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Chapter 399 Marriage and love in the city, inseparable in this life 53: I'm sorry, I died in memory
Chapter 470 Five: Alluring Marriage and Love, Inseparable in This Life 53: I'm Sorry, Died in Memories
("Are you really his friend?")
After a long time, she murmured softly, with some disbelief and harshness mixed in her clear voice, and before Lu Xiangbei could explain, her voice rose again: "How could you do this to him? How could you just watch him slow down?" Destroy yourself slowly?"

In the end, the voice couldn't help but rise, and the excitement in my heart couldn't be concealed.

For so many years, her emotions have long been precipitated by time. Even if her heart is in great pain and despair, she is used to calmness on the surface, neither sad nor happy, which can make her lose control like this. It is conceivable that she loves Jin Cunxu His feelings are far deeper than what the world can see!
Lu Xiangbei looked up at her, with helplessness and darkness in his eyes, "There is only one person in this world who can change what you decide, and that is you, madam!"

"Everything is moving in a good direction now. If Madam brings up the old matter at this moment, it will be bad for Your Excellency."

"If I want to bring up the old matter again, I won't see you today!" The voice was sharp and stern, quite like Long Pei.

Lu Xiangbei kept silent, speechless.

"Is it related to the scar on his back?" Long Ziqi asked uncertainly.

There are many scars on Jin Cunxu's back, some of which are very shallow, and under the dim light, you can't notice it unless you look carefully, but there are three deep scars, it's hard not to notice.

She was too shy when she had skin-to-skin contact with him for the first time, and she didn't dare to look at him carefully. After the second time, she touched those scars and saw them too. It hurt her heart, and she never asked He, where did those scars come from? She doesn't mention it, it's not that she doesn't care, she doesn't want to know, but she just doesn't want to bring back bad memories of him!

Everyone has a secret that no one knows, whether it's warm or cold, if it's warm it's fine, if it's cold, what can she do for him?
The past is two words that make people powerless.

"Your Excellency's past, unless he wants to talk about it, no one else will talk about it!" He knows it but can't say it!

If you want Madam to know, Madam won't know it yet.

"What about the scar on the arm?" He didn't want to say it, and Long Ziqi didn't want to force him.

There is a scar on Jin Cunxu's right arm, which seems to have been caused in the last few months, because he wears a long-sleeved shirt all the time, so it is difficult to find.

Lu Xiangbei hesitated for a moment, and said softly: "It's because of the slap that Kou Jingning slapped you! Your Excellency takes you too seriously, more important than yourself. If you suffer even the slightest injury, he will feel worse than yourself. If you are here, he can still suppress himself, but once you leave, he can't control it..."

The scar on the arm was not artificial, it should be considered an accident. The person who caused the accident was none other than Jin Cunxu himself.

The sunlight outside the window was falling in the west, the bustling city was shrouded in night, and the psychedelic neon street scene fell on the bottom of her eyes, but it was sad and cold.The tea in front of her was completely cooled, and her heart fell to the bottom of the deepest and coldest lake.

Moistness surged in his eyes, because he was unwilling to show his weak side in front of Lu Xiangbei.

She didn't know how much hurt and suffering Jin Cunxu suffered in the past, which made him so desperate and give up, living like a walking dead for many years.The only certainty is that someone must have hurt him. If he hadn't experienced utter grief, he would never have given up hope of living!

Thinking of him holding her once, he choked up and murmured softly: How could those people treat her like this!how can!

Every word is bloody, and every sentence is full of tears.

Now she also wanted to hug Jin Cunxu and ask how those people could hurt him like this, almost ruining his life.

She can't do that!

Because he can treat her well in such pain, how can she expose his scars again, embarrass him, and make his pain magnified again!
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When Long Ziqi returned home, the lights were warmly turned on, and Jin Cunxu had already returned and was preparing dinner in the kitchen.

Changing shoes at the entrance, I saw his tall figure standing there gracefully, with black sleeves rolled up to the elbows, he was handsome and elegant, and he was completely sexy and sexy.

The tip of the nose was inexplicably sour, and the eye sockets were dry and painful.

"I'm back." Jin Cunxu washed his hands, wiped them clean, walked in front of her, and gave her a light kiss, "What did you do out there?"

Long Ziqi collected his attention, raised his eyes and looked at him: "Drink tea with my friends for a while."

It's not a lie, Lu Xiangbei is also her friend.

Jin Cunxu didn't ask any more questions, smoothed her long hair with his fingers, and said gently: "Remember to bring your mobile phone next time you go out."

Before going out, she sent the address to Lu Xiangbei. When she changed her shoes, she put her mobile phone on the shoe cabinet and forgot to bring it.

"I remember." She pursed her lips and showed a faint smile, and looked at the kitchen with her eyes: "Do you need my help?"

"Need." Jin Cunxu took her hand to the bar and asked her to sit down on the chair, "You are responsible for sitting here and watching me."

There was a flash of light in Long Ziqi's eyes, he didn't speak, but nodded with a smile, watching him walk into the semi-open kitchen and continue preparing dinner.

Jin Cunxu liked the way she looked at him very much, gentle and focused, as if he was the only one in the clear and dust-free pupils.

He didn't treat her like a canary in a cage, raised her, gave her enough space to be free, and didn't send anyone to watch her every move, but it didn't mean that he didn't know what she did.

For the sake of her safety, he will not let her go out alone every time, but to avoid her boredom, he never wants people to disturb her peaceful life.

Seeing the road to the north in the cafe, I heard that she looked very bad, even faintly angry.

What is the reason, he can guess one or two, and the pain suddenly tightened in his heart.

She didn't ask because she didn't want to remind him of his unbearable past. She cautiously inquired from the side. She wanted to know a lot. Her tact and caution really made him feel distressed.

After dinner, taking a bath and resting, she lay in his arms, her fingers fell on his heart, and her fingertips felt his heart was really beating, and the uneasiness in her heart eased slightly.

In the dark, he held her hand, and his voice was low and abrupt: "In a few days, you will accompany me to meet a friend."

Long Ziqi was taken aback, she had never heard him mention that she didn't know about his other friends, she responded for a moment, "Okay."

"Go to sleep." He held her in his arms, and kissed her forehead with extreme tenderness.

Compared with the inevitable love between a man and a woman, Jin Cunxu also likes to hug her very much, rubbing hands together, without any desire, but it is the most frank and sincere way to express his feelings.

I once saw this sentence in a book: I hope you really like me, so hug me.

Because I really like each other, I hug each other tightly without leaving any strength, as if I want to hug each other forever.

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Spring comes early in country A. At the beginning of March, everything recovers, willows ooze tender buds, fresh green emerges from the moist soil, and the wind smells of flowers and plants, full of vitality.

On the morning of March 3, the Jin family, including new member Long Ziqi, gathered in one place.

Instead of going together, we met at the destination.

Despite the sunshine, the cemetery is still damp and gloomy, making people depressing. The crows wailing on the dead branches seem to remind people that death is everywhere.

The land is desolate and the air is slightly cool. Long Ziqi and Jin Cunxu are standing in front of the tombstone, looking at the photo pasted on the marble monument. A girl is about 5 or 6 years old, with a bright smile, innocent and beautiful, untouched by the world. There was no trace of dust, and a pair of black eyes were piercing and shining brightly.

The three characters "Kou Jingwan", the date of birth and the date of death are engraved under the photo.

Fu Xiange was dressed in solemn black, wearing sunglasses, holding a bouquet of lilies, the white petals were still stained with water droplets, reflecting the sunlight and shining with broken light.

Leaning over to place the bouquet in front of the tombstone, she said softly, "Jing Wan, we're here to see you."

Long Ziqi could faintly guess who this girl was, but she didn't know what relationship she had with the Jin family. Before she came to the cemetery, she never thought that Jin Cunxu would bring her to pay homage to a friend, even a bouquet No flowers were brought.

Jin Xishuo's eyes signaled Jin Cunxu and himself to leave for a while, leaving space for the two women.

Although Jin Cunxu was reluctant, he still let go of Long Ziqi's hand, and said softly, "Wait for me here."

Long Ziqi nodded, watching his long figure and Jin Xishuo walk into the distance.

Fu Xiange stood straight in front of the tombstone, looked at the smile on the tombstone, slowly took off his sunglasses, and sighed heavily.

Long Ziqi walked up to her and didn't speak. Presumably Jin Cunxu wanted Fu Xiange to tell him the story of the owner of the tombstone.

The long silence made people feel a little anxious, but Long Ziqi was always patient and calm, without any anxiety, his expression was as calm as before.

"Jing Wan died because of Cun Xu."

After a long time, Fu Xiange's low voice caused waves in Long Ziqi's calm eyes. For some reason, his hands and feet were cold, and his eyes looked at the innocent smiling girl on the tombstone in disbelief, and his mood turned a thousand times.

It should have happened many years ago, so far away that it seems to have happened in the previous life. If Jin Cunxu didn't want Long Ziqi to know, it might be something that Fu Xiange would never want to recall again in this life!
For Fu Xiange, the thing she regretted the most was falling in love with a man named Jin Xishuo when she was 16 years old.

The love with just one glance made her pay a heavy price, ruining the hands she was most proud of in her life, and causing her to fall from heaven to hell.

But now, what Fu Xiange regrets the most is that many years ago, she abandoned her son, Cunxu.

Everyone has their own unspeakable pain, no one understands this more deeply than Long Ziqi, but she doesn't know that Jin Cunxu's unspeakable pain is so obscure compared to hers and tragic.

At least she still has the protection and love of her family, but what about Jin Cunxu's past?
There is endless despair and coldness.

Fu Xiange's voice was very soft, without a trace of emotion, but it fell into Long Ziqi's ears, but it was extremely heavy. There was always a voice in his heart begging not to continue, but there was no way, as if he had lost his own body, Standing quietly in front of the tombstone, listening to the past about Fu Xiange and Jin Cunxu.

The relationship between Fu Xiange and Jin Xishuo was briefly mentioned, without saying anything, most of them were talking about Jin Cunxu, and Long Ziqi was heartbroken when he heard it. When he recovered, he found that he had already burst into tears.

She has cried very seldom in these years, and the uncontrollable weeping like this is even rarer. Today she can't help it, because she can't imagine how Jin Cunxu gritted his teeth in those years, how he endured the humiliation and struggled to survive, and how he endured it. Pain can be so good to yourself.

When Jin Xishuo and Jin Cunxu came back, Long Ziqi's expression was indifferent, with red threads in his eyes, and he looked at him with complex and dark eyes, before he came close, she had already gone to hold his hand!

Jin Cunxu held her hand and found that her hand was cold, so he frowned coldly, "I'll take you back."

Long Ziqi nodded and bid farewell to Jin Xishuo and Fu Xiange. The two of them intertwined their fingers and walked towards the exit of the cemetery together.

Standing in the wind, Fu Xiange looked at their figures with faint halos floating in the sun, feeling a surge of sadness in his heart, "He has never forgiven us for so many years."

His voice was choked up, and there was mist in his eyes.

Jin Xishuo stretched out his arms to embrace her, and said in a low voice, "We are the ones who are sorry for him—"

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The carriage was silent, the shallow breaths were closely intertwined, and the partition board was raised, so she could hug him unscrupulously, snuggle into his arms, without worrying about whether his clothes would be wrinkled or not suitable.

When she got out of the car, she was still leaning tightly against his long and strong body, and touched his warm chest. She didn't know how lucky she was, this chest was still warm despite the years of wind and frost. as before.

As soon as the door closed, Long Ziqi turned around and hugged him, holding his strong waist tightly with both hands without leaving a single gap.

Burying her head in his arms, she said in a low voice, "You should have let me know earlier..."

Jin Cunxu's body was visibly stiff, feeling the heat and humidity in his chest, with complicated emotions, he gently held her cheeks, lowered his head and gently sucked the teardrops on his skin dry, and the saltiness spread in his chest.

"Don't cry, I'm still alive." His voice was hoarse and nasal, and he knew that she was hurting for him, but he couldn't bear it.

She had said it to him once, and now he said it to her again.

Both of them are people who have been abandoned by fate, and time has left them full of holes. When they didn't meet each other, they could only hide in the dark and lick their bleeding wounds.

After meeting each other, they endured the pain and embraced each other, letting the flowers of love bloom on those wounds. Maybe one day the flowers will wither and become the best medicine for healing, making that inch of skin smoother and softer.

"How could they treat you like this, how could it be, you are their child—" She choked up, not because she hated those who hurt Cunxu, but because she couldn't help angering Fu Xiange and Jin Xishuo, they never did their duty well PARENTS' RESPONSIBILITIES.

When Gu Mingxi gave birth to her in prison, he had no choice but to hand her over to others to raise her. As soon as he was released from prison, he immediately took her to his side and took care of her himself.

And what about Fu Xiange?
Why did she give birth to Jin Cunxu and not want him, why did she abandon him in the orphanage, let him have a mother and a father that he could not rely on, and let him suffer so much bullying and abuse innocently.

"It's okay, it really doesn't matter—" Jin Cunxu hugged her tightly, as if holding the only salvation in his life, "I have you now..."

To him, a single Long Ziqi was better than countless in the world.

"Cunxu, my heart hurts..." The left side of the chest seemed to be cut by a blunt knife, and he would not die, but the pain became more and more severe every time.She thought, if the young and kind Kou Jingwan hadn't blocked that vase for Jin Cunxu, the person lying under the cold tombstone today would be Jin Cunxu.

"Qiqi, it's okay, don't think about it, it's all over."

Jin Cunxu lowered his head and pressed his forehead tightly against hers, his eyes were wet, blurring his vision, "I won't leave you, don't be afraid—"

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In Jin Cunxu's limited memory when he was young, he didn't know why he was abandoned by his mother in the orphanage. She didn't visit him often, only once in a while.A week, a month, or half a year...

She is a woman who likes to laugh very much, but every time she sees him, there is a lot of pain in her eyes, laughing is uglier than crying.

She never hugged him, didn't even dare to hold his hand, he never understood why she was so indifferent to him.If you hate him, you don't need to visit him. If you like him, why abandon him in this purgatory on earth.

He was born smarter than other children, spoke early, learned to walk early, and saw all the faces of adults earlier than other children.

The beautiful appearance did not bring him too many benefits, on the contrary, it was the source of his being excluded.

It doesn't matter, the dean's mother loves him very much and treats him very well. He doesn't want that woman who looks good when she smiles. He thinks having the dean's mother is enough.

However, since when did the dean's mother start to change, no longer loving him, no longer hugging him, no longer smiling at him, and even began to beat her mercilessly.

once, twice...four times...five times...

This kind of torture and pain seems to never end.

From crying and asking for help at the beginning to clenching your teeth gradually at the end, silently enduring the physical pain, closing your eyes in the dark, making yourself feel like you are dead, not feeling the pain, not feeling Cruel and cold.

The dean's mother is still the dean's mother, she treats all the children with gentleness and compassion, but she is no longer gentle to him, almost cruel.

Since when, he began to miss seeing that woman who loves to laugh. She doesn't talk much, but just likes to look at him quietly and smile quietly. There are countless sadness and sourness in her smile.

He knew that she didn't like to be close to him very much, even indifferent, but if she could live with her, she wouldn't hit him.

After waiting day after day, month after month, he finally saw her. She looked thinner than before, and she smiled with thin lips, making her smile even more sour.

Sitting under the big tree at the entrance of the orphanage building, she still didn't speak, watching him quietly.

He saw the dean's mother playing with the children not far away, and the children were smiling happily under the sun; the dean's mother looked at them from time to time with a smile on her face.

In her eyes, such a smile is gentle and compassionate, but in Jin Cunxu's eyes, it is extremely vicious.

After a long time, she was leaving again, but he still couldn't help asking in a low voice: "Can I live with you?"

She seemed to be stunned for a moment, then she smiled slightly with her thin lips, looked at those innocent children, and asked, "Isn't it good to live with your friends?"

Okay?

How would she know that he has never had any friends here, how would she know that the children in the orphanage have long lost their innocence and simplicity in order to win the favor of adults.

How would she know that the dean's mother was no longer that gentle and kind woman, but a complete lunatic and violent madman.

How could she know that under his clothes, every inch of his skin was filled with sores, but the pain couldn't be more painful than the pain of being discarded.

He looked up at her, as if smiling at her for the first time, "It's pretty good——"

As he said that, he pulled down the sleeves without any trace, covering the bruises that were about to be exposed to the sun.

She left, taking away his hope and the last light, and no matter what she did to make up for it, she couldn't get into the depths of his heart.

That night, he curled up on the bed, his body trembling instinctively, because he knew that after everyone fell asleep, the dean's mother would come to carry him to her room again.

That night, he didn't know how many times he was beaten, and every part of his body hurt, but he couldn't tell where the pain was.His thin body lay lifeless on the ground, his eyes stared blankly at the dark sky, and his soul seemed to have completely died from his body.

For some reason, he suddenly wanted to laugh, his pale and bloodless lips slightly raised, a few wisps of sneer at fate.
While beating him, the dean's mother cursed all kinds of ugly words, evil, wild, slut, many, many, too many to remember.

After beating him, she held him who was full of scars and cried uncontrollably. Those tears flooded the wound and the pain penetrated into the bones.

He didn't understand, he was the one who was beaten, why she cried so desperately!

Later, a family surnamed Kou came into his life. They brought their daughter Kou Jingwan to the orphanage to visit children every Sunday.He knew Kou Jingwan was looking at him all the time, but he never spoke to her.

Until one time when Kou Qikuan and his wife brought their daughter to the orphanage, Chen Roujia, who was pregnant, suddenly had a stomachache. Kou Qikuan was anxious to send Chen Roujia to the hospital. one night.

Although Kou Jingwan is young, she is very sensible, not to mention that she really wanted to get close to Jin Cunxu, so she agreed to stay and wait for her parents to pick her up the next day.

But she was not that lucky, when Kou Qikuan and Chen Roujia picked her up and went home.

Because she slept with all the children that night, and when the principal came to hug Jin Cunxu in the middle of the night, she was still not asleep and followed him secretly.

Through the crack of the door, she saw that the usually gentle and compassionate dean was beating Jin Cunxu ruthlessly, which was worse than the usual mother who beat herself when she was angry.

She ran in angrily, not allowing the dean to beat Jin Cunxu again.

The dean's eyes were scarlet, like an irrational beast, torturing Jin Cunxu crazily, he picked up the vase on the table and wanted to smash it on Jin Cunxu.

At that time, Kou Jingwan only thought about how painful it would be if the thing hit her body. She didn't want to hurt Jin Cunxu anymore, so she ran over and hugged Jin Cunxu without hesitation.

The vase fell on the back of Kou Jingwan's neck, and the flying fragments cut her main artery, and the river flooded with blood like a burst embankment, staining Jin Cunxu's pale and colorless face red.

Maybe they don't know what death is, but the fear brought by those blood makes people desperate and mad.

The dean didn't expect the matter to develop to this point, and stood there in a daze, looking at Kou Jingwan who was lying on the ground bleeding profusely, frightened out of his wits.

Jin Cunxu didn't know where the strength came from, and pushed away Kou Jingwan whose body was gradually cooling down, grabbed the fragments on the ground, and inserted the fragments into the dean's body with all his strength.

The sinful blood bloomed bewitching flowers on the dean's abdomen, and drops of blood dripped on the ground, reflecting the lights, causing all the sins to be swept away by death.

The next day, people from the orphanage came to the director and saw such a tragic picture.

A girl fell into a pool of dry blood, her eyes wide open, her expression was ghastly, while the dean fell to the ground, his body stiffened, his body covered in blood.

The only living boy was covered in blood and curled up in the corner of the wall, his eyes were dull and his expression was numb, like a walking dead without a soul!
This incident was once a sensation in Jincheng, and some people even photographed the scene at that time and published it in the newspaper. The headline of the newspaper was: Children killing benefactors, is it a tragedy of society or a satire of human nature?

No one cares what the truth is. In order to be topical and to increase the sales of the newspaper, they pushed an innocent child who had suffered humiliation to the forefront, and suffered insults and criticism from everyone!

What is really sad is not this society, or those children who have no choice but to smear blood on their hands, but those clowns who are funny and appear on the stage!

South Korea once had a movie "Suyuan" based on a real case.The protagonist of the film is a five-year-old girl named Suyuan. One day, she was robbed and sexually assaulted on the way to school. A poop bag.

However, Suyuan, who suffered from such a nightmare, was not treated with tolerance and tenderness from the society. The media swarmed into the hospital, took pictures, and interviewed her, forcing Suyuan's father to hide her in a corner of the hospital. Suyuan watched Father, with tears rolling down from the corners of his eyes, asked a question that those who heard it cried.

She said, "Dad, did I do something wrong?"

Dear child, there is nothing wrong with you, just as there is nothing wrong with kindness, innocence, and beauty, and there is nothing wrong with Jin Cunxu whose hands were forced to be stained with blood.

The fault is those who did not protect him, the fault is the person who continues to inflict harm on the victim, and the fault is the murderer who intensifies all evil consequences on the child!
Kou Jingwan didn't kill him, but died because of him!

He lived, but life was worse than death.

Until he was ten years old, he never spoke a word, and there was no expression on his pale, almost sickly face.

Fu Xiange and Jin Xishuo invited the best doctors, psychologists, and psychotherapists for him, but nothing worked.He lived alone and desperately in his own world, accompanied by the despair and loneliness in his heart. The scars on his body gradually healed, but his heart had long since rotted.

When he was 11 years old, the servant broke the vase and went downstairs to get tools to clean up the debris. He walked across the debris numbly with bare feet, no pain, extremely numb, and the bloody footprints under his feet were shocking.

Fu Xiange knelt beside his bed, weeping for countless times, confessing, tears fell on his hands, his expression was numb and indifferent.

In the middle of the night, Fu Xiange was forcibly taken back to the room by Jin Xishuo to rest.

Sitting in Jin Cunxu's room, Jin Xishuo stared at him for a long time with long eyes, and murmured softly, "If being alive really causes you such pain, I am willing to let you go."

Jin Cunxu looked at him calmly, and there seemed to be a wave of fluctuation, Jin Xishuo said again: "Do you know why your name is Cunxu?"

"Xu Youguang means warmth. She hopes that no matter what happens in your life, you will always have light and warmth in your heart!"

Many years later, Jin Cunxu finally knew why she never reached out to hug him.

Because her hands are disabled.

How can I hug him when I can't even pick up the tableware for the most basic meal.

Now that I know, what can I do?

There is no way to turn back time, and there is no way to start everything again. The disasters he has experienced, the nightmares he has had, have penetrated into the bones, through the marrow, follow him until he stops breathing, and will disappear with time.

Since then, he seems to be normal and has a good life, but he has never really had a good life.He has never hugged Jin Xishuo and Fu Xiange, has never been close to any opposite sex, and even whenever he comes into contact with some child abuse news, he will not be able to control his thoughts and behaviors, and often make some extreme things when he is alone. Behavior.

He is more and more like Fu Xiange, with a smile on his lips all the time, but his eyes are unfathomable, no matter the city or strategy, he is exactly the same as Jin Xishuo.He began to have his own strength, avoiding the prying eyes of Jin Xishuo's people on his inner world.

The years when he left Jincheng and studied in England were the loneliest and most tormenting years for him. He was struggling between life and death. Whenever he lost control of his emotions and couldn't control himself, he could only rely on drugs.

The medicine he took had serious side effects, and the longer he took it, the more harmful it would be. It might cause him to die of heart failure before he was 30 years old.

Lu Xiangbei knew it, Jin Xishuo knew it, and Fu Xiange knew it too, but no one could stop him.

Taking medicine can make him calm down slowly, if he doesn't take it, he may kill himself in the next second, in order to let him live another day, everyone pretends not to know, and chooses to treat it with a whitewashed attitude.

If he hadn't met Long Ziqi in the United States, if he hadn't been unable to extricate himself from falling in love with her, Jin Cunxu might have continued to eat and relied on drugs, but everything has become an established fact, and he seems to have found a reason to live.

If he was alive, he could love her, but if he died, he would have nothing.

In order to be able to continue loving her, he began to reduce the dosage of the drug slowly. When he lost control of his emotions and behavior, he would miss her and try his best to calm down his heart. The struggle of his life and death was just to make himself normal , at least like a normal man, to love a woman.

No one has ever known that he was almost incapable of being a man. Over the years, he has never had a desire/thought for any woman. If he hadn't met Long Ziqi, what would be the difference between him and a sexual/impotent person?
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Jin Cunxu's chest was burned by hot tears, and he was anxious. Her tears made him helpless, so he bowed his head and kissed her lips dry, "Don't cry—"

He never knew that he was as cold as Long Ziqi, and it was even more overwhelming when he cried. He wished he could give her the whole world and his life, as long as she stopped crying.

Her eyes were red and swollen, and she didn't know that one day she would cry so much, she couldn't stop her tears, her voice was hoarse and trembling: "Shall we go to the hospital?"

His body really made her worry and worry!

Jin Cunxu hesitated for a few seconds, he really didn't want to make her cry with worry, so he nodded: "Okay."

In fact, he had checked his body with a doctor beforehand and confirmed that the medicine had a certain impact on his body, but stopping the medicine now and cooperating with the treatment will not affect him in the future.

But if he said it directly, I'm afraid she won't believe it. Now everything can only go with her. In order to make her feel at ease, even if it is unnecessary, he is willing to do it!

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After seeing the doctor's report, Long Ziqi confirmed that the medicine did not continue to cause more harm to his body, and then carefully asked the doctor what he should avoid in daily life. When the doctor said, she looked calm and focused for fear of missing a word. Character.

Sitting aside, Jin Cunxu looked at her nervous side face with tender eyes, his heart was warm, and his palms kept wrapping her catkins.I am very glad that he chose to live and continue to love her...

Otherwise, how can I be happy now!

Long Ziqi kept the doctor's words in mind, and when he got home, he took out all the incense in the bedroom and put them on the balcony, and bought a lot of books about the ingredients of medicines, as well as recipes.

Because Jin Cunxu has taken medicine for many years, the medicine is three-point poisonous. The medicine has already penetrated his body functions and has developed resistance to the medicine. At present, it is not recommended that he continue to take medicine for treatment, but instead change it to diet therapy. From his living environment, food and Mental state improvement issues.

But this is a very slow process, it cannot be completed overnight, it may take five years, ten years, or 20 years longer...

Long Ziqi doesn't care how much time it takes, she has a lifetime to do these things, but the premise is that he must live well!

Jin Cunxu saw everything she did, did not dissuade him, and cooperated with everything she did. He understood what she was worried about, what she was afraid of, and what she had to do to ensure his safety!

During the day, everything was as usual, and she never mentioned the past, but every night she would hold him tight involuntarily, and even after falling asleep, her fingers would tightly hold onto his pajamas, not daring to relax even a bit, as if once she let go, he would will be gone.

That night.

The evening news was broadcast on the LCD TV, Jin Cunxu rarely had no work, so he watched the news with her.

There was news about children being sexually assaulted on the TV, Jin Cunxu frowned coldly, and was about to turn off the TV with the remote control, but Long Ziqi held his hand in an instant, his eyes were clear, and his pupils were quietly watching him ,"It's fine--"

Jin Cunxu looked at her for a few seconds, then turned off the TV, and the living room became quiet all of a sudden, hearing each other's heartbeats, high and low.

"I'm tired, go to sleep."

He got up and stretched out his hand to pull Long Ziqi to stand up, but she put her hand in his palm, but she didn't stand up, she looked up at him, her voice was calm: "Some things may be selfish to say, but I still want to tell you! "

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(End of this chapter)