Love's Gone

Indeed, he seems to have completely forgotten me. Zhou Wei has no waves in front of me. His eyes are full of peace and tranquility. His voice is as gentle as when he first met him. He speaks English to me. I can only understand what he calls me.

I couldn't stand the feeling of being separated from him. I tried my best to support myself. I said, "my English is not very good. Can I speak Chinese?"

Nodding, Zhou weiding looked at me: "Miss, did I hurt you? If so, I can take you to the doctor's department for help. "

I couldn't take my eyes away from him. I saw his solemnity and his sincerity to seek reconciliation in my eyes. I had to accept that Zhou Wei didn't remember me. For the time being, I had no time to pay attention to the overwhelming sadness and bitterness in my heart. I wanted to meet him too much, and I wanted to maintain with him again, so I said, "I'm fine, I just think you look like a friend who has lost contact with me for a long time. I just saw you and touched a lot. I can't help laughing at you for a moment. "

"Really?"

Suddenly, as innocent as an innocent child, Zhou Wei touched his increasingly thin face: "maybe it's because I have a public face."

How nice he is now. He looks so calm, so friendly, and so easy to be satisfied. He smiles. It's really nice.

I haven't seen him smile from his heart for a long time.

He looked at me like this. It was obviously no different from normal people. His only regret was that he forgot me.

The more sour my nose is, I need to smoke constantly in order to restrain the lacrimal glands that still want to play madly. I smile in my tears: "no, the public face always refers to the ordinary face. You look so handsome and are not in this line."

"Really?"

It was another uncertain question. Zhou Wei suddenly raised her feet and said, "Miss, if you're okay, let's talk here. I have other things to do."

I'm afraid he disappeared out of thin air and followed suit: "Sir, it's rare to meet my compatriots in a foreign country. I'm not familiar here and my English is not good. Would you please take me around?"

Slightly embarrassed, Zhou Wei finally nodded: "it's OK, but I can only walk with you for a while."

These words stabbed my already fragmented heart. I buried my face and nodded to hide myself: "OK, thank you so much."

After walking side by side with him for about 50 meters, I saw Zhou Wei keep silent. After several tangles, I said, "Sir, let's introduce ourselves to each other? My name is Liu Duoan, and you? "

Suddenly there was a thin layer of confusion on his face. Zhou Wei shouted several times like a repeater: "Liu duo'an? Liu Duoan? Liu Duoan..... The name..... "

Looking at his elongated tone, he suddenly got stuck there. My heart beat faster and beat faster. I trembled: "is this name familiar to you?"

"No. I just remember that I have a friend whose surname is also Liu. It's a coincidence that I've been here so long and met many Chinese people. You're the only one surnamed Liu. "

But it was very neat to send me back to the desperate situation. Zhou Wei grinned: "Hey, don't you ask my name?"

I'd like to ask Zhou Wei if the friend you said is Liu Gang, but I'm too afraid to arouse his vigilance. I can only swallow this into my throat. I follow his train of thought: "can you tell me your name?"

Suddenly he showed me the sign wrapped around his wrist. Zhou Wei poked a line of small words on it with his finger: "see, my name is salted egg Superman. Here is only my name, which is the most distinctive. "

Following his direction, when my eyes touched those small and exquisitely carved characters, my heart was full of bitterness and astringency, occupying a large area. I took a deep breath and suppressed the wave that was about to defeat me. I pretended to be interested and asked, "it's very distinctive. How do you call this name? It's the first time I've seen someone use this name."

This is Zhou Wei. He took out the photo album that I had seen him carry every time before.

He opened it in front of me, and Zhou Wei pointed to the picture above: "see, this is what I look like after my transformation. Although I look like an ordinary person now, as long as the time is right, I will turn into this. After my transformation, I will be particularly strong. I can destroy monsters and protect anyone I want to protect. I'm good. "

I looked at it again. There was indeed a superman picture hanging on it at the moment, but under the picture, the tob of the album clearly had some traces of being opened and torn, and there was a small piece covered by a ballpoint pen.

I remember this album.

Before Zhou Wei left me, he sat next to me. At that time, he carefully posted the photos he took for me one by one. He also wrote down my name neatly with a pen.

The place covered with ballpoint pens was once the place where my name was placed. Now, my name is nowhere in his world, and my photos have disappeared.

Even if the man in front of me seems to have been injected with a new soul, he has abandoned all about me and his past, and I am still so eager to approach him again and integrate into him, but I lose power when I open my mouth, and I cough when I open my mouth. I cough with tears to ease up a little. I am still stubborn and say, "Mr. salted egg Superman, Can you show me your photo album? I'm very attracted by your valiant appearance when you change. "

Suddenly a little shy smile, Zhou Wei handed it to me: "it's rare that you know how to appreciate me. Take it."

This thick skinned photo album is heavily pressed in my hand, but it seems that it can cross thousands of rivers and mountains, which has pressed my heart. I am about to suffocate. I can only find a little peace by opening it quickly.

The more than 20 photo layers in the back, without exception, are empty or the same. The places where my name is written are obliterated by the random and profound lines of the ball point pen.

Biting my lips, I seem to have spent all my strength to close the album. I slowly handed it back to Zhou Wei: "Mr. salted egg Superman, I have a hero complex since I was young. I admire Superman, spider man and so on. Can I make friends with you?"

Frowning, Zhou Wei suddenly condensed me. After half a ring, he shook his head: "No."

My heart and liver trembled and my voice became restrained: "why, I..."

"You look so good."

He grabbed his hair with his hand, and Zhou Wei smiled shyly: "most beautiful women are unreliable. If they can stay away, they will stay away, otherwise they will be easy to be beaten."

I think I must be crazy.

At this moment, I had an impulse in my heart. I thought that he had completely abandoned the past anyway. Can I turn around and turn into someone else and have another new encounter with him?

Trying to squeeze a smile, I stretched out my hand and pulled my hair back lazily. I said, "handsome boy, how about making a friend? I think I'm destined for you."

After being quiet for a while, Zhou Weileng quickly retreated. He suddenly became vigilant: "who are you? Are you a bad person? You have a purpose to cheat me? "

I was already shadowed by his sudden emotional changes. I was at a loss. I was in a hurry: "Zhou... No, Mr. salted egg Superman, don't get excited. I just think you look handsome. You look like my friend. I can't get in touch with him. I'm affected by some emotions when I see you. Don't worry. You don't want to make friends, Then let's not pay... "

Still not moved by my nonsense, Zhou Wei suddenly disliked it and rubbed the album with his sleeves. Then he walked straight ahead.

Where am I willing to give up this time with him, I follow suit.

No, Zhou Wei found me following. He stopped: "don't follow me anymore, or I'll call the police."

Thinking of Liu Duohui repeatedly telling me not to make trouble, I was very afraid. Zhou Wei really did something. Don't look back. I was put on the blacklist and couldn't get in again. I was at a loss for a moment, and Zhou Wei walked more and more. He was farther and farther away from me.

Looking at his increasingly thin and emaciated back, it seemed that I had knocked over a few barrels of vinegar in my nose, and the acid was wanton. I managed to stop my tears, and it ran out to show off my weakness.

I was crying like a fool, and Zhou Wei stopped.

It seems to be hesitation. Zhou Wei turned around. He came slowly to me again for a while. He took it out of his pocket. He took out a small bag of paper towels and handed it to me: "you just stayed with me. You cry so badly. Don't let people mistakenly think it's me. Wipe it."

I was afraid that if my mood was too full, he would feel uncomfortable again and try to avoid it. I choked a few times and tried my best to suppress myself from choking again. I took the paper towel, randomly took out two buckles and spun them in my eye nest. I didn't return the rest to Zhou Wei. I just put them in my pocket.

Thoughtfully, Zhou Wei looked at me with a look. His voice was shallow: "are you a liar?"

I put my hand on my chest. I still couldn't stop my heart from breaking. I almost squeezed two words from my throat: "No."

"Well, I don't think you look like a liar, but you must have lied to me."

Holding his chin in his hand, Zhou Wei suddenly showed a pure and brilliant smile: "you say I look like a friend of yours. In fact, that's not an ordinary friend, right? He must be very close to you, or he means a lot to you."

The barren heart was desolate, and I echoed: "you guessed right, he is more important to me than my life."

"Well, that's a little too much. You must first cherish yourself, and the rest of your strength is to care about others. "

The smile gradually opened wider. Zhou Wei said, "I have felt your enthusiasm to make friends with me, but I don't want to be a substitute for anyone. I wish you to find your lost friend as soon as possible."

I opened my mouth, but I was stunned that I couldn't spit out a word. I could only stand in front of Zhou Wei as quiet as a down-to-earth sculpture like a poor man who had just lost his language function.

Raised his wrist and looked at his watch. Zhou Wei was slightly sorry: "I'm going to class at o'clock. Bye."

It was as if I had just woke up from a prosperous virtual dream. I only took a step towards him with my consciousness. My brain was pumping. I stretched out my hand: "Mr. salted egg Superman, can you give me a hug? A blessing hug, okay? "

The corners of his mouth smoked slightly. Zhou Wei hesitated and tangled for a while. This has completely forgotten me. This seems to have changed back to the man who first met the pure young man. He may not bear to see my hands hanging in the wind. He finally spread out his hands. He raised his shoulders unnecessarily: "well, I bless you."

I can't believe it. I stopped for more than ten seconds before slowly leaning towards him. My whole person fell into his arms like a disconnected kite.

He is much thinner than before. The bone on his elbow hurts me.

But I am still willing to indulge in this not particularly beautiful hug, but Zhou Wei failed to give me this opportunity.

He put his hands on my shoulders, pushed me away, and took two steps back: "goodbye, Miss Liu Duoan."

In fact, I hate myself for trying hard to keep him.

But I was still obsessed and continued to do things like dragging him down.

Still brazenly followed his steps, I said, "Mr. salted egg Superman, can you sit in on your class? I'm just fine. I want to find something to pass the time."

"The class is in English. Miss Liu Duoan, you can't speak English. You can't understand it when you go. "

It can be seen that Zhou Wei has been a little impatient, but his self-restraint deeply buried in his bones makes him face me politely: "Miss Liu Duoan, I really have to go."

Without giving me time to speak, Zhou Wei walked faster and faster. He pulled away from me by leaning on his long legs. He soon walked into a building with access control. I chased up and was stopped by the security personnel in front of the door before I reached the door.

Being completely cut off, I can only watch Zhou Wei turn a corner and completely disappear in my vision.

Looking at the time, it is almost the same as the point agreed between Liu Duohui and me. Now I'm a little far from the agreed place. I'm afraid I'll really delay the time. Next time I can't get in again. I can only pick up my messy mood and trot all the way.

Even if I ran out of breath, I was complained by Liu Duohui. She meant that I had no sense of time.

From the hospital, Wang Heng watched Liu Duohui not make complaints about me again. He picked up and asked, "Liu Duoan, have you seen Chow TSE?"

Confused with a large group of hemp balls rolling in it, I nodded and perfunctorily said, "well, yes."

Wang Heng suddenly got excited: "ah? Did you see it? You're lucky enough to buy lottery tickets. What's the matter? Do you know you, Mr. Zhou? He should know you, right? I haven't seen him for months. He took the initiative to hold you and cried bitterly. Did he tell you the pain of missing? "

I stepped up: "he doesn't remember me anymore. Completely forgotten. "

Suddenly stopped, and Wang Heng was about to turn around: "then I have to go back and try to see if he can remember me? If he wants to remember me, I'll kill him. He's so good that he can't even remember his daughter-in-law. What's he going to do? "

Before I spoke, Liu Duohui kicked Wang Heng hard: "shut up!"

After mending a few feet and cleaning up Wang Heng, Liu Duohui turned to me. Her face was still light and her tone was relaxed: "three months later, it's also today. If you want to see him, I can help you thread a needle."

Looking back at the tightly sealed buildings, I intertwined my eyes with Liu Duohui: "Duohui, can there be another way for me to come in every day?"

"No more. As far as I know, the hospital used to allow volunteers to enter. Later, after the events that volunteers affected the treatment process of patients, the hospital strengthened its management and completely rejected the voluntary assistance from the outside world. "

Don't look away from me. Liu Duohui said in a faint tone: "Liu Duoan, not everyone is me, not everyone who has experienced schizophrenia can return to the normal track of life. Like my experience, it is really an extremely small case. I've been ill for a long time, and I'm not afraid to pour cold water on you. Zhou Wei's condition has developed rapidly and completely forgotten his close lover in just a few months. He is particularly serious. You're just an ordinary person. Don't think of yourself as iron man. That's all I have to say. In short, next time you come, I can help thread the needle, but I personally don't agree with your behavior of hanging from a tree. "

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After dinner, Liu Duohui said she had something else to do. She floated away like a wind.

Watching Liu Duohui get into the taxi, Wang Heng holds the door. He tilts his face: "Liu Duoan, your sister is cooler than you. That temper is also hot and hot."

My mood has been adjusted. I feel that Liu Duohui's eyes are too sticky. I can only throw a brick and attract jade: "Wang Heng, I'll tell you, don't think about which one is going to provoke Liu Duohui, or I'll kill you."

"Provoke a ball."

Wang Heng shook his shoulders: "Huihui is very beautiful, and her character is also to my appetite. But she is your sister after all. If I really want to start with her, I'm sure I want to have a future with her. You put away your spare time worrying about eating radishes. You might as well make time to think about what you should do in the future. "

Turning his head and glancing at the gate of the hospital, Wang Heng took out a cigarette and sandwiched it between his fingers: "as a brother of Childe Zhou, I'm very happy to see a woman who can love him deeply and never give up, but this woman is you, and I'm not happy to get up again. Liu duo'an, you're just an ordinary girl. You have to accept this reality. You've seen childe Zhou, He doesn't recognize you. You can't pinch the time to visit him every three months for the rest of your life and be abused by his strange resistance again and again. You can try to go out and have a look. The world is still very big, and feelings can be changeable. There must be more than one person suitable for you in this world. You can also fall in love with all kinds of people successively. Liu duo'an, you don't have to be stubborn, really. "

I stopped at the back of the car. Then I leaned back against the car and looked up at the heavily guarded front. I gathered my hair scattered by the wind: "have you just been deaf? Haven't you heard Duohui say that she was lost once, and now she can't return to the mainstream life. Duohui can. Zhou Wei must be able. He is as tough as Duohui... "

"Then you must be deaf, too. I clearly also heard sister Hui Hui say that her situation is only an extremely small case and can not be used as a representative case. "

After interrupting me, Wang Heng lit a cigarette: "well, it's not early. I have to go back to Toronto. What are your arrangements? Do you want to go to Toronto to eat, drink and have fun for a few days? Then I'll book a ticket for you there to fly to China. How about it?"

I didn't move: "no, I'll stay here for a few more days."

Wang Heng frowned: "Liu duo'an, even if you are here, you still can't get in. You're not going to pick the fence again, are you? Let me tell you, if you really dig the fence here, you will be arrested in ten minutes. "

I still want to talk. Wang Heng suddenly came over. He grabbed my sleeve and pulled me forward a few steps. He stuffed me into the car: "walk, walk, if you don't want to go to Toronto, I'll take you to the airport now. You hurry back to your big Shenzhen."

After being pushed by Wang Heng, I knocked my head a few times. There was a slight pain. I rubbed it with my hand. I finally found an outlet to vent my sullen anger. I stared at Wang Heng: "your uncle, you almost shaved my head. Besides, don't stick at the door. I'm going out! Get out of the way! I don't want to go back to Shenzhen! "

After taking two mouthfuls of smoke, Wang Heng choked it out and wrapped it with a paper towel. He threw a glance at me. He said lightly: "Liu duo'an, if you can listen to me, leave this broken place now. I can share with you what the childe called me two months ago next week."

This hit my point in an instant, and I immediately stopped pushing and pulling the door with Wang Heng: "did Zhou Wei call you? Two months ago? Then why didn't you tell me before? "

"People's childe Zhou called me. Why should I tell you. Just because you look good? But I can't get your beauty, so you still have nothing to do with it. "

Seeing that I had been nailed there like a fixed body method, Wang Heng let go of the door and sat on the cab: "do you want to come and take the co driver? Let's get closer and it's convenient to chat."

In fact, the sealing degree of this hospital is better than that of Shenzhen. Even if I stay in Ottawa, I am not familiar with my life and my English is weak, I can't mix in to find Zhou Wei. I might as well go back to Shenzhen first. I'll find Liu Gang and see if he can give me a chance to go in again, I'd better go back and mend some basic English. I can be less cramped next time.

After all, this is a protracted war. I want to have a good time. Naturally, I have to pay more attention to prepare.

Decisively get out of the car, I jumped up to the co driver and fastened my seat belt: "OK, you can say it."

Slowly starting the car, Wang Heng glanced at me: "I can't brew it first or what."

Anxious, but I can also know that Wang Heng clearly doesn't agree with me sticking to Zhou Wei. I'm afraid I'll be too impatient and sell me off with his urine performance, so I'm patient: "OK, you organize first."

The car passed two intersections. When I was about to go crazy, Wang Heng finally said, "childe Zhou, should you call me on the 7th or 8th of last month. At that time, I was talking about my life with a Russian chick. Childe Zhou called me with a global code. As soon as I saw that I belonged to Shenzhen, I immediately left the chick's phone first. When he just spoke, I was stunned that I didn't recognize his voice. "

I still can't hold my breath: "the bedding can be less and talk about the key points directly."

Wang Heng threw me a white eye: "my speaking style is like that. If you don't like listening, I don't like talking."

The heart is like a cat scratching, I can only smile shamelessly: "I'm wrong, you continue to say."

"You should be so humble!"

With a positive look, Wang Heng looked ahead: "I knew it was him. I was excited and asked him where he was hiding. Childe Zhou always avoided any of my questions. He talked to me a few times with normal thinking, and then he asked me coldly who Liu duo'an is. He said that he just slept. He found a picture of a strange woman in his album. The name Liu Duoan was written in the blank of the album without exception. He was very inexplicable. He didn't know if it was someone's prank. At the same time, he was not sure, so he called me. "

At the thought of the photo album Zhou Wei showed me not long ago, the place where my photo was pasted has been blank, and the location of my name has been ruthlessly erased. My inner taste is indescribable. I stayed for a while to restrain the bitterness pouring out of my mouth: "then, how do you answer him?"

Wang Heng didn't face my problem directly for the first time. Wang Heng thought to himself: "I think when childe Zhou called me, he had gradually forgotten the fact that he was ill. He may also be affected by drugs. He has many perplexities and hallucinations. He has slowly separated himself from reality. I asked a professional doctor later. This is a sign that my condition is getting worse. "

My mood was wandering at the bottom of the valley, and now I fell into a more dark abyss. I was silent for a long time, but I could only answer a simple word: "Oh."

Wang Heng's voice was low for several degrees: "at that time, I just relied on my instinct. Since he wanted to selectively forget some people and things, I should comply with him, so I told him that it was really a prank and a joke I made with him. Facts have proved that I consulted a professional doctor later, and the doctor said that my response at that time was more regular. "

When Wang Heng lowered his eyes and looked at me, "so Liu duo'an, you know what I want to express. There is no doubt that childe Zhou once loved you deeply, but according to my understanding of him, he also suffered a lot of pressure in his relationship with you. He may not be able to get out of his hurt and disappointments to you. Only then did he want to escape and take you as the first forgotten object from the beginning. I advise you, it is true that your deep feelings and persistence are enough to move others and yourself, but your deep feelings have become a burden on childe Zhou. If you intersect with him again, I think it will do no good to his illness. Why don't you let go for a while, give him a glimmer of life and give yourself a life. Of course, I just suggest that you think about how to do it yourself. That's all I say. "

The heart is like being tossed and stirred in a blender. The taste of tearing and breaking pain makes me suffocate. In this uncomfortable state, my brain is an inspiration. Those dark ditches and gullies that are blocked in my body and can not be crossed seem to be washed beyond recognition by the heavy rain in an instant, and I can no longer trap myself in that small selfish box.

I'm still very sorry that I became the person Zhou Wei tried my best to forget, and I still can't accept the result that he and I have almost really ended up, but after learning from the pain, I finally found a temporary reason from the confusion. I think I'm good for Zhou Wei, It's time for me to start learning to thoroughly sort out and restrain my excessive spillover emotions.

I rubbed it with my hand. I don't know if it's really painful or if I mistook it for a dead throat. I said in a low voice, "OK, I see. I'll consider your suggestion."

When Wang Heng glanced at me again, he whispered, "Liu duo'an, I'm not trying to comfort you. Personally, I am very optimistic about you and childe Zhou. You are a good match. Please also believe me. To the extent that childe Zhou cares about you, if he is as lucky as your sister Huihui one day and he can save himself from his ignorance, he will take the initiative to find you. In fact, if you can't put it down, you might as well give everything to time. I always think so. Many times we can't solve problems for a while. Time will bring calm and answers. It's rare for me to be so abstruse. Just listen. "

I straightened my waist and said, "well."

After taking me to the airport, Wang Heng didn't know where he came from. He actually got me the first flight. He took me to the security checkpoint. Then he stood straight and waved to me. The bustling exotic scenery behind him hurt my eyes. I boarded the plane.

When I landed in Shenzhen, I quietly picked up my luggage and came out. I deliberately went to the drop off point where I took Zhou Wei to pick up Xie Wei that year. Then I guided the taxi driver to the affordable ice cream shop along the track vaguely remembered in my brain. I also studied Zhou Wei's original appearance and carefully read the whole meal card, Finally, I ordered all kinds of ice cream.

With my left hand dragging the suitcase and my right arm hanging full of ice cream, I ignored the thick blood marks on my arm. I walked all the way, ate all the way and cried all the way.

When I got home, it was late at night. I stuffed the rest of the ice cream into the refrigerator and fell into bed without taking off my socks, hoping to stay up all night.

However, early the next morning, I got up. I went to wanmeng first, then checked more than a dozen documents to make sure everything was safe as usual, and then I wandered out of the company.

I went to see Ma Xiaoyan.

The location of her shop was very good. In addition, Ma Xiaoyan's eyes were wandering to get the goods. Her business was good. I sat on the bench for a while. Seeing that she was too busy, I went up to help the guests get their clothes and collect them.

It was almost six o'clock. Seeing that there were guests coming in, Ma Xiaoyan hurriedly pulled the gate. She locked the door and said to me, "sister, it's rare for you to come here. I closed the stall earlier today and I'll take you to eat a special stone pot fish."

Her sister shouted so warmly that I was often in a trance. Liu Duohui, who was only a teenager, was calling me.

Finally, we ate the fish and drank the beer. We all had some brains. Ma Xiaoyan suggested walking. I grabbed a can of beer with her and shook the road.

Coldly, Ma Xiaoyan said, "sister, I may be in love soon."

"Ah? With whom? "

After Yu Jie's Waterloo, I was deeply worried about Ma Xiaoyan. I became nervous when she mentioned it.

Ma Xiaoyan wiped the hops on the corner of her mouth: "it's my junior high school classmate, Zhong Hanming. In the past, they liked each other in junior high school, but they were still young at that time. It's also fate. A few days ago, several students came to Dongguan and made an appointment. He was also in that line. Later, several other students said to me that the so-called coming to play with me was Zhong Hanming's game. He had struggled for so many years and bought a car and a house in Huizhou. He thought he had a foundation before he dared to provoke me. I contacted him and he was at least more reliable than Yu Jie. "

"No matter who you choose in the end, you should protect yourself."

I stared at the front: "if he wants to be nice to you, he'd better have a healthy body, so that you can be white headed all your life."

Well, Ma Xiaoyan carefully pinched it: "sister, did you see Mr. Zhou this time?"

Nodded, I raised my foot and kicked a small stone nearby: "he's fine."

Or seeing that I looked wrong, Ma Xiaoyan kept silent at the right time.

After drinking the wine in her hand, Ma Xiaoyan originally proposed to find a Shiduo shop to buy some more cans to drink. Considering that she had to open a shop early tomorrow morning, I half persuaded and half used violence to send her home.

Walking alone in the cold street, I held my head with my hand and looked around. Suddenly, my brain was excited. As soon as my head was hot, I took out my mobile phone and called Liu Duoming: "did you sleep? Do you have mung bean soup at home? "

The head was stunned. Liu Duoming's voice trembled: "yes, there are many. ANN, do you want to drink?"

I looked forward and said, "drink, I'll be there in about an hour."

Relying on his faint memory, he groped downstairs to Liu Duoming. He had been waiting there. He was still holding a semi brand-new down jacket in his hand. He greeted him: "Ann, your sister-in-law said it was cold and asked me to bring you a dress. Don't you wear it."

After a moment of hesitation, I took it.

It's so late. Huang Fang, Yu Wangying and bean paste bags are all awake. They stand on both sides. It's like a lane to welcome me.

It must have been cooked in a hurry. The mung bean soup was still steaming. I scooped a spoonful and threw it into my mouth. It was warm and sweet.

The bean paste bag leaned over timidly, and his voice was a little milky: "aunt... Is it delicious?"

I touched his head and said, "it's delicious."

He then pasted a note to me: "can you come often in the future? When you come, cook sweet soup at home and I can have some tomorrow. "

I reached out to pick him up and sat him on my lap. Then I put my hand around his waist. He was so thin that I didn't need much effort to sit there. I said calmly, "well, I'll come often."

I drank the bowl of mung bean soup as quickly as possible. I looked at the bean paste bag that had been sitting opposite me and eating by myself. I opened the bag and took out a stack of cash that Liu Gang brought me in the morning and put it on the table. I stood up: "in the future, I'll come to dinner every Saturday night. I don't have to prepare specially. I'll eat what you eat, Here's the board. I'll go first. "

He also stood up in a panic. Huang Fang was a little restrained: "you child, what money do you take for dinner at home. Doming, you hurry to give Ansai the money. "

I said goodbye and waved to stop Liu Duoming's action: "I didn't want to take the money I can take away. With the rest of the money, buy some delicious food for the bean paste bag. "

Liu Duoming also wanted to refuse. I walked to the door and looked at Huang Fang: "I saw Liu Duohui two days ago. She is very good now. That's it. I'll go. "

Behind him, there was silence. After about half a minute, suddenly there was a heart rending cry.

I don't know whether Huang Fang's cry was a relief of relief or a guilt of being dug into the pain again, but I didn't look back.

Sometimes life is like this. It must have a clear context and allow confusion to exist. Who doesn't have to be clear from time to time and occasionally confused, so that the day can go down without Xu.

Later, I took the time to make an appointment with Zhang Xiaomei for dinner, and then took a few days off from my work plan. I took a few sets of clothes and went straight to Zhuhai to eat and drink with Deng Junying.

She gave birth to a big fat boy.

Luo Zhizhong likes it very much. He seems to be a straight steel man who doesn't move in the wind and rain. He devotes all his iron tenderness to the child. In Deng Junying's words, he looks at the child with cotton candy in his eyes.

This afternoon, after putting the child to sleep, several of us sat outside in the small garden drinking beer and eating dried fruits. Luo Zhizhong had several delusions like mental weakness. He always asked, "old Deng, do you listen? Is the child awake? How can I vaguely listen and cry?"

Deng Junying took the initiative to clink a glass with me. She took a big sip of wine: "cry a hair. I didn't hear anything. Besides, my aunt isn't guarding there. What are you worried about?"

Luo Zhizhong smiled and said, "I'm not afraid of wronging my son."

The couple, completely forgetting my existence, turned on the mode of fighting against each other. Deng Junying couldn't help rolling his eyes: "well, you Luo Zhizhong, you also said that you don't value boys over girls. Shut up, son. Did I want to give birth to a female doll, so you don't hurt your daughter?"

Seriously, Luo Zhizhong couldn't stop nodding: "I really don't want to see you have a daughter."

Deng Junying kicked Luo Zhizhong's pants out a few footprints before she stopped: "scum man, son preference, your family has the throne!"

Luo Zhizhong slowly shook off the ash on his pants. He stripped Deng Junying of a Macadamia fruit: "I've told you how many times, I like my daughter, but I don't think you and I are suitable for raising girls. If you can't raise them well, my daughter will grow up and be harmed by those bastards. Now our family is a boy. No matter how bad it is, he also goes to harm other people's homes. Why can't you carry it clearly? "

Standing up, most of Deng Junying's body was about to jump into Luo Zhizhong's arms. She kept beating him: "your uncle, didn't you agree to have another daughter when your brother is older? What do you mean now?"

He smiled awkwardly at me. Luo Zhizhong threw himself into the fight against Deng Junying. He was busy: "Sheng, why not. Don't you have a brother now? Have another sister. My brother can protect my sister. Any bastard dares to make a fool of himself, doesn't he? "

I watched quietly and drank all the wine in silence.

In the distance, the sun slowly decayed, and the last afterglow stubbornly entrenched in the sky. It's really beautiful.

Breaking the plan, I bid farewell to Luo Zhizhong and Deng Junying in advance.

After I failed to save, Deng Junying beat me two times. She seemed to want to fork her waist and vomit the slot. I came, and later the child woke up crying and make complaints about her mother. She hurried away.

I traveled by car, which saved Luo Zhizhong's trouble. He only sent me out of the yard, and I waved goodbye to him.

Still, Luo Zhizhong asked me to remember to find him when I need help. It's a different feeling for me to listen to this at this moment. I can finally safely accept the revolutionary friendship boiled through the baptism of time.

I slipped through all the circles I could stir, and returned to loneliness from the carnival. I often lost my way in the deep darkness.

It was another cold night.

I stood by the window with a cup of coffee and watched many lanterns in Shenzhen turn off, leaving only a large area of darkness opposite me. I drank all the bitterness and had no other entertainment. I turned on the computer and logged in to the penguin that had been neglected by me for a long time.

As soon as the penguin came online, it made a unique cough sound when the penguin came to the new news. I clicked on those bouncing avatars, which is a new message to add friends.

It's really boring. I clicked a pass, and then clicked in to look at each other's information.

It is a newly applied QQ, which uses the old-fashioned avatar. In addition to displaying gender male, other information is unknown.

I thought it was probably a middle-aged greasy uncle. He might be confused about the current life, so he would pick up penguins to find a moment of peace from strangers.

I'm not going to help him.

I visited the QQ space of several netizens who were familiar with before but had no contact early. I was just about to drop penguin. Suddenly, this new friend sent me a message.

"Hello, beauty. I'm salted egg Superman. Are you Altman, too? I came to the earth with the mission of saving all mankind, but I lost my little partner in the process of carrying out the mission. Now I urgently need to find her. "

Salted egg Superman!

My eyes were completely filled with these words, and my brain memory poured out. I immediately remembered the man who had completely forgotten me long ago. He also solemnly said that he was called salted egg Superman!

Has everything Wang Heng said come true? Zhou Wei finally saved himself from his ignorance. Can't wait to come to me!

My fingers trembled. I tried many times before I touched the keyboard. I was very unlucky. I typed a line for half a day: "your real name is Zhou Wei?"

The chat window was blank for a long time, and finally the words came out: "it's me. Liu Duoan, I'm back. Meet you, right where we first met. "

I thought I was strong enough, but my tears came out immediately. I carried my cool arm dripping with tears: "now?"

This time it came quickly. Zhou Wei said, "yes, now."

After a few seconds, he said, "go straight to the hotel, the hotel we stayed in for the first time. It's still the original room, Liu Duoan. I want to revisit my old dream with you. "

Only a handful of water splashed tears on my face, and I drove all the way.

Downstairs of the increasingly old convenient hotel, Zhou Wei has been waiting there.

He was hundreds of times better than when I saw him last time. He had more meat on his face. He smiled as brightly as he had first seen.

I stared at him for a while. He raised his hand and waved it to me. He said, "Hi, Liu Duoan."

I also learned from him: "Hi, Zhou Wei."

Still staring at me, his eyes were red: "how are you recently, happy?"

I cried and nodded heavily.

Standing still, Zhou Wei's eyes were more red: "Liu duo'an, many people say that love is a game. Let's assume that this statement is true. Do you think you win or I win between us?"

Before I could answer, Zhou Wei put his arms on his chest and his lips faded: "I should have won. In love, it is often the party who loves too much and has no skills. And I probably don't love you enough. Otherwise, why can't I get sick in order to be white headed with you? You say, Liu Duoan. "

It was a deep and timid love. I didn't dare to break down and take too big steps to get closer to him. I had to move forward slowly: "Zhou Wei, how can people eat grain without getting sick? It's not up to people to die and die. I believe you love me more than I love you."

"No. I don't love you enough. Will let you be alone. "

With that, Zhou Wei suddenly opened his arms and wrapped them around me. He bumped me into his arms. He surrounded me like a vine again. His voice was very light like the glory of the dusk: "Liu duo'an, I will never loosen your hand for the rest of my life."

I didn't have time, um, I didn't even have time to shed tears again for the reunion after a long separation. Suddenly, the clear sky suddenly became cloudy, and the storm swept over. The narrow eaves of the hotel couldn't stop the cruel wind and rain for Zhou Wei and me, so we had to run inside hand in hand.

Zhou Wei still ran too fast. I struggled more and more. Finally, I was out of strength and my feet slipped. I was surprised, my heart beat faster and my eyes opened.

Around, there was no wind or rain, only the smooth floor reflected the cold light.

It turned out that all this was just an old dream.

Even if it is clear, even if it is deep-rooted, even if I get the long-awaited embrace with soul, when the dream wakes up, I still can't be in the dream I'm willing to stay awake.

Outside, the north wind is howling and wantonly blowing. This winter that makes me cold is not over yet.

Standing up, I lifted the curtains and opened the window. The cold wind that had been blocked for a long time passed through, blowing away my hair and the warm air inside.

I closed the window again. I lay back in bed. I said softly to Zhou Wei where I had been lying before: "good night, Zhou Wei."

Zhou Wei, good night.

All over the world, good night.

I believe that this cold winter will pass.

All the cold winter, it will pass.

The story ends here.