just passing by you

Chapter 36

Chun was my good friend in college, but after she found a boyfriend, she gradually stopped sticking together.When I graduated, I took the postgraduate entrance examination, and she firmly refused; she said that she planned to return to her own city with her boyfriend, get married as soon as the job stabilized, and then have a lot of children.At that time, I laughed at her for valuing sex and despising friends, and she also laughed and advised me not to read myself as an old girl, and be careful that no one will marry me.Afterwards, the two of them rarely saw each other. After I found a boyfriend, I didn’t even bother to make phone calls. When we got in touch occasionally, we would laugh and scold each other for being ungrateful. later.But I still hide a lot of things, especially me.She is a 28-year-old woman, but she has just started her work. Every time she is criticized by the leader, she will not like her colleagues who are much younger than her, she will say a lot of good things to compliment the leader without changing her face.In terms of love, I am even more frightened, some hate myself for not being able to marry; I desperately try to please my boyfriend, hoping that one day he will marry me back, so that I can settle my heart down, even if I don’t have a house.But he has always been ambiguous, saying that he will wait for his career to reach a higher level, or earn enough money for the down payment.In fact, I really understand that he is taking off his words. In my love, he gradually became timid, and then became upset and disgusted.He doesn't like me very much, I know, but he is reluctant to let go, fearing that if he leaves, no one will give this little bit of love.Such a self naturally has no energy to pay attention to Chun, only knows that she is happier than himself, her boyfriend almost dotes on her, has already bought a house, and is only waiting to marry her into the door.

When I saw Chun, she was relaxed and relieved, and gave me a very youthful and charming smile. The fine lines around her eyes were as vivid as mine.I don't know why, when I saw such a high-spirited Chun, I was slightly disappointed and jealous besides being surprised.Both of them are straightforward, I said why did you run away from marriage, don't you love him?Chun then laughed: "Why do love and escape from marriage have to be equated, and I'm not old yet, so getting married so early is a waste; I want to change my way and live on campus for another two years."I looked at Chun, who was beaming with joy, and couldn't help wiping away the wrinkles at the corners of her eyes, and said: "There are so many creases, you can't say you're old, read carefully, he can't wait to marry you."Chun laughed again: Then find another one, I can still live well without him.I shook my head with a wry smile: Chun, we are already 28 years old and we can't afford to make trouble.

Chun has always ignored other people's persuasion, so I had no choice but to give up and wait for the facts to teach her a cruel lesson.A few months later, Chun was admitted to graduate school as she wished, but at the same time, she also received an "ultimatum" from her boyfriend: either to study in graduate school and break up, or to come back and get married and work with peace of mind.Just like she refused to let me pull her to take the postgraduate entrance examination, Chun resolutely stayed and studied.I asked her softly: Is it worth throwing away a five-year love for your so-called new way of life?Chun thought for a long time, and whispered out a sentence with bright eyes: value.

During this period, I continued to "stalk" my boyfriend, hoping that he could give me a destination for my love of more than three years.I begged and begged, and he was annoyed and annoyed, and finally he said "break up", resigned and left me.I cried and went to find Chun, but Chun didn't say a word, just patted my back tenderly, let me lie on her shoulder, wet and crumpled her clothes.During those few days, Chun helped me ask for leave, went shopping with me, watched movies, ate snacks, and commented on the handsome guys in the past, just like a few years ago when we had a lot of squandered youth.This kind of time is already luxurious and strange to us, and I still can't be like Chun, completely return to the same simplicity and worry-free as before.The fear of my own age, and the panic that my youth is gone, knocked me down, making me feel restless and feel like years in this rare beauty and joy.

When I started working, Chun sent me a text message, saying, Ann, if love, career and family will come as promised when you are in your 30s, then what will it be like in your eyes at the age of 28?I replied: Of course, youth is just right, you can enjoy and pursue what you want safely.Chun replied: If that is the case, then why do you still have to be afraid, love will always come to you, what you need to do now is to enjoy the time before it comes peacefully, just like enjoying the quietly coming youth.

I kept this sentence, until a year later, I finally found my true love; and Chun, also found a man who was willing to patiently wait for her to enjoy the carefree youth before the age of 30.When love has not come, it turns out that we can safely call all lonely years youth.

A joke of love.

She and him, when they were not born, were often used by each other's parents to say solemnly, when the two children grow up, they must let them love each other and continue to extend the friendship between our two families.When the two came into the world crying loudly, it was because they were out of place one after the other, and there were very few opportunities to communicate with each other.He is 5 years older than her. When she was born, he just casually looked at the baby girl who was sleeping with frowning eyebrows in his mother's tears of joy, then hugged the tank and cannon and played with the little boys downstairs. The war game is gone.He didn't know that just as he stepped out of the threshold, the mother behind kissed her pink cheeks and said softly, little girl, grow up quickly and marry our Niu Niu.And she, of course, besides eating, eating and sleeping carelessly, doesn't understand the urgency of the adults.

By the time she was able to run and dance, he had already started reading.When I carry my schoolbag every day and shuttle back and forth between school and home with great interest, I don't care much about whether this childish girl treats her home as a playground again; Parents love and love like their own daughters, so they are jealous or sad.He has his own world, he likes to run wildly around the city with the boys in his class; he likes to read exquisite comic books, he likes to pull the braids of the little girl in front; He also likes to visit all the shops, big and small; he also likes to see gray-haired grandparents when he is in the car, and immediately stands up and gives up his seat for them according to the teacher's teaching.Yes, he is already a little man, but she is still so childish and needs to be hugged and coaxed by her mother.So, no matter what, he wouldn't let himself hang out with a little girl with a runny nose all day long.

His parents, and her parents, were still at the party, full of sweet longing, hoping that he would walk slowly, while she, who followed behind, would run a few steps quickly to catch up with this striding brother.But it's just the adults' wishful thinking about their future, while he and she, as usual, are walking parallel and irrelevant on their own life tracks.She only knew that this man called elder brother didn't like to take her to play, and even disdained to look at her who was a head shorter.She didn't bother to pay attention to him. When she saw him as a guest, she casually threw her teddy bear on the sofa, and she would feel disgusted. She thought, this bad-tempered boy is so annoying, why did he just recruit him? What do parents like?

Both he and she have thought about this question, but before they figured it out, they each had a hazy love.She had a crush on the tall boy who went to the class next door whistling and flaunting through the city, while he fell in love with the beautiful girl who was studying quietly under the Metasequoia tree when he was sprinting for the college entrance examination.The joy and sadness of a young girl are slightly rippling in her heart, and he also has the sadness and loneliness of about to graduate and leave school.She didn't know who she should tell these thoughts to; he also didn't know, if he took the liberty to write to the girl under the tree, would he wash away the last trace of warmth?She had to write the secret in a diary, then locked it and put it in a drawer that her parents would never find.He also concealed his inner longing, and only immersed himself in his studies, hoping that when the college entrance examination was over, he would get the admission letter and meet the girl he missed every day.

This is the youthful time of two people, no one has disturbed anyone, no one wants to think about the name that is chanted by their parents every day, why is it so strange in their hearts, and it can't stir up the slightest waves .They just walked happily and alone until two years later, when he went to study in Beijing, he completely forgot her in the adult world.And she was also weighed down by the gradually heavy homework, and she just went to his house for dinner with her parents on weekends, and ate hard while the adults were talking and joking. It seemed that this was the only way. Grammar and exercises will be squeezed into corners that will not be touched by sight.He and her are just a role model that adults use to educate themselves.To him, she is a running, jumping and swaying shadow in the memory of Xiaocheng.And the deep friendship between adults has nothing to do with them.Because, in time, they have become two strangers.

When she started college, he found a job that everyone envied in Beijing. Two years later, he became the backbone of the business, and she faced the choice of graduation.At this time, the adults finally began to worry about these two people who were getting further and further away.His mother repeatedly tested her, asking her if she wanted to find a man as good as him?Her father, who was also on the phone, said earnestly that although men are born for careers, it is also essential to find a gentle and pleasant wife.She just nodded and listened heartlessly, but what floated in her heart was the boy in the next class who first captured her heart many years ago.He also often quickly forgets these persuasions and continues his life of fierce fighting.

When the two adults had no choice but to tell the truth, she actually burst out laughing in front of his parents.As for him, he also ran through the girl who could hardly remember what she looked like in his mind, and then ignored the adults' beautiful dreams.Although he didn't say it, both he and she thought in their hearts, this is really a strange thing, adults are so close as a family, but they themselves don't even have the slightest affection; so, if How ridiculous it would be to insist on going together.

Two years later, the adults of the two families no longer mentioned the matter of marriage, and she and him also began to experience periods of love that began and never ended.It was spring of one year, at a relative's wedding, they met by chance.It never occurred to him that the girl he had always ignored turned out to be such a beautiful and charming woman.And she, also in his demeanor, was instantly dizzy, and she couldn't even breathe steadily.In the noisy crowd, they suddenly began to regret, why didn't they listen to their parents' persuasion and meet earlier?Why is life arranged until now to let them fall in love with each other?

However, it's not too late.God is just like a mischievous child, letting them start from one point and run in different directions; they thought they would run farther and farther, but at the moment they met, they discovered that they were running on the same circle , That's why they are so lucky to find each other again.Although in the best youthful time, they were almost strangers, ignored each other, and had no intersection; but, what does it matter, it is worthwhile for them to meet love at a moment that is not too late. , Thanksgiving vigorously.

(End of this chapter)