Sadness begins with your name

Chapter 24 Thin sand, don't cry

The train from south to north rumbled over the sleepers, and rumbled away my hasty and messy youth.

Yimeng woke up and arrived at Beijing Railway Station.Seeing other people getting out of the car with big bags and small bags in a panic and rushing on the road, I secretly called myself a wise choice.Except for the toiletries and food for the journey, and a few clothes, I took almost nothing with me.

If you have money, you will have everything.At the time, I thought so.

As soon as I got out of the station, I saw the team of Beijing xx University picking up freshmen, as well as faces full of youth.

But the warmth in those smiles made me, who is used to curling up in the dark and damp, somewhat uncomfortable.

As soon as I approached, a boy with glasses and a few pimples on his forehead ran over and asked me enthusiastically if I wanted to help.I pointed to the backpack on my shoulder and said I didn’t need it. Seeing him return it with some disappointment, I asked, “Can this car go to school?”

"Yes, yes!" The man with glasses immediately cheered up, and I smiled back. When I was about to get in the car, I remembered something, so I took out a note from the zipper of my backpack and handed it to him.

"Do you know where this place is?"

The boy took the note and studied it, murmured for a long time, then seemed to browse through all the maps in his head, and then said to me with certainty: "Yes, it's not too far from our school. If necessary , I can take you there."

"Thank you. Let's talk about it tomorrow."

When I got in the car, the boy still waved to me outside the window and said loudly, "My sophomore is called... Jiahui."

Whether he was Zhang Jiahui or Liang Jiahui, I didn't hear clearly, and I didn't care at all.Maybe other freshmen have a kind of excitement about their new life when they first step into the university threshold, but I am full of worries.

The admission procedures went smoothly, and there was still a day and a half before the official start of classes. The girls in the same dormitory were already familiar with each other, chatting together and discussing which attractions to visit. I was the only one sitting on the upper bunk, facing a picture of Beijing. City map painstakingly studied.

"Hey, where are you going to go? I'm a local, and I can be your free tour guide wherever I want to go." The girl on the lower bunk poked her head out, showing a cute round face.

I shook my head indifferently, then suddenly changed my mind and asked, "Are you from Beijing? Then you should know about this place, right?"

I circled a place on the map with a blue pen, and she looked at it carefully: "No problem. But it's not a scenic spot, what do you want to do?"

"I just want to stroll around casually." I said vaguely.

In the student cafeteria, I treated this girl named Qin Qianqian to a bowl of noodles with fried sauce, and then we went out and took a tricycle to find the place I mentioned.

Although the man with glasses said it was not far from the school, it took us more than an hour to finally find the address on the note.

That was the address Bo Yuntian left me when he divorced his mother a few years ago.It's been so long, I don't know if they still live here.

When passing by alleys, Qin Qianqian told me that this is the famous Beijing Hutong.This reminded me suddenly of Lin Beifeng, looking up at the sky, it was cloudless and very clear, occasionally a few pigeons flew by.

In fantasy, it should be walking here with him.

"What's the number in Congjia Hutong..." Qin Qianqian pulled my hand.

"27."

"27, it's right here, that's right. Do you have something to do with this family?" She asked me, her eyes were as bright as water.

"A relative, ask about it." I smiled.

It was Qin Qianqian who knocked on the door for me. The wooden door is very thick. If you didn't knock on the knocker with your hands, the people inside would definitely not be able to hear it.

After filming for several minutes, there was no movement.I suddenly pointed to the iron lock on the door knocker and said to her, "The door is locked, what are we shouting for?"

Qin Qianqian was stunned, looked at me blankly and said, "Yes. It's locked."

I burst out laughing.

"Ah, you look so beautiful when you smile. Especially these eyes, they are so shining." Qin Qianqian is about my height, but because of his round face, he looks much more childish.

These words sound a bit familiar, oh, Wei Young once said that.

Damn it, I can't help but think of them when I arrive in Beijing.

Return in vain.Qin Qianqian patted me on the shoulder and said, "It's time to visit the alley. I'll look for it another day."

I nodded and walked out side by side with her, just in time a pregnant woman walked towards me with a handful of celery in her hand, her belly was so big that it seemed that even walking seemed a bit difficult.

We quickly avoided and made way for her.

"Thank you little sister." When she walked by, she turned her face to me and smiled slightly.

That smile stunned me.

is her.Even though I've only met her once, even though she doesn't wear makeup and has a plump face, I still recognize her at a glance—the woman who snatched away my father and destroyed my family, Ye Congling.

"Wait." I called to her.

At this moment, the brokenness and pain from the age of 14 hit me suddenly, and I didn't know what to do, and I didn't know what to do next.

It happened that a white hairpin on the top of her head slipped from the tip of her hair. I walked up to it, bent down to pick up the hairpin and handed it to her: "Your things fell out."

"Oh." She raised her hand to touch her hair, with a soft smile: "Thank you."

I stared at her, but sadly found that time did not steal anything from her, including youth and temperament, but instead gave her a peaceful bearing and a fetus in her womb.

Is that her and daddy's child?

Ye Congling didn't recognize me. Holding the celery, she took out the key in her handbag and opened the door we knocked on just now.

Sure enough, they are still here.

It wasn't until I watched her step into the old-fashioned courtyard that I dragged Qin Qianqian back to school silently.

I have grown up, and I am no longer that willful, savage, and reckless thin sand.Although I really wanted to punch her swollen belly, I had to bear it.

I don't know when I will endure it, but I know that that day will always come.

The next day, I got up early, and then went to Congjia Hutong again according to the route of the previous day.

It was too early to go, and there was a faint mist in the air. I took off the big sunglasses I wore to disguise myself, wiped off the moisture on them, and continued to curl up at the base of the wall, waiting for the door to ring.

At about 08:30, there was a knock on the door.I hid quickly, staring at the person walking out of the door with wide eyes.

When the man's first cough came into my ears, my heart was already trembling nervously.When the muscular man in the dark shirt came into sight, his nails clenched into fists hurt his palm.

After four years, Bo Yuntian, do you still remember that you still have a biological daughter in this world?
He hurried out with a black briefcase, probably passing me on his way to work.I stood up from the wall and stared at him.

Even the loose sportswear couldn't resist the damn cold in the morning. I was trembling, and my eyes behind the sunglasses followed his footsteps closely, but after all, I just watched the man I called Dad walking by without looking sideways. , looking at me like a passerby.

On the way back, the wind blew up, and I raised my face high, wanting it to receive the comfort of the sun, and even more wanting to force those irrepressible tears back, or to be dried by the sun.

I told myself that I have survived all these years of suffering, Bosha, you will only become stronger, so don't cry.

Laughing and returning to the dormitory, several girls who were eating instant noodles asked me in amazement what happened, did I meet a handsome guy.

I smiled and didn't answer, but grabbed Qin Qianqian's instant noodles and took a big bite.

It was so spicy, tears and snot came down in an instant.They clamored for me to wash my face, and I ran to the bathroom, pouring out handfuls of tears in the name of chili peppers.

Classes will start next, but every day I will take a fixed time to run there and sneak a peek at their lives.

薄云天一般早上08:30出门，晚上07:30回家。而叶淙灵则一般上午都在家中，只有下午三点左右出门，05:30左右回家。

After observing them for more than a week, I think I have mastered their life rules, and I can immediately implement the plan that has been brewing for several days.

(End of this chapter)