Jia Ru can come back

Chapter 114 Heartache and Heartbreak
Originally, I have been sleeping very restlessly at night these days, and I often wake up in the middle of the night. I thought that I would get better if I came back here to be alone and quiet, but this night, I tossed and turned and couldn't sleep.

At the same time, the ears are extremely sensitive, and the slightest movement outside will come in.

He got up in the middle of the night, hurried to the bathroom, and then the sound of vomiting came over one after another.My heart was tense, and I resisted the thought of going out to investigate. I waited until I heard staggering footsteps walking in the living room, and I recognized that it seemed that I went to the refrigerator to get beer again, and then returned to the sofa in the living room.

Through a door, he doesn't know I'm in the room, but I know he's in the living room. This is the distance between me and him, which can't be bridged.

After dawn, I didn't get up until eight o'clock, and I sent a text message to Xiao Dong asking for half a day off. The first day I went to work in the court, there was nothing too urgent, and Xiao Dong immediately texted back to approve.

I just washed up in the bathroom of the bedroom, and after waiting, I walked to the door and paused, took a deep breath, opened the door and walked out.Unsurprisingly, Zhou Yu was still lying on the sofa, and there were obviously a few new beer cans on the coffee table.

When I stepped up, the person on the sofa sat up suddenly, and I was taken aback. He wasn't asleep? !
Zhou Yu looked at me suspiciously, his eyes were still cloudy, and he murmured, "Am I dreaming again?"

Looking at him silently, if it is a dream, I will always be awakened, I said softly: "Zhou Gongjin, today is the seventh day of the lunar new year, and I have already asked for leave."

Zhou Yu didn't wake up much from the wine, so he couldn't drive anymore, so he gave me the key and I drove it.

The road to the Civil Affairs Bureau is no stranger, and it winds around the intersection of the street.Today may be the first day of work, so the road is very congested, and I have been waiting at a traffic light for half an hour.Thinking that there would be no parking space at the gate of the Civil Affairs Bureau, I started looking for a nearby parking lot in advance, and finally parked the car one stop away.

He turned to look at Zhou Yu who hadn't made a sound since he got in the car. He was sitting quietly in the chair, looking straight ahead but he didn't seem to notice that the car had stopped.I reminded aloud: "Get out of the car."

He froze for a moment, looked at me in a daze, and came to his senses only after his pupils focused, followed by deep pain.

I didn't look any further, turned around, opened the door and got out of the car, waiting for him beside the car.

When Zhou Yu came over, I handed over the car keys. He looked down, his mouth moved but he didn't speak, and finally took the keys silently.The two walked side by side, as if no one planned to break the tranquility in the hustle and bustle, they walked silently. When I reached the gate of the Civil Affairs Bureau, I subconsciously glanced at the sign hanging on the wall. Reminder sheet - Please go to the fifth floor for marriage and the second floor for divorce.

Suddenly felt a tight wrist, Zhou Yu grabbed my hand, turned around, saw him buried his head and didn't look at me, let alone speak.

I kind of understand that he is in the final contest with himself, even if he stepped into the door late, it would be good.I don't want to rush, but it's meaningless to waste like this. I looked at his hand with white fingers bluntly, and whispered his name: "Zhou Gongjin."

He trembled, and slowly loosened the grip on his wrist, retracting his fingers little by little.

I sensed the despair in his heart.

Perhaps one day in the future, I will always find that it is just a farce to strip away all the ugly appearances that I thought I couldn't ask for.When the authorities and outsiders clearly see the existence of love, the authorities are often confused.

And at this time, forgive me for not having such a profound Taoism, because I am in authority.

In the end, his lingering fingertips were pulled away by me. At that moment, even I felt cruel.

"Let's go in."

When I got the red book again, I never thought the red color was so glaring, and I stuffed it into the bag almost immediately, but it was inevitable to see Zhou Yu holding the red book in his hand, and didn't let it go until he walked out the door. into the coat pocket.

The black coat used to be very neat for him to wear, but now it looks a little too big.

He stopped suddenly and I didn't take precautions, so I bumped into his back directly. When he touched his nose and raised his head, he turned around, his eyes softly asked: "Can I hold your hand again?"

I didn't respond, "What?"

He said: "I want to hold your hand one last time, I'm afraid I won't have the chance in the future."

As soon as the nose was sour, the eyes became wet.

Because of his sentence - I'm afraid there will be no chance in the future.

From the moment I separated from him, it is difficult to be a friend, and it is no longer possible to be a lover. We will only be the most familiar strangers.

"If you keep silent, I will take it as your acquiescence." He said directly, and grabbed my hand.

Without struggling, he let him grab it and walked slowly towards the parking lot.

I thought to myself that we should part ways here. He is a policeman, so he naturally understands the dangers of drunk driving, and I don't necessarily have to drive his car where it is parked.But these thoughts just rolled in my heart, I didn't say it.

"Jia Xiaoru." Zhou Yu called me, "You never gave me a chance to fully express myself. Now that I'm divorced, I want to talk about some thoughts in my heart whether you want to hear them or not."

"First of all, believe it or not, I love you. I used to think that men's love is too hypocritical. You should have known my thoughts on you 800 years ago, and there is no need for me to say it. But until today I have Understand, it turns out that love is meant to be spoken, if you love you and don’t tell you, it’s the same as no love.”

"I'm not sure when it started. Maybe it was the night I kissed you under the tree on the night of my college entrance examination, or maybe it was the three days of the high school entrance examination when you spent time with me day and night, and I discovered a change in my mentality. From From awkwardly not wanting to admit and not wanting to be known by you, to being unable to bear approaching you, to confessing to you for the first time, you saying that your feelings are not pure, but I don’t think there is any impurity in it for you.”

"Later, I counted the contacts I had with your father, and I could break them with my fingers. It is not appropriate to say resentment. The psychological impact my aunt caused me is far from the level of hatred. I can only say that I am not I like your father. Because there are too few intersections, even if you don’t like it, you won’t do it on purpose, but you are not that interested when you take me to see your father’s magic show with excitement.”

"About the magic performance, I am not qualified to comment, but because you are caught in the middle, I have to touch it, and at one time you were influenced by your father and learned magic. So during that time, I really rejected your father, so that On Christmas Eve, when you asked me to go to the show, you didn’t think about the past very much in your heart. It happened that Mizi and Wei Lai had an accident and came to see me. At that time, I couldn’t think of what would happen later, but I regretted it countless days and nights later —Why didn’t I go to the theater to see you that night.”

"That night I stood behind you and watched you cry. Apart from guilt and distress, I was also afraid. I was so panicked, I was afraid that you would blame me for your father's death, and impulsively asked for it when you ran home. Marry you. At that time, I only wanted to marry you and protect you for the rest of my life, but it turned out to be the opposite. In the end, you broke up with me. I felt heartache that day. From then until we got married, I thought the biggest pain was That's it, but when you told me about the divorce, I realized that the heartache is nothing more than a mere heartbreak, which is the real pain on the skin."

Zhou Yu's remarks were progressive, and he didn't deliberately exaggerate his strong emotions, but just talked about his mental journey that I don't know.He was frank about his rejection of his father, and also expressed his hidden emotions behind his back.

It would be a lie to say that I was not shocked, even my hands were numb, and the fingers he grasped were also stiff.

After a pause, we have reached the parking lot.

"You can find someone to help you drive the car back." I suddenly suggested.

He turned his head to look at me, "how are you going?"

"I'll just go out and hail a car or call a car on my mobile phone. I have a leave of absence in the morning, so I'm not in a hurry."

He was silent for a moment, "Can't we have another meal together?"

I subconsciously thought that it was a meal for a breakup, and it would taste like a mouth full of sand.I shook my head, "Don't eat."

Zhou Yu didn't insist anymore, just lowered his head and looked at the palm that was still holding me, and after a moment of pause, he slowly let go, and my hand fell freely to his side.I heard him say: "Then you go first."

"Zhou Gongjin, you should not drive after drinking."

He smiled, "Don't worry, I won't drink and drive, just wait here for someone to come."

Nodding, said lightly: "Then I'm leaving."

When he turned around, his eyes were blurred.

It was probably when the knee was sore that I suddenly remembered that I hadn't stopped the car, and I didn't know how many intersections I had passed, but it was already past the afternoon work time.I rummaged through the phone in my bag, and was about to call Xiao Dong, when my thoughts turned, I slowly turned around, and my eyes settled on the familiar figure.

Zhou Yu has been following me, just like that time when I walked alone for a long time when I was angry, I turned around and saw him.

I crouched down and buried my face in my knees.

If studying law and becoming a lawyer would arm me, my character would change from soft to tough, but I would be completely vulnerable in front of Zhou Yu.His actions and words can make me emotionally broken.

There was an extra pair of feet beside her, and Zhou Yu's voice came from above her head: "Jia Xiaoru." The tone was painful and helpless.

I didn't raise my tear-stained face, but hummed my nose and begged, "Zhou Gongjin, can we just let it go?"

"Forget it?" He asked lightly.

"Don't follow me anymore, we're divorced."

"I just wanted to make sure you got in the car, but I watched you keep walking, and I was afraid that you would not be able to come back if you walked too far like last time." He also squatted down and put his arms around me , "Every time you are sad, you like to walk alone. I don't worry, I always follow. Jia Xiaoru, we are divorced, but it's not that we never see each other. I can't let you walk alone on the road and don't care."

"I'm going to take the car now." He raised his face and quickly wiped his face with his sleeve. He suddenly got up and rushed to the side of the road. He quickly stopped a taxi and got in. But he couldn't help looking back out the window. Zhou Yu was still squatting in the same place, looking at this side with gloomy eyes, and the distance gradually widened.

I reached into my bag and grabbed the hard book tightly, but I couldn't help but burst into tears.

I finally got divorced, and since then I have no legal relationship with him, will we be strangers in the future?If so, then looking back on the past so many years, it will be painful to recall.

(End of this chapter)