Love's Gone

Like a big stone on the top, I held my breath and said carefully, "what did he say to you?"

Zhou Jinyang drank fiercely. He choked himself to tears. Then he let go of the tug of war with alcohol. He sank his voice: "he hasn't spoken. I've been asking if it's him. I asked three times, and he hung up."

I felt uneasy like brown sugar. I couldn't tear it smoothly. My instinctive reaction stood up: "what else? What about the back? "

Half clenched his fist, Zhou Jinyang raised his face: "this morning, there came a phone call and told me that Xiao Wei was gone. His exclusive doctor over there is gone. "

First, I stood up with an impatient voice. The next moment, I seemed to have my soul pulled out. I fell down and sat on the cold marble floor: "how could this happen?"

The tide of guilt swept with panic, and I beat my hands on the ground: "it must be because of me. It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault. I shouldn't be so tempted to see him. I shouldn't try my best to see him. I shouldn't harass him, bring him confusion and confusion, and I shouldn't appear to affect his mood. It's all my fault. It's all my fault. "

With my knees folded together, my mood completely collapsed, and I sniffed: "Grandpa, it's all my fault. I went around to inquire about Zhou Wei's position without telling you. I stole and ran to see him several times. Just yesterday, I went again. I was accidentally seen by him hanging on the fence. He had great mood fluctuations at that time, and I was not clear at that time, I didn't expect him to disappear. What to do? Will Zhou Weihui be so excited by me that he can't think about it? Shall we call the police now? You'd better call the police. Maybe he's still in Shenzhen. If anything happens to Zhou Wei, I will be a sinner forever... "

"You can rest assured that Xiaowei can't follow his father's old path. He can't commit suicide. Doran, get up first. You sit on the floor, a pile of ash. "

A few words comforted me. Zhou Jinyang's eyes were dim: "but based on my understanding of him, he made up his mind to cut off all maintenance this time. I almost searched Shenzhen without any trace. I don't know how gratified I should be. Even if my grandson Zhou Jinyang looks like a tiger falling flat, he can still control his own life. I should still regret that this child's heart is too outward and he is too cruel. He can only throw away an old man like me who is half buried. "

The five flavors were mixed. Finally, guilt and worry took the lead. I stood up and ignored the dust on my clothes. I was still unwilling to accept Zhou Wei's complete farewell. I sorted out my thoughts and said, "Grandpa, Zhou Wei called you last night. He called with his private mobile phone, didn't he? Can you tell me his current private number? I send him a message. Maybe he can figure it out and come back after reading my message. I caused this trouble. I have to fill the hole anyway. "

There was no light in his eyes. Zhou Jinyang regretted: "duo'an, you have always been a smart child. How can you only face Xiaowei with impulse and stubbornness? He clearly wants to completely cut off the past with you. If you look for him again, do you think he can respond to you?"

The heart seemed to break out of a pit, and I suddenly short circuited: "what should we do?"

"Do nothing."

With a long sigh, Zhou Jinyang said, "since Xiao Wei has made a choice, respect him, let him live freely and freely in the way he wants, and let him get free. I treated the child badly. I don't want to compete with him anymore. I don't want to compete with him again for my desire to have my children and grandchildren filial piety. "

After a pause, Zhou Jinyang's voice was very low: "duo'an, please be Grandpa. Since Xiaowei's determination has nothing to do with you, let him go. You're still young and have another way to go. Don't get stuck in this stubble. Don't bother to find him. You live your own life. "

Like thunder exploding in my heart and brain at the same time, my mind became a pot of paste, and my brain was in a mess. There was only a buzzing sound. I was numb for a while, and only a little energy returned to my body. These thin reasons supported me to hold back my tears and prompted me to agree with Zhou Jinyang: "I know."

Press the mouth of the bottle very low. Zhou Jinyang filled the two cups with wine respectively. He picked up my cup and handed it to me: "come on, Doran, let's have another drink. After drinking this cup, don't look back, go forward and look forward. Live your little life and be good to yourself. Your fate with Xiaowei can't continue. You have to learn to accept the reality, you know. "

Bury my face, I squeezed a light "um" from my throat, and I said slowly, "I'll adjust well, but I'll come to see you from time to time."

Waving his hand, Zhou Jinyang said in a quiet and long tone: "duo'an, I've lived in Shenzhen for more than 60 years. I'm tired of it and see through it. When I went to Tianlu a few years ago, I wanted to change my mood, but I was still worried about Xiaowei and wanted to look at him. I didn't take good care of him. I'm getting old now, and there's nothing I can't think of. Now Xiaowei is estimated not to be in Shenzhen. I don't have to stay here. I think Singapore is good. Xiaoyun is also there. I went there. Xiaoyun can sometimes play cards with me. She hasn't talked to anyone yet. I can help in the past, See if you can find a good partner for her. I'll leave the day after tomorrow. I shouldn't come back to Shenzhen. "

It's like something exploding in my heart, startling the solitude and full of disappointment on the ground. I have some loss that I can't hide, and happily spilled out: "Oh, you're all going to leave. Well, you're all going to leave."

Zhou Jinyang smiled in a faint voice: "actually, I know Xiao Yun is not Zhou Tianquan's own flesh and blood. But what's the matter? Zhou Tianquan and Tianlu are still flesh and blood. In the end, they don't turn over and become enemies. Look at Xiao Wei and Zhou Tianquan. They are a father and son, but in the end, they can't dispel their grievances. I can see that the so-called connection between flesh and blood can bring inseparable family affection. Of course, it is good, but if there is no connection between flesh and blood, it can also be tied with family affection. "

I can only be dry: "Grandpa, what time do you fly the day after tomorrow? I'll see you off."

Waving his hand again, Zhou Jinyang staggered to his feet. He took the crutch I hurriedly picked up and handed to him. He stabbed the ground: "don't toss around, I'm not a child. I have to be a lively farewell scene. Doran, go and go back. "

He kept taking me to the gate outside the yard. Zhou Jinyang waved me to drive again. Dai Lianghui started the car with me. I looked back. The car was getting farther and farther away. I could still see the old tears on Zhou Jinyang's face.

Suddenly my nose was sour and my tears burst out.

I trapped myself at home and slept for two days. On the day Zhou Jinyang set out, I went out to his house at 5 a.m., but I still threw myself into the air.

Before, the courtyard filled with flowers and plants and full of vitality was empty. Only the scattered weeds in the floor gap were opposite me, and the once magnificent door was wide open. I could see that it was also so empty at a glance.

Stumbled inside and saw that the hall was in a mess. I ran upstairs to see that the room where Zhou Wei had lived was also cleaned up.

Sitting on the floor, I felt as if I had been abandoned by the whole world.

Zhou Wei disappeared, and his grandfather decided to leave, so the more unlikely Zhou Wei would come back to Shenzhen to find his roots, I began to wonder how I should cross my feet.

I sat still for almost two hours. When the light became more and more warm and the temperature slowly increased, I came out of the once luxurious but little by little warm house. I walked repeatedly along the greenway of the community for dozens of times. I went straight to the bottom of my feet to blister before I stopped these self abusive stupid behaviors.

I sat in a coffee shop outside Chunshui bank until the sun set. I drove out quietly. I forced to call Ma Xiaoyan, Liu Gang and Zhang Xiaomei.

After all, they have contributed to all my victories. I must at least find them to have a meal or something. It's a celebration and an end to those days of war.

More importantly, I'm afraid of being alone.

I'm afraid I'll be driven crazy by those ideas.

After breaking with Xie Wei and saying goodbye, Liu Gang's whole state was much better. He could change the style of straight men of steel. He took the initiative to pick up Ma Xiaoyan and Zhang Xiaomei.

In order to let the big guys go crazy, I squandered my pride and wrapped up the whole barbecue shop, so there was only us in the whole open shop.

Ma Xiaoyan and Liu Gang did not make complaints about it. I didn't want to do this by Zhang Xiaomei. I could not even see a handsome brother.

Zhang Xiaomei make complaints about Tucao's Tucao, and she seems to make complaints about it.

The venue is quiet and naturally suitable for chatting.

With a new plan, Ma Xiaoyan said she doesn't want to work for others. She plans to take out the money she has saved in recent years to open a small clothing store in Fenggang, Dongguan, so that she can live a fairy day of watching TV and drinking tea every day.

As for Zhang Xiaomei, she said that she is more and more comfortable with her current work. She will still stay in the UN General Assembly and continue to struggle to make money. She will strive to meet a rich, handsome person who can cherish her in death within two years.

Or he was warmly infected by Ma Xiaoyan and Zhang Xiaomei. Liu Gang rarely joined the discussion. He said he would still work hard in the next five years, first establish a stable career, and then start a family.

I have been quietly listening to them with my glass, and then I suddenly have a mixture of sadness and joy.

I'm glad that they are so clear about their future, and I'm sad about their current situation.

I still insisted on not letting myself fall into depression. I pretended nothing had happened and waited for the end of the party. After seeing off Zhang Xiaomei, I insisted on giving Ma Xiaoyan a bank card. She refused to push around. After my insistence, she had to take it.

Finally, Liu Gang and I were left. He proposed that he call Daijia to take me back first. I agreed.

When I got to the door of my house, I shook down from the car. I looked up. I easily saw that the Buddha beads taken care of by Zhou Wei had grown a lot on the balcony. They were full of green and hung in the night. They hit my eyes and made my state of mind desolate at the same time.

Two days ago, the children of aunt Zhong's hometown sisters got married. I gave her a week off. Now I don't want to stay alone in that empty house.

Holding the door, I said to Liu Gang, "Xiao Liu, come in and sit for a while. I have something to tell you."

Put the agreement prepared by the assistant in advance in front of him, and I said, "I promised you that I would allocate 1% of the shares to you. However, my shares have not been moved for one year since Zhou Wei, so I asked someone to make an agreement. I have signed it, and you have signed it, in duplicate, one for each of us, with legal effect. As soon as next year comes, if I haven't fulfilled my promise, you can take this to protect your rights. "

After taking it, Liu Gang just glanced through it for a while. He suddenly crossed the direction with his hands and tore the two agreements into thin pieces. He quickly threw them into the trash can. He said calmly: "Miss Liu, in fact, I am very satisfied with the current situation. You let me return to my original position a while ago and adjusted my salary and benefits, I'm very satisfied that you have increased me by 15% on the original basis. I think I'm just fine. That's what Mr. Zhou left you. I'd better not take it. "

A little surprised, I can't believe it: "don't you?"

"No."

Shaking his head quickly, Liu Gang smiled: "during this period of time, I got many opportunities from Miss Liu and found a lot of sense of belonging and identity. As expected, I am still more suitable for the job of general assistant."

After stopping for a few seconds, Liu Gang spoke slowly: "Miss Liu, do you have anything else to find me?"

Well, I tried my best to keep my voice steady: "Zhou Wei is missing. I don't know where he has gone. I can't Buddha up to comfort myself. As long as he lives healthily in a corner of the world, I still want to know his news, where he has gone, and how the weather is in his place. In short, I just want to know. Can you help me find a way? You have been with Zhou Wei for many years. I think only you know his social circle best. "

His eyes could not deceive people. Liu Gang was affected by this. He frowned for a moment and slowly said, "yes, I can inquire about Mr. Zhou's classmates and friends."

Liu Gang said cautiously, "but Miss Liu, don't hold too much hope. I know Mr. Zhou's temperament. If he deliberately wants to cut off all maintenance, he is unlikely to leave clues. He is almost impossible to have any contact with old acquaintances. "

I was dejected: "I know. Thank you for your trouble first."

"Miss Liu, it's very kind of you."

Liu Gang straightened his face. He suddenly turned his words: "to tell you the truth, I always want to thank you. You broke the matter between me and Xie Wei early. You didn't disclose the information you have to Zhou Tianquan. No matter what your considerations were, at least your practice benefited me a lot. So, Miss Liu, you are kind to me both in public and private. You don't have to be so polite. "

It's rare that the conversation box is very open. Liu Gang's voice is shallow: "besides, I have also lost Mr. Zhou's trust. I can make up for my mistakes from you, which makes me relax myself. Miss Liu, you don't need so many restrictions and politeness as long as you need me in the future, whether it's business or private."

Standing up, Liu gangchao bowed to me. He said, "Miss Liu, it's not early. I'll withdraw first. What you said, I'll start rolling out tomorrow."

I don't want to pretend to be the only one about Zhou Wei. I have to participate in it to ensure that I can seize any small opportunity. I should: "it's better, Xiao Liu, or you can sort out the basic information and contact information of Zhou Wei. I think it's more sincere for me to visit and inquire one by one. Of course, there is no need for Wang Heng, Luo Zhizhong and Deng Junying. I can contact them by myself. Well, you go back early and have a rest. "

Seeing Liu Gang off and closing the door, I immediately turned on the computer. I first sent an email to Wang Heng. I wanted to call Deng Junying, but as soon as I saw that it was not early, I held back my hand and thought about looking for her again tomorrow.

Exhausted, I lay in bed and turned off the light. In the dark, I was sleepless. I just stared at the white ceiling and couldn't get away from the darkness.

Suddenly, the mobile phone screen I put aside lit up, and then a hasty bell came into my ear.

I jumped and sat up like a carp. I looked at the string of mobile phone numbers that seemed to come from a foreign country. I was stunned for a few seconds before I woke up like a dream.