, I wish you happiness!"

A complex light flashed across Ling Yuyao's eyes.

After a while, he lowered his eyes and said slowly, very lightly: "Without you, I will not be happy. I will never..."

Suddenly, at this moment, the noses of the two people smelled a pungent smell!

Then, something crackled and spread rapidly!
Then, a staff member outside shouted: "It's on fire!"

Ling Yuyao and Han Yuxin looked at each other in astonishment.

They quickly opened the bead curtain, only to find that in just a split second, the staff beside them, including the assistant director and cameraman, had disappeared!
This boat was made of bamboo and was very flammable. In an instant, the flames surrounded the two of them!
The raging flames illuminated the faces of the two of them.

Also reflected red, each other's eyes.

In the eyes, only each other!

At this moment, Han Yuxin was a little dizzy!

Is this God's will?Is it fate?Just when the dust of my heart has settled and I have decided to leave forever, I gave the two of them a chance to be alone with each other, or let them speak out again when they were facing a catastrophe. From my heart...

At that moment, looking at Ling Yuyao's face and feeling his breath, Han Yuxin even thought, it would be good if he died in the sea of ​​fire together, right?

Without all the grievances, without all the entanglements, gains and losses, betrayals, painful memories...

Die with him and go to another world together.

In that world, she would forgive him for the bad things he did in this life, and she would love him until eternity.

"What are you doing in a daze, idiot!" Ling Yuyao looked at Han Yuxin standing there blankly, picked her up involuntarily, and ran towards the side of the boat!

However, the fire at the side of the ship has also caught up!

Ling Yuyao frowned fiercely: "MD! How could such a thing happen!"

Without hesitation, he picked up Han Yuxin and jumped into the water. Han Yuxin said in shock: "I can't swim!"

"I'll hold you, it's okay!" His voice was generous and gentle in her ears.

In the next second, the two of them fell into the icy water!
Han Yuxin was indeed not good at swimming in water. After soaking in the water for a while, he felt his body was very heavy and cold.

However, Ling Yuyao has been protecting her, and the two of them managed to escape from the smoky boat and the scattered wooden wreckage, but they seemed to be gradually drifting down towards the depth of the water...

In order to pursue the effect of filming, today's scene was not filmed on a lake, but in a big river. The current of this river is very fast, and there have been many tragedies of drowning.

If this continues, maybe Ling Yuyao's physical strength will not be able to support it...

Han Yuxin was protected in his arms, with mixed feelings in his heart, and said softly: "Don't be like this, let go!"

"I let you go?" Ling Yuyao looked at her with a painful expression on his face: "Do you think I will let you go and let you die? I can't do it!"

"But you have already decided to give up on me!" At this moment, between heaven and earth, clouds and water, life and death, Han Yuxin's tears suddenly flowed down!
She whispered softly in his ear: "Maybe this is also very good. I love you, but I can't forgive you. This ending is the best!"

"It's because you can't forgive me that..."

Ling Yuyao smiled, held her tighter, and dragged her to the shore.

Finally, he grabbed a drifting board and slightly stabilized the sinking trend of the two of them.

However, it is still far, far away from the shore.

A vast expanse of whiteness.

I can't see clearly, the direction.

Ling Yuyao's voice was already breathing weakly, but it was persistent and could not be refuted!

"So, if giving my life for you can make you forgive me, I am willing to do so!"

Han Yuxin looked at his resolute face in disbelief: "But aren't you going to give up?"

"I can give up being with you, but I can't give up..." Ling Yuyao took a deep breath, tears seemed to glisten in his eyes, "I can't give up—I love you."

Han Yuxin stared at him blankly.

It's like, I've never met this person before!
I don't know when, a few faint thunderclaps came from the sky...

Han Yuxin was very surprised. It was dry, but why did it suddenly thunder when it hadn't rained for a long time?
She looked at the dark sky worriedly, and sure enough, the originally clear sky was suddenly surrounded by dark clouds. The sound seems to indicate that a hellish rainstorm is coming...

As if feeling the uneasiness of Han Yuxin in his arms, Ling Yuyao paddled the water as hard as he could, while hugging her tightly, supporting her body, and said in a hoarse voice: "Don't be afraid, I'm here!"

"How long can you bear it..." Han Yuxin heard her heart pounding in her chest, and an uncontrollable cry came from her throat: "Ling Yuyao, you...why are you doing this to me?"

"Maybe it's because I want to make up for my sins!"

The rain fell drop by drop, hitting his hair, eyebrows, and bridge of nose like a whip, slowly flowing down his handsome and steep outline, accumulating on his chin, and then slowly flowing down...

Ling Yuyao protected Han Yuxin with his body, and hid her in his arms, as if facing a priceless treasure, trying not to let her be whipped by the rain.

However, such movements made him swim extremely strenuously. Even though he was clinging to a plank floating in the river, he was still exhausted and his face turned pale.

And his body was getting colder and colder.

Although he has very good physical strength, it is not enough to endure the wind and rain in the icy river all the time.

The rain fell crazily, as if it was about to overturn the world.

And Ling Yuyao, like the god who created the world, only protects his beloved woman.

(End of this chapter)