Jobless Reincarnation: The King with a Mental Problem

[Lilia's Perspective]

Is he only thinking about himself?

If that's the case, why not kill me?

Why do you have to make me live in pain forever?

They could have just let me freeze to death; that would have been better for everyone.

I hate it so much. I hate this kind of silent cruelty. It hurts me more than being scolded or beaten.

The more I act this way, the more despicable I appear to be to the core.

I gave up everything, I even gave up my own life, just so he wouldn't be disgusted by me anymore, so he wouldn't have to cover for me anymore...

Why did he have to humiliate me like this...?

I wanted to argue back loudly, but I couldn't even open my mouth...

There's nothing I can do but cry like a little girl...

"I know what you're thinking, you idiot! How dare you expect me to empathize with your thoughts, you bastard! Do you know how disgusting that feels?!"

he?

Do you know me?

"You made a mistake! You hurt this family! So I hope I can punish you severely. Because of my mercy, your guilt cannot disappear, but how dare you hate me because of this???"

Now that you've seen through it, why not...

"You are the one who has made a mistake! What right do you have to demand how I should treat you?!"

How selfish must you be to do something like this!

You've already wronged Senis!

You've already caused everyone a lot of trouble!

How dare you expect others to soothe your guilt and take care of your emotions!

When you act recklessly for your own selfish desires, have you ever considered Senis's feelings?

Don't pretend to be pitiful in front of me!

What's wrong?

Who is pitiful and who is right?

I'm just giving you the silent treatment, so what can you do about it?

Do you think you're some little girl who can fawn over me?

You are an adult!

If only you adults could be a little more reliable!

Why should I, the king, do such a thing... such a thing...

cut......

What a bunch of...

His voice started louder and louder, then became softer and softer.

He's absolutely right...

I want to die, not because I feel I deserve to die, but because living is too painful.

Yes, I'm so much older than him.

I consider myself the only normal person in my family.

He should have been the most reliable person...

But I...

I suddenly realized that his voice was trembling when he was cursing at me.

At first, he was glaring at me fiercely, but now he won't even look at me...

Why?

He turned his face away, the lines of his profile taut.

The light shone on his face, casting a small shadow on his eyelashes.

The shadow was trembling too.

He was...feeling wronged...

It's not just because of me, it's because of this whole thing that he had to stand here and say these things to me.

He hates me.

But he still came.

Why?

If he doesn't come, I'll really die...

what......

I see......

If I die, Senis will be sad, Paul will feel guilty, and the unborn child will never have the chance to see the world.

He took the blame for everyone, and now he's taking the blame for mine too.

My tears welled up again.

All these years living with him... I've always just treated him like a weird kid...

How could I possibly discern anything about him based on such minimal communication?

Even though we live under the same roof, I've never tried to see through his heart...

Until now...

I finally see him clearly.

Not that "terrible genius," "weird child," or "lofty Shadow King."

She's a child so much younger than me, yet trying to shoulder so much responsibility...

But I... only thought of myself...

I'm so ashamed.

It's all my fault, no matter what...

"sorry......"

"Hmph! You finally apologized..."

yes......

I didn't even apologize...

"What...should I do?"

He took a deep breath and looked me straight in the eye again.

"The fact that you feel guilty about this shows that you are just stupid, not bad. Since you are just stupid, it is my responsibility to teach you! Since you want punishment, then remember my scolding and correct your mistakes."

"But...this...is too merciful..."

"I see... Indeed. Since that's too merciful, then you can just pretend that the old Lilia died here! After you leave here, you belong only to me. Whatever I say, you will do!"

"yes......"

"Alas... your life no longer belongs to you alone. You are now a mother. My first and most important task for you is to love that child with all your might!"

"yes......"

"Well... let's leave it at that for now, it's all over..."

After he finished speaking, he exhaled, leaned back in the stone chair, and looked up at the sky...

What is he thinking about now?

[Trevor's Perspective]

I sat on the stone throne, reflecting on whether I had done anything inappropriate just now.

The journey here was truly disgusting.

It's disgusting to put yourself in the shoes of a scumbag.

Fortunately, Lilia isn't a complete scumbag.

think about it.

The person who caused himself to fall into such a state of destitution is now living a happy life.

No matter who it is, they must be furious, right?

But she didn't even have a way to express her hatred...

Because she needs Paul, the one who hurt her, to survive...

Moreover, that bastard also put on a completely different side from the scumbag he used to be.

She doesn't even have a reason to hate anymore, does she?

Because that would make her seem like a bad person...

So... is it because of love?

I've developed feelings for that bastard Paul again...

Damn Paul!

If you're going to pretend to be a good husband, why not pretend for the rest of your life!

Can't you even withstand this little test?

Perhaps we should destroy his magic pill!

—Stinky Paul! Say goodbye to your brother!

Si...

In the original work, Rudy also seems to have done something similar, including having an affair during her pregnancy after making a vow, all because of the author's influence...

Hopefully, my buddy won't make a mistake this time.

Ugh......

Lilia is an idiot too!

Why did she have to confess to everyone in the original work?

After confessing, her proposed solution seemed to be something like going back to her hometown...

If that's the case, wouldn't it be better to just find a reason to resign and run away?

Why say it out loud?

She probably didn't want revenge or anything...

Is it because of... guilt?

She had done something wrong, but Senis still treated her like a sister every day...

She could only keep everything bottled up inside, and the more she thought about it, the worse it got.

Ultimately, he was overwhelmed by guilt.

So her confession was actually a way to get judged, which would make her feel better...

What a selfish guy.

Didn't you think about what Senis would think if she knew about this?

And now, because I haven't punished her, she's overwhelmed by guilt again and is trying to commit suicide...

What an amazing person...

I used to think you were the most normal person in the family...

As a result, he gave me a huge surprise.

So I gave her a good scolding; that might actually make her feel better.

Gee...

That's so perverted...

However, those were indeed the words I wanted to say.

Although there were some things that weren't said...

I feel wronged to stand here and say these things to a stupid woman that should have been said by someone else.

This is always the case.

Senis is pregnant and needs someone to take care of her, so it's me.

Paul can't control himself and needs someone to clean up his mess, and that's me.

That brat Rudy needs to be taught a lesson, and so do I.

There isn't a single adult in this family you can rely on.

Therefore, only I, the king, can ascend.

Therefore, every single one of these troublesome matters has become my responsibility.

I suddenly feel so tired...

The exhaustion seeps into your bones...

I just hope everyone can be happy...

But she apologized to me, finally apologized to me.

Hating someone is too tiring, so I will stop hating her.

She asked me what to do, hoping I could help her.

I want to be a king—a king who can make everyone's place right.

Therefore, I cannot refuse.

And she's not alone anymore; she's a mother now.

Lilia was still lying there weakly, her face covered in tears, her nose red from the cold, and her body trembling. Had she caught a cold?

Let's use the antidote magic on her later.

But what about later?

I will never allow her to appear before Senis and the others.

They even had to keep her pregnancy a secret.

For the time being, they might be able to settle the mother and child in the Sword Saint's Land.

A bunch of country bumpkins probably won't be able to spread any news.

So what should we do next?

Are you going to support them for the rest of their lives?

Ugh......

Little Aisha...

You are truly my dear sister...

I'll take care of you for the rest of my life...