I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

At this moment, my cell phone, which hadn't received a call for half a year, suddenly rang. I suddenly thought of a scene from The Ring and broke out in a cold sweat.

Then I realized it was morning and picked up my phone.

It’s an unfamiliar number... It’s been ringing for so long but it doesn’t sound like a harassing call... Well, forget it, I’ll just answer it first.

"Hey, who is it?"

"Sheji, right?" Brother Nan's voice came out, "I know you are free, so come to school now. I have something to tell you."

"Hello..." Then there was the sound of the phone being hung up.

Is it common knowledge that I have a free Sunday? Although I thought it was a hassle, I immediately prepared to go out.

It didn't take much time to get to school.

"You got here pretty quickly," Brother Nan said, standing at the school gate. "I asked several people in a row, and they all said they had things to do. A few recommended you to me, saying you rarely have things to do on Sundays, so I contacted you."

"Ah, really..."

I answered without much interest, and then I guessed that the "few people" who said I was free on Sundays were probably Rinsenchuan.

"What on earth is going on?"

I tried to ask Brother Nan to estimate the energy that would be consumed.

"Just follow me and you'll find out." After saying that, he turned around and walked into the school gate.

I always feel like something bad is going to happen, I hope my intuition is wrong.

Following Brother Nan's footsteps, I came to the health room and found that I was not the only one called, but also my senior and Liu Yan.

Why have I seen Liu Yan so often recently...

"Hey, Sheji," the senior greeted me with a smile, "Great...Sheji, you are here too." Liu Yan waved to me.

"Well, hello, senior." I responded, then glanced at Liu Yan, "Why are you here too?"

"Ah... well..." Just as the two were about to explain, Brother Nan spoke up:

"It's to prepare for the training camp in a few days," Brother Nan handed us a few pieces of paper. "It lists the things we need to prepare for the training camp. You should first check the contents of this health room and the storage room upstairs. If there are any expired items like motion sickness medicine or some items not on the list, I'll trouble you to prepare them. I don't think there will be much. You can leave after you finish." After speaking, he turned around, waved, and left, leaving behind a sentence, "Keep going, kids."

It always feels so troublesome, but I still plan to show some enthusiasm:

"Well, let's check together what we need first, and then go buy what's not enough."

"How about this," the senior suggested, "I actually have a script to finish, and time is a bit tight. I'll check the infirmary first, and you guys go upstairs to check the storage room. After I'm done, I'll send the list over to you. I'll trouble you with the purchasing."

"No problem, senior." "Since you have something to do, let's do as you say."

..............

"How were you captured?"

I asked Liu Yan while verifying the items.

"Ah... because I realized I left my sheet music at the club when I rushed to meet Xiaoyou on Friday afternoon, so I ran over to get it, and I happened to run into Brother Nan."

When I heard the name Xiaoyou, the feeling of guilt suddenly became stronger.

"By the way, Xiaoyou is actually a very nice girl." I said to Liu Yan.

"Yeah, I always thought she was pretty good," Liu Yan said as he counted without looking back.

"Haven't you been together since childhood? Why don't you just apply to the same high school?"

"No reason, she got into the school she wanted to get into, and I got into the school I wanted to get into." Liu Yan replied.

The reason is so simple.

I didn't ask any more questions and continued checking the list.

"Did you have fun yesterday?" Liu Yan asked me.

"Why do you ask this suddenly?"

"I heard you say that you have a hard time fitting in, right? But didn't you have fun playing with us yesterday? Although your performance in the haunted house was a little unexpected, haha."

What? I'm not just playing with you guys... I'm just thinking about Xiaoyou and your relationship... right?

Yeah, come to think of it, I used to be resistant to amusement parks, but after I started thinking about helping Xiaoyou, I became more active and my mood improved. I even went on a roller coaster, which I never would have ridden before...

Oh, so that's how it is... It seems my guilt is not inexplicable.

It was probably because he wanted to have fun, but he used the excuse of helping others to make himself happy, and in the end he was thanked.

That's it. Because of your selfishness, you use helping others as an excuse, and in the end you are thanked but don't realize where you are wrong. This is the source of guilt.

"Huh~" I breathed a sigh of relief, feeling much more relaxed, and then answered Liu Yan:

"Yes, I really have fun playing with you guys."

The moment I realized the reason was my own selfishness, the guilt disappeared instantly.

Because I am a selfish person.

If I am still not happy, then I would be letting down my subconscious selfishness.

Abandoning virtual electronicization will cause bad things to happen

Chapter 15: Abandoning Virtual Electronics, Bad Things Will Happen

There weren't many things that needed to be counted. After finishing the topic, Liu Yan and I quickly finished the count and verified the list given to us by our predecessors.

"We're missing motion sickness medicine and some first aid medicines." I looked at the list.

"Ah, leave this to me. There's a pharmacy right next to our house," Liu Yan said, taking the list from my hand. "Okay, mission accomplished. You can go home and continue sleeping."

"Hey, I'm not so idle as to just sleep at home."

"Well," Liu Yan shrugged, "It's just a joke, don't take it seriously. Goodbye~"

"Uh-oh." I waved at him.

Although he ran away as soon as he finished speaking.

...................

The time I left the school was [10:16]

There was still some time before dinner, and I suddenly remembered that today was the release day of a comic magazine I liked, so I naturally walked into the largest bookstore in town.

I said I was here for comics, but I actually wanted to update my library. Well, erotic, of course.

Although I also think that in this era where electronic products can replace paper books, it is unwise to leave behind such concrete items that can be easily discovered.

But if life is a novel, I wouldn't be satisfied with just living it out in a virtual e-book. I want a book with its own spine, where people can see the title of my life at a glance. And when they hold it in their hands, they'll feel its weight, a weight that belongs to me.

So, even if it's a pornographic book, the moment it's printed and made into a book, it already has a mission to be held in people's hands. And then this is the moment when I feel its weight. (≧▽≦)

................

It was Sunday, and close to dinner time, so the bookstore was almost empty. This also saved me the embarrassment of buying erotic books.

What a joy.

The magazine area is near the cashier, but you can't find erotic magazines right away, so I chose to walk inside and buy comics first.

When I passed the literature area, I suddenly noticed that there were other customers there.

And it was someone I was very familiar with, my classmate and also my club leader: Rin Izumikawa.

She was wearing a light blue long-sleeved jacket. Maybe because she was a little thin, the jacket looked very loose, but it also made her look more cute. Paired with black shorts and white stockings, she looked like a junior high school student.

I hesitated for a moment whether to say hello to her, but Rinquanchuan had already noticed my footsteps and turned around.

"Oh, what a coincidence." I had no choice but to wave and greet her.

"Oh my," Rinquanchuan closed the book in his hand and put it back where it belonged. "I never thought that lower creatures would be attracted to literature... Oh my, could it be that your true form is a bug that likes to chew on books?"

The body or something...

"Of course not," I waved my hand. "Don't look at me like that. I also like reading books, especially comics."

"Oh, it seems you only understand this kind of thing with pictures and a few words."

"It's not just pictures with text, there are a lot of details involved. Don't underestimate comics." I retorted somewhat unhappily.

"Oh, I see," Rinquanchuan took another book from the bookshelf, "It seems that I am ignorant. After all, I have never been exposed to comics. It is really inappropriate to express my opinions casually like this." Then he looked at me and said: "I'm sorry, perverted classmate."

“…” I don’t know how to answer.

If I hadn't added that last sentence, I could have said "it's okay."

"Did you complete the task smoothly?" Rinquanchuan asked me while looking at the book.

It's because of you...

"Well, it's okay. There's not much to finish. I'm going to go home after buying some comics."

Rinquanchuan nodded, took his eyes off the book, looked up and asked me: "Don't you plan to buy a copy of your favorite [harmony] erotic book?"

"Of course not! Who would buy such boring things?" I couldn't help but avoid her gaze.

"Really?" Rinquanchuan turned his gaze back to the book and turned a page. "I thought you would hide the erotic book under the bed."

"How could that be? That would be the easiest way to be discovered."

"Oh my, have you ever experienced this?"

"Not really." I felt I couldn't continue. It would only lead to awkward conversations. "Well, I'll leave first."

"Yeah." Rinquanchuan nodded. "During this time, the male staff will be in charge of the cash register, so there's no need to worry about it."

...Well, I'd better pretend I didn't hear it.

I found the comics I wanted very easily, and when I went to the cashier, I deliberately changed the route to avoid meeting Rinquanchuan again.

As Rinquanchuan said, the cashier was a man, which was really a cause for celebration.

...................

When I got home, it was just time for dinner, so I went to my room upstairs while my parents were setting the table.

"Hey, welcome back." Ye Jin was sitting next to my computer, and a Korean drama dubbed in Mandarin was playing on the screen.

"I remember I set a password, right? How did you crack it?"

I hope nothing bad is seen.

"Hmph~" Ye Jin paused the video with a matter-of-fact expression, "Of course, it's based on your hobbies, personality, and the way you handle things."

"I don't believe it! Did you use some software to crack it?"

"Tsk," Ye Jin said with an impatient look on his face, "Brother, your hobbies and interests are very simple, so it's not difficult to guess your password."

Well, let’s not delve into it.

"Let's not talk about this for now. It's time to eat." I said as I casually placed the bag of books on the table beside me.

"Eh? What did you buy?" Ye Jin asked as he walked over. "Nothing much, just comics. You don't like reading them anyway." I said and kicked the bag aside.

"Who said that? I still like comics. Give it to me and have a look."

"Yeah... Let's talk about it after dinner."

I said with a guilty conscience.

"Hmm...so suspicious..." Ye Jin stared at me for a while and shook his head. "Well, forget it, let's eat first."

"Huh..." I breathed a sigh of relief.

"I was kidding! Haha!" Ye Jin suddenly rushed towards the bag, then fell on the bed and opened it.

Looking at Ye Jin who was obviously stunned, I walked out of the room silently.

What a joy.

.................

The atmosphere during the meal was awkward. Ye Jin, unlike her usual lively self, acted unusually quiet. Even her parents couldn't help but ask her what was wrong, but she simply lowered her head and said nothing, her face blushing. What a sin.

When my parents asked me what happened, I replied that it might be because I saw something inappropriate for children in a Korean drama, probably something like kissing.

Then Mom and Dad nodded in understanding.