Emperor's Girl Allure: Monk Lord, I won't marry

Chapter 136

Why, everything is still going on the same route?

Except that she, an outsider, can only stand on the sidelines, everything else continues to develop according to the original situation. She has been trying to avoid it, and has been trying to change it, but it can't be changed no matter what. .

Qiao Chuliang... Now she doesn't know if she really hates him as much as before. Now she doesn't care about him at all. What happens to him has nothing to do with her...

Could it be that she was reborn just to claim everything back from him?Could it be that she wanted to send him to hell by living her life again?
She was confused, she couldn't see clearly...

She always thought so, always...

But now, she hesitated again...

Whether that man is dead or alive has nothing to do with her, she doesn't want to and doesn't bother to care about it, even Concubine Yu... this woman is not still standing in front of her properly even after being tortured by her like that?
She is really wondering now, what is the purpose of what she did before?
Will she be happy if she does this?
Is she happy?
No, no, she's not happy at all, not at all...

She doesn't know what she really wants, she doesn't know what she is living for, now she is like a floating cloud in the sky, just drifting aimlessly with the wind, she doesn't know what she is doing What, I don't know why I keep moving forward...

However, she met him...

At such a time, she met him...

Gu Fengwan, this person who did not exist in the previous life, this mysterious person who suddenly appeared, this person who made her heart flutter when she first saw him, this person made her feel at a loss.

Because of Gu Fengwan's appearance, she felt that she began to change, became vacillating, became anxious, became foolish, became farther and farther away from her who wanted revenge, and became even more attached to herself. don't know...

Gu Fengwan, he has the ability to make her become so...

She felt the crisis, felt the pressure, she also wanted to escape, far away, but the reality had already deviated from what she imagined, he was still getting closer and closer to her, and gradually penetrated into the bottom of his heart , lingering.

At this moment, she knew that it was impossible for her to hide anymore.

It seems that she is no longer the rock-solid Yu Qinghua at the beginning. Now she is no different from ordinary daughters in the world. Now she can't see others, can't see herself, what she can see, Just that one person.

In my heart, in my eyes, and on my mind, there is only that one person.

It was as if she had returned to the first time when her daughter's heart sprouted. At that time, she could only think about these things, and she could be stupid.

Now, however, she's back to being like that again.

This shouldn't be hers, she shouldn't be like this, how long has she been dead like this?How long has it been since I saw you again?

She couldn't even remember, since her heart was filled with hatred, since she was reborn with such deep regret and resentment, since she didn't even know herself...

It's been a long time since she was like this, she has the mentality of a little girl, and she hasn't appeared again...

But it wasn't until she met Gu Fengwan, until he appeared, that she realized that this kind of her didn't die, that this kind of her still existed in her heart, and that this kind of her would fall in love with someone again , she will abandon everything for one person regardless, even die, she still exists...

Yu Qinghua, the youngest daughter, really missed her. At the same time, she was terribly afraid...

In fact, this is really bad...

She knew it, she always knew it...

But, what to do, she is already content...

Dong'er, I'm already like this, if even you can't understand me, then what should I do?
Yu Qinghua's eyes fluctuated slightly. Looking at Dong'er, thousands of words flooded her heart, and she didn't know how to speak. Now, she only hopes that Dong'er can understand her, understand her, because she is the closest person to her. Well, if even she can't understand her, then maybe she really doesn't know what to do.

"You...how can you stand up to General Xiao?" Suddenly, Dong'er said a word, and Yu Qinghua was startled.

Dong'er, she, unexpectedly, questioned her?

For a while, my heart gradually sank to the bottom.

"You...how can you stand up to General Xiao?"

Dong'er spoke word by word, with unbelievable and unrelieved expressions between her eyebrows and eyes.

Yu Qinghua stared at Dong'er in a daze, looking at her questioning face, her heart gradually sank into a trough, and she no longer had a trace of wings.

"You, that's it, look at me?" After a pause, Yu Qinghua looked at Dong'er, his eyes gradually blurred as he muttered.

"In your eyes, is this what I am?" Yu Qinghua seemed to be in disbelief, she couldn't imagine that she was so unbearable in Dong'er's heart, and she was such a person.

Even Dong'er looks at her like this, even she thinks she is such a flirtatious woman who loves the new and dislikes the old, even she thinks she is a person who does not obey women's morals and is insane... Even she thinks so , she also thinks that she failed Xiao Qin, that she failed Xiao Qin...

But, how could this be, how could she look at her like this?
She is Dong'er, she is Dong'er, she is the Dong'er who she will believe without hesitation as long as she says anything, even if she wants her to go up the mountain of swords or into the sea of ​​fire, she will be willing...

But how, how could this be?How could she question her, how could she think of her like this?
Is she really Dong'er?Is it really still the Dong'er who will stand by her side no matter what happens and will never leave?Is she really still the Dong'er who could do anything for her, in the previous life, even accompanied her through life and death, when she was dying, was still firmly guarding her side, and shed the last tears for her?

No... Yu Qinghua can't understand, she can't understand Dong'er in front of her, she doesn't seem to know her anymore, she will question her, she will doubt her, she, she doesn't believe her...

"You... how could you look at me like this..." Yu Qinghua still murmured in disbelief, over and over again, making one unable to bear the sadness.

Dong'er shook her head in frustration, bit her lower lip lightly with her white teeth, and she still asked her firmly: "Is it because of this day that you are so determined to break off the engagement with General Xiao? Are you really going to ignore such an unthinkable person?"

"I..." Yu Qinghua wanted to speak, but she didn't know what to say. What could she say? After all, what Dong'er said was the truth, right?She really didn't care about it, she was determined to break off the engagement with Xiao Qin, she was indeed so, so...

So, what did she have to say, there was nothing to say.

However, it was not because of Gu Fengwan that she and Xiao Qin broke off the engagement. She knew that even without Gu Fengwan, she and Xiao Qin would have been impossible. This marriage would have to be dissolved sooner or later, but so far, everything It's all a coincidence, her breaking off the engagement with Xiao Qin has nothing to do with Gu Fengwan, but she doesn't know why Dong'er thinks of her like this.

"Princess, why are you like this?" Dong'er said.

"How could you do this? How could you behave like this?" Dong'er spoke with endless grief and sadness between her brows and eyes.

"You and General Xiao are childhood sweethearts, and General Xiao is very kind to you. Since you were young, he will accommodate you in everything and will only remember you at all times. I will send you a safety letter every month, so that you can feel at ease..."

"Among the women in Kyoto, is there any one who doesn't fall in love with a good man like General Xiao, but he only has you in his heart, and he can do anything to make you happy. If you don't like Princess Anyun, General Xiao won't be close to Anyun County. Lord, you don’t admit defeat in everything, and you always have to compare yourself with him, and he will try his best to make you happy..."

"From childhood to adulthood, he has rejected many women, just to wait for you, and when you are old enough, he can marry you back as he wishes. As long as this is the case, as long as he can guard you, it is already his greatest happiness... ..."

"Dong'er has always thought so, Dong'er has always felt this way... Dong'er thought that you and General Xiao were destined to be together, Dong'er thought that you would always be happy, Dong'er even I once thought for you that when you get married, Dong'er will take care of the two of you, take care of your dressing and rest, and take care of you to travel around the mountains and rivers. Then, you will have a young master who is as handsome as General Xiao or A beautiful little lady like a princess, and then, Donger will help you take care of your children, and watch you grow happy until you grow old, until Donger can no longer move, can no longer serve you, until, knowing that time... ..."

"Dong'er has always thought so, and always thought so..."

"But I didn't expect, I didn't expect you, princess..."

"You actually chose to turn your back on for an impossible person. How could you do that? How could you, how could you do this...so hurtful..."

Dong'er said, shed tears without warning, she, unexpectedly, cried...

In Qinghua's eyes, she no longer knew how to express it, she didn't know what to say, she didn't expect Dong'er to look at her like this, she didn't expect that she didn't understand her so much, and she didn't expect What's more, it turns out that Dong'er has always hidden herself very deeply. It turns out that she has never really seen through her.

She has always thought that Dong'er is innocent; she has always thought that Dong'er is the person she is closest to and understands best; she has always thought that there is no such so-called barrier between her and Dong'er; she has always thought that, She is also her most important person...

However, she was wrong, completely wrong, extremely wrong...

"How could you do this, how could you be sorry to General Xiao, he is so kind to you, he loves you so much, he treats you like this, but you treat him like this..." Dong'er was still crying, she Said: "Are you willing to risk the disgrace of the world, to be scolded by the world, to be looked at differently by everyone, are you willing to do this, and not to be with him? Why, why...why do you always I don’t know how to cherish, why have you never known how to cherish? Do you know, do you know, this is so good, so good, how much others want to get it, but, but, you are so spoiled, so disdainful..."

"But why, why, he still loves you the most, or you..."

Afterwards, she didn't even need you anymore, she just used you to question her.

Yu Qinghua's eyes became colder and more sarcasm, she looked at Dong'er inch by inch, as if she wanted to see through her.

Dong'er and Yu Qinghua looked at each other, she saw her gaze and felt the coldness, she was stunned.

"Dong'er." Yu Qinghua called her name.

"In your heart, how do you come to see me?"

(End of this chapter)