Summer is not late, good day is good

Chapter 146

He kissed her earlobe, and lightly brushed her ear socket with the tip of his tongue, "Hey, I will work hard, work hard to plant a baby, I want to be a father..."

Exhausted, she was trembling slightly because of the teasing/teasing from the tip of his tongue, she was really worried that she would be conquered by him again, but after hearing these words, she felt as if she was hit by a bolt from the blue, and her whole body froze...

This is her Achilles' heel, an unbearable pain in her life...

Next, no matter how hard he tried, she couldn't devote herself anymore. He thought she was too tired, so he stopped forcing her and kissed her face, "Okay, go to sleep when you're tired!"

Cleaned her up, wrapped her in a bath towel, carried her back to the bedroom, put her on the bed, squeezed her up, hugged her, gently pinched the soft flesh on her arm, satisfied and enjoyed , "Well... I have to change to a bigger bed. What kind of bed do you think you should buy? Do you like water beds?"

She looked drowsy, and replied perfunctorily, "Whatever..."

He still thought she was tired, so he stopped pestering her and patted her on the back, signaling her to go to bed quickly. In the dark, what he didn't see was the tear falling from the corner of her eye...

Maybe she was really tired, or maybe, in fact, his embrace was the best sleeping pill in the world, and she soon fell asleep.However, she had just fallen asleep, and was once again disturbed by the repeated nightmares of the past five years...

In the dream, there was still the darkness that could not touch the border. She was curled up in the darkness. From nowhere, she heard a child crying, "Mom! Mom... don't want me... Mom..."

The child... She stood up like crazy and followed the source of the sound. However, no matter how she ran, the child's voice was always in front of her, fluttering and stern.

She ran and ran until she was too tired to move her feet, but she still couldn't find the slightest trace of the child. In front of the darkness, a figure appeared from behind. She could see clearly that it was Chen An, her Chen An. Ann is right, even from the back, she can recognize it at a glance...

She ran up and hugged his waist, she cried and called his name, trying to tell him what happened, but he turned around, pushed her to the ground, and viciously accused She, "Get out! You don't deserve to be my wife! Get out as far away as possible!"

Sitting on the cold ground, looking at the strange Chen An in front of her, she even forgot to cry...

Suddenly, a white light flashed in front of her eyes, Chen An disappeared, and the darkness enveloped her again. In the distance, the child's mournful sobs were still heard, "Mom... Mom... I want Mom..."

Powerless and frightened, she got up from the ground and continued chasing forward staggeringly. She didn't know what she was chasing. Every time in her dreams, she always ran aimlessly like this, and every time she ran she was exhausted. The child's cry lingered in her ears like a curse, this time, there was Chen An's ruthless accusation:

"Get out! You are not worthy to be my wife!"

"Mom...I want mother..."

"roll!"

"Mother……"

In the end, she fell to the ground, unable to get up anymore, but the cries of the child and Chen An's accusations became louder and louder, surrounding her, submerging her, like a curse, holding her body her head, oppressing her chest, making her have a splitting headache, making her unable to breathe, she was suffering in such a dream, she wanted Chenan to come back, she wanted the child back, she was crying, clutching her hands in the dark The painful chest shouted, "Chen'an, don't go...children, don't go...Chen'an..."

However, it was still the curse that answered her..."Mom...Mom..." "Go...go..."

She fell to the ground in despair, crying, except for calling "Chen'an" and "children" over and over again, she didn't know what to do...

Zuo Chen'an was excited about being newly married, he slept very lightly, felt her restlessness in the mist, heard her seem to be calling his name, and immediately woke up, turned on the bedside lamp, only to see her eyes closed, her face covered with tears , wrapped his arms around his neck, and murmured, "Chen'an, don't go...don't go, child..." That appearance seemed to be greatly frightened.

He hugged her distressedly, kissed her tears, patted her, and coaxed her to wake up, "Little pig, I am here! I am not leaving! You are dreaming! Open your eyes and see! I am here!"

She vaguely felt that someone was kissing her, it must be Chen An!Except for Chen An, no one in this world has ever kissed her!
She felt aggrieved, and burst into tears, "Chen'an...don't go...don't leave me...I'm afraid..."

In the dream, it was obviously a loud cry, but it came out like mosquitoes. He didn't know what she was going through in the dream, which would make her so panic, so he patted her lightly and called out to her loudly, " Little pig, wake up! You are dreaming! Wake up! Look at me! Chen'an is here! Right beside you!"

She was finally rescued from the dream by him, and she opened her eyes slightly, only to feel the glare of the light, and buried her head in his arms again in horror, whimpering, "Don't turn on the light! Don't!"

He quickly reached out to turn off the light, but once plunged into the darkness, the fear in the dream struck again, she didn't know what to do, she trembled slightly in his arms, and hugged him tightly, as if in Crying like in a dream.

She had such a dream for five years, and every time she woke up, she would cry alone in the cold night.

Tonight, with him.

Every time, in this kind of dream, she is in pain, like drifting in the ocean of pain, never seeing the shore, but this time, she can cling to him, just like clinging to a life-saving driftwood, so she clings to him Hold him and cry.

In fact, she was really scared.No matter how powerful a person is, they all have a fatal weakness, let alone her?And her Achilles' heel is this dream. After waking up from the dream, she is the most vulnerable and hesitant time. If she is always alone, maybe she can persevere again after crying. However, people's hearts always yearn for warmth and dependence. , after experiencing countless times of healing alone after waking up from dreams, this time she finally had him, and her endurance finally reached the limit at this time, she cried like a child, like a wayward child, hanging on to him neck, whimpering like accusation, "Chen'an...you scolded me...you drove me away...you told me to get lost...Chen'an..."

How could he drive her away?How could you let her go?Knowing that she was still immersed in a dream, he kissed her tenderly, and gently combed her hair with his fingers, "Silly, am I not here? How could I ever be willing to scold you? You are dreaming!"

But she was relentless, tears wiped his neck, "You have! You drove away! You are so fierce! Let me go! Say I am not good enough for you!"

"I do not know……"

He wanted to make a gentle promise to her, but she interrupted impatiently. In the darkness, she was still unable to come out in the atmosphere of the dream, "You will! No! You can! Chen'an, drive me away! I really don't deserve you! I'm sorry, Chen'an...I'm sorry for the child...It's my mother who is not good..."

This last sentence made Zuo Chen'an's heart shake, child?what child?
"Baby, what are you talking about? What child?" He tried to keep his voice gentle so as not to scare her.

She was sobbing, still thinking of the child's cry in her ears, "Mom" and "I want mother", which made her mentally collapse, and blurted out the secret hidden in her heart, "Child... Chen Ann...our child...he died...was born and died..."

For several seconds, he couldn't say a word, and it took a lot of effort to digest this sentence. It turned out that they had a child!It turned out that she was pregnant when she left Zuo's house!It turned out that she experienced more pain than he imagined!
Holding her crying in his arms, his heart was cracked like glass, and the pain was unspeakable...

However, this is not a time of pain, what he needs to do is to comfort her, to make her less agitated and less painful...

Therefore, I forcibly suppressed the pain in my heart, hugged her even tighter, and gently cared for her like coaxing a child, "Baby, don't cry, I know you are sad, but think about the child, he must not Hope mom is sorry for him, and, maybe, he'll come back? If he misses us, he'll come back, and we can be his mom and dad! We can have another..."

After hearing his words, she broke down even more, broke free from his arms, pushed him out forcefully, and cried out in tears, "No more! I won't come back! We can't have any more children! I can't! I can't Another baby! Did you know? Can't..."

This is the first time she confides the greatest hidden pain in her heart...

In this world, only a few doctors back then and she herself knew about it.This secret, like a big rock, has been pressed in her heart for five years, making her breathless, and making her dare not face his love. Tonight, in this broken state, she finally said it out, As soon as she finished speaking, she woke up, and the crying stopped abruptly, only tears flowed silently...

(End of this chapter)