Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Leave what you can't do to those who can. If you can't solve the problem yourself, don't be arrogant and want everything. Wanting everything but being unable to carry anything will only result in having nothing.

In the end, even the smallest bit will disappear completely, slipping silently through your fingers with the wind, leaving nothing behind.

To be able to give up something you've never had before and something you must cherish, and to let everything you have go up in flames.

You can also choose to bet the only thing you have on a roulette game where you have no chance of winning and not even a glimmer of hope.

Mebius believed that he absolutely could not do that, and that it was absolutely impossible for him to accept the possibility of betting everything on it.

Perhaps only the most determined and least cowardly people in this world can do that.

A person who can do this...

How can it be called inferiority complex?

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107. Alicia: There shouldn't be any problems, right?

It has nothing to do with talent, wisdom, or anything else we do, and it has absolutely nothing to do with anything we are born with or endowed with.

Perhaps the starting lines are inherently unequal, and this gap only makes those who can achieve it even more precious, incomprehensibly precious.

This awareness.

This obsession.

This will.

Even if someone grows up in a healthy environment of love and lives in a healthy family from the very beginning, and has an incredibly healthy life, theoretically a perfectly healthy person, how many of them can actually give up what they have?

Once you have something, you won't want to give it up. This is a human instinct, something called greed and possessiveness that accompanies the human self.

The more you have never had it.

The more you can only watch from afar.

An unfulfilled heart will inevitably leave a crack, an unforeseen wound, all for the sake of what it once failed to obtain.

Like a child who can only lie by the door, pressing their face against the glass to look at toys, their eyes can only reflect the longing in their heart.

An empty heart needs to be filled in an even greater way; what cannot be obtained needs to be filled and replenished in an even larger quantity.

In this situation, being able to give up something you've always longed for but can't have... is a proposal that was impossible from the very beginning.

This is like asking someone who has been adrift in the icy ocean, whose bones are chilled to the bone, to give up the only plank that supports their body.

Giving up the only thing you can feel in your hands, the only thing that proves you are still alive, the only thing that proves you still exist in the world, that you haven't drifted away in the ocean and completely left the world, drifting to the brink of death.

The faint flame burning on the wooden board could only offer some solace to the inner fire, and was the only symbol that one had not yet been completely swallowed by darkness.

At least Mebius could guarantee that if he had experienced these things, if he had truly put himself in Wilvi's shoes, he would have been able to understand them.

Perhaps, even if she exhausted all the courage in her heart, all she could do was subtly dissuade Jiang Cheng from leaving Alicia's side.

They didn't even dare to be too obvious, or too direct; they were so pathetic and ridiculous, afraid of losing their last glimmer of light, their only plank.

—Some people have given up.

—Someone has let go.

what……

This is not as simple as a confession of love.

Even describing it as knowing there's a cliff in front of you, yet still willing to take that crucial step forward, would be an understatement.

This could even be described as strangling oneself, giving away the only plank of wood and the faint light in order to save others.

If Velvi is some kind of useless person...

—And what am I anyway?

……

Under Möbius's guidance, you begin to gain a deeper understanding and connection with Vervie's talents, developing a more comprehensive grasp of the issues.

[Vilvie is a complex person, and cannot be described by any single, simple aspect. She is both cowardly and brave, both a genius and a failure, capable of bowing down to anyone, yet also possessing things she absolutely cannot lose.]

She was more thorough and complete than anyone else, truly embodying the complex and diverse human spirit.

You can find every facet of humanity, every aspect of human complexity, and every emotion that every human being should possess in a young girl.

That was practically a symbol of humanity, an embodiment of humanity; along with that talent, it marked the limits of human potential, the highest achievement of humankind.

[More significant than you, this self-proclaimed human being, could even be considered the most significant milestone in human history.]

The inner world of everyone is turbulent; if you don't look closely, you can only see a tiny, insignificant part on the surface.

Often, the deepest turmoil within, the richness of life hidden within, remains unknown to others; only the surface level is perceived.

If you only look at the girl's most prominent daily behavior, you would probably just think of Wilvi as a timid and insecure person. You simply cannot understand how someone who is so anxious about losing happiness could muster the courage to gamble away the little bit of happiness she has left.

If you only see the girl's apparent unease, how can you see that someone who loves so cautiously would choose to turn everything she has into a stepping stone for others to trample on after her death?

If you only know about the girl's intense possessiveness towards Jiang Cheng and her love as heavy as Mount Tai, how could you possibly know that in Wilvi's posthumous plans, the only thing missing was creating a substitute for herself to accompany Jiang Cheng?

Only by gaining a deeper understanding of everything, only by having a more complete grasp of everything about the girl, can we truly understand.

[Regardless of the aspect.]

[Your memories of Jiangcheng have faded. After living here for so long, you're certain that these memories are gone forever.]

But can the emotions buried deep in my memory, that love for Velvi, really disappear so easily, just vanish without a trace?

【No. 】

If everything were truly that simple, then there wouldn't have been so many times when, despite nothing being wrong, the boy would always find himself drawn to the past, looking up at the fragments of memory, piecing together the loose pieces, and recalling something uniquely his and Wilvie's shared past.

[Perhaps you intentionally played this role, trying to emulate Vilvie, because you completely lack confidence in yourself and refuse to acknowledge your own abilities.]

It's normal for this hallucination to cause some trouble; in fact, you're probably hoping Jiang Cheng will confuse you with Wilvi and treat you as the same person.

To truly and completely embody the identity of a young girl, you'll also need the help of Möbius, an equally extraordinary genius.

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such……

There shouldn't be any problems then, right?

Her cherry-pink eyes reflected her pathetic self. The act of preparing a cage for herself, putting on a mask, repairing the mask, and reinforcing the mask only made her crimson lips curl into a twisted, broken smile.

Having completely lost her original self, Alicia can now calmly accept and gladly accept all of this pitiful and pathetic state.

It no longer matters whether it's an emulator or a speedrun; we will no longer be so ignorant and arrogant as to think it's just an emulator.

Now, I have experienced a longer, more turbulent, painful, and numb period than I have lived a normal life to this day.

It's more accurate to call it a simulator.

One toy option is offered each year.

A game where it doesn't matter what you do.

Perhaps it would be more appropriate to call it a second life, or a world that is no different from the real world, where one can experience all kinds of pain.

Now, Alicia can no longer distinguish which life truly belongs to her, which life she truly experienced.

He has already spent thirty-two years in the simulator, a life so fulfilling it's almost distorted, that it could even be interpreted as being more than twice his real age.

Complete feeling, complete physical sensation, complete vision, complete memory, complete perception, and even less so, complete thought, complete idea.

You can gradually feel the passage of time and your own growth.

This life is so real that it can confuse one's own perception.

It doesn't matter anymore.

At this point, is it really necessary to still be concerned about whether this is a simulator or not?

Since everything is the same as in reality, why bother to delve into the source of all the suffering and misfortune that has brought me?

If she hadn't wanted a speedrun from the start, if she hadn't wanted to win from the beginning, if she had acted with normal thinking and lived according to Alicia's true feelings, things probably wouldn't have ended up like this.

—I'm already very satisfied.

To be able to return to the boy's side, to be able to touch his skin again, to be able to smell his scent again, to be able to lie quietly beside his little bed again.

Just by opening her eyes, one can see her serene profile, with slightly upturned corners of her eyes. After transforming into a Herrscher, she appeared alongside the Herrscher's divine armor, her natural makeup adding a perfect layer of vermilion red to her eyelids.

Twenty-seven years of hard work, twenty-seven years of wandering, just to barely touch everything that I had from the moment I was born, everything that I held in my hands.

We have done everything we could, eliminating all threats and dangers in their infancy from every angle.

Aside from these very few moments, which barely take up half a day, he can only appear by the boy's side almost every moment, never leaving him for a moment, ensuring that his eyes are always on that figure.

No matter the time, the place, or the circumstances, it doesn't matter if the boy walks alone on the street.

Even if he leaves now, Qianjie will eliminate all hidden dangers and properly manage and settle all matters, big and small, in the Eternal Paradise.

Jiangcheng's strength is now absolutely not to be underestimated; it is almost top-tier in terms of combat power, unlike before when it was helpless in the face of calamities.

In this world, apart from Kevin, who has been modified multiple times and is now completely inhuman, there is probably no individual who can stand against a Herrscher.

should……

Hopefully, there won't be any more problems.

Definitely.