Mrs. Lu is a sensation in the city every day

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When I was young, I had all kinds of grievances, but at that time, even if I was wronged and someone liked me, my grandparents would always tell me that I was loved by others, and sometimes my grandparents would be angry because of myself and my parents , But since ancient times, no parents have been able to successfully vent their anger with their children, that is, many times their parents say that they understand, and then they reconcile directly, but they actually understand that their parents do not understand.

At least they didn’t understand what they understood at the time. When they were young, when they were not very sensible, their parents often said that they wanted to have another child, but because of their own reasons, they always felt that there was another child, right? The same is true, these words are in my ears.

I don’t know that I have heard it many times, but I already feel that it is my own problem. When I was a child, it was difficult for me to talk positively to my parents. I always felt that I was too much in the eyes of my parents. More or less nothing is right, that is, sometimes I still think that I am acting like a baby like my parents and other children, but I later found out that it is not OK.

It’s just that my father doesn’t like me being close at all, and sometimes telling me stories is always far away from me, and then I’m in a very reluctant state. The only happy time when I was a child was me Sometimes I don’t know why I got a very good result in the test all of a sudden. At that time, my parents could tell that I was really happy, and I could see that kind of happy look on my face. That's how it feels to understand.

But sometimes I still care about my parents very much in my heart, that is, they care about me, but I also understand that they will not have any opinion on me as long as I don’t have an accident. When my teacher said that he was very talented in art, his mother said, is the exam no longer judged by artistic talent?I remember that the teacher and myself were very embarrassed at that time, but there was nothing we could do about it, because this was the most important thing for them, and nothing else mattered.

It was at this time that I realized that my parents were different in their hearts, that what they needed was someone who could make people proud, someone who could let them have something to talk about anytime, anywhere, It's not that I just don't know what to say, and then nothing seems to be very strong, but I also feel that my parents are actually imposing everything on me.

Even if I don’t want to, I can’t do it. I am one of them and the dream is manifested. But when I am not good here, it is the destruction of their dreams. It is a lot of time that they will feel that they are not good. In fact, it is the most unfortunate state. Things have always been like this, but my parents have always felt that they are right. Now that I have said so, these people still feel that way, and feel that there is nothing wrong with them, and there is nothing wrong with them.

But sometimes I just want to explain what I feel in my heart, but when I see the expressions of my parents, I actually feel really uncomfortable in my heart, but sometimes this discomfort is unspeakable and people don’t know. How to explain the state has always been a feeling of what my parents need and what I need, but everyone's ideas have always been different, like this brother and sister are actually their own. That's what parents want.

It is a child who has a higher IQ and can sometimes achieve his own ideas, but he was not at the time, and he has always been a person who is not very needed. It has always been after he became famous. In fact, his parents also saw it. When I came out, I never thought that such a person could really become famous. Maybe I felt very proud, but they felt that this was just a coincidence. Sometimes when I saw their eyes, I felt that they were not proud at all.

It’s just that sometimes when I talk about it, it seems that my identity can bring people a little bit of pride, but the feeling of those people’s words is telling that my parents are proud, and the topic itself is It has nothing to do with me, it's not because I'm proud, but because the daughter they gave birth to is proud, it's still proud of myself, and sometimes when I talk to myself, I always say look at me and give birth to you of.

It seems that my current success is all because my parents are the reason I was born, just like what my parents said when I was a child, I never thought it was a good thing to look good, that is, when I was a child When my grandparents always said that I am a good-looking child because I am good-looking, my parents will always say that it is useless to be good-looking but not good at studying.

At that time, I remembered that I had always been in a state of lack of self-confidence. When did I start to have self-confidence? It was when I met this Gu Molian. I am very confident, but once someone says that I can't do it, I will remember what my parents said before, and I will feel very unconfident in an instant. In fact, I have always been like this, just Sometimes I feel like I can hold on, but not for long.

But when I met this Gu Molian, I was Gu Molian most of the time, I kept telling myself that you are great and you can just be yourself. Before that, I always thought that I wanted to follow others Learning because I am not good-looking is the one who looks good in everyone's aesthetics, and I feel that I am not good, but in this Gu Molian's tone is that I have always been the best. It is never a bad thing to get one .

That is, I always know that I am not the worst one, that is, sometimes I feel that the most difficult thing in this matter is the recognition of myself. Sometimes I understand that in many cases, recognizing myself is the most difficult thing. But sometimes I always feel that I just don't recognize myself in my heart, because when I was a child, my closest people didn't recognize me.

That is, I have always felt that I am like this, thinking that my ability is not good enough, it is not the fault of others, or because it has always been like this.

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