Heart like dust, smile peacefully

Chapter 10 Thank you for those who left you (2)
After accumulating a certain amount of contacts and resources, he resigned and started a small transportation company with his friends, which was very successful.Soon, he bought a house and a car.She was very happy, because his success meant that the relationship between them would soon blossom and bear fruit, but what she waited for was his increasingly unfamiliar treatment.He changed from returning late to not returning, and sometimes he didn't come back once a week.And she saw him with other women more than once, she questioned him, but he said that it was all a joke, and said that if you want to continue to be with him, you can no longer ask him like before, because he needs a wider life space.She was sad and weeping, but he was indifferent.

She thought about leaving him, but she couldn't bear it, because she still loved him, and she thought that although his love no longer belonged to her alone, he still had his own place in his heart. enough.During this period, she became pregnant again, but he still didn't want children or marriage.He asked her to go to the hospital again, and she apparently agreed, but secretly made up her mind to have the child, even without the guarantee of marriage.She made up her mind to prevent him from finding out before her stomach grew bigger. When he found out, it would be impossible to perform surgery, and he would naturally give in at that time.But what she didn't expect was that he discovered this secret in less than three months.He was so angry that he sent her to the hospital, and she lost her child again.After returning from the hospital this time, she was heartbroken, and she didn't get comfort from him like last time. He just sternly said: "No next time."

She felt that she had to fight back, so she wanted to threaten him with suicide.She had taken sleeping pills and cut her own wrist with a knife. Of course, she left room every time, because she didn't really want to die, but just wanted to get his love back.But she was disappointed again. Instead of changing his mind because of this, he began to loathe her, and even moved away from their former home completely.She regretted it, but not because she loved him so much, but because she regretted not threatening him with suicide.So she went to him and begged him to come home, but he refused and said he would never look back.

She was desperate, and this time she really thought of death, but she didn't have the courage.She wanted to find someone to talk about the pain in her heart, but she couldn't find anyone to confide in.Because in the past few years, there was only him in her life, and everything revolved around him, so that she didn't have a single friend by her side.

Like Zhang Ailing, the French female writer Duras, who also occupies a place in the world literary world, once said this sentence in the description of love: "Infatuation is a kind of devouring." In love, when we are infatuated with someone, we will As Duras said, it seems to be slowly swallowed by an invisible monster, thus losing himself a little bit.Therefore, Duras does not want this kind of love, and her love philosophy is completely opposite to Zhang Ailing's: I prefer to be with someone who doesn't love me very much, and don't like to be with someone who loves me too much.

Of course, in the eyes of many women, the love that Duras got is not really perfect love, because in the eyes of the world, the real perfect love is that each other should regard each other as the only favorite person.However, if he hadn't insisted on such a love philosophy, how could Duras have been in love all his life, and wrote such a masterpiece as "The Lover" at the age of 70?Compared with Zhang Ailing, who "withered" early, Duras is undoubtedly the real winner in love.

In fact, there is nothing wrong with loving someone, and there is nothing wrong with giving him happiness and happiness.The mistake is that the love is to the extreme, and the love is so great that it loses its principles and even forgets itself.Love is not a one-man show by one person, it needs two people to work together to be successful.If you always give blindly in love and ignore the due rewards, then not only will you not be able to get the happiness you want, but you will also make yourself love until you are covered with scars.

So, don't lower yourself to the dust in love.Love is humble and self-lost, and in the end it will only be exchanged for a love that is bruised and a broken heart.If love is [-]%, then a woman should keep at least [-]% for herself.

3. If you can't hold the sand, then lift it up

"You and I are not suitable" cannot be your reason to belittle me.Indeed, in your eyes, I am humble and powerless, but I just want to prove my self-esteem with my little effort, walk out of your quagmire forever, and never look back.I'm proud to say that I loved you utterly, but I love myself even more now as I improve every day.

Some people say that love is like a breeze, coming without a shadow, going without a trace, trying to catch it is almost a dream.The wisest thing to do is to enjoy it when it comes and bid farewell when it leaves. The process is more important than the result.But some women can't be so chic. Faced with the lost love, they can't let go calmly, and they will always stalk for a while until they are exhausted.In the end, it is often difficult to get what you want, and love goes away without hesitation, without even looking back.So, they began to cry, scolded the heartless man who took their love away, and even tried all kinds of ways to get revenge.However, the result of revenge is often to hurt oneself deeply while hurting the other party.

"See you at the Happy Bar at seven o'clock in the evening." A message of hers flashed on Zhe's computer screen, which was as concise and clear as ever.Seeing the message, Zhe frowned slightly. In the afternoon, he just made an appointment with a few college classmates to have dinner and sing in the evening.One side is the brother, the other side is her, what should I do?Forget it, let the brothers scold him for "having the opposite sex but not being human".However, in her eyes, he may not be considered a "heterosexual" at all, but a "best friend" who is even more of the same sex than the same sex.Thinking of this, Zhe couldn't help but let out a long sigh.

"She's already had three drinks, please advise her to take it easy." They are all regulars at this bar, so they know the bartender very well.Zhe nodded at him and said "thank you". "You're here." Seeing Zhe, she said lightly, already a little drunk. "Why didn't you wait for me, and drank it yourself first?" Zhe said. "Because he said that I am the most beautiful when I am drunk, of course I want to show him the most beautiful side." She said. "Is he coming here tonight?" Zhe asked.

"Of course, otherwise why would I ask you?" She raised her eyebrows and said. "Listen to me, forget it, why are you doing this? Didn't he say that it's impossible for the two of you, he won't look back, even if he breaks up with his current girlfriend, he won't be with you anymore Let's go together." Zhe persuaded earnestly.

"Whoever said I want to start over with him, even if he knelt down and begged me, I wouldn't agree. I just can't bear him getting a new girlfriend so soon, and my sad deadline hasn't passed yet , He hurt my self-esteem too much by doing this, so I want revenge!" She said bitterly.

"Last time, didn't you take revenge well? You already disgraced him in front of his superiors and colleagues. Isn't that enough?"

"Of course it's not enough. This time, I want to make him lose face in front of his new girlfriend." "Oh..." Zhe was very helpless.

"Why, you don't want to help me anymore? Didn't you say that you will support me no matter what I do? If you don't help me, who else can I rely on?" Her tears were about to flow out .

Seeing her tears, Chul surrenders. At 07:30, her ex-boyfriend Feng walked in holding a girl's hand.As soon as the two sat down and ordered two glasses of wine, she came over and sat next to them.Feng's face suddenly became ugly, and his girlfriend was even more bewildered, not knowing what the situation was.

"Honey, why are you late, I've been waiting for you for a long time, come, give me a glass of fine wine." She said, bringing the wine in her hand to Feng's mouth.

"Don't mess around." Feng pushed her glass away.

"Hey, why are you angry? I ordered your favorite drink, 'Blue Flame'. Why, did you change the flavor?" As she spoke, she glanced at the girl next to her.

"What on earth do you want to do?" Feng's face became more and more ugly.

"I don't want to do anything, I just can't figure it out. Didn't you tell me before that you only drank 'Blue Flame' and loved me all your life? Why did you change your mind so quickly?" she said faintly.

"We have broken up. Didn't I tell you a long time ago? Why do you still pester me?"

"Break up? Ah, yes, you have already told me, but I haven't agreed yet. Love is a matter between two people. Why do you make a unilateral decision? Besides, what should I do with the child in my belly? You want him to be born without a father?" she said pitifully.

"You, you, what nonsense are you talking about?" Feng was already pale with anger, and his new girlfriend was also a little bit dumbfounded, looking at the two people in front of him with a strange look.

"Oh, you don't know yet, I didn't listen to you to kill him. This is the crystallization of our love, and I will definitely give birth to him."

Feng's girlfriend couldn't listen any longer and got up to leave.Feng grabbed her: "This is a misunderstanding, please listen to my explanation!" She also stood up and grabbed Feng's clothes: "Today, you must give me an explanation, do you want this child or not? "

Feng finally couldn't bear it anymore, and pushed her to the ground: "You are simply crazy, I was really blind before, how could I fall in love with a woman like you?!"

She fell to the ground and continued to act out revenge. She hugged Feng's leg and cried, "You are also forcing me to be crazy. In order to pay for your postgraduate study, I gave all the money I have worked so hard to earn over the past few years." You, in order to love you, I would rather get pregnant for you, but you treat me so ruthlessly, how can I not be crazy?" After finishing speaking, she said to Feng's girlfriend, "Please, give him back How am I? My kids can't live without Dad."

Feng's girlfriend broke free from his hand and walked away. He wanted to chase after her, but she hugged his leg so that he couldn't move a step.Feng picked her up from the ground, shook her shoulder vigorously and said loudly: "Are you satisfied this time, are you satisfied this time? What kind of harm do you want to do to me? How can I be sorry for you?" , Is it a big mistake to stop loving you?!"

"Yes, you just made a huge mistake, so you deserve it." She had already changed from the pitiful look just now, replaced by a look of indifference.

"You..." Feng couldn't help raising his fist, and Zhe came out.He came over and pulled her from Feng's hand, "I'm sorry, she drank too much, maybe it's not appropriate to punch a drunk ex-girlfriend?"

She took Zhe's arm and said proudly: "Oh, I forgot to tell you, this is my new boyfriend, you see, he is much handsomer than you, and we are getting married next month. Just now I'm really sorry, I drank too much and said something about drinking, don't take it to your heart, bye." After she finished speaking, she took Zhe by her arm and left Feng with a livid face and flaming eyes.

Sitting in the car home, she was very happy all the way, "Did you see Feng's face just now? It was so happy. Next time, I will make him even more embarrassed than this time." She said to herself, Immersed in the pleasure of revenge, I didn't notice that Zhe's face next to him was getting uglier.But in the next few days, whenever she went to Zhe, he always shirked with one or another reason.How come Zhe, who has always been obedient and obedient to himself, suddenly seems to be a different person?She is weird.

A few days later, she grasped another trend of Feng: he decided to propose to his new girlfriend in order to resolve the misunderstanding caused by her messing up the situation last time.She couldn't miss this good opportunity for revenge, so she contacted Zhe again, but Zhe turned her down on the grounds that she was going on a business trip.After that, Zhe Geng stopped answering her calls, and stopped replying to her text messages and online messages.She went to his company or his house to find him but couldn't find him.Zhe seemed to disappear from her world all of a sudden.

At this time, she suddenly realized how important Zhe was to her. Without him, a big piece of her heart would be missing.She found their mutual friend to confide in the distress in her heart.

"You are so stupid, don't you know that Zhe has always been in love with you?" She didn't believe it. "Why didn't he tell me?" "You never gave him a chance. You fell in love with one person after another, but you always regarded him as your elder brother. But he could only silently guard you by your side, hoping to have One day you will find out his heart. But this time, you only care about using him to take revenge again and again, and his heart has been broken by you."

It turned out that happiness was always by her side, but she never noticed it.

For a woman in love, the saddest thing is that when she opens her eyes on a sunny morning, she suddenly finds that the person she loves the most has become very strange, or even completely disappeared.The pain came so suddenly, so suddenly that people couldn't believe it, and couldn't let go.But life is like this, there are always many things that come uninvited, happiness is like this, and pain is even more so.

However, if you let go of what you have lost, you will have a chance to get better.So, when love abandons you without hesitation, don't be sad, put away your tears, and tell yourself that what you lose is not love, but a heart that no longer loves you.Pack up your luggage, hold your head up, take big strides, turn around and walk away smartly, perhaps, the real happiness that belongs to you is not far ahead.

4. Quit a repeat addiction
The so-called forever just represents yesterday.The so-called love only represents the time.The entanglement in the heart, if it can be untied, it is a knot, if it cannot be untied, it is a robbery.

No woman can guarantee that she can find true love once, and she always has to go through painful baptisms again and again to have the opportunity to enjoy the fruits of love happily.However, some women are very unfortunate. After experiencing pain again and again, the so-called forever just represents yesterday.The so-called love only represents the time.The entanglement in the heart, if it can be untied, it is a knot, if it cannot be untied, it is a robbery.

After that, they got nothing but bruises all over their bodies and broken hearts.

why?Because they always fall into the wrong love, fall in love with the person they shouldn't love, but don't look back, and as a result, they get bruised all over their bodies.But, next time, they will repeat the same mistakes, forget the pain when the scars are healed, and fall in love with those who can't give them happiness.In the end, he threw himself into the injury again and again, unable to extricate himself, unable to redeem himself.

(End of this chapter)