Qingqingzijin, miss my heart

Chapter 18 The world is suddenly not beautiful (3)
It was still pressed by the other party after it was connected.

Frowning and closing his eyes tightly, Cen Nian looked very irritable.After taking a few deep breaths, Cen Nian still felt that the boredom in her heart could not be resolved, and the empty bedroom seemed to magnify her loneliness and depression a hundred times.

Cen Nian decided to go out for a walk, even if it was just wandering aimlessly, it was better than staying in this dormitory occupied by loneliness.

However, if time could be turned back, Cen Nian would never choose to leave the dormitory.

Because after days of no news, she finally saw Jiang Bei, but her Jiang Bei was sitting beside others, smiling gently at them.

This "other" is Zou Yuqing.

Cen Nian saw Jiang Bei and Zou Yuqing near the library. The moment she saw Jiang Bei, her mood suddenly became joyful, as if the dark sky had suddenly brightened.

The corner of her mouth raised, and Cen Nian stepped forward, but before she could say "Jiang Bei", she braked suddenly.

Just because, not far away, Jiang Bei suddenly grabbed Zou Yuqing's hand beside him.

He couldn't hear what they were saying, but the only thing that was clear was the happy expression on Jiang Bei's face under the dim yellow light.

Time stood still, Cen Nian was motionless, she felt her feet had taken root on the ground, and in the barren land, she was like a withered grass, no one could see the sadness of the humble and weak her, and her tears It blurred her vision so easily, but she was forced to hold it in her eyes by the stubborn.

She watched them holding hands, Zou Yuqing and Jiang Bei laughing and fighting, and Jiang Bei gently brushing her hair behind her ears.

Suddenly, she remembered the memories she chose to ignore during this period——

Called Jiang Bei, he said he was at work, but she saw him tutoring Zou Yuqing in the library; Tang Yin said that he bumped into Jiang Bei and Zou Yuqing together, she called him to ask him, but he said Tang Yin was stirring up trouble; He enthusiastically made sugar water for him, but he said he didn't have time, but Zou Yuqing posted a group photo of them on Weibo...

The various reasons she had found for him were laughing at her like hideous faces.

She is like a bystander, watching the boy she loves with a nearly perfect girl, her gestures are full of intimacy only between lovers.

After a long time, she came to her senses before she dared to react.

She took out her mobile phone and called Jiang Bei.

Then, she watched him frowning with a disgusted look on his face, watching his finger move, the ringtone stopped abruptly, and the ringtone in her ear was replaced by her most annoying reminder - "The number you dialed is temporarily unavailable connect..."

Cen Nian felt that she should walk over, smile generously and gracefully, and ask Jiang Bei if he chose Zou Yuqing.

However, she never had the courage.In the overwhelming sadness, she ran away, she chose to turn around and became a deserter.

She didn't want to face it, so she ran back to her bedroom and went to bed.

She tried hard to convince herself that it was just an illusion, Jiang Bei's girlfriend was her, and the person she loved was also her.

However, that night, Cen Nian still suffered from insomnia.

She didn't tell Tang Yin these things, because her heart still refused to believe that Jiang Bei and Zou Yuqing were together, and she was still persuading herself that "seeing is not believing".

However, Cen Nian's endurance did not last long.

For two consecutive days, Cen Nian called Jiang Bei hundreds of times. In fact, she just wanted to hear his voice, to hear him say "You think too much", but she couldn't get through to his phone.So, Cen Nian decided to go to the boys' dormitory to find Jiang Bei himself.

In the morning, Cen Nian went downstairs to the boys' dormitory to wait for Jiang Bei.

But Cen Nian didn't expect that after finally waiting for Jiang Bei, and before she called him, Zou Yuqing walked towards Jiang Bei from another direction.

Cen Nian froze in place.

Not far away, Zou Yuqing took the tie from Jiang Bei's hand, then smiled and carefully helped him tie the tie like a little girl.

She looked at Jiang Bei, the corners of his mouth were slightly raised at this time, and when he looked at Zou Yuqing, the gentle eyes made people enchanted.

However, Cen Nian's heart could not be intoxicated, she only felt a faint pain in her heart, as if her heart was made of glass, and it shattered at this moment, and the shards of glass made her almost unable to breathe.

This time, Cen Nian did not escape, she walked forward slowly.

When he saw her, Jiang Bei's face flashed with astonishment, and then he frowned tightly.

Cen Nian asked him: "You and Zou Yuqing... are you together?"

Jiang Bei looked at her, did not answer, but nodded slightly.

"Why?" Suddenly his mind went blank, Cen Nian looked at him, trying to find evidence of his lying from his eyes, but found nothing.

"I'm in love with her." He met her eyes with indifference.

"I don't believe it." The truth is always cruel, believable or not, Cen Nian chose the latter, she gritted her teeth and tried to convince herself, "I don't believe you don't love me, Jiang Bei, are you lying to me? ? You just want to play tricks on me, don’t you? Well, you can’t fool me, and I won’t be fooled by you.”

She reached out to grab his hand, but he avoided it indifferently.

"Do not touch me."

"what?"

"nausea."

"Disgusting?" Cen Nian wanted to laugh, and subconsciously twitched the corners of his mouth, but that smile was uglier than crying, "You mean I'm disgusting?"

"Yes."

Jiang Bei's disgusted eyes pierced her heart, and Cen Nian could feel it, blood dripping from her heart.

She moved her lips, trying hard to say something in a relaxed tone, but tears flowed down her face.As if she was afraid that she would be disliked for crying, she quickly wiped it with the back of her hand.

However, the movement was still a step slower than Jiang Bei's voice.

He said, "Don't pretend to be pitiful."

After sweeping away the disgusted eyes, Jiang Bei stretched out his hand to take Zou Yuqing's hand, walked around her and left.

Cen Nian stared blankly at them leaving, watching their figures gradually disappear.She thought it was a nightmare and she tried desperately to wake up, but she couldn't.

Recalling every little thing he had with Jiang Bei, Cen Nian couldn't believe it.

She loves him so much, and after chasing him for so long, she finally moved him. Obviously not long ago they went out together to celebrate Tang Yin's birthday, and he said he needed a good wife, so he worked hard with her.However, he now says "don't touch me" and "disgusting".

How could he change his mind when he said he changed his mind?

Cen didn't believe it.

Or rather, she didn't want to believe it.

So in the next few days, she tried her best to block Jiang Bei and Zou Yuqing, who were in pairs, in various places-canteens, classrooms, libraries, boys' dormitories... She told him countless times, "I don't believe it." ", she also wanted to separate the two clenched hands countless times, and she tried to squeeze between them countless times.

Finally, in the morning when Jiang Bei and Zou Yuqing were about to go to practice, Jiang Bei couldn't help asking her: "What do you want to do?"

Cen Nian smiled and said, "I want to win your heart back."

"Sister." It was Zou Yuqing who answered the conversation. She had had enough of the other party's pestering for the past few days, but at this moment, she suppressed her resentment, frowned, and said, "There is no love in love." Who is right and who is wrong? When Jiang Bei chose you, I didn’t bother him. Why can’t you bless us now that he chooses me? Do you know that when a boy doesn’t love me, no matter how hard you stalk me? It's useless, losing his self-esteem like this will only make him hate you even more."

"Why do you say that Jiang Bei doesn't love me?" Cen Nian looked at Zou Yuqing, his voice was not loud, but full of anger.

"If he loved you, he wouldn't be with me now." Zou Yuqing smiled, showing the arrogance of a victor.

"If he didn't love me, he wouldn't have been with me before!" Cen Nian changed her words a little and it became his own.

"I'm just playing." However, as soon as her voice fell, Jiang Bei sneered, "I think a thick-skinned girl like you should be fun, so play."

"The fun of it?"

"Can't afford it?"

The proud love turned out to be just for fun.Cen Nian thought, feeling very sad.

Leaving Cen Nian who was unable to fight back alone behind him, Jiang Bei and Zou Yuqing walked out of University A and walked towards the bus stop.

Walking out of the school gate, Jiang Bei wanted to pull his hand away, but Zou Yuqing still held her tightly.

He frowned and reminded: "She can't see it anymore."

"Do a full set of acting." Zou Yuqing smiled, pretending to look back, "Who knows if she will follow her again?"

"She won't follow."

He tore her hand away with the other.

Cen Nian's grief-stricken appearance along the way was always lingering in his mind. During this time, her sadness and grief were all engraved in his heart. In fact, he was more hurt than her, but he had no choice.

He even asked Zou Yuqing for help, and asked her to help perform these few scenes of mutual love.He also knew that Zou Yuqing had never given up on her all this time, and that this time the promise was more or less selfish, but he couldn't worry that much, he could only use her—Cen Nian's unforgiving rival in love—to attack Cen Nian .

But he tried his best to make Cen Nian give up, but she still didn't know how to let go.

On his birthday, Cen Nian blocked him again downstairs in the boys' dormitory.

"Jiang Bei, happy birthday." Cen Nian handed over the gift with both hands, pretending to be happy, "I bought this online, your long-awaited "Slam Dunk" doll, please take it apart and have a look, you will definitely like it of!"

Jiang Bei frowned, glanced at her, and tried hard to suppress the urge to touch her face.

He raised his hand, but made up his mind, knocked her gift to the ground, and then gave her five words: "Childish! Waste of money!"

Her thoughts seemed worthless.

Cen Nian didn't feel the pain anymore because she was so numb from the pain, she just tolerated it with a stronger forbearance.

She knelt down, picked up the gift silently, and asked him with sobs: "Jiang Bei, what kind of gift do you want so that you will like it?"

Jiang Bei looked down at her, her thin body made him want to hold her in his arms.

However, he can't.

He could only endure stronger grief, and said with a piercing heart: "Break up. To me, breaking up is the best gift you can give me."

He still said those two words.

She thought that as long as he didn't say "break up", she could continue to pester her, but it turned out that after a long time, if she really hated her, he would say so.

Cen Nian finally despaired.

Out of desperation, she smiled instead, and said, "Okay. I won't harass you anymore."

Holding the gift, she got up and left with her back to him.

Her figure was gradually swallowed by the night.

Jiang Bei felt that the corners of his eyes were slightly cold. Facing the boundless darkness, he said in a low voice——

"I love you."

(End of this chapter)