Sadness begins with your name

Chapter 25 Make You Cry Thank My Conspiracy
It was an ordinary Tuesday afternoon, there was no class, and I arrived at No. 27 Congjia Hutong by myself.

It was just after five o'clock, and the gate was still locked.The lofty sky is still clear and messy, like a blue lake, I am even a little worried, whether such a clear sky will reflect and record the things I will do next one by one.

The ancient alley was leisurely and quiet, and I looked around, but there were no people around.I confidently took out the small bottle of cooking oil I bought from the supermarket from the pocket of my sportswear, bent down and carefully poured a layer on the bluestone slab and cement floor at the gate.

The ground suddenly became oily, and I immediately retracted, put the oil bottle into the bottom of the garbage truck at the entrance of the alley, and then wandered back and forth in the alley pretending to be a passerby.

This was the most difficult wait in my life. Although it was only half an hour, the struggle and suffering in my heart never stopped.

Going against conscience or forgetting hatred, the two choices made my heart burn.

Recalling the 18 years of growing up, my parents seem to put more energy into quarreling and hurting each other, and they seem to be more judged by myself about the right and wrong of this society, life and the world.

I have always been like a weed in the world, living wantonly and alone.

It was 5:30 in the afternoon when she came from the alley.My heart rose instantly, and I ran forward a few steps like a thief.It wasn't until I completely hid myself behind the gate of a courtyard that I poked my head out and stared at her secretly.

Ye Congling seemed to have just returned from maintenance, his skin was tender and rosy, and his two fair hands were holding vegetables, tomatoes and a big carp.

She walked closer with her big belly humming, no matter how you looked at it, she was a happy little woman in the world of fireworks.But...what should be paid, must be paid.

When she was almost at the door, she freed one hand and began to look down at the keys in her bag without noticing that today the road she had walked on countless times was sprayed with oil enough to make her fall countless times.When she reached the door, she raised her right foot, and the foot in the white soft-soled shoe fell to the ground lightly like a nimble little fish.

However, her body was so heavy that when the soles of her feet stepped on the shiny steps, she lost her balance.The whole body staggered and fell forward.

"Oh my God." She exclaimed, the green vegetables and big carp in her hand were thrown in an arc in the air, and then fell three feet away, and the red tomatoes rolled all over the ground.

It must be very painful, because she fell heavily at the door, and Gao Long landed on her stomach. With a cry of pain, I saw blood bubbling from between her legs in pink trousers...

I shrank at the base of the wall, pressed my back against the wall, and bit my lower lip desperately to resist the involuntary trembling of my body.

"Help, help..."

"Yuntian..."

After a few minutes, her voice gradually weakened, and I finally ran over quickly and helped her up.

"I have a phone at home. Quickly, call 120." She fainted after she finished speaking, her rosy cheeks were as pale as paper.

The key fell out of her bag, and I picked it up to unlock it, but the more anxious I was, the more trembling my hand became.In this case, it is false to say that she is not afraid. If she dies, I will commit murder...

Thinking of this, with a strong hand, the lock cylinder clicked, and the door was opened.

I stumbled into the courtyard, and was about to run into the living room to find the phone, when I suddenly heard someone behind me yelling in panic: "Aye! Aye! What's wrong with you?"

I turned around and saw a middle-aged man in a dark brown suit bent over and hugged Ye Congling, his face full of anxiety.

"My child, Yun Tian...my child..." After she finished speaking, she completely fainted.Bo Yuntian, who came home early, called her name loudly, and picked her up from the ground.

"120, 120..." He stood still and muttered, beads of sweat rolled down his pale face, looking at a loss.I didn't dare to hesitate any longer, I rushed to the living room to find the phone and dialed 120.

When I ran out of the yard, Bo Yuntian had already rushed to the entrance of the alley with Ye Congling in his arms. I stopped chasing him and stood there watching quietly.Heart, like a bunch of expired pickles, crumpled, sour, weird.

I should be relieved, happy, because the hatred accumulated for several years was finally released, and this damn woman who built her happiness on the pain of others finally got her retribution, but why am I not happy...

When it was dark, I finally went back to school. Qin Qianqian asked me where I was and if I found any relatives.I shook my head and said they didn't live there anymore.

After that, for a whole week, I stayed in the school, attending classes, eating, sleeping, classrooms, cafeterias, and dormitories.

The lives of the girls in the dormitory are hot. They are young and tender, and they live a flamboyant and simple life like a butterfly. They are eager to be noticed, admired and pursued, like spring buds eager to bloom.

So, they go shopping, buy countless cheap and fancy new clothes, and try to apply various cosmetics to their faces shyly.They go on outings, to Xiangshan, to Houhai, girls, boys... especially with the company of boys, their smiles will be extraordinarily beautiful.

And usually, I never take part in these activities.

I am bleak, quiet, withdrawn.Like a plant, it hides in a damp dark corner.No one can redeem me.

Three days later, I came to the obstetrics and gynecology department of Ye Congling's hospital.

The autumn sunshine shines through the windows on the corridor of the inpatient building. Walking in those bright spots, even though my clothes are bright and youthful, I always feel that I look so guilty and embarrassed in the eyes of others.

Room 3 on the third floor, this is the hospitalization information of Ye Congling that I inquired from the nurse station of this hospital in advance.I know, she had a miscarriage.

Tut duk, knocking on the door must sound very polite, because now Baosha came to them on his own initiative, to make peace, to show kindness, and to take the initiative to integrate into their small family.

The door opened, and a pale, thin, tear-dropped woman's face appeared in front of her eyes.

"Hello, Aunt Ye." I smiled sweetly and nodded slightly.

She hesitated, "You are?"

A few seconds later, she pointed at me, "You are the girl who saved me that day...Yun Tian, ​​come quickly..." She turned around and greeted the inside, and there was the sound of rushing water from the direction of the ward's bathroom.

I smiled and continued to pretend: "Are you feeling better? What happened that day is really scary."

She smiled weakly and opened the door: "Come in first."

"Aye, come and wash your face." A man came out of the bathroom with a basin in his hand, and picked up a steaming towel.

I stood still, and then bent the corners of my lips, trying to make myself appear in front of him with a graceful and graceful posture.

I haven't seen her in four years, the little Bo Sha has grown into a big girl, I don't know if Bo Yuntian can still recognize her.

His eyes widened, the soft smile on his face gradually froze, and his whole face froze into a shocked expression: "You..."

"Don't you recognize me? Dad--Dad." I smiled sweetly and bit the word "Dad" hard on purpose.

The towel in his hand fell into the basin with a snap, and with a flick of his wrist, half of the basin of hot water spilled out.

"Hey Yuntian—" Ye Congling ran over to help him hold the basin, and then turned to look at me in surprise: "Are you Bosha?"

"Yes, Aunt Ye, thank you for remembering me." I continued to smile, but God knows my face was about to freeze, and I felt disgusted by my hypocrisy.

The two of them looked at each other and didn't speak for a while. To be honest, I was a little bit cold. Ye Congling was surprised or not enthusiastic when he saw me. After all, I was his own daughter, and he didn't feel excited at all. Could it be the capital city? After several years of exposure, the heart of the old man has become as cold and tough as the Badaling Great Wall?
"What's the matter, Dad? Are you unhappy to see me?" Walking in front of Bo Yuntian, my expression gradually turned cold.

As if he suddenly woke up from a dream, bright light burst into his eyes: "No, no. It was too sudden, I didn't expect it at all... Shasha, why are you here?" He stretched out his hand, as if wanting to touch it Touched my head, but stopped hesitantly.

"I haven't seen you for a few years, and you've grown up so much." He murmured, "Tell Dad, how have you been these few years?"

I told him that Ning Qinglan was dead, and that I was admitted to a university in Beijing just to find him.

"died?"

"died?"

Both of them asked unbelievable questions. Ye Congling, who had already been lying down on the bed, sat up straight, looking at me with big eyes full of horror.

With so many twists and turns and pain, I don't want to say it again, and I don't want them to know how miserable Ning Qinglan was before his death.I just said lightly that she had an accident on the boat and fell into the river.

Bo Yuntian seemed to be having a hard time accepting this fact. His face was pale, and he sat down on the chair beside the bed in the ward, his eyes glazed over, and he murmured: "How could I die? How could I die..."

I stood opposite him, stared into his eyes and said softly: "I tried to contact you, but you changed the number."

I looked at this unlucky man with cold eyes: Absolutely, I will never let you go.

"Shasha." After a long while, he looked up at me with his head down, his eyes were red and his voice was hoarse, and he said, "You come back to live with us. From now on, you will live with us. Okay. ?"

"Yuntian..." Ye Congling called him softly, with an uneasy but hesitant expression on her pale face: "Actually... the dormitory life in the university is also very interesting..."

"Stop talking!" Bo Yuntian stood up abruptly, interrupting her words: "From today on, Bo Sha will move to live at home. Your life, no matter what, can be regarded as being saved by her, Aye, you should Thanks Sasha."

"Oh." I smiled lightly, "It doesn't matter." But my eyes were fixed on Ye Congling's body. She had a pale face, black hair curled on her neck, and her forehead was moist. Khan, a pair of crescent-shaped eyes gradually overflowed with tears.

"Yes... Sasha, I should thank... thank you..."

After she finished speaking every word, she suddenly raised her head and looked at me, her questioning and resentful eyes were like a thorn, which deeply hurt my nerves.

On the day Ye Congling was discharged from the hospital, I carried my luggage to the gate of the hospital early.

Bo Yuntian's black Poussin slowly appeared at the hospital gate, he got out of the car, saw me standing by the flower bed, and immediately waved affectionately: "Shasha!"

I walked over with a smile, and when he saw the large and small luggage in my hand, he froze for a moment: "Who are you?"

"Go home and live with you."

His eyes suddenly lit up, he immediately took the bag from my hand, and sighed with some emotion: "I didn't expect, Shasha, you've really grown up and sensible, and you don't hate Dad, I'm so relieved..."

Seeing him put the luggage into the trunk, I opened the door straight and sat in the co-pilot's seat—I don't know, this is Ye Congling's exclusive seat.

"I'm going to pick you up now, Auntie Ye, Shasha, are you seated yet?"

"Ah."

From the front door of the hospital to the parking lot downstairs, it only took two or three minutes.

The car stopped and he said:
"You wait here, I'll pick her up and go downstairs. Hey, Doctor Zhang..." Without saying a word, he turned his head and saw a fat middle-aged doctor, and immediately stopped him with a smile on his face.

This Doctor Zhang is Ye Congling's attending doctor, and Bo Yuntian originally wanted to chat with him, but unexpectedly, the doctor grabbed him and said with a serious face: "It just so happens that I want to find you too, your lover will be discharged from the hospital today Now, there are some things I have to tell you clearly."

"What?" Bo Yuntian was a little nervous, and the polite smile on his face became forced. "Isn't she fully recovered?"

"This is her second miscarriage, right?" Dr. Zhang pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose, and sighed, "According to our examination of her, it is estimated that it will be difficult for her to get pregnant in the future."

Ye Congling lost her fertility?

Sitting in the car, I heard their conversation, and I was also taken aback. This was something I had never thought of before...

After the doctor left, he stood by the car, frozen like petrified. I opened the car door and called softly, "Daddy, Daddy?"

He turned his head slowly and gave me a very weak smile: "It's okay, just wait, I'll be right back."

He walked in the wind, staggering a little.I suddenly discovered that the tall and straight father in my memory had become old at this moment, with a little gray hair on the sideburns, a slightly protruding abdomen, and a slightly hunched back.

Since then, I have entered the hall and entered the room, and time is like running water between my fingers, so cool, so fast, the tighter I hold it, the faster it flows.In the end, there is only a handful of wet memories in the palm of your hand.

(End of this chapter)