Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Alicia can have many identities, and different identities can overlap, whether it is a singer, idol, model, anchor or others.

The only one who shouldn't be a fool trying to resurrect their lover is a self-righteous sinner who has ingrained inferiority into their bones and is constantly seeking redemption.

Something absolutely happened that Alicia should never have had to bear, something that shouldn't have been faced by the fairies who belonged solely to Paradise.

—His departure.

If those memories were truly just false lies, fabrications created by the Honkai to make them Herrschers, then perhaps only this reason could have plunged Alicia, this incredibly lively and spirited girl in her memories, into such profound grief.

Regretful for not being able to save, regretful for not being able to protect, self-righteously adding sins to himself, and feeling inferior about his far-from-enough abilities.

—The girl has already done enough.

Because this heaviness is definitely not something I just acquired, it is definitely not an emotion as vast as a mountain that was briefly brewed after my complete death.

This is something that cannot be acquired in a short time. The heavy impression left in my memory is vivid and profound, almost one of the heaviest shadows.

Presumably, she was already in a very serious situation while she was still alive, half-dead, or perhaps even more miserable, which is why the girl began to harbor heavy emotions, regret, and grief from that time on.

The boy could still vaguely feel the pain emanating from his body, spreading through his lungs with each breath, a pain that felt like being slowly eroded and rotted away.

It must have been my own mistake that caused my body to be severely eroded by Honkai energy.

As lovers, doing something like this is absolutely wrong.

To burden a person with all the suffering and calamities.

What kind of shameless person would do such a thing?

……

The boy lowered his eyebrows, his eyes, adorned with the magic of rhythm, curved into a lost arc, and his lips and teeth also turned down, leaving only his hand, which was slightly pressed against his chest, thumping—the sound of his heart beating.

The once gentle pupils now reveal the greatest emotion that the self, which had been locked away and restrained, could express after being locked away and restrained. Even the distant stars in the sky no longer seemed cold.

"In my memory, we seemed to have made a promise that we would never be separated in this life, but I left without permission, and only you can follow in my footsteps again."

"The disaster called Honkai has sealed off my emotions, but it cannot completely seal off my heart. At least I can feel the emotions in your heart."

"It's very heavy, really heavy. My departure must have been a huge blow to you."

"I'm sorry, dear Ellie, can you forgive me?"

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Words can no longer describe your emotions; no amount of subtlety or flowery language can capture them.

I've heard that there's a river called the Yellow River in China that's always turbulent, carrying countless silt and sand, crashing against the dikes like a sky full of thoughts.

[Then your current emotions must be hundreds or thousands of times stronger than that river, carrying silt, everything from your past, and all the mistakes you've made, all attacking your mental defenses.]

[It was not an impregnable, majestic dam, nor a defense that could rival it; it was merely a heart already riddled with holes, shattered beyond repair, fragmented and broken beyond repair.]

All your past delusions and self-righteousness have been utterly shattered by the boy's honesty and the gentleness in his eyes.

That's going too far.

That's going too far.

This is really too much.

Jiang Cheng's behavior was absolutely outrageous.

[He has clearly lost his emotions, clearly lost himself under your despicable desires, like a rag doll being kneaded and molded into someone else's desired shape, so why is he still so gentle?]

You can't even imagine what would have happened if the boy hadn't lost his emotions, if the feelings within him had remained as vibrant as ever.

I dare not.

At this moment, even your thoughts will no longer run wild and disobey your commands. Even this part of your mind, which you've never tamed, which you used to indulge in wild fantasies and harm yourself, is now forcibly disciplined, and you dare not touch it in the slightest.

This fear is now instinctive.

It wasn't physical harm, nor was it a cruel and heinous punishment; it was simply the gentle tone of his voice and the slight upturn of his lips.

【ah……】

[This is absolutely terrifying.]

It felt as if even my heart was wailing, plunging into an endless abyss, into an endless deep sea, unable to see even a ray of light, only feeling the endless fall, only feeling the pressure squeezing my delicate heart, all of my being, my entire being, my very soul.

[You were trembling with fear, even wanting to kneel and beg Jiang Cheng to hurt you severely, to give you a punishment commensurate with your sins.]

[Gentleness and such...]

[This is truly a killer move that no one can refuse.]

An attack that no one can withstand is most vulnerable to, especially for those who are emotionally sensitive or have been hurt.

Even building walls wouldn't be enough, nor would constructing city walls. It's like the sun, so intensely hot and radiant, capable of melting even steel; no matter how strong the defenses, they would crumble before it.

If you allow this emotion to be suppressed, to squeeze your heart, to feel this seemingly endless ocean pressing down on your delicate soul, your soul and your entire self will surely end here.

【terribly sorry.】

You still can't accept leaving like this.

No matter how despicable this nature may be, you have finally received all the love of the boy.

[You've only just arrived in paradise, only just embraced your own special haven; to leave now seems far too hasty.]

The emotions you've been suppressing are about to burst forth; now's the perfect time to use the plan and tactics that Vivi prepared.

[You once thought that Virvi, incarnated as Icarus, would become your stepping stone, but that was more of a metaphor. The help she could offer was limited to providing you with some backup plans and acknowledging your position.]

This kind of help is already significant; at least it gives a third party the courage to embrace the person they once abandoned and hurt.

[You never imagined the trampling would be so thorough—Jiang Cheng has already bound that vague figure in his memory to you.]

[You already know why the boy's memories are so fragmented, and why he has almost completely lost all communication and affection with Virvi.]

[Because this is your wish, your wish to possess Jiangcheng entirely, that's why your experiences with the boy have been preserved so clearly.]

Only you can.

Only you can do it.

Whether it's Möbius or anyone else, even an insignificant individual, none can retain a clear image, yet you can leave behind the clearest memories, including the beautiful ones.

[Option 1: Now is the time to inherit Virvie's will, the time to let that girl who has transformed into Icarus help you one more time. So, I'll let you trample on that girl one more time.]

[Option Two: Anyway, Vilvie herself had already agreed to this. She even included a message with a backup plan in the weapons she prepared for you. Now is the time to use them, right now, at this very moment.]

[Option 3: Since you have already replaced the image of Velvi in ​​the boy's memories, and since you have been regarded as a girl with deep feelings, why not use the strategy and backup plan together?]

……

Kneeling on the ground, her delicate eyes were also covered by the prismatic starry sky, yet she could not find a single trace of human kindness.

It's not that they've become completely inhuman Lawyers; it's just that the intellect they once possessed has been almost entirely squeezed out.

To be filled with regret, to be filled with sorrow, to be filled with regret that is far clearer than the regret of another, still unclear self.

She wouldn't feel inexplicably stupid or do anything inexplicably foolish, because all these choices were made by Alicia herself.

what……

did not expect……

Has it gotten to this point?

It has come to the point where accepting the boy's forgiveness, accepting that gentle smile, and accepting that warmth that has never changed over the decades would feel like having a thousand knives and chainsaws piercing and tearing your heart apart.

They had reached the point where they could carelessly trample on Vilvie's love again and again, burning away the dignity and feelings of that genius girl.

Even after trampling on Icarus, he would trample on him again because of his own despicable emotions and his uncontrollable feelings.

Even though Vivi was willing to give up those extremely precious memories, begging him to ruthlessly erase her image from the boy's memory.

Even though Vilvi could readily give up the boy's love and refused to leave behind a doll or a substitute, she was even willing to let the person she hated most trample on everything she had in order not to hurt the boy.

Even though Velvet had given him the most precious thing, enough to make someone who had lost all motivation, was dispirited, and only knew how to sacrifice himself, regain hope for life and try once again to save the boy who had been hurt countless times by that shameless Herrscher.

Now even memories, feelings, and a person's image have been shamelessly stolen by myself.

Jiang Cheng even took the vague shadows of his happy and beautiful life with Wilvi as the basis for his past life with her.

Those distinct emotions are very important; even if the self is twisted and arbitrarily altered like a rag doll, it is a shadow that must be engraved in the heart.

How much more stuff will they steal from that girl?

How much more must be taken from that girl?

……

For someone who has never seen a glimmer of light, for someone living in a land of ice and snow, even the slightest bit of warmth and light would fill Vervi with fear—fear that she might never have it again, fear that if she did experience it, she might never be able to leave it for the rest of her life.

Drifting on the sea with nothing, barely able to catch its breath from the crashing waves thanks to the natural buoyancy, let alone facing any storms, even the slightest disturbance could overturn everything.

Even if everything is so smooth, one day it will fall into the sea and drown in the seawater that fills its mouth and lungs.

The blazing sun hung overhead, with only a few occasional clouds barely able to shield it from its intense rays. Birds flew across the boundless sky, occasionally swooping down to inflict further wounds on the girl's body.

Even though the passing birds and tiny waves had no intention of harming Vilvie, they were enough to cause the penniless girl to fall.

Given this situation, given that even living every single second can be considered torture, and that people can only wander in endless drowning and churning waves, let alone a warm, large ship.

Even a lone sail can be smashed to pieces by the slightest wave.

Even if it's just a swimming ring, it's only a life-saving device that can barely ensure you won't sink even when worn on your body.

Even if it's just a plank, a plank that you have to hold onto tightly every moment, even if letting go even slightly means it will slip away, you will never let go.

This is how it should be; we should be content with this, greedily clinging to everything we already have, grasping at this plank that can barely offer a semblance of stability.

Even with Velvet's genius, her extraordinary abilities that surpass everything, and her incomprehensible power even greater than that of a Herrscher, it's unlikely she could have foreseen or known the current developments.

The worst possible outcome the girl imagined was that Jiang Cheng would completely forget her, burying those memories in a corner, never to see the light of day again.